The story begins on a rainy day.
At that time, his name was not Lin Yan, but Duan Ze, the only son of the Ming family. He was born with a clean and handsome skin. His parents loved him very much, so he had a naughty personality who was not afraid of anyone since he was a child. My son, who knows a few words, has read two idle books, and the teachers he invited were angered by his partner and left one after another. When he was eleven years old, his father was lighting a lamp late at night to read the account book. He looked up and saw him standing at the door. Said that he didn't want to study with his husband anymore, his father thought about it and said, what's the use of studying for a businessman, let's learn business.
Scholars, farmers, businessmen, last in the business row, making money every day, rice rotten in old warehouses, but still nodding and bowing when seeing the county magistrate, and sending rice and noodles to poor talents in the county during the New Year holidays, even the decoration of the home cannot be arranged randomly, only the cook Still on the table.
Duan Ze studied accounting for two years, one day he got up and went to play in his own school, and was ridiculed by his cousins, who said he was a profit-seeking salesman, what did he do in the school, know a few numbers and look at the account books, and in the future he will be a salesman for the rest of his life shopkeeper.
Duan Ze stood helplessly wringing his hands, watching the school commotion, pages flying and falling on him, a flock of white pigeons flapping their wings, classics and history collections, splendid articles. It was the first time he knew that people were divided into ranks. He ran home in three steps and two steps at a time. He heard a news that the elder sister whom his father married in the early years died of her husband. Her husband's family name was Xiao. Unexpectedly, he had no relatives to rely on, so he took his son and defected to the Duan family in Jinyang.
It was raining heavily that day, and it was getting late. Under the night, the high walls and black tiles reflected a dark blue gleam. At the corner gate, a group of people filed in, each carrying a round silk red lantern, small and hazy, like wild and eager hearts in the dark rainy night.
Hearing the sound, Duan Ze went downstairs, his little boots thumped the stairs, a charcoal basin was lit in the side hall, and he saw a young man in white with clear eyes, simple and decent, greeting his father. Hearing the sound, he looked up upstairs and saw a thin child hiding behind the banister with his eyes wide open, so he smiled at him.
The sunshine in March is not as warm as his smile. There is only one encounter like this in a lifetime, like candles are lit in a shabby house, gardenias are blooming in the courtyard, and every brick and tile of the old house can’t match him. For the first time, Duan Ze feels that he is with him The son's father, who was talking and laughing, behaved vulgarly, and he himself froze on the stairs, not knowing where to move his hands and feet.
It's a pity that I haven't changed into the newly added good clothes with group patterns.
The young master called him downstairs, patted his head, and said that I am your cousin, named Xiao Yu, five years older than you, how about teaching you to read from today
The charcoal fire in the basin is booming, and he has a fresh saponin smell on his body. Duan Zeyi is smoked with submerged water from Lingnan, which can cure dizziness and relieve pain. Compared with him, he feels that he is not as good as a market fish The place is clean.
Duan Ze nodded, Xiao Yu saw that the adult was busy, and wandered around the hall holding his hand, pointing to the ancient paintings on the wall, saying that this one was by Zhan Ziqian, that one was by Han Huang, and Zhang Xuan, Wu Daozi, Zhang Zeduan, and Duan Ze said in a daze that you know everything, and you also understand the big carp New Year pictures on the street
Xiao Yu smiled again, leaned over and said he didn't understand, but I can learn, and you should learn from me if you don't understand.
Duan Ze tilted his head and asked, do you know how to fight crickets? Can play money? Can make clay figurines? Xiao Yu got stuck, Duan Ze bit his lip, and said that you are just like those cousins in the school, you are a bit of a sour scholar, I don't take the exam for merit, I just learn to read the ledger. Xiao Yu was happy, and he answered who told you that you need to study for fame and fame, and businessmen should read more. Reading to know the reason and ambition, and having the world in mind, this is the foundation of being a human being. To be a human being, one must first learn to be a human being before establishing a career. In business, one must understand benevolence, trust and righteousness , There was once a man named Zhuangzi who said that there was a kind of fish called the kun in Beiming, and the kun was so big that it was thousands of miles away...
