The news that Kuituo brought back somewhat exceeded my expectations. It is said that Li Ruo had not yet left Gaolong Village, and Kai also left the Holy Land in the autumn of the third year after I left. But there was no news of him during this visit.
"Will he hide his identity like you?" Sima Yue asked me suspiciously.
"Should... no." I thought and said, "Ke is a priest, he is the closest to God among the three of us, and he is the most honest man. He won't bother to hide. And," I turned to Kuituo "Tuo Shaoxia..."
"Girl Qingcheng, you should call me Kui Tuo or Tuo." He scratched his head childishly, and said awkwardly, "This 'Tuo Shaoxia' sounds awkward to me."
"Okay, Taku. Have you and your subordinates asked the people all over the place, has anyone seen the person I drew in the picture?"
"Well, there is. Some people in Hejian said that they seemed to have seen such a person. But he was not wearing black clothes but Tsing Yi, and there seemed to be a lightning mark on his forehead, but it was only slightly darker. The gray-black color of the skin is not the pure blackness described by the girl. I also asked the people we put in the Hejian Palace, and they all said that they had never seen this person."
"Oh..." Haotian Xuanyi is the sacred garment of priests, and it is said that it has been handed down from the holy world, and the black lightning between the eyebrows is the mark of being a priest. It might be possible for him to wear Tsing Yi instead of Xuan Yi, but the imprint has turned from jet black to grayish white... Not only did I touch the flame on the forehead that is no longer bright red, could it be that he has also lost his love and broken his desire like me
I used my feet to draw a gossip on the ground, which is the translation of the universe, the position of the shock, and the absence of the position, and then I sat cross-legged in the center. Facing the shock position and placing his hands on Qiankun, he felt his spiritual power go along with the meridians, and was forced out from the flame between the eyebrows between his foreheads. Close your eyes, silently recite Kai's name in your heart, and wait for the two connected spiritual forces to meet in an unknown place. However, the effort of a cup of tea has passed, and my spiritual power has not received any response. I was a little panicked, I went there, could it be that he is no longer alive? No, it's impossible. Maybe it's because my current spiritual power is impure, and I should be able to find him after my spiritual power is purified.
Opening her eyes, Taoer hurriedly stretched out her hand to help me, "Hey, girl, why are you sweating so much?" After searching all over, she couldn't find a silk handkerchief, so she had to take off her sleeve and carefully wipe my sweat for me.
I smiled, and patted her hand, "It's nothing." But I was shocked in my heart, I didn't expect the holy power of **'s holy master to decrease so much. "No matter what, you have to face it. They will come when they should come. Since you can't find them, just wait for them to come to me."
Sima Yue was about to say something but was interrupted by hurried footsteps outside the door, and it was Li Min who walked in.
"Yue," she seemed to see my existence, and then paused after only one cry. Sima Yue hurriedly stepped forward to support her, and softly lowered his voice: "Why did you run in such a hurry? Why didn't Yu Ning follow you?"
"I've sent her out." As he spoke, he raised his hand to smooth the broken hair on Sima Yue's forehead.
Sima Yue held her hand and asked, "Is there something wrong?"
"I just came to remind the prince that today is the seventh day of October." Sima Yue's eyes dimmed after hearing this, and he nodded. "Then, my lord, come with me to Lijin Pavilion." After speaking, he turned to Kuituo, "Tuo, you can come with us too."
"I..." Kuituo and Sima Yue exchanged glances and then looked at Taoer, "I think..."
Sima Yue understood what he meant, and said, "Come over as soon as you finish your business."
"Yes, my lord."
Then he turned his eyes to me again, he seemed to have something to say but he didn't say anything after all, turned around and walked away with Li Jin.
Here, Kuituo and Tao'er were whispering in a corner of the hall, when he took out a small gadget from his pocket and stuffed it into Tao'er's hand. Then she said something in her ear, Tao'er blushed for an instant, and lightly thumped Kuituo as if unwilling, but the person being thumped just smirked dumbly.
I also laughed looking at them, and suddenly remembered the long-lost past, the person I fell in love with for the first time. At that time, I just left the Holy Land and just wandered aimlessly in the rivers and mountains. When I saw him, I was Taoer's current age. I sealed my spiritual power, for the first time I didn't look at the face, I didn't know my life, I wanted to be an ordinary woman, but he finally betrayed me. Maybe he doesn't remember me now, maybe he has many wives and concubines, but at this moment I still think of him.
"They're kind of alike, aren't they?" Jing Xian stood by my side at some point.
"Who?" Now I don't want to think about anything.
"Don't tell me you don't know, I won't believe it." He teased.
I had to turn my eyes to him, "Okay, I found it. So what does it mean? Can this talented young man explain it for me? In other words, give me the answer. If not, sorry, I don't want to guess the riddle now. "Because I recalled the past, my heart felt a little restless.
