"Dangdangdang..." Suddenly, there was a knock on the dormitory door.
Nan Xiangwan thought that Jiang Darling had left something behind, so he tidied up a bit and ran to open the door. There was a person standing outside the door, but it wasn't Jiang Daring. That person was tall and long-legged, and he was curiously poking his head into the dormitory. It was Lin Xiaoran who had just eaten fried skewers together.
Nan Xiangwan rolled his eyes at him, and asked with some disgust, "How did you get in?"
"It's a holiday, no one cares." Lin Xiaoran looked left and right, with disbelief on his face, "Is this the girls' dormitory? Is the girls' dormitory also this messy?"
Nan Xiangwan didn't want to talk to him, so Lin Xiaoran leaned closer. He stared into her eyes and asked, "Are you crying?" He didn't look like asking, nor did he look like gloating, his tone was as soft as a feather. After a while, he exhaled lightly and said, "I'm relieved."
"..."
Nan Xiangwan thought that Lin Xiaoran was mocking her, but it was not. Everyone said that Nan Xiangwan did well in the exam, and they admired and envied her. Only he knew how much Nan Xiangwan had put in, and what kind of expectations she had. But Nan Xiangwan couldn't show it, as long as she said "I didn't do well in the exam", others would definitely say that she was showing off on purpose, and she was not a person who would easily show weakness.
Ever since he knew the grades, he had been observing Nan Xiangwan's reaction. The more calm she acted, the more worried he was, for fear that she would be overwhelmed. He wished that she would cry openly and continue to fight like a warrior.
Nan Xiangwan, who had been suppressing her grief, couldn't hold back anymore. She punched Lin Xiaoran one after another, "You still say? It's all your fault! It's all your fault!" After thinking about it, she felt that her grades were not good enough. Lin Xiaoran was entirely to blame for his ideals, he was always pestering himself with questions, wasting his time, and as a result, his grades skyrocketed, but he stagnated.
"Okay, okay, blame me, blame me." Fists fell on his body like raindrops, probably because he was angry, Nan Xiangwan exerted all his strength, Lin Xiaoran didn't hide, he just endured it.
Nan Xiangwan slapped him twice, covered his face and began to cry, and after a while, he laughed softly again.
Didn't she look down on those scumbags who were looking for reasons everywhere when she was recruiting? There is so much competition in the province that you can’t get into a good university, the teachers in the school are of average quality, the library closes too early, and the roommates playing games affect my rest. It’s just that I can’t do it myself, and I still find so many reasons.
What is the difference between her now and those people
Lin Xiaoran was terrified by Nan Xiangwan's crying and laughing, and thought that Nan Xiangwan was crazy because of his academic performance.
Nan Xiangwan also felt that she was not normal. When she returned home in a daze, there was no one in the house, and it was pitch black everywhere. Only the two red candles on the altar were lit. She couldn't help walking over, and knelt on the ground with a "plop", imitating her mother's way of clasping her hands together and chanting. She tried her best to recall the appearance of her mother when she worshiped Buddha, and tried her best to meet the standards, as if a slight mistake would not work.
Now Nan Xiangwan finally understands why there has been an endless stream of praying to gods and worshiping Buddha for thousands of years. She tried her best but failed to get the desired results. Apart from asking supernatural powers for help, she didn't know what else to do.
In the next few days, Nan Xiangwan was uncharacteristically, doing nothing all day long, except for eating on time, the rest of the time was lying in bed in a daze.
At first, Guan Xiumei thought that her child was studying hard for the exam, and she should take a break, but within two days, she couldn't take it anymore. Whether it was mopping the floor or dusting or cooking, whenever she had the opportunity, she would nag Nan Xiangwan, complaining that she was wasting time and not studying.
"Don't you just get the first place in the exam and then go up to the sky. You were also the first in the class last time. Why don't you improve? Let me tell you, that's how you fell down. Everyone else is learning, but you just lie here. I don't know. I thought you were paralyzed."
Seeing that Nan Xiangwan remained silent, Guan Xiumei felt even more annoyed, and raised her voice a little, "I said, why are you like this, are you deaf or stupid, can't you hear me when I talk to you? It's about to be the third year of high school, you should relax, if this goes on, you will regret it at some point."
"Hahaha..." Nan Xiangwan, who was originally expressionless, suddenly laughed.
Guan Xiumei, who was already quite dissatisfied with Nan Xiangwan, was even more angrily now. She couldn't help the blood welling up, and felt that the child would not listen to persuasion, and it was hopeless. If this had been done before, she would have beaten her daughter mercilessly. She herself was beaten, and she firmly believed that a filial son is born under a stick. In fact, sometimes when she calms down and thinks about it, she doesn't quite know whether the beating is for the education of the child or because of something unsatisfactory in the work and family. Although she didn't beat her children very much in recent years, verbal attacks were still indispensable. She was about to scold Nan Xiangwan when she dropped her chopsticks, lay on the table and began to cry.
Guan Xiumei finally sensed that something was wrong with Nan Xiangwan, she panicked and asked if something happened to Nan Xiangwan. But no matter how she asked, Nan Xiangwan was crying.
Guan Xiumei also shed tears, "Someone bullied you at school? The teacher treated you badly? What's the matter, don't scare mom..." Bad thoughts flashed in her mind one after another, Guan Xiumei felt unprecedented fear, she even felt It doesn't matter what grades or universities, as long as the children are healthy, happy and happy, they are her greatest wealth.