Duan Ze listened carefully, the rain outside was pattering, there was a pond in the atrium, the residual lotus in the rain turned up fine waves, and when the evening wind blew into Han and Tang Dynasties, every word was like a poem.
The eighteen-year-old Jin Yilang said his name was Xiao Yu.
A few days later, everyone in the Duan family knew that the new brother was selected as a scholar when he was fourteen years old. When he saw the county magistrate, he was not required to pay homage to the county magistrate, and he was not required to accept corvee. There is also light.
The servants tidied up the long-abandoned study room, and entered the door with a large case, two black lacquered chairs against the wall, a rosewood square table in the middle, and a celadon vase filled with scrolls, and a red sandalwood shelf. The book, Cheng Zhu Neo Confucianism, preserves the principles of heaven and destroys human desires. The vermilion window lattices were faded by the sun, the two sat at their desks, Duan Ze worked hard to practice his dog crawling characters, Xiao Yu held a book, and when he read something interesting, he stopped and explained it to him in detail.
The autumn rain is getting cooler, the winter snow is covered, the spring thunder is startled, and the summer lotus is blooming. It is another year.
After all, my aunt was seriously ill due to many years of hard work in the Xiao family, and she went there after the beginning of autumn. No gentleman could stand this naughty little son, Ze leaned on the door frame to listen when the two were talking, seeing Xiao Yu insisted on leaving, he burst into tears, the whole family panicked, from the old lady to the servant boy They all stopped Xiao Yu, Young Master Xiao looked at the situation, but he couldn't do it after all, so he stayed at Duan's house and continued to teach Duan Ze homework.
That year, Duan Ze was fourteen, love first started, Xiao Yu was reading, he secretly watched from the side, had a dream at night, when he woke up, his face was flushed with embarrassment, and he dared not let people clean up his pants.
The master of the Duan family gave birth to Duan Ze in his fifties, and his son was already exhausted at the age of fifteen, so he gave half of the housework to Duan Ze to take care of, and let his son learn to go out to look after the shop, recognize the business name, and even sell a bottle of sesame oil. He checks it out himself. Duan Ze was thrown into a thriving silk and satin factory to practice as a clerk. He saw all the faces of the customers, and didn't care about reading. Whenever he had time, he sneaked out to gamble and drink with a group of gangsters he made friends with when he was young. After being reprimanded, he followed home in disgrace, but he felt like he had a lump of sugar in his heart.
After all, he cared about himself.
At the age of sixteen, the business started, and he was no longer overwhelmed. He stayed in the study in his spare time, playing the piano quietly while Duan Ze listened quietly. He was vigorous and resolute outside, scolding his buddies for haggling, and buying the big shopkeeper of the opponent. His smile was like the sunshine in March, and his whole body was warmed up just by looking at it.
Slowly began to no longer be satisfied with sitting opposite each other, couldn't help but fantasize about his body under the plain clothes, what it would be like if the hand playing the piano touched his chest, wishing to become a book in his hand. Xiao Yu wrote Su Shi's Jiangchengzi, a lonely grave thousands of miles away, no place to talk about desolation, Duan Ze looked at his handsome face and the few strands of hair hanging down in front of his forehead, and felt the pain in that shameful place on his body, While there was no one around, he mustered up the courage to stroke his waist, Xiao Yu was startled, and suddenly avoided him.
Duan Ze is used to standing at the counter and running around the goods, he can speak all kinds of dirty village language, put on a hippie smiley face, he got more and more tired, asked him if he wanted a woman, Xiao Yu changed his face, threw his pen on the table, During the period of anger and filial piety, Ze'er should not listen to these swear words. Duan Ze felt pain in his heart. He pretended to be indifferent and gave him a blank look. What are you pretending? A farmer wants to marry a wife and have a boy.
