Chen Yuchuan's mouth was covered by Lu Yang, and he could only make a humming nasal sound like a small animal, and Lu Yang's breathing was amplified infinitely.
Chen Yuchuan moved his neck, but Lu Yang didn't let go. Chen Yuchuan grabbed Lu Yang's wrist and shook it with the hand that was holding the table top.
In the past, Lu Yang always liked to cover his mouth, usually when he made Lu Yang angry, or when he was in bed.
Chen Yuchuan also had a trick. Every time he stretched out his tongue, Lu Yang would immediately let go of his hand. This time it was the same. Chen Yuchuan stretched out his tongue and licked the tip of his tongue in Lu Yang's palm.
Lu Yang's hand covering Chen Yuchuan suddenly loosened, but he did not let go of him completely.
Chen Yuchuan took a few deep breaths, although Lu Yang just covered his mouth just now, but Chen Yuchuan felt that his breath was about to be cut off at that moment, his eyes were black, and his chest was covered with a layer of black.
"Brother Yang, even if I'm not hard, it won't affect you," Chen Yuchuan said with a laugh, not too out of tune, he wanted to avoid this topic, and said, "You want to know that Hua Song and I just now Did you say anything?"
Chen Yuchuan asked himself and answered, "He said he would hold a private concert next week and invited me to attend. Brother Yang, do you want me to go?"
As soon as Chen Yuchuan finished speaking, he heard the sound of breathing close to his ear a little heavier, and a sense of pressure rose on his neck, but it soon loosened.
Another drop of water fell from the top of his head and fell on Chen Yuchuan's forehead. He guessed that it should be the drop of water on Lu Yang's hair, or maybe it was sweat, because he was sweating all over himself, and his shirt was soaked.
He patted Lu Yang's arm on his neck and said, "Brother Yang, don't be so hard, are you trying to strangle me? If you strangle me, I will definitely not be able to go."
"You dare? You dare to try one."
"I didn't agree to go," Chen Yuchuan smiled, "I told him, if you dare to attack me, Lu Yang will definitely beat you, Brother Yang, will you beat him?"
Lu Yang didn't speak, and Chen Yuchuan continued to ask: "Brother Yang, did you divorce me because I didn't respond to you after taking off your clothes? You can wear clothes all the time, it's not like we haven't tried it before. But you didn't try that much later, always taking off your clothes..."
"Chen Yuchuan, do you think that's why I want to divorce you?" Lu Yang's strength seemed to be used to hold Chen Yuchuan, his voice sounded fierce, but it was easy to tell Exhausted.
Chen Yuchuan didn't speak, he knew that he couldn't escape today.
After Lu Yang took a shower, it seemed that the shower was not closed tightly, and it kept dripping water.
Lu Yang's hand holding Chen Yuchuan's arm loosened a little, and Chen Yuchuan didn't struggle any more, his back was still pressed against Lu Yang's hot, heartbeat with the same frequency as his.
"Brother Yang, do you still love me a lot?" Chen Yuchuan rubbed his chin on Lu Yang's arm, "If you still love me, we can remarry, right?"
After Chen Yuchuan finished speaking, he laughed, and finally burst into tears.
"Remarriage? Chen Yuchuan, it's been so long, you didn't dare to look at it, and you didn't dare to touch it, but now you want to tell me about remarriage?" Lu Yang was still standing behind Chen Yuchuan, hugging him, not planning to let go Kai, "Didn't I just block it for you? Are you afraid of this?"
Chen Yuchuan coughed twice and said with a smile, "Brother Yang, I'm afraid, I'm very, very afraid. I don't dare to think about it. It hurts when I think about it. I said before, don't stop me."
"You've talked a lot," Lu Yang interrupted him, "Do you want me to count it for you?"
"You said, if you don't try, just talk seriously."
"You said you wouldn't let go if you died..."
