Duan Ze started to spend the night in the shop. At dawn, he patrolled the business in a sedan chair. He was so busy that he didn't even have time to watch the theater. It wasn't that he didn't miss that person at home, but rather than thinking about it, he was more afraid, afraid of his frosty eyebrows and eyes. and every harsh word.
The Duan family has a silk and satin shop, a tea shop, a salt road and sorghum plate in the north, a silk road and a tea road in the south, and welcomes customers from all directions to do business all over the world. He, Xiao Yu is actually not rare, he just put it aside casually, when Duan Ze comes home occasionally, seeing more and more curios piled up in the study, everything is brand new, a needle is stuck in his heart, he still adjusts his expression and greets him with a smile .
Only you know the pain of lovesickness.
In order to avoid him, she gradually learned to work with the shop assistants, and after nightfall, she went to the Qinlou Chu Hall to find a young lady, and deliberately picked someone who was somewhat similar to him, obsessively chanting Xiao Yu's name.
When I was eighteen years old, spring came very early, and the spring was like a brocade in March. There was a small stream in the suburbs, and there was a lot of fragrant grass on the bank. The triennial rural examination was approaching. Snacks and good wine are placed under the pavilion, a long table is covered with good rice paper, the ink is Hui ink, Langhao pen, and the water is flowing. three cups.
Gao Hui group of sages, his people are like jade, the most conspicuous one is Xiao Yu, the young man in white is wearing plain clothes, the poplar branches on the bank are not as tall and straight as him, Duan Ze is wearing silver gray silk and satin clothes embroidered with light peach, with a pair of curved eyebrows , soft and charming like a fox, sitting on the grass and peeling a handful of pine nuts, watching him and the scholars having fun from a distance, I don't know why I feel very proud, as if watching my husband's promising future, infinitely satisfied.
Taking a look into the water, in fact, he is also a handsome young man, and even the young lady who is out in spring shows his favor to him.
The silk and bamboo orchestra played leisurely, and Xiao Yu wrote a good handwriting, which was hung up by a thin young man next to him and praised repeatedly.
Duan Ze is a little tasteless, he has been waiting for five years for a handsome man who has not touched him, who dares to get his hands on him first, he is jealous of even saying a word, so he peeled off a handful of pine nuts, put them in a silk veil, Have the courage to walk up to him.
"Hey, isn't this the young head of the gold master Duan's family?" Some of the scholars recognized him.
At that time, old age was outdated, Duan Ze was in charge of the family power alone, he was not thinking about business, he had no achievements, and he could barely get by.
"It's my cousin." Xiao Yu smiled and waved at Duan Ze. Duan Ze stepped forward joyfully. In order to show his priority over him, he carefully unfolded the cloth bag: "I peeled the pine nuts and tasted it. ?”
Xiao Yu didn't answer, turned around and asked everyone if they ate dried fruit or not. Everyone joked, saying that they always thought that a businessman who is only interested in profit must have a hideous face, but he didn't expect to know gentleness. Dressed like this, he looks like a...
"Little Rabbit Master." Someone said calmly, "I heard that the Huahong Pavilion earns a lot of money from the Duan family every month, so the relationship between the popular young lady and the young master of the Duan family is not so good..."
Duan Ze pressed the fire, deliberately picked up a pine nut and brought it to Xiao Yu's mouth, and kissed it affectionately. Duan Ze was no longer a thirteen-year-old naughty boy. Tangle, unreasonable ambiguity. Xiao Yu was still dazed by that sentence, subconsciously stretched out his hand to block it, unexpectedly he used too much strength, the whole bag of pine nuts spilled on the ground, mixed in the soft mud soaked by the spring rain, like a mess of thoughts, unable to distinguish.
"Ah, so many must have been stripped all morning, it's a waste of love for my cousin." The scholar laughed.
Xiao Yu grabbed Duan Ze's wrist: "I will teach you to read books of sages, but you only learn to sleep with men?"