"I'll take you out for a walk some other day. I got sick from being bored at home every day. The Huahong restaurant on the street has added a few stunning girls." Duan Ze smiled slyly, "There are also child molesting, the one with the soft waist, the one with the soft waist White thighs, do you know where they touched them? Here... and here... Brother Yu, have you tried it? It's hot and tight, and it tastes so good... "
He took Xiao Yu's hand and moved it between his legs, stroking the painful object through his clothes, Xiao Yu's face was as cold as ice, his eyes were ascetic and clear, he examined Duan Ze, and saw through his tricks .
Duan Ze didn't dare to move anymore, he was startled to feel that he had neglected him so much in a momentary gaffe, he was so frightened that he didn't even dare to snort.
Xiao Yu let out a cold snort and walked away, Duan Ze picked him up and dropped the pen, staring blankly at his back.
At the age of seventeen, the tea roads were smooth, the border salt and military ration businesses were profitable, the Duan family became rich day by day, and even the good tea as a tribute could be collected, the emperor did not drink Yangxian tea, the herbs did not dare to bloom first, and the green snails were fragrant. Eruption, called Scary Sharen Incense. In March of Yangchun, Duan Ze ordered a cup of good tea according to the ancient method of the Song Dynasty. The tea powder was white, the bottom of the bowl was pitch black, and the soup was clear. flushed.
Xiao Yu's hand froze in the air, he took it back, and told him to put it aside and drink it later.
Putting the book aside for a long time, I told Duan Ze that my three-year filial piety period had expired and it was time to prepare for the next township examination. I moved out of Duan's house recently. After all, we are not brothers of the same clan, so it doesn't make sense to always live in the same place.
Duan Ze reacted and was eager to argue, saying that the pens, inks and books at home are all of the best quality, and the Duan family’s rice is rotten and old, and there is no shortage of money to support him. You go out and live hard. If you delay the scientific examination for your livelihood, wouldn’t you be ashamed? Ancestors
Xiao Yu finally stayed, and Duan Ze also understood what he meant, so he didn't dare to be presumptuous anymore. Thinking of him so hard, unable to speak, ran to the study in the middle of the night, sat on the chair he had sat on and called his name to blaspheme himself, when he was emotional, someone suddenly lit a candle, Xiao Yu stared at him blankly at the door , the two looked at each other in embarrassment, Duan Ze got his own white turbidity on his hands, put on his belt in embarrassment, and ran away like a mouse crossing the street.
After that, it stopped for a while, but Duan Ze was a runner after all, he was used to being drunk and sensual, and soon his old illness relapsed, and he sat and read with Xiao Yu, slowly leaned towards him, touched his thigh, Before Xiao Yu could react, he moved to sit on his lap, raised his head and kissed the slightly pursed thin lips, Xiao Yu was stunned for a long time, and he didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, but he let Duan Ze's tongue go through the gap between his teeth. , anxiously licking the grindstone in his mouth, and when he came back to his senses, he pushed him away fiercely, threw his hands and dropped the inkstone, and ink dripped all over Duan Ze.
"Xiao Yu is not a pig or a dog, so I won't do this lowly deed with you! Even though you and I are cousins, if you insist on doing this, don't blame Xiao Yu for not being brotherly!"
Having said that, my heart was pounding, thinking of Duan Ze's soft lips, I was dazed for a moment, wanting to continue that unfinished kiss.
The person in front of him was frustrated with his self-esteem, so he vented all his fierceness in the market, tore up Zhu Zi's admonition, and shouted at him: "I know you don't look down on us businessmen, why are you pretending to be lofty, you eat the Duan family and drink the Duan family, Take a look for yourself, which one on your body is not from the hands of a pariah like me, I just want to make fun of you, who can say no?"