Before Lu Yang could finish his words, the bathroom light suddenly turned on, and the originally dark space suddenly became bright. The two of them had already adapted to the darkness, and they were suddenly squinted by the light.
Lu Yang quickly adapted to the light and opened his eyes first, his red eyes and unsteady breathing were reflected in the mirror, but Chen Yuchuan's eyes were still closed.
Lu Yang spread his palms, dragging Chen Yuchuan's chin with his mouth, forced him to raise his head and look in the mirror, still sticking to his ear and said, "Xiaochuaner, don't you want to remarry? You want to remarry, but you don't dare. Open your eyes, right?"
"Brother Yang..." Chen Yuchuan's eyelashes trembled a few times, and he slowly lifted his eyelids. The redness in Chen Yuchuan's eyes in the mirror was more and deeper than that of Lu Yang.
Lu Yang dragged his chin and made Chen Yuchuan face the mirror, "Xiao Chuaner, in those six months, have you never looked in the mirror to see what you are like? Every day you see me, try hard Pull out that smile, but the gray in your eyes can't stop it, you just said you want to remarry, have you thought about what happens after remarriage?"
Chen Yuchuan shook his head, and the sweat on his body broke out layer after layer. When he shook his head, a few drops of the cold sweat from his hair fell off from him.
Lu Yang continued: "You didn't think about it, I thought about it, I'll tell you."
"Every time I came back from get off work, you always hid alone on the balcony of the second bedroom and smoked, and when you saw my car parked from upstairs, you waved your arms hard to fan the smoke away, and then closed the window. , then ran into the bathroom to take a shower, brushed his teeth, and changed his clothes that smelled of smoke."
"In the past, you were so fond of staying in bed, you woke up earlier than me every day, and the breakfast was always hot. People who don't even know how to cut potatoes usually learned how to make soup with others, and even learned to knit sweaters. You can really do it. Ah Chen Yuchuan, I really didn't know you were so capable before."
"When you see me and Ye Guanghe having dinner, you can hold back a word without asking or mentioning it."
"You never told me about insomnia, you couldn't sleep all night, you secretly went to the doctor to prescribe sleeping pills, but told me it was vitamins."
"I took off my clothes, and you just wanted to hide from me. As soon as I hugged you, you said you were tired. In fact, you couldn't be hard on me."
"Every time I want to talk to you, you always run away."
"I said I would take you to see a psychiatrist, and I went with you. As a result, I changed four doctors in a month. You cheated every time. In the end, you didn't say anything. You said you were fine, and you were fine... "
Lu Yang paused when he said this, "Chen Yuchuan, you're fine, you're fine, just because you want to run away and back down again..."
Chen Yuchuan's tongue was a little bitter, he wanted to say something, just say something to interrupt Lu Yang's words, but in the end he didn't say anything except moving his bitter tongue.
Seeing that he did not refute, Lu Yang continued: "Chen Yuchuan, you are not afraid to drive through the tunnel when you are alone, but you are afraid when you are with me, you are only afraid of me, Chen Yuchuan, you are a coward. You are not afraid of anything, you just want to let go, if you want to let go, then I will let you go..."
"Brother Yang, I didn't want to let go..." Chen Yuchuan retorted in a low voice, the sound was smaller than the sound. When he finished speaking, he knew that this sentence was quite unconvincing, and he didn't believe it himself.
"Don't you want to let go?" Lu Yang said aggressively, "Chen Yuchuan, ask yourself, have you really thought about it?"
Chen Yuchuan admitted that he thought about it. Before today, he had been very resistant to this idea. It was the idea of divorce that he first came up with. That idea has existed for a long time.
He wanted to run again, he wanted to retreat, and he wanted to be a shriveled turtle again.
He wanted to let go.
"You thought about it, right!" Lu Yang asked again.
Chen Yuchuan in the mirror finally spoke up, "Brother Yang, don't say anything..."
"I just said these few words, you can't stand it anymore, can't you?" Lu Yang hooped Chen Yuchuan forward again, and the two got closer to the mirror again.
