In fact, Feng Can had a feeling in his heart that Cheng Su Nian was not as straight as before, otherwise they would kiss and hug each other at every turn, wouldn't Cheng Su Nian feel disgusted
But this seems to be an objective judgment that is not enough to give him confidence. Before he has completely obtained Cheng Su Nian, he is always fearful, worried about gains and losses, and cannot dispel the "uncertainty" in his heart.
But alcohol can give courage.
If in normal times, Feng Can would have to worry about the consequences, what if Cheng Su Nian was angry? Now he doesn't know how to be afraid anymore, even if there is a knife hanging on Sezi's head, he is willing to die.
He was hot all over, maybe the actual temperature was not that high, it was his own heart that was on fire, heating up his emotions from the inside out, which made him unbearable, so he could only stick closer to Cheng Suinian, wishing to get into the iceberg and let the cold Cold icebergs cool him down, otherwise there is no relief.
"Captain..." Feng Can rested his chin on Cheng Sunian's shoulder, rubbing affectionately.
There was also a fire burning in front of his eyes, looking through the flames at the person he was firmly suppressing, that person's usually indifferent expression was added with a bit of illusory tenderness under his own delirium, without saying a word, It also made his heart twitch.
He became more and more short of breath, and his heart began to tremble, but the physiological feeling he had created for himself was not clear, and it was not as strong as the stimulation when Cheng Suinian's breath hit his face.
He didn't refuse me. Feng Can thought in a daze, then was encouraged, hugged his body even more tightly, and kissed Cheng Sunian clumsily.
This kiss was not special, but it was like a signal. Cheng Sunian was suddenly stimulated, woke up from the inexplicable sluggish state just now, and stretched out his hand to push him.
Did not push away.
Feng Can helped himself with one hand, hugged him with the other, and hugged him tightly against the wall, as if the two had grown together, so that the frequency of Feng Can's heartbeat and breathing seemed to be With the electric current, all of them were transmitted to Cheng Sunian accurately.
Right here, in a strange hotel, with a narrow single bed, Feng Can felt in a trance that he was so close to happiness. For some reason, he wanted to cry. He rubbed his hands up, and gently kissed Cheng Su Nian's eyes, blocking him: " Don't look at me... If you feel disgusted, just treat me like a woman."
"..."
He said it aggrievedly, as if he was very innocent, but his physical characteristics could not be concealed, and he was not at all shameless. The two embraced so closely, Cheng Su was deaf, blind and unconscious, so he must have mistaken him for a woman.
Feng Can sang the whole set by himself, and without giving Cheng Sunian a chance to speak, he deliberately blocked Cheng Sunian's mouth, "I like you so much." As soon as his lips pressed together, he said in an angry voice, "You also like me a little bit, a little bit All right, please."
Just as Cheng Sunian was about to say something, his face suddenly felt cold, and Feng Can's tears fell from above and hit the bridge of his nose.
"..."
Cheng Sunian's words stopped at once, his throat was choked and he couldn't speak, but Feng Can was still kissing him, a very light kiss, only lingering on his lips repeatedly, obviously wanting to kiss but not daring to go deeper, cautiously restraining his desire , Be careful to test the bottom line of his tolerance, lest he be angry if he is too presumptuous.
After a stalemate like this for a while, Feng Can's tears fell silently, his appearance was so pitiful, anxious and longing, as if he was ready to be pushed away in the next second, his eyes were almost a little sad.
What am I doing? Cheng Sunian couldn't help being a little dazed.
He finally realized that he had done too many mistakes. What did he think at the beginning? Why did you agree to be with Feng Can? This kind of abnormal relationship that clearly misleads others and oneself is simply wicked.
Doesn't he know Feng Can? He knows that Feng Can is a simple-minded kid, straightforward and enthusiastic, no matter what he does or who he likes, he doesn't know how to restrain himself, he says what he says and what he says, he doesn't understand hypocrisy at all, and he doesn't know what to say. I don't know how to protect myself, I have to give myself all up, and I don't know the pain until my head is smashed—no, maybe I don't know the pain after being hit to death.
He knew that Feng Can was such a person, but he still accepted the knife offered by Feng Can himself, and then sometimes indulged and sometimes became strict, which made Feng Can nervous, and he was happy when he was stabbed, because he was expecting him to draw the knife Then give him candy.
Although Feng Can did all this voluntarily and on Feng Can's initiative, whoever he asks for a comment will probably say with sympathy or sarcasm that Feng Can deserves it, knowing that they don't like you, you asked for it.
But now that Feng Can's tears hit him all over the face, Cheng Suinian couldn't say "serve it right" no matter what.
"Stop crying, are you two years old? Are you ashamed?" Cheng Sunian stretched out his hand and wiped Feng Can's eyes indiscriminately. He was not gentle at all, and said coldly, "You are taking advantage of me, not me. If you want to bully you, why are you crying?"
"..."
Feng Can was stunned for a moment, but before he could react, he suddenly felt a chill all over his body, it was Cheng Sunian's cold hand.
"!" Feng Can's brain exploded, his face turned red like varnish, even the tears healed.
"you you you… "
Happiness came so suddenly, he was flattered, "you" for a long time, speechless. So the room suddenly became quiet, only the sound of Cheng Su Nian's slightly heavier breathing than usual, and his frantic heartbeat that he tried his best to control but couldn't bear it.
Cheng Su Nian may also be a novice, his skills are not good, but skills are not important, what is important is that this is Cheng Su Nian, the sweetheart he longs for day and night but can't get.