After that, Guan Xiumei stopped for two days, but the third year of high school was imminent, how could it continue like this? Not long after, she started nagging Nan Xiangwan again, saying how difficult it was at home, the happiness of the whole family rested on her body, how hard-working the child of so-and-so's family was, and the parents would not even take him on a trip …
Nan Xiangwan still acted as if he couldn't hear, lying on the bed staring at the ceiling in a daze.
When Lin Xiaoran asked Nan Xiangwan to go to the normal university for self-study, she was reluctant, but when she thought of her mother's endless nagging, she still agreed.
After Nan Xiangwan left, he regretted it. Lin Xiaoran not only called her, but also called Chen Shiyun. Although she and Chen Shiyun don't have much contact with each other now, she still feels a little uncomfortable when she thinks about the past. Especially now, Chen Shiyun is studying step by step in the rocket class, but she can't even pass the threshold of the rocket class.
This was Chen Shiyun's first official acquaintance with Nan Xiangwan. She greeted Nan Xiangwan warmly, "I often hear Lin Xiaoran mentioning you, and I thank you for his achievement in the final exam this time."
Nan Xiangwan bowed his lips politely and did not speak.
Although it was summer vacation, there were many people sitting in the self-study room of the Normal University. Some students from the school were preparing for going abroad and taking postgraduate entrance examinations, and some nearby residents came to study and recharge.
Chen Shiyun brought a lot of things, including water and snacks, fans and cushions, as delicate as a princess. In comparison, Nan Xiangwan's side looked a bit shabby. She didn't even bring any study materials, so she took a paper, stopped writing, and then sat in a daze.
At first, she was worried that Lin Xiaoran would pester her to ask questions, but it turned out that she was overthinking. With Chen Shiyun by his side, how could he still think of her? Whenever Lin Xiaoran had any questions that he didn't understand, he would ask Chen Shiyun for advice, and Chen Shiyun was also very happy to answer him.
Gradually, Nan Xiangwan realized that something was wrong. Before that, the questions Lin Xiaoran asked her were very childish, either the original words in the book or the original questions in the book. If it was her, she would be ashamed to ask others . But now, Lin Xiaoran's problem has undergone a qualitative change. She accidentally heard some questions that she could answer in a second before, but now she didn't know how to start. Even Chen Shiyun, who was in the rocket class, sometimes had to think for a while.
Nan Xiangwan was suddenly a little thankful. Fortunately, Lin Xiaoran didn't ask her, otherwise it would be embarrassing.
Because her grades were stagnant, Nan Xiangwan fell into deep self-doubt. She couldn't even get up the energy to read the books and do the questions. She would feel very excited when she encountered a question she didn't know before. Hold on to a topic, deduce and think repeatedly, and never give up until the goal is reached. Now she will let go of the problems she doesn't know, even if she takes the trouble to solve them, no matter how hard she tries, her grades are just like this.
A few days later, there was another person in the study room.
I don't know if Chen Shiyun couldn't take it anymore, or if she alone was not enough to deal with Lin Xiaoran's problems, she specially found a helper from the rocket class, this person was none other than Xueba Liu Yubai. He had just returned from visiting relatives abroad, excitedly talking about what he had seen and heard along the way, and took out a small gift specially prepared for everyone.
Nan Xiangwan pointed to one of them and blurted out, "St. Patrick's Church?"
Liu Yubai looked surprised, "You know?"
Not only did she know that Nan Xiangwan had been an exchange student at this university for a year, and the church was at the southeast corner of the school, and it was the place she had to pass every day to return to her residence. The church looks magnificent from the outside, but the inside is in disrepair, but it is good to stand on the tower overlooking the whole city.
Really, why did she think of the past again? Nan Xiangwan smiled wryly, shrugged, and said, "I've watched a documentary."
The days of self-study are not all about studying, they sometimes go to the swimming pool to play in the water, and sometimes they go to the concert hall to watch a drama. On this day, Lin Xiaoran, who was doing a chemistry problem, suddenly thought of something and proposed to escape in the secret room next to the school tomorrow. experience it.
Liu Yubai seemed very interested, "I've heard of it, it seems to be about vampires."
"Vampires?" Chen Shiyun was obsessed with vampire-themed novels and anime for a while, and she heard that the escape room was related to vampires, so she also showed a strong interest.
Nan Xiangwan, who was in a daze, was suddenly interrupted by the sound of everyone's discussion. She slapped her pen on the table and said "tsk" in dissatisfaction, "There is no need to hesitate. Go now." After the heavy blow of the final exam Next, Nan Xiangwan has long since lost interest in studying. Hearing that there are new things to play with, of course he will not let this opportunity pass.
The escape room was opened on the top floor of a shopping mall, and the atmosphere became unusual from the moment you entered the special elevator. The lights in the elevator are a bit dim, there are paintings of Gothic castles, bats, and coffins on the walls, and the promotional videos are played on the TV in a loop. The front is fine, but the last scene is a pale vampire suddenly pounced on the screen, which really scared everyone. jumped.
Nan Xiangwan tried to pretend to be calm, but her heart was beating non-stop, and her palms were wet with sweat.
Chen Shiyun couldn't help shouting out for a while. She was originally a loyal fan of vampire movies, so she came here with great interest. Who knows that the vampires here are completely different from the handsome appearance in the movies. She couldn't help being a little scared, and asked cautiously, "Will it be scary inside?"
Lin Xiaoran looked disapproving, patted his chest and said, "It's okay, I'm here."
Liu Yubai also comforted: "It's all fake, there's nothing to be afraid of."