Ye Yao went back to his room, sat down and made himself a cup of tea.
The fragrance of tea is elegant, Ye Yao smells the fragrance of tea, and sorts out his low but strange mood.
Lu Xun's departure was within his expectation. He and Lu Xun had been friends for so many years, and this relationship ended. Of course, it was impossible to say that he was not sad at all.
But at the same time, there is also a sense of relief when all the dust settles.
He no longer has to rack his brains to alienate Lu Xun, and he no longer has to move forward cautiously like stepping on a tightrope, always worrying about thunderstorms.
Before entering the examination room for the college entrance examination, he told himself that he didn't need to be too nervous when he encountered problems that he couldn't do, because he did his best to study, so even if he failed, he didn't need to be too self-blame and frustrated.
Now everything between him and Lu Xun is over, and he has tried his best to preserve this friendship.
Ye Yao drank the tea in one go.
Go to sleep, wake up tomorrow is a new day, the sun will still rise as usual.
*
When Lu Xun ran out, his mind was almost blank, only what Ye Yao said to him floated back and forth.
I like being the bottom one, I like being the bottom one, I like being the bottom one.
The power of this sentence at this moment was stronger than Tang Sanzang's spell, and it was continuously repeated until Lu Xun came downstairs and was blown by the chilly spring breeze, and then he suddenly woke up.
In the room at that time, when Ye Yao said those words, the protagonist No. 0 in the mobile phone just made a sound of twists and turns. At that moment, he had a vision of Ye Yao lying on the bed.
Ye Yao was wearing soft off-white pajamas, and her cheeks were slightly red because the quilt was warm enough. Ye Yao smiled at him, stretched out his hand, and touched his Adam's apple.
Lu Xun hadn't really touched the Adam's apple by Ye Yao, after all, this part would not be touched casually in daily life. But he just imagined that his entire scalp was numb.
Ye Yao like this... is too different from usual.
How could he fantasize about Ye Yao so much? What is the difference between thinking about Ye Yao like this and those bastards who insult Ye Yao for wanting a man
In the past, what he hated most was that others thought of Ye Yao like that, but now he has become such a person.
This thought that should not have appeared prompted Lu Xun to flee, not face-to-face with Ye Yao.
Now Lu Xun was walking downstairs and circled around the building. He was full of energy, and after walking a few laps at a super-fast speed, he still didn't feel tired at all. Instead, some kind of flame was burning in his heart, and his mind was a mess.
As a homosexual, Ye Yao likes to be below, not above as he subconsciously thinks.
How to do
Ye Yao was different from what he thought, how could it be different, it was different!
Lu Xun walked downstairs for an unknown number of times, and suddenly woke up.
He left Ye Yao and ran away without saying a word. Will Ye Yao misunderstand and think he disgusts him and looks down on him below
Lu Xun was sweating coldly on his back. He quickly took the elevator to the floor where he lived, took a deep breath before and after the door, tidied up his clothes, and opened the door carefully.
The room was quiet, Ye Yao was not there.
Lu Xun went into the room in despair, picked up his phone and looked at it. During the time he was away, Ye Yao didn't send him a message, saying that he went back first or something.
The phone is full of spam text messages pushed by various apps, and Ye Yao may have sent him no messages or calls.
… not good.
Thinking that Ye Yao might be angry because of this, Lu Xun quickly opened the chat box with Ye Yao. But pressing his finger on the keyboard, Lu Xun found that he didn't know what to say.
How is he going to explain to Ye Yao
Running out is not because of nausea, but because he fantasized about some strange plot
Lu Xun failed to organize the language, and finally chose for a long time, picked a very cute emoji and sent it.
A small shark with a round head and a round head sticks out half of its head from behind the wall, with the words: [Is there a cutie at home?]
Lu Xun waited for a while, but did not wait for Ye Yao's reply.
Lu Xun frowned, he walked around the house a few times, and finally went out to the door of Ye Yao's house.
He has been downstairs and didn't see Ye Yao go out. Ye Yao must be in the house, and he should be able to call Ye Yao out as long as he knocks on the door.
Lu Xun raised his hand to knock on the door, then paused.
