Divorced

Chapter 5: I'll be right next to you

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That day, Chen Yuchuan had already made up his mind after talking about peppercorns, and his emotions were all set up. He wanted to sit in a chair for a while to take a breath and talk, but in the end Ye Guanghe couldn't start the topic.

Lu Yang's back was very straight, and he sat opposite him. After he sat down, he looked at him coldly and asked, "Xiao Chuan'er, do you have a great opinion of me after so many years?"

"Yes," Chen Yuchuan said, shaking his hands, "I can't go on."

Lu Yang stared at Chen Yuchuan for half a minute and then slowly said, "Okay, the household registration book and the marriage certificate are in the drawer by the bed."

After he finished speaking, he raised his wrist and looked at his watch, "The Civil Affairs Bureau is going to work at this hour."

Chen Yuchuan was stunned on the spot when he heard it. In fact, it's not that they never broke up before. They broke up so many times that Chen Yuchuan couldn't count them anymore.

But at that moment, a thought suddenly popped into Chen Yuchuan's mind, this time it was different.

In fact, apart from Ye Guanghe, Chen Yuchuan didn't want to admit that there was something wrong between him and Lu Yang for half a year.

They would still hug and sleep together, but they hadn't quarreled for a long time, and they hadn't sat down to eat together for a long time, and chatted peacefully.

He often sees Lu Yang with tired eyes after returning home. His eyes are not only due to exhaustion after high-intensity work, but also a pale sense of powerlessness.

And he won't always bother Lu Yang like he used to. They still care, they care more about each other, and rarely talk about themselves.

They seem to be fine, better than any previous time period.

But Chen Yuchuan knew that nothing was the same as before.

They used to quarrel a lot. Two big men have been together for 16 years, so it's fake not to quarrel.

When they first got together, there was a period of time where they quarreled almost every day. The longest time they didn't contact each other for half a month, and no one was looking for anyone.

Chen Yuchuan didn't go home for half a month. He stayed at a friend's house every day. Later, when he couldn't live any longer, he went home.

He thought that Lu Yang would not be at home at first, but when he opened the door with the key and went in, he saw Lu Yang lying on the sofa at a glance.

Lu Yang put one arm on his forehead, he was still neatly dressed in a suit, his leather shoes were not taken off, and the document bag was placed on the coffee table, looking like he just got home from get off work.

Chen Yuchuan called him, but he didn't hear Lu Yang's response. After approaching, he found that Lu Yang's lips were tightly pursed, and his cheeks were abnormally red.

Chen Yuchuan took away Lu Yang's arm on his forehead and reached out to touch his forehead, which made his palms shrink and his chest tightened.

He was so distressed that he jumped up and bit Lu Yang's arm through his suit jacket, biting so hard that Lu Yang didn't wake up.

Chen Yuchuan sent Lu Yang to the hospital. Lu Yang lay in the hospital for three days. Chen Yuchuan was unshaven and took care of him in the hospital for three days. He was so obedient that he listened to what Lu Yang said.

After that, they stopped for a long time, and they didn't quarrel for about half a year.

But after that time, they still quarreled, but Chen Yuchuan wouldn't go to a friend's house as soon as they quarreled. The quarrel lasted for one night at most, and they still hugged each other when they woke up the next day.

When they really quarreled, everyone mentioned breaking up, Chen Yuchuan said it, and Lu Yang also said it, and most of it was said by Chen Yuchuan.

Every time Chen Yuchuan finished speaking, Lu Yang directly lifted his shoulders, carried his two kicked legs to the bedroom, and then slammed him onto the big bed, just do it once.

Lu Yang also said that they broke up, but most of them were angry with Chen Yuchuan. When Lu Yang said they broke up, Chen Yuchuan scolded people.

Divide you a piece of shit, and divide your grandmother's big pee jar. If I don't leave, you will never get rid of me, and I will stick to you for the rest of my life.

Every time Lu Yang was made to laugh or cry by his swear words in a variety of ways, but in the end he couldn't listen anymore and raised his hand to cover his mouth.

As soon as Lu Yang covered his mouth, Chen Yuchuan stopped cursing, but he stuck out his tongue and licked Lu Yang's palm.

So every time we broke up in the past, it ended in bed.

But just now when Lu Yang said that the Civil Affairs Bureau happened to go to work, Chen Yuchuan looked at the expression on his face, and there was only one thought in his mind—

Lu Yang might not love him anymore.

