403 I'm Afraid of You
Every word of her words, like the sharpest sword, pierced his heart one by one. The heartbeat almost stopped, his eyes only saw the tears in her eyes, more and more, and then fell in strings.
If Xiao Moye is the most afraid of anything in her life, then it is undoubtedly the most afraid that Chu Huan will leave him. Then, this fear, after she fell in love with him, became the most afraid of her remembering the past. .
Because some things are taboo and cannot be remembered. Once remembered, it is like digging a bloody scar, which makes people feel painful.
Once, when she said that she didn’t remember the next thing, he was fortunate, at least, she didn’t remember the most unbearable experience, but now, she was telling him that she remembered everything. , All remembered.
What he most wanted to conceal, but she remembered it!
Is that "I hate you" who was her back then, or is she who she is now
He shook her hand with his backhand, and then forcefully pulled her into his arms, "Don't hate... Don't hate me, I don't allow you to hate me!" He couldn't bear her hatred.
She struggled, trying to break free of his arms, but he hugged him tightly, and there was almost no gap between them.
With his face buried in her hair, he kept saying, "Huan, listen to me, back then, it was me who was wrong, it was me who was wrong, as long as you don't leave me, you can do whatever you want!"
"How can you do this, how can you!" she cried, piercing his armpits, and constantly beating his back.
His mouth is full of bitterness. If he knew that he would love someone and loved so deeply, if he knew that those things would cause such harm to her, if he knew that after losing her, life would be worse than death, then he would definitely not To do those things.
However, no matter how much regret, there is no way to make up for the hurt she suffered at that time.
"Huan... I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." He lowered his arrogant head, begging her for forgiveness, "At that time, I just didn't want you to fall in love with others. I was too angry and too jealous. At that time, I, I think I just like you, but I don’t know that I have fallen in love with you. I love you so deeply and so deeply! All the emotions I love are drawn by you."
"Can love be like that?" Those memories filled her mind madly, mixed with her current memories, "Do you love me? But at that time, you almost destroyed all of me!" Torture is constantly eroding her consciousness. If she hadn't left for the last time, what would she have become if such days continue
She couldn't imagine it.
"No, not in the future!" At that time, when he returned to the villa, when he couldn't find her, he knew what a breakdown was. It's like being at a loss. In my life, I can't find my goal, my heart is empty, I can't find anything to fill it up.
But that memory was burned in her mind like a brand at this moment, as if it happened just yesterday, so clear and vivid. The fear at that time, the fear at that time, was deeply buried in her body, making her unable to adapt.
"So what can I do to forgive me, as long as you say it, I will do it!" Just ask for her forgiveness, just ask that she can still stay by his side.
She was pressed against his chest, listening to his heartbeat, tears, steadily falling from her eyes. After remembering such an unbearable memory, after remembering everything he had done to her, she didn't even know how to face him.
Seeing him, it will be intertwined with him in the memory at that time, and then those images will fill her mind, making her constantly recall all the feelings at that time.
The feelings of fear, sadness, pain, confusion... are intertwined and become a kind of pain.
The heart is angina, the closer you get to him, the more you see him, the more it hurts.
"Mo Ye... I'm afraid of you." She closed her eyes and said word by word, "So now even if you hold me, I feel my body is shaking, I can't control it, and I can't stop it." And she said. The body, as she said, was trembling, trembling fiercely.
Every hair on her body was erected, and the muscles contracted unconsciously, which was a manifestation of fear. Her body was afraid of him, and was more afraid than ever.
Xiao Moye was silent, and it seemed that even his breathing became heavy. He is holding her, holding her so tightly, he can naturally feel her fear, "Don't be afraid, Huan, don't be afraid of me!"
She shook her head, "I can't do it, I can't do it!" The moment she remembered everything, this fear was like being unsealed, filling every corner of her body, "So, Please... let me go." she begged.
It was just a simple action, but for him, it was too difficult and too difficult to do.
"I won't let you go, you know, I can't let go!" His breath sprayed on her shoulders, "Even if you are afraid of me, even if you..."
Before he finished speaking, her body was already shaking more severely, and even her breathing became extremely rapid, as if her body's fear was becoming more intense.
"Please, let me go!" She gasped and said with difficulty, her hands desperately trying to push his chest, "You hold me like this, I won't be able to stand it!"
His body was stiff, and the hands that hugged her trembled slightly, "Can't stand it?"
"I will think of you at that time, feeding me the'love movement', and then your hands hugged me like this, making me unable to even struggle."
His breath was suffocated, and then, his head slowly lifted from her shoulder and looked at her deeply, his dark eyes were stained with despair. His hand opened with great difficulty, as if he was fighting against the instinct of the body, loosening her restraint little by little.
As she slowly withdrew from his embrace, the tremor in her body gradually calmed down.
She moved her feet and stepped out of the hospital bed without wearing shoes. Instead, she stretched her feet and stepped on the cold ground.
It was like a kind of incomparable irony, and it made his heart steadily sinking down, like sinking into a bottomless abyss.