Duan Ze defended feebly: "I didn't delay my family business, I also read the book..."
"If I knew this earlier, I shouldn't have cared about you at the time, and let you settle accounts and be a snobbery, and you deserved this fate!" Angry for no reason, so angry that he wanted to teach him a lesson, and he didn't want to poke a paragraph. Seeing Ze's sore spot, the young man in brocade clothes blushed, and shook off his hand: "I am willing to hold an actor and raise a young lady. I can afford the money, so why do you care?"
Parted badly.
After a stalemate lasted for more than half a month, no one spoke to anyone, the head of the Huahong Pavilion came to find Duan Ze in a sedan chair, he was studying with Xiao Yu in the study, and brought a bird's nest, when he heard the movement outside the door, he glanced at Xiao Yu , Seeing that he was expressionless, he sighed and ran out.
Another day, a new nest of swallows was built under the eaves, a fine rain and mist hit, the swallows flew obliquely, passed through the lonely high wall and flew to the bottom of the lang, Xiao Yu brought a little maid to catch them, the two laughed and talked Yan Yan, Duan Ze heard the voice, stood watching from a distance, his fingernails were bleeding from his palm, and he didn't dare to take a step forward.
Can't be far, can't be near, can't wait for love, broke a heart.
That year, Xiao Yuzhong raised people to explain Yuan, and it spread throughout Jinyang County. The matchmakers broke through the threshold all at once. The girl is virtuous, diligent and thrifty, and the matchmaker came and went in and out of Duan's house like water, Xiao Yu said that there was no one in Xiao's house, and that they would talk about marriage after the exam next year and become an official.
That night, Duan Ze got himself very drunk, tossed and turned on the rosewood canopy bed in the bedroom, calling Xiao Yu's name all the time, the little girl cried anxiously, Duan Ze drove the servants out one by one, and couldn't even lie down. To be honest, he fell off the bed, put his face on the edge of the bed, and fell asleep on his knees on the ground.
In the haze, someone was touching his face, that hand was cold and slender, Duan Ze couldn't open his eyes, he just felt the comfort of his cheeks being caressed, he limply gave up resisting, was hugged to the bed, untied his clothes on his chest Touching again and again.
"Ze'er, Xiao Yu, I'm sorry for you. The Xiao family's downfall depends on me alone. I can't kill the Xiao family's descendants, and I can't make the Xiao family a laughing stock and wrong you."
The young man in white was sitting on the edge of the bed, burdened with the burden of morality and traditional shackles, and he gritted his teeth to bear it. He only left Duan Ze to see his proud body, and tidied up in the middle of the night when he was tired.
The bookshelf is full of inhuman Cheng-Zhu Neo-Confucianism, and there is also a volume of "Peony Pavilion" hidden in the middle. In the early years, he looked at Duan Ze gently and said that reading must not let other people's thoughts confine him. Death, death can lead to life, Duan Ze opened his eyes wide and asked him what is love? Xiao Yu said, you will know when you grow up.
The drunken Duan Ze couldn't hear people's voices, his saliva was dripping down when he was asleep, and he called Xiao Lang twice in a daze. , if there is an afterlife, I will definitely repay you all that I owe you in this life. Ze'er is my last relative, a student brought out by me, and my only love... "
Xiao Yu left quietly, Duan Ze slept deeply, a lake-colored curtain in front of the bed concealed the tenderness behind him.
In a blink of an eye, the peach blossoms bloomed in the second year, and Duan Ze was nineteen years old.
Xiao Yu was selected to go to Beijing for the provincial test as Xie Yuan. Duan Ze prepared the chariots, horses and sedan chairs with his own hands, and brought boxes after boxes of money. He was afraid that he would be wronged on the way. Xiao Lang must take care of his health, and don't forget to send letters back from time to time. Xiao Yu responded indifferently, straddled the horse and left, his white clothes fluttered in the wind, and the horse's hooves raised a trail of smoke and dust.
Duan Ze watched obsessively outside the city, and stood until dark, reluctant to leave.
In six years, Xiao Yu left home for the first time, and only then did he know what it feels like to miss him. The study room is empty, there is no one at home, business can't be done, and books don't want to read. Duan Ze sits by the window in a daze, and the sun comes up again. Falling down, the huge old house is as quiet as a tomb, and I can only count my fingers to endure the days. The green bricks from the door of the study to the door of Duan’s house are 1,940 yuan, and the lotus pond at home has opened 216 flowers. Bai He, I saw twenty-one paper kites rising outside the wall yesterday, including centipedes, dragonflies, butterflies, beauties...
He couldn't even acquaint himself with the young man who was acquainted with him, and all he was looking forward to was the young man in white with handsome features and aloof personality.
Duan Ze didn't expect that his waiting would start from here, and it would be far longer than he imagined. Xiao Yu left, came again, and walked again. He only kept the similar movements and sat in the halo of dusk. Waiting for a lifetime .
When the Duan family entered the big courtyard five times, it was empty and silent. Everything was symmetrical, majestic, well-regulated, heavily guarded, with black lacquer carvings and pillars. Most of those rooms are empty, with two silk lanterns hanging, which are dimly lit at night, and there is no human voice in the surroundings, and the loneliness makes people panic.
Bunches of light blue morning light leaked through the window lattice. Duan Ze sat alone in front of the desk with a pen in his hand, waiting for the tears to flow down. Growing up lonely in the courtyard, there were no playmates of the same age, no laughter, no kites and balls. During the Mid-Autumn Festival, there were pots of crab claw chrysanthemums in the courtyard. Standing on the green brick floor and looking up at the moon, he only felt his youth Like a pour of water, it is lost year after year on the stone road.
Xiao Yu was a ray of sunshine in his life, the longer he was away, the clearer his image became, he even became an impression, that March spring-like smile and gentleness represented all the good things in life, Duan Zeguan Close his eyes, remembering Xiao Yu explaining to himself the difference between the ancient paintings on the four walls and the carp New Year paintings in the side hall, now he finally understands Zhang Zeduan and Zhan Ziqian, but that person is getting further and further away.
Half a year later, Xiao Yu returned as scheduled, and he returned in fine clothes, the eighteenth in the second class, and was awarded Jinshi's background. Firecrackers rang from outside the county town to the gate of Duan's house. One hundred and sixty-two people passed by the street in front of him, and he finally saw Xiao Lang, whom he missed day and night, riding a tall horse and wearing a red dress, but a small sedan chair followed behind him, the curtain was lifted, revealing a beautiful woman She said a blessing to Duan Ze, and blushed when she raised her head.
Xiao Yu said, I'm going to marry a wife, and you're already in your prime. While your aunt is still alive, choose a good girl, don't be like me, a fluffy person can only rush through marriage.
Duan Ze's smile froze on his face, he took a step back and was struck by thunder.
That girl's boudoir name is Rujin, she is seventeen years old, her family background is not good, and she is not considered beautiful. Duan Ze doesn't know what Xiao Yu likes in her, and he dare not ask, she is a girl, only this one is better than him Thousands of times.
"Okay." Duan Ze said, "I will arrange the wedding for you, it must be lively..."
"No need." Xiao Yu avoided his sight, "The official position in Beijing has been released, so I can use my own salary. I rescued her in the capital, and she doesn't covet me for anything."
"I'm leaving. After the wedding is over, I will return to the capital to take up my post. This time I come back to offer incense to the ancestors of the Duan family. I will never forget the blessings I have given you over the years."
Duan Ze couldn't bear it anymore: "Am I greedy for you? I have been waiting for you for seven years, and I have been with you day and night for seven years. I can't compare to her, a passerby who met by chance. Have you checked her birthplace? Who knows which bitch, who knows She has taken over several benefactors... "
"Ze'er." Xiao Yu interrupted him, "Enough."
Duan Ze's face was ashen, he stared at him blankly, and said intermittently: "She doesn't understand, she doesn't know how good you are, and you don't know how good you are, I don't want to touch you, I've been watching him for so many years , just give it to someone else..."
"I have nothing left..." Duan Ze suddenly laughed, "I have the Duan family, I have this big house, countless money warehouses and rice warehouses, what's the use, what's the use?!"
In a blink of an eye, the wedding date has come, everywhere is wrapped in red cloth, beaming with joy, a row of lanterns written in gold clay hangs under the eaves, Duan Ze's elderly mother touches Xiao Yu's face and tears, saying that it really is not in vain to waste the generations of scholars of the Xiao family, Now marrying a bride again, marrying a daughter does not care about family affairs, it is better to be virtuous. It's time for your parents to rest in peace, and when you're done in the capital, don't forget to come back and rebuild the ancestral hall of your Xiao family, and bring your new children and daughters to make the family lively.
Xiao Yu said yes, men can't go to the battlefield, they should cultivate themselves, govern the family, rule the country and the world, and when they are admitted to the imperial examination today, they must be considerate of the people of the world and be a good official who works for the people.
Duan Ze's figure is hidden in the shadows, his internal organs are twisted into a ball, he only reached the capital at the age of twenty-five, and he won a Jinshi with a bright future. What? What was there for him to take another look at
He staggered and wanted to go out, but his mother heard his voice, beckoned him to come, and stood side by side with Xiao Yu, her mother's hand like a dead tree touched his cheek, looking at the two boys who had just grown up in front of them. , smiled and said that although you have different surnames, you grew up together. In the future, one of you will be a businessman, and the other will be an upright official. You must take care of each other and benefit the people of the world.
On the inside of Duan Ze's cuff, a brilliant spring peach was planted, and when he fled away, the flowers were scorching, and his son returned home, suitable for his family. No one knows that the ancestral hall is so tall and vast that there is no room for a volume of "The Peony Pavilion".
Xiao Yu agreed with a sob.
On September 15th, yellow chrysanthemums bloomed, a pair of dragon and phoenix candles were lit, the bride dressed up in various ways, and got into the sedan chair. Xiao Yu was dressed in red, with a satin flower on his chest, and stood at the door smiling to welcome guests. Trees weeping willows, a stalk of green bamboo, tuning the plain qin, reading the golden scriptures, talking and laughing with great Confucianism, no white people in communication...
Duan Ze came to congratulate him, brought two altars of good wine, smelled of alcohol all over his body, staggered and fell into the threshold, everyone was shocked, Xiao Yu came to pull him, said rude to everyone, and carried him into the bedroom . Duan Ze cried and cried, scolded and shouted, tore Xiao Yu's good clothes, and finally slapped him hard, leaving five bright red finger marks.
Xiao Yu didn't blame him, took off his shoes and coat for him, asked the servant girl to cook kudzu root hangover soup, and took good care of the rambunctious boy. Duan Ze had cried enough, gritted his teeth when he saw him dressed in red, and asked if you really fell in love with her, Xiao Yu only answered indifferently, and replied that everything is fate, I saw her living in the market as a maid in the capital Poor, I probably just want to take care of her. As for the word love, Xiao Yu has no destiny in this life, even so, he must stick to it. She is the only one, not taking concubines, not marrying another, this is the man's responsibility.
Duan Ze laughed and said that you are a coward, you want to love but dare not love, want to leave but dare not leave, you are not as good as a mercenary salesman like me, at least I dare to admit, dare you say that you have no such heart
When they arrived outside when they were shouting good luck, Xiao Yu walked out without saying a word.
It was such a long night, the gloomy bedroom was lit with red lanterns and filled with red candles, everyone made a new house, and did not leave until midnight, only the bride and groom were left sitting side by side on the bed, covered with quilts. Jujubes, longan, and raisins, implying the birth of a precious son early, many children and grandchildren, maybe they undressed...
There was a bathtub in Duan Ze’s room, sprinkled with flower petals, he retreated from the servant, and soaked in hot water alone, waiting for seven years to be empty, all hope was lost, tears fell rapidly, and he punched the wooden barrel, The emptiness can't be added, thinking about the groom's appearance... Maybe he took off the red clothes, he is so abstinent, and his every move is in line with poetry and etiquette. Maybe there is a place to vent, maybe he is crazy with that woman, Luan falls into phoenix, with two crescent moons on her shoulders, the kiss is as gluey as paint...
The clearer it is, the more unrestrained, in that era when even lust is graceful, maybe he is pushing hard into that hidden hole, his forehead is stained with sweat, twitching, possessing, and kissing her forehead when he is done, the next day he sees a shy girl My little daughter-in-law, serve tea to the family one by one...
A picture of the erotic palace in his mind, vivid and fragrant, was cut on Duan Ze's heart.
For no reason, he soaked in hot water and stretched out his hand towards himself. The water flow in the tub twitched rhythmically, and he yelled in a low voice: "Xiao Lang, Xiao Lang, you want me, I will do whatever you want, you If you like it heavier or lighter, we can do it in the study... Xiao Lang... "
The whole person gritted his teeth, wishing to break free from the shackles of desire, burning with desire, but sinking deeper, the joy that was falling down was like loneliness, a gray net of despair wrapped him tightly, he woke up faintly, his body was full of heat. Khan, the only one who hugged me tightly was myself.
The night was too long, the courtyard was full of red lanterns, and there was no ray of dawn. He was exhausted, so he put on a thin coat and went for a walk in the courtyard. .
Xiao Yu was in a mess of drunkenness, leaning on the pillar staggeringly, saw Duan Ze walking towards him, couldn't say a word, just stared blankly, panting like a dehydrated fish.
Duan Ze's complexion changed, his lips moved a few times, and he vaguely wanted to say if the groom had gone the wrong way, but before he could ask, Xiao Yu hugged him tightly in his arms, kneaded him repeatedly, and kissed him in haste The cheeks, the neck, the chest, the clothes were scattered, revealing a piece of chest, before dawn, they hugged each other in the yard, and touched the shady place vigorously.
"Ze'er, I want you, I want you, you are not allowed to give it to others, you belong to me, Xiao Yu alone..." He murmured, Duan Ze put his arms around his neck vigorously, and said yes, give it all You, as many times as you want, I am willing, but Xiao Yu suddenly pushed him away heavily, covered his forehead with one hand, struggled to look at him, fastened his belt for a while, turned around and left.
Duan Ze rushed up to hug him, Xiao Yu raised his head, turned his face back, and said softly: "Xiao Yu didn't give her his heart, he betrayed her, he couldn't promise you a future, if he provoked you, he betrayed you, today's failure Yi, Ze'er forgive me."
Looking back at him sadly: "You have grown up, you are also twenty years old, the little character Yihan, I should call you Yihan."
Duan Ze froze in place, and shouted at Xiao Yu's back: "Xiao Lang is really cold-hearted, okay, since you have no destiny in this life, I curse you to meet such a person in the next life, you can't ask for it, you can't touch it, you can't leave it, Give him your heart, let him throw it on the ground and step on it fiercely, seven years, seventy years, a hundred years, a thousand years, I really wish you would be crushed under that mountain and never be reborn forever, let you try this too!"
Xiao Yu's back stopped for a while, and Duan Ze suddenly regretted it again. He lowered his head and murmured: "What if I wait for you? If one day, you despise her, or she gets old and dies, in a few decades , when you are alone, would you like me?"
Xiao Yu nodded lightly, but Duan Ze saw it.