Maybe still in love, but not as much as before.

That's how people are, he has loved you for 16 years, but as long as one second makes people feel that he doesn't love you anymore, it will make people suspect that the 16 years of love seems to be fake.

Even if he knew it was true, it was useless. At that moment, Chen Yuchuan felt that his legs were empty and he couldn't sit still.

He didn't swear and swear as usual to bring this topic over.

Because he himself thought for a few seconds at that moment, whether it would be better if he was separated from Lu Yang now.

Chen Yuchuan thought that many things may become habits, but only love this dead thing, it is easy to get used to it and it will disappear. It may be gone all of a sudden, or it may be a little bit later. It was consumed and it was finally realized at a certain moment that the thing was gone.

Chen Yuchuan didn't know what he and Lu Yang were like, whether he loved them or not, thinking about them gave him a headache.

Thinking about it later, Chen Yuchuan felt that he was really hypocritical at the time. In order to ask Ye Guanghe, he talked so much.

But he knew that, in fact, he was a little scared, as if he didn't set up some emotions in advance, he was at a loss.

He has no confidence in himself, and he has no confidence in Lu Yang.

Lu Yang didn't take the initiative to mention Ye Guanghe to him, and he didn't take the initiative to tell Lu Yang about his sleep problems, not because Lu Yang was worried, but because he wanted Lu Yang to find out for himself.

He stared at Lu Yang for a long time in front of the plate of Sichuan pepper fish. He thought about it a lot, but it was all messed up.

He and Lu Yang's friends are basically married. After all, they are about the same age as them, in their thirties.

Among their friends, there are many same-sex couples like them, but in the end, they separated and scored points. Even if they were still together, they seemed to be separated.

They always say that after the two are together, they will definitely experience three years of pain and seven years of itch. After they get through it, they will live the same life as their relatives. If they can't survive, they will break up and divorce.

The pain they experienced, as for the itch, Chen Yuchuan didn't know what it was like.

Then again, maybe now.

They also said that only Lu Yang and Chen Yuchuan could not be separated, and they were the last line of defense in this camp.

If they leave, it proves that love doesn't exist at all.

Every time Chen Yuchuan heard them say this, he would always bump Lu Yang with his shoulder and say, "Did you hear? We are the last line of defense, you have to guard it, otherwise love will not exist, let's Together, they are proving the existence of a truth."

At this time, Lu Yang would raise his eyebrows and ask, "Am I alone?"

Chen Yuchuan looked at him and said, "You guard, I'll follow you next to you, and you won't lose it."

But in the end, Lu Yang didn't hold on, and he lost it too.

After Chen Yuchuan came back to his senses, he found that the string of peppers was still on the chopsticks, his fingers shook, and the string of peppers fell on the table.

The two went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get a divorce certificate that day. When they came out, the sun was still hanging high above their heads. The sun was poisonous, and Chen Yuchuan felt that the sun was unnecessary.

Ye Guanghe didn't even ask, the marriage was already divorced.

Chen Yuchuan thought to himself, there is no need to ask again in the future, because it has nothing to do with him.

When they got home, the pepper skewers were still on the table, and the fish on the plate was thrown into the trash can by Chen Yuchuan. When Lu Yang went downstairs, he took the bag of garbage with him.

After Lu Yang left, Chen Yuchuan stared at the watch on the wall and listened to the second hand ticking forward.

Chen Yuchuan looked at it for a long time and felt a little annoyed. Finally, he moved a chair, stood on the chair and took off the watch. After picking it, he took out the battery on the back.

Without the battery, the second hand no longer rattled, Chen Yuchuan felt a lot quieter, and he hung up the watch without the battery again.

Chen Yuchuan remembered that the time was fixed on the wall on October 8th.

After that, he also looked at the calendar, and it was cold dew that day.

Chen Yuchuan lay on the bed and turned over, thinking of the watch in the living room, suddenly opened his eyes, touched the bedside, but couldn't find his mobile phone.

He had already removed the battery inside and outside the watch that day. It was one o'clock in the afternoon, and it was also one o'clock when he drove Lu Yang away.

So, what time is the fuck

Chen Yuchuan got out of bed, found his mobile phone in his trouser pocket that was still scattered on the floor in the living room, and turned on the screen to take a look.

Shit, it's almost four o'clock.

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