After Ye Yao came out, what would he say
Lu Xun's mind was a mess. The shock he received today was too great. He left Ye Yuanyuan not because he hated him, but because he liked men. From the moment Ye Yao confessed to him that he was below, and then to the fantasy Ye Yao that he was actually guilty of, wave after wave, all of his cognitions and concepts were impacted.
Looking for Ye Yao now, if you can't explain it clearly, it will cause more troubles.
Lu Xun finally didn't knock on the door, he slowly turned back to the house, and sat on the sofa thinking.
He needs someone to help him sort out his thoughts.
Lu Xun turned on his phone and found his dog-headed military advisor.
Because he didn't know if the dog head military division was still blocking him, Lu Xun called directly.
After waiting for a while, the call was connected.
Lu Ming's side was noisy, and Lu Ming's side picked it up and said, "Hello? I'm watching the concert. I'll contact you later."
"I have a relationship question that I want to ask you." Lu Xun said.
"I was analyzing emotional issues with you at the rock concert?" Lu Ming couldn't believe it. "Is this what this is for? I'll call you after the concert."
"Your previous guess was correct," Lu Xun said, "Ye Yao is indeed bent. He told me that he bent after he went to college."
Lu Ming was shocked, looked left and right, and evacuated from the viewing seat.
Analyzing emotional issues at a rock concert, this is true punk behavior! So artistic!
Although he now knows that Ye Yao is crooked, Lu Ming has no intention of persuading him to stay away from Lu Xun. The pink sweater that Lu Xun woven was still in his mind, always impacting his worldview.
As Lu Ming walked to a quieter place outside, he said to Lu Xun, "He's bent, isn't it right for you?"
Anyway, Lu Xun is not very straight.
Lu Xun called and asked him to analyze what, how can two men fall in love more sweetly
"What's right." Lu Xun frowned, "How could he be right to me when he bent."
Lu Ming: "..."
Gay expert Lu Ming finally couldn't help showing a shit-eating expression.
What does this mean, my God, Lu Xun still thinks he is a straight man of steel!
"So, you're a straight man, and you find that he's bent, but you still want to be friends with him, but you just don't know how to get along?"
"Almost." Lu Xun said, "Otherwise, I found out that he was crooked, and I left? The relationship for several years was broken when I said it? I'm not that extreme in what I do."
Lu Ming: "...you fart."
"In the past, your little one who liked you cried and told you that you grew up together and have known each other for so many years, don't ignore him and ignore him, what did you say?" Lu Ming mercilessly exposed a certain Personal double-standard behavior, "You said that you don't care about human feelings, so don't do this for you. It's useless to know you for a hundred years, hehe."
Lu Xun was dissatisfied: "How could he compare with Ye Yao?"
Lu Ming: "...Okay, say what you like."
"There's no reason why straight men can't make friends with gays." Lu Xun said again.
Lu Ming complained expressionlessly: "You said before that you are not sick, and you are entangled with a gay."
Lu Xun was silent.
Lu Ming was also silent.
Lu Xun has already thought about this very clearly, and he wants to continue to be friends with Ye Yao, so why did he call and ask him
There must be something different from what Lu Xun imagined.
Lu Ming thought for a while: "He confessed to you, you don't know how to respond?"
"No." Lu Xun clenched the phone subconsciously and walked around the room a few times.
He realized a problem, although he was shocked because Ye Yao was below and couldn't figure out his own thoughts, but whether Ye Yao was above or below was completely Ye Yao's privacy, he should not tell others without Ye Yao's permission.
He didn't tell Lu Ming the reason, and Lu Ming couldn't help him come up with ideas.
Forget it, it's up to him to analyze it himself.
Lu Xun said a few words casually and was about to hang up the phone when Lu Ming on the other end stopped him.
"I don't know what you think, but if you are still friends with him, and you still get along with him in the usual way, then I advise you not to do it." Lu Ming said seriously.
Lu Xun stopped hanging up the phone.
"Even if he doesn't like you now, can you continue to knit sweaters like you did before, take him to play with him everywhere, and hold hands while walking? Forget it, it's okay if you two are straight men, Now that he is crooked, and you say you are straight, if he is tempted by you, what will you do?"