"Heh." Jing Xian laughed after listening to my words and then fell silent, as if he was caught in deep memories. "You don't know that the current Donghai King is not the old Donghai King's biological son. It's very sad to pass by, you must have heard Taoer say 'Yue Yu saved me a year ago, and I've followed him wholeheartedly'. Actually it's not. , Yue Yue saved me, but not a year ago, but saved me more than once a long time ago. It can be said that without Yue, I would not be who I am now. I worked hard to get ahead and become stronger because of him. It was also for him to walk among princes everywhere. But..." He choked up.
Everyone has experienced pain and has untouchable scars. I looked at this cowardly man known as the world's number one counselor, what kind of predicament made him helpless? What kind of kindness made this proud man fall in love with him
"Don't say it if you don't want to say it, don't remember it if you can't bear it. Maybe one day you will be relieved, and you will tell me that it's okay even if you can never say it. Everyone's pain is different, but the pain is real. Deep-rooted. I understand," I said calmly looking at the slanting sunset in the distance.
"But it's not enough for me alone," he calmed down and continued, "So I came here for you. I didn't mean to let you suffer from fate. I just wanted to help him and let his enemies do it for him. Pay the price for the hurt and humiliation suffered."
"I know." I have entered the chart, what is the reason and what is the significance
After a moment of silence, he leaned forward and said again: "After next spring, Tao'er will be sixteen years old."
"Yes." I turned to look at the young couple who were still talking sweetly, and smiled: "It's time to get married."
"But if you marry someone, if you lose your virginity, won't it be able to integrate with your natal chart?"
"So what if it is? So what if it's not? She can't replace me for what I have to bear. If in the end I share her blessing and live, but she dies because of my fate, that's because of destiny. If not..." It's not that I don't care, but that I don't want to force it.
After hearing this, he didn't continue talking, but changed the subject: "I have always wanted to ask the girl a question, but I was afraid it would be too abrupt."
I glanced at him after hearing this, and took a few steps forward to touch the center of my brow. It was getting late, and the gradually setting sun reflected half of the sky, which was bright red. "I know what you're going to ask." I said in a cold voice: "The holy master will keep his chastity all his life, and he can't commit suicide because the spiritual power of a broken holy master will be impure, and even if he continues to practice, his spiritual power will not improve. In this way, the failure rate of the formation will increase greatly, and the final catastrophe will come earlier, and the possibility of getting through it safely is relatively small. However, in the holy world, a holy master once studied the method of sacrificing one's body for this purpose, which can purify the soul The strength can also make the spiritual power continue to increase. I will try it after the Holy Fire Pavilion is completed."
"Will that be painful?" Looking at his slightly worried face, I shook my head: "I don't know, maybe I will tell the saints of future generations."
"Why?" He looked at me in surprise.
Suddenly I felt very tired, so I leaned on the door frame and replied lazily: "Since the holy world, only two holy masters have tried this method, but neither of them succeeded. .I—is the third."
It wasn't until she was holding the lamp that Tao'er hurriedly brought the food box. I looked up from the book and glanced at her, her eyes were slightly red.
"What's the matter, did you quarrel with Kuituo?"
"No, no, no." She looked around, obviously avoiding my gaze.
"That's good. If you have something on your mind, maybe I can help you."
"Thank you girl, I'm fine, fine, maybe I'm too happy, yes, I'm so happy." She tried her best to crack the corners of her mouth and smiled at me, but that smile was clearly as if she had just swallowed Coptis chinensis. . Immediately, she turned her head and hurriedly took out the food from the food box. I saw that there were only four dishes, one soup, and two bowls of rice in the food box, but she was busy picking them up and taking them down, but she couldn't make it right. I put my hands flat on the table, and said to her solemnly; "Tao'er, will you give me that vegetarian fish? You have already brought it up and put it back, put it back and brought it up three times, I can see it." My head is dizzy."
"Ah? Really? It'll be fine soon, it'll be fine." She said, but her hands became even more messy. "Hey!" She staggered, and the plate fell to pieces.
"Ha" I sat up straight in the chair, and fanned my ear with one hand to catch the cold; "I really don't want to eat it now."
"I, I didn't do it on purpose, I'll change it right away." Her small mouth was tightly pursed, and Pink's face was flushed red.
"Just kidding." I took the food box in her hand and brought out the rest of the food and put it on the table. "There are already enough dishes, there is no need to change any more. Pack up your things quickly and let's eat together."
From the first day Taoer was with me, I wanted her to eat at the same table as me. At first, she was not used to it, and kept the etiquette between master and servant, and I would not eat if she did not sit down. There is no distinction between high and low in human beings. Gradually, she would also joke with me, pester me to teach her something, talk about her thoughts, and take a nap at the piano table while I was playing the piano. I like and envy everything about her, and what she has is exactly what I long for in my heart. If I can take off the veil of the witch, I'm just a layman.
