Cheng Sunian suddenly discovered that psychological acceptance and trial, and physical acceptance are two different things.
Moreover, being bitten by Feng Can's teeth and being "kissed" with lips against lips, these two kinds of contact are relatively shallow, and the feeling is very different from kissing in such a deep way now.
When Feng Can tried to pry open his teeth and kiss him deeply, Cheng Sunian's scalp was numb. He realized that he had overestimated his ability to bear it.
But this cannot be blamed on his lack of consideration. Since he has never experienced it, it is difficult for him to imagine how lethal "intimacy" is.
He took it for granted that this relationship—barely counted as a romantic relationship, was a setback based on his sympathy and affection for Feng Can, and it was similar in nature to doing charity, and it would not have any impact on him, and he still followed his own Living at a pace is nothing more than having one more person around you.
But it turns out that if Feng Can wanted to kiss him like this every day, he might be a little... overwhelmed.
It was only on the sixth floor, and the elevator was coming to an end soon. As soon as the door opened, Cheng Sunian and Feng Can separated and walked out of the elevator first.
He didn't say anything, and he didn't show any disgust or liking. For a moment, Feng Can wasn't sure what kind of reaction this was, and couldn't help but feel uneasy.
There is a tinge of anticipation in the apprehension—has Cheng Su Nian accepted it? Wouldn't that be a great situation
Feng Can thought beautifully in his heart, and cold water was poured over in a blink of an eye.
After they went back to the room together, Cheng Sunian said: "I didn't finish what I said just now, we have to make an agreement in three chapters."
"Ah? What's the appointment, how?" Feng Can was at a loss.
Cheng Sunian said: "I'm sorry, although I promised to be with you, I may not be able to like a man. If you have high expectations, then don't start, you will be disappointed."
"I know." Feng Can's reaction was unexpected, "I know you agreed to me because I stalked and harassed you every day, and you were so annoyed that you couldn't bear it anymore. The charity you gave me—"
"It's not charity." Cheng Sunian interrupted him. The words need not be so harsh.
But Feng Can doesn't think these two words are unpleasant, he seems very optimistic: "It's okay, there are so many people who have secret love and unrequited love, how many of them can get what they want? I am very lucky to have the opportunity to be with you Well, even if you don't like me, you don't like anyone else, do you, Captain?"
"..."
He was called "Cheng Su Nian" just now, but now he is called "Captain" again. Feng Can walked to the bed and sat down with Cheng Sunian. He refused to sit still, so he leaned on Cheng Sunian's shoulders, adjusted a comfortable posture and said, "I'm very satisfied, but I still want more, don't you really like me? ... Stop , you don’t need to answer, who can tell what will happen in the future, what if one day you suddenly become enlightened, you suddenly find out that I’m good, and you can’t help but fall in love with me?”
Feng Can's ability to explain what "living in a dream" means, Cheng Su smiled young, a little confused.
In fact, he doesn't know how to have deep affection for others. Even if he has such deep affection, it can't become the focus of his life, and it can't change his essence.
He thought for a moment, then continued with what he said just now: "We will talk about it later, now we have three chapters of the law. First, we must not affect the game because of private affairs. Second, we must not make it public. Our relationship cannot be disclosed in Weibo or interviews. , better not to tell anyone else, it's better for you and me. Third—"
Cheng Sunian paused: "Don't kiss me."
He said the last four words seriously, and matched with the expressionless face above, he looked extraordinarily serious.
Feng Can was slightly taken aback, dissatisfied: "Why? You don't want to like me, and you still don't let me kiss, so is there any difference between you agreeing and not agreeing? You deliberately made fun of me, let me be happy for nothing..."
Feng Can was deprived of an important sovereignty, and his whole body was visibly depressed.
He finally understood why Cheng Suinian was uncharacteristically willing to be with him. This is called retreating, restraining him as a boyfriend, preventing him from doing what a lover should do. To put it bluntly, in the name of being in love, the actual relationship But like friends.
And he didn't dare to make Cheng Su Nian angry, so he was obedient.