Lu Xun's pupils shrank.
If... Ye Yao likes him
His head seemed to explode, his blood was boiling like he was sprinting at a speed of 180 miles. This was a subconscious tension, and Lu Xun's heart was pounding.
Lu Ming couldn't see Lu Xun's expression on the other side of the phone, so he continued: "Do you want to break up with him, or continue to get along with him, but just don't accept him, just be friends with him?"
Lu Xun could not accept either of the two options.
Separation, that is absolutely impossible, unless he dies.
Ignoring Ye Yao's mood and continuing to be friends, how sad should Ye Yao be? How can such a person be Ye Yao's friend
Lu Ming finally said: "If you don't want such a thing to happen, I advise you to keep a certain distance from him. Before each approach, think about whether you can bear such consequences."
After speaking, Lu Ming hung up the phone and snorted disdainfully.
Lu Xun actually said that he was a straight man.
He is no longer the fool who was easily deceived by Lu Xun.
Lu Xun is a straight man, he took his head off and played football!
Two gays who hold hands every day, let's hurry up and be together! Don't be excited, do you really think you are straight
*
Lu Xun started walking around the room again.
Unexplainable emotions flooded his body, making him unable to stop at all.
What will his relationship with Ye Yao... become
In his 20 years of life, Lu Xun has never doubted his sexual orientation, let alone that he is not a straight man.
He absolutely can't accept kissing a man, just thinking about it makes him nauseous.
But if it's Ye Yao...
Lu Xun swallowed his saliva subconsciously.
Before, he would never imagine those disrespectful images of Ye Yao, and even when taking a bath together, he would deliberately keep his eyes away from Ye Yao's back and below the waist.
But if the object of the kiss is Ye Yao, it doesn't seem disgusting.
After all, it was Ye Yao, no matter where it was, it was fragrant for him.
What will Ye Yao's lips smell like
Lu Xun accelerated around the room.
Ye Yao clearly told him that it was below.
If Ye Yao likes him, can he accept sleeping with Ye Yao
The image reappeared in Lu Xun's mind,
Ye Yao lay on the bed, stretched out his hand, and touched his Adam's apple.
…
Does he want to keep a certain distance from Ye Yao
Because he is a straight man, he should keep a proper distance. There is no possibility that Ye Yao likes him, so he can maintain a long-term friendship with Ye Yao and become a suitable friend who will not cross the line
*
When Ye Yao woke up the next day, he saw the emoji Lu Xun sent him.
Ye Yao: "?"
Looking at the time when the emoji package was sent, Lu Xun actually came back quite early
Lu Xun's ability to accept exceeded Ye Yao's expectations, Ye Yao thought for a while, but did not reply.
Seeing this, Lu Xun still wants to be friends with him, but since Lu Xun didn't knock on his door or call him last night, he should be hesitant.
He hesitated whether to continue to be with a gay man below him, the best friend in the world.
It's okay to let it fade naturally.
Ye Yao started a new day of make-up work. On this day, he did not see Lu Xun.
Ye Yao is not surprised at all. In fact, Lu Xun maintains the current relationship with him. He will say hello when they meet, and usually he will not stick to him too much. It is the best distance he wants to achieve. has been achieved.
Thinking about it this way makes me even happier.
Ye Yao calmly completed the day's make-up work, and when the make-up class ended in the evening, he and Wang Xue went out together.
Wang Xue was going home after class, while he was going to take the car back to the dormitory.
As Wang Xue walked, he talked to Ye Yao: "Brother Yao, it's not that I'm blowing you, you and I are fine, you can do whatever job you want, you don't have to work hard for life, just do what you like. The thing. How wonderful, this kind of condition can't be given by ordinary people."
"Read hard, don't be distracted by this kind of thing—" Ye Yao opened the door of the house and stopped abruptly halfway through.
In the corridor between his door and the elevator, a familiar figure crouched there.
That figure had long hands and long legs, with a high-spirited face, but now he was squatting outside his door aggrievedly, not knowing what he was thinking.