So now... do you count
No, no, at best it can be regarded as reaching a high ground now, and there is still a little distance from pushing the crystal.
Feng Can's heart was crackling and fireworks were going off. As soon as he became happy, he forgot his caution. He moved his body slightly and pressed on Cheng Sunian's body: "Can I do this?"
He pushed Cheng Sunian's bathrobe away, as if he couldn't reach the limit of intimacy, he put it on by himself, and said: "Let me help you too."
"Need not."
"Don't use it." Feng Can stretched out his hand to grab Cheng Su Nian, his voice was soft and cautious, he encountered a layer of fabric obstruction on the way, broke through easily, and said solemnly, "You helped me out of your kindness, I Not so impolite."
"..."
He was crying sadly just now, but now he is pretending to be shameless again. Cheng Suinian can see through it. His pity is true, and it is true that he is guilty of messing around and biting people. The two faces can be switched at any time, and he is not at all. I don't think it should be there.
No, he may know that he is doing something wrong, but he can't control himself, and almost all actions are directed by emotions.
Cheng Sunian looked at him coldly, probably because he was made comfortable by Feng Can, his eyes had a different taste than usual, very seductive.
Feng Can's heart trembled, his hands were as disobedient as his heart, and he was out of balance.
Cheng Sunian was stimulated, and instinctively bowed, showing a bit of pain in his expression, and his face suddenly became ugly.
"..."
Feng Can finally got the opportunity, so he should perform well. How could he leave Cheng Sunian with a bad impression of his skills at such a critical moment? What if there is no next time
He kept moving, lowered his eyebrows, and remedied: "How about I help you?"
"Then what is it?" Cheng Su Nian didn't understand.
Feng Can was embarrassed to say it directly, and said in a roundabout way: "That's what it is, another way..."
He pursed his lips, trying to make Cheng Sunian understand with his eyes. It's a pity that although Cheng Su Nian is older than him, he doesn't have much more experience in this area than him, so he couldn't understand it for a while.
Feng Can blushed, leaned on Cheng Sunian's ear, and whispered: "Can I help you with my mouth?"
"..." Cheng Su Nian was silent for a while, "Don't, I'm afraid you'll bite me off."
Feng Can: "..."
Is it really that bad
Feng Can couldn't help being a little upset, but he had no actual combat experience, and he wanted to put up an experienced and skilled air in front of Cheng Su Nian to make Cheng Su Nian comfortable—even if the relationship is not so good, X's harmonious life will give extra points, right
It's a pity that the relationship can't get better, and the X life skills are also very poor, so there is no future.
No, the future depends on working hard on your own.
"I will study hard." Feng Can moved, trying to find strengths to support himself, "Although I am not proficient, I am still relatively old, do you like it?"
"..."
"It's still relatively big." He pretended to be modest in his words, but in fact he showed off a bit of showing off and ingratiating, wagging his tail and waiting for Cheng Sunian to boast that his capital is really big.
But why did Cheng Sunian like him? Cheng Sunian is not his wife—
no, wait...
Is that what he meant
Cheng Su realizes belatedly after a few years that Feng Can probably really thinks of himself as his wife.
"You—" Cheng Sunian organized his words, he wanted to ask, do you want to fuck me? But these words were too straightforward, so he changed to a tactful one, "What's the use of being so big?"
Feng Can rubbed against him for a long time, bit his earlobe, and said stickily: "Don't you like big ones? Bigger ones will make you more comfortable."
"..."
Cheng Sunian was silent, Feng Can didn't know what he was thinking, thought he was not happy to say this, and immediately changed his tone, like a pyramid scheme, trying to brainwash Cheng Sunian.
"Captain." He called out, "You didn't want to help each other with me before, but now you can accept it, right? Well, we're going to be together for the rest of our lives, so let's solve our physical problems by the way, what's wrong? Otherwise, do you want to be abstinent for the rest of your life? - I told you in advance that I don’t allow you to go to other people, neither men nor women, you can only be with me.”
Cheng Sunian didn't say anything.
Feng Can said: "Well—cough, there is no essential difference between doing it with real guns and helping each other, isn't it all for fun? I will learn the skills hard, and I will be very gentle and won't hurt you, really of!"
Cheng Sunian: "..."
Feng Can slid his arms around Cheng Sunian's hand, trying to go one step further.
The two of them were close together, Feng Can used both his body and hands, which made Cheng Su Nian not in the mood to chat with him. Cheng Su Nian pursed his lips, frowned slightly, turned his face aside, and swallowed all his breath in his throat without missing a single syllable, which was very much like his personality.
But the expression cannot be hidden.
It was the first time Feng Can saw him like this, as if the frozen shell on this man's body had finally melted, and his eyes were covered with water vapor, Feng Can couldn't help but want to lick it.
…
After the two finished helping each other once, it was already very late, Feng Can put his arms around Cheng Sunian's waist, and said clingingly: "Do it again, okay..."
Before waiting for an answer, he put Cheng Sunian's ear in his mouth, drew his voice coquettishly: "I still want it."
Cheng Sunian: "..."
This night was too bad for my kidneys.
In the middle of the night, before falling asleep, Cheng Sunian realized that not only had he mishandled his relationship with Feng Can before, but now he was on the same wrong path.
He has suffered many setbacks and encountered many difficulties in his life, but he never admits defeat. This is the first time that this inexplicable thought popped up——
He thought, I might not be able to solve it. (end of this chapter)