"Have you figured it out yet?"
It is still the familiar street scene outside the window, the familiar car, and the familiar last row. The first time they took this car together, Cheng Su Nian was wearing a summer short-sleeved team uniform, but now he has changed into winter clothes.
In half a year, they kissed, hugged, and slept, but the relationship progressed very quickly, but this relationship was a mess.
As soon as Cheng Sunian asked the question, Feng Can immediately tensed up, even more nervous than participating in the interview: "I figured it out."
"Oh, then why didn't you tell me?" Cheng Sunian didn't smile when he spoke, although his tone was not harsh, but his expression was very serious, "I thought you didn't understand what I meant, or you just didn't want to think about it, just let it go. "
"...how could it be!" Feng Can retorted immediately, "I think about your words seriously every day, really."
It couldn't be more true, you can see it from Feng Can's expression eager to defend himself.
A smile flashed across Cheng Sunian's eyes, he coughed lightly, sat up straight, and turned his face to Feng Can: "Okay, then tell me what you want to understand, I'll be all ears."
"..."
Feng Can didn't expect that Cheng Sunian's "examination" would be a surprise spot check. If he had known that the exam would start today, he would have drafted it in advance and prepared a few nice words. Otherwise, he would not be able to negotiate with Cheng Sunian for a few years.
Feng Can gave up struggling, now he doesn't ask for extra points, and he is thankful if he doesn't deduct points.
"I know what you mean." Like Cheng Sunian, he was sitting upright, looking straight ahead, his voice was small but the words were clear, "You like me and want to be with me all the time, but I'm too immature Now, it's not suitable for future talk, it's probably the kind... that is, suitable for dating but not suitable for marriage, I am this kind of person, right?"
Cheng Sunian nodded: "The understanding is quite deep, and then?"
"You also said that I don't know what kind of person you are." Feng Can continued, "Actually, I know, I know you very well, I know your temper, what you like, what you hate, and how to do it will make you happy, but I—”
Feng Can paused, "But I really don't quite understand your heart."
He lowered the volume of these words, muttered them in a low voice, he didn't complain in his