The two are like irritated leopards, staring at each other. Duan Ze has been spoiled since he was a child, and he was rejected again and again in Xiao Yu's place. In a moment of presumptuousness, he swept the books on the table to the ground and tore them to his heart's content. , the snowflake-like pages of the book are eloquent: "I don't like reading at all. It's been four years. I spent four years just to make you happy, but you treat me like this! You scholars are amazing. You go out to buy rice and noodles!"
"Okay, okay..." Xiao Yu took a step back, and Wen Wen's expression changed for the first time, "Even if Xiao Yu starved to death on the street, he wouldn't want a penny from the Duan family. Our brotherhood is over. From now on, Xiao Yu Yu's death or disability has nothing to do with the Duan family!"
After saying that, he turned around and left. Duan Ze was so frightened that he ran up to him and hugged him from behind, and hurriedly argued: "Brother Yu, brother, I'm talking nonsense, don't take it seriously, I was angry with a customer in the store today, and I don't know why I can't hold back my temper... My aunt entrusted me before she died, that the Xiao family must produce a successor, if you want to leave, won't you put me in a place of injustice?!"
"Xiao Lang doesn't like me, Ze'er will definitely keep you far in the future, and don't let Xiao Lang worry anymore." I couldn't help but put my face on his back nostalgicly, "I voluntarily funded the money, and the Duan family has paid for it for generations. Shang, that is, you can still know a few words while I'm dragging you, if a scholar can come out of this door, it will also be a bright spot for the Duan family."
Xiao Yu turned around, and the two looked at each other for a long time, finally heaved a long sigh, and touched his face: "I know what you're thinking, but I can't, Xiao Yu can't do anything with his brother, Ze'er, If this matter gets out, you will become the laughing stock of your neighbors, you are still young, you don't know how powerful it is, be obedient, don't be self-willed."
"If I'm not self-willed, I thought about it four years ago?"
"The right way is to have a man and a woman get along with each other, not to mention there are three kinds of unfilial piety, and having no offspring is the greatest." Xiao Yu resolutely said.
Duan Ze said anxiously: "You can marry a wife and take concubines, I don't care, as long as you give me some, we can keep others from knowing..."
Xiao Yu shook his head: "I care, if one day Xiao Yu finds someone he loves, he will only be interested in her for the rest of his life, and he will never leave her. Concubine or licentious things, Ze'er, if you don't understand the word love, don't talk about it."
He hardened his heart, took a stack of books from the shelf, and picked them out word by word: "I don't read "Mencius" today, but only review what I wrote."
Volumes of books, black and white, shocking.
"Three aunts and six wives are real go-betweens for adultery and robbers; maids and concubines are charming, not the blessings of the boudoir, children and servants should not be handsome, wives and concubines should not use colorful makeup."
"Those who turn humans into things, destroy the principles of heaven and impoverish people's desires, so they have a rebellious and deceitful heart, and commit adultery and chaos."
"People's hearts are selfish, so they are in danger. Dao is in the heart of heaven, so it is subtle. When selfish desires are eliminated, the laws of heaven are clear."
In an era of oppression, love is a crime, and desire is even more a crime. The paper is full of sage's words and scare words, and people's hearts are squeezed into a corner. A pen was handed over to Duan Ze: "Ze'er, you said you were in love with depression, so let me ask you, what did I say when we first met?"
Duan Ze lowered his head, and said in a low voice: "Reading to know the reason and clear the mind, and having the world in mind, this is the foundation of being a human being. In the world, one must first learn to be a human being before establishing a career...Ze'er remembers it all, and he will never forget it."
"Reading without understanding, ruining the books of sages and sages." Xiao Yu said, "Do you still remember how to write the words 'self-denial and restoration of rituals'? Don't do anything else today, just tick me off these, and copy a hundred of "Zhu Zi's Family Instructions" If you can’t read it over and over again, you are not allowed to go out.”
We have been together day and night for four years, and it was empty in one day, and we took an extra step, but we couldn't go back to the original point no matter what.
Even playing the qin alone, reading a book alone, looking up and smiling at each other occasionally, the quiet and peaceful time in the past is incredible.