Tao'er is different from the chattering during meals every day, quietly holding the rice bowl in a daze. Knowing that she has difficult thoughts, I don't care about her eating while reading a book.
"Girl," she finally stopped staring at me in a daze: "Are you... really a witch who can help the prince win the world?"
I just raised my head from the book and glanced at her, then looked down at the book in my hand and asked, "Kuituo told you?"
"En." She nodded: "But I can guess some from your daily words."
I didn't respond, and she didn't say anything more, and used the chopsticks to pick up the rice grains. After a long time, she said softly again: "Why did the girl hide Tao'er? Can't you tell me?" After hearing this, I didn't answer her, stood up and went to the desk to concentrate on trimming the lantern flowers.
It wasn't until I saw her silently putting the bowls and chopsticks into the food box and carrying them towards the door that I said lightly: "If I can hide it, I want to hide it from everyone in the world. I never deliberately concealed it from you, because I don't want to hide it from you." Think there's something to say."
She had already walked to the door and stopped after listening to my words and turned around. It was dark, and she was standing in the dark again, and I couldn't see her face clearly.
"Girl, I..." `Her voice was very soft, after a pause, she finally said: "You should rest earlier, I'm leaving."
Watching her walk out of the room, I relaxed my body and leaned back on the chair to stare at the dancing candle flames. After a long time, I lazily stood up and took some things on my body. Then he drew a few pictures on a spell with a vermilion pen and hung it in the center of the bed curtain, and took a piece of red silk thread to form a flame shape at the bottom of the bed. After doing all this, I clapped my hands and blew out the candle, put on a cloak and walked out the door.
He closed the door and walked into the backyard. Today is the first quarter moon, and a small crescent bud is shadowed in the pool water in the yard. Although it is a crescent bud, it is also bright, obliquely reflecting everything in the yard, with a layer of water-like fluorescence—this reminds me of Li Ruo, who used to be a person who can make the surroundings glow like this. A faint woman of light. But with the deepening of practice and the improvement of spiritual power, she gradually became ice.
Walking to the bamboo forest, I found a thicker bamboo, and sat down with my forehead on my knees. Recalling that there is also a bamboo forest at the entrance of the Holy Land in Gaolong Village, which is arranged in a cross formation to prevent outsiders from entering. When we first entered the Holy Land, we were still young, I was only four years old, Li Ruo was six years old and Kai was only nine years old. There were no other playmates but the three of us with each other. I would often go to play in the bamboo forest without telling my teacher, and find the thickest bamboo to climb up and down. At this time, I usually accompany me nervously. Because bamboo and water are inseparable if they are not separated. She only looked at us from a distance outside the bamboo forest.
At that time, Li Ruo also taught me how to write with her hands. Her hands were warm while I was cold. The mentor once said that the two of us were given the wrong fate by the heavens. It is strange that the fate is cold, but the fate is warm. I will go to Li Ruo very seriously: "The mentor said, our destiny is wrong, change it now. You move things to my residence tonight, and I will move them to yours." She will be crooked After thinking about it for a while, she nodded softly; "Okay, then I will help you move it first." After hearing this, I would point at her and laugh; "Stupid Liruo, you are really easy to deceive." She will also be clever With a smile; "Chou Chengcai, who would believe you!" Then the two laughed together. Those were the happiest years of our lives.
But how long did this happiness last? I do not remember. I just remember that as I got older, Li Ruo became more and more devoted to practice and alienated me and Kui, and I also closed the door and focused on studying side doors to escape my fate. Gradually, we all knew that the three of them would inevitably be hostile in the future, and the relationship seemed to fade. Until the mentor passed away after we were together for twelve years, I also resolutely left the Holy Land to escape my fate and left without saying goodbye. I have never seen each other again since then. I don't know if Li Ruo's hands are still warm now, but mine are still so cold; I don't know if he will still smile and give me a hug if I see Xie again, but I always long for the peace in his arms.
Raise your head and look at the bright moon gradually approaching the mid-heaven, and a drop of tears slipped across the arc of your face and fell quietly on your palm. Five years on, where are they now and— ever thought of me
God is so cruel. If we want us to be enemies forever, why do we need to be companions once. Now that they are dependent on each other, they still have to be enemies by fate. What they depended on each other when they were young is the fate of mutual restraint and death. Li Ruo and I are doomed to fail, so who will be left in the end? Will it be me and Kui? Will it be Li Ruo and Kui? Or only one of the three wins, or... the smoke disappears, the dust disappears and then - fall into reincarnation together.
In the distance, a faint light of fire shines from my house. oh? I sighed in my heart, are you really going to kill me? Unable to let go of my chaotic emotions anymore, I stood up and flicked off the dew on my body, and I walked to the moon gate in the backyard to watch from afar. In a short while, the flames gathered into a ball of flames and burned blazingly. (end of this chapter)