…
All was quiet.
The air, the time, the howling wind outside, including Yuli hiding behind the curtains.
Yan Nian closed his eyes.
These words killed her, almost exhausting all her strength. She felt that she had no strength in her body, and she would fall to the ground in the next second, and then be unable to recover.
For the first time in my life, I feel that "failed to recover" is a beautiful word.
She doesn't need anyone's care, nor anyone's love, because without love there would be no pain, no swarming coldness, no bloody and stinging truth, and no life. So much helplessness.
She didn't look at Jiangbeiyuan.
She didn't dare to look.
Afraid of seeing the shock and pain in his eyes, and maybe the disgust for her.
She walked directly around him and walked towards the room.
Yu Li walked out from behind the curtain, looked at Yan Nian eagerly, licked the toes of her shoes, and sobbed, as if to persuade her to take back what she just said.
Yan Nian's hand rested on the bedroom door handle.
The next second.
A strong force pulled her over.
Her back pressed against a warm chest, and a low, confused voice sounded in her ears.
"Nian Nian tell your husband what you didn't do well, okay?"
Jiang Beiyuan rubbed her hair, his voice was completely soft at this moment.
"Is it because my husband is not good at cooking? Can I learn to cook again? I don't have enough money. I will go back to the company tomorrow. I will stop losing my temper and lose my temper. I will go back and work hard tomorrow. I will give you everything you want. I’ll buy it for you, and, and…”
He was a little incoherent.
That proud, stubborn man was incoherent for the first time.
"From now on, you must lick the top of yogurt when you drink it. Don't waste it. I won't hide anything from you. I'll tell you everything you want to know. We have a long way to go. My husband will tell you slowly, okay?"
"enough… "
Yan Nian pulled away the hand he had placed on her waist and turned around. His clear eyes were now covered with red bloodshot eyes.
"Jiang Beiyuan, please open your eyes and take a good look. I'm not good at all! I don't deserve you to be so kind to me! My uterus is severely frozen. I'm a waste who can't give birth to children! You raised my second child. My mother of ten years is not my biological mother. My biological mother died to give birth to me! I don’t even know where my biological mother is buried! What’s good about me? I’m lazy, poor, calculating, and have a bad temper. What do you like about people like me?"
“…”
Jiangbeiyuan stared at her quietly.
There was a glint of water in her transparent eyes, and there was a sadness in her depths.
"Do you know about your mother?"
"Well... I know everything. I understand your thoughts, but I feel that we are still not suitable for each other."
"Is it inappropriate because of the child?"
He is patient and patient.
Yan Nian didn't know what to say. The child was the main reason, but there were other reasons as well.
She really felt that it was so tiring to live with a man who was much better than herself.
Before, she was careless and careless, and she only needed to take care of her own food and clothing.
It's different now.
She began to care about many things, and she couldn't care less about them as before.
It's like she didn't care about women having children before.
No one lives for children, so why should having children be the basis for defining a woman’s value
What now
She suddenly felt that not being able to give birth to a child was a great sin. This man had given her so much, but she couldn't even give him a child.
(End of chapter)