Feng Can thought to himself, this man is ruthless and hegemonic.
But it was so hard to come to this step, how could he give up halfway? Having said that, what if an unequal treaty is signed? Rules are dead, people are alive.
Feng Can's calculations were ringing loudly in his heart, no matter what Cheng Sunian said, he would always nod and agree with everything.
Cheng Sunian was finally satisfied, he thought he had controlled the safe distance between the two of them, and would not worry about it anymore.
Feng Can was also satisfied, he felt that he was gradually able to handle Cheng Sunian's temper, so he first catered to him superficially, and when Cheng Sunian was comfortable soaking in warm water, he increased his strength to bring the water to a boil.
The two had their own ghosts and were happy until the next day.
On the second day there was a match between SP and KI.
It is said that SP and KI can be regarded as brother teams, there is no other reason, they are closely related.
This kind of "closeness" is specifically reflected in the frequent interactions between the two players and the good relationship between fans. The EPL official is also happy to see the results, and specially published a special poster for the event, using the meme of the brother team.
When Feng Can checked Weibo, he saw that KI's captain Chen Le posted a comment under the official blog, Ait Cheng Sunian, and Cheng Sunian's fans were all joking and teasing.
This lively scene made him feel a little sour, and there is a reason for his sourness. He always felt that Nian Fan was enthusiastic about others, but he didn't like himself. Although they didn't scold him publicly, he just had this intuition—similar to a child The daughter-in-law was neglected by the wicked mother-in-law. Others may not be able to see it, but his own intuition is very accurate.
But if you think about it carefully, it’s not just New Year’s fans, fans of most players in the e-sports circle don’t seem to like him very much. The competition circle is out of place.
Maybe it wasn't his fault, they were too exclusive.
That being the case, Feng Can didn't bother to go to the official blog to join in the fun.
He returned to his Weibo and posted a picture with a picture. The picture is a private photo of him and Cheng Sunian in the same frame. The background is the restaurant on the first floor. The few CP fans were also driven away—didn't they say in Chaohua, "The harvest is true, because it is true, so love should be restrained, and there should be no too many explicit interactions, for fear of being discovered."
Feng Can has a strong learning ability, so he added material to CP according to this idea, and wrote a sentence that is not explicit but makes people think.
He said: "Today's lunch was not good, but I was very happy."
The subtext is: Although the food is not delicious, but because the person who eats with me is Cheng Su Nian, I am very happy.
However, as soon as it was posted, the comments were full of his fans expressing his love and greetings, and no one interpreted his carefully arranged overtones.
It doesn't matter, he believes that CP fans will understand.
Feng Can pulled himself together, finished leading the off-court rhythm, and decided to go on the court to show Chen Le some color.
—What about Cheng Suinian's good friend
I'm still his boyfriend, and it was you who hit me.
Feng Can sneered in his heart, but said to Cheng Sunian: "Captain, after the game, do you have any arrangements?"
"What arrangement?"
They were sitting in the team bus heading to the competition venue. Cheng Suinian took off his earphones and turned his head to look over.
Feng Can said: "Will KI's captain ask you for dinner? I heard that you have a good relationship with him, is it true?"
Cheng Sunian thought for a while: "Not necessarily, what's wrong?"
"I want to go too." Feng Can said, "If he asks you out, take me with you."
"..."
Feng Can's eyes flickered, full of anticipation, fearing that Cheng Sunian would disagree, he made a friendly gesture, and said obediently and hypocritically: "Your friend is my friend, and I want to make friends with him too."
Cheng Su Nian sneered and saw through him: "Are you a follower? It's hard not to cling to me, is it? OK, Dad will show you to meet the uncles."
Feng Can: "..."
Phew, uncle? I hoisted them up and hammered them one by one.
Feng Can complained secretly in his heart, but he didn't dare to yell loudly. He grabbed Cheng Sunian's hand, and covered it with the hem of his team uniform so as not to be discovered by other people in the car.
Under the clothes, he clasped Cheng Sunian's knuckle-boned fingers, and briefly obtained spiritual satisfaction that could not be described by others. (end of this chapter)