After seeing Ye Yao, Lu Xun quickly stood up and tidied up his clothes. He glanced at Ye Yao's face, then quickly looked away, staring at Ye Yao's clothes.
"Go back to school together?" Lu Xun asked in a muffled voice.
Ye Yao couldn't believe it: "You deliberately waited for me here?"
He thought they were now a gentleman's friendship, but Lu Xun was still waiting for him to go back to school together
"Brother Yao, who is this person?" Wang Xue said vigilantly.
"...my friend." Ye Yao said.
Lu Xun snorted, inexplicably upset.
Friends, their relationship ended with a simple friend
And what is the name of this high school student, Brother Yao, is this a name that this damn high school student can call? It was really scheming, not only calling Ye Yao's more friendly first name instead of his surname, but also adding an honorary title after his name to make Ye Yao happy.
Lu Xun planned to think about what he should do next and what distance between him and Ye Yao would be the best.
Before he could fully think about it, he wanted to maintain a state of mutual respect that would never go wrong, so as not to hurt Ye Yao in the future.
But I didn't expect a face-to-face, he would break the defense!
Why is the distance between this damn high school student and Ye Yao closer than the distance between him and Ye Yao! Isn't this person just an ordinary make-up student!
Lu Xun took a big step forward. He looked at Ye Yao's backpack and wondered if he should just grab the bag and carry it on his back as before.
Lu Xun endured it, but chose a polite attitude first: "You have too many things, can I get some for you?"
Ye Yao shook his head: "No, let's go."
Lu Xun was rejected, and followed Ye Yao into the elevator with a blank face.
The bright wall of the elevator could be used as a mirror. Lu Xun saw Ye Yao's hand hanging down beside his hand, and he could hold it as long as he raised his hand a little.
Lu Xun's fingertips were itchy, and he clenched his hand into a fist, lest he would grab Ye Yao against his will when he wasn't paying attention, and that would be a big problem.
But he hasn't had close contact with Ye Yao for a long time.
Ye Yao didn't take the initiative to touch him either.
Of course Ye Yao wouldn't take the initiative to touch him.
Ye Yao must have been angry when he did that last night.
Lu Xun's mood was extremely annoyed, he clenched his hand, released it, and clenched it again.
Lu Xun struggled to support, waited for the taxi to return to school, and quickly apologized when he and Ye Yao walked alone on the campus path.
"Last night... I'm sorry, I shouldn't have run away like that." Lu Xun said, "You can punish me and scold me any way you want."
Ye Yao didn't even realize what Lu Xun was saying for a while, but when he remembered it, he said with tears in his eyes, "I'm not angry, you ran very well."
Lu Xun didn't run, and he was in trouble later.
Presumably Lu Xun has figured it out, very good, the distance between them now makes him very comfortable.
Lu Xun was a little confused, but seeing that Ye Yao was not angry, he was a little relieved.
The evening wind blew, and the leaves rustled.
In the past, he and Ye Yao walked this campus trail, either he was holding Ye Yao's shoulder, or he was holding Ye Yao's hand.
But now he can't do anything.
It's so uncomfortable, and it feels so empty in my heart.
He longed for any contact with Ye Yao... as long as he could get closer.
With the current situation, the only time he could get closer to Ye Yao was probably only when he was sleeping in the dormitory.
Although he can no longer sleep in the same bed, at least he can face Ye Yao head-to-head, and he can see Ye Yao's sleeping silhouette in the dark.
This is the only nectar that supports him.
*
After returning to the dormitory to wash up, Lu Xun climbed into bed tiredly.
Soon, I will be able to face Ye Yao head-to-head...
Lu Xun, who climbed into the bed, saw the scene that made his breathing suddenly stop - Ye Yao moved the pillow to the other side of the bed, and was now reading a book far away from him.
"What are you doing?" Lu Xun asked in shock.
"Ah?" Hearing the voice, Ye Yao looked away from the book, "I didn't do anything? I just changed the pillow."
Ye Yao saw Lu Xun's suddenly gloomy face, and raised his eyebrows: "Did you think I would sleep like before? Things have already been said so openly, let go of the fantasy that you shouldn't have, Lu Xun."