The two chaotic breaths were intertwined. Lu Yang's breath was pressing on Chen Yuchuan, and Chen Yuchuan couldn't move.
Lu Yang's bathrobe covered half of his chest, he tore off the strap of the bathrobe, and the front was unraveled. Without the cover of the bathrobe, Chen Yuchuan shivered when his shoulders pressed against Lu Yang's chest, shaking obviously. .
Lu Yang took a half-step to his side, and most of his left chest was exposed in the mirror. He grabbed Chen Yuchuan's hand and raised it, stretched it out toward the mirror, and Chen Yuchuan's hand pulled back forcefully.
"Don't you dare to touch it across the mirror?" Lu Yang's strength was much stronger than Chen Yuchuan's. Chen Yuchuan's fingers were held by Lu Yang and stretched out in front of the mirror little by little.
In the mirror, Lu Yang's skin was full of unwiped water droplets and fine sweat, which glowed coldly under the light.
On Lu Yang's left chest near the heart, there is a round scar with a wide and irregular edge. The scar has only been left for a short time, only half a year, and it is still dark red now.
Chen Yuchuan's fingertips were all white, and there was no blood at all. Lu Yang grabbed his hand and touched the mirror. There was an obvious bulge in the cold mirror. Chen Yuchuan's legs were too soft to stand, so he could only lean against Lu Yang arms.
When his fingers touched Lu Yang's chest in the mirror, he sobbed hard in pain.
Lu Yang was still holding Chen Yuchuan's hand, and rubbed his thumb in his palm, "We haven't talked about that day, and now I'll tell you."
"Brother Yang, stop talking, I know, I know..." Chen Yuchuan wanted to interrupt Lu Yang.
"The tunnel has only two lanes, not too wide. There are walls on both sides. Because of the approval of one of the resort's projects, you offended a leader by saying the wrong thing. I told you a few words. After that, you drink with the group by yourself. I drank several times, but never told me. When I finally got it, you called me when you were drunk, and asked me to pick you up. When you drove back, you slept soundly in the co-pilot, and the truck ran out of control. When I came here, no matter how I turned, I would bump into it. I didn't think much about the steel bar passing through the glass window, I just wanted to protect you..."
Lu Yang held Chen Yuchuan's fingers and stretched them forward, touching his chest through the glass.
"Xiao Chuan'er, do you know what I was thinking at that time? I was thinking that the fool in the passenger seat will not sleep well again..." Lu Yang squeezed Chen Yuchuan's fingers and kept rubbing the cold mirror surface, "At that time I I didn't feel how painful the steel bars were going through the body, but after thinking about it, it really hurts, especially..."
Chen Yuchuan's fingers and wrists were shaking, his chin was on Lu Yang's arm, tears kept rolling down, the figure in the mirror was blurry and clear for a while, he whimpered and said, "Brother Yang, I'm not worth your hard work for me. ."
Lu Yang wiped the tears on Chen Yuchuan's face with his other hand and said, "Then tell me, what is worth it and what is not worth it? You are indeed not worth my hard work, and my hard work is not for you, I'm for myself, sixteen years, because you've been part of my life..."
"Brother Yang..." Chen Yuchuan opened his mouth and took a deep breath, his breathing was louder than his voice, "I've been with you for 16 years, and I only left two scars on your body that I can't wipe off, I'm afraid, I don't dare to look at you, Brother Yang, it hurts, I just think about it..."
"Does it hurt? Since it hurts, do you still want to live the same life for half a year?" Lu Yang asked intermittently, "Since you are afraid, do you still want to remarry me?"
Chen Yuchuan covered his face with his hands, and stopped looking at the mirror, his voice leaked from his fingers, "No more, Brother Yang, no more..."
"Chen Yuchuan, I'll ask you one last time. This time, you'll answer me after you've made up your mind. Do you still want to remarry?"
【Jiulu】
Stimulation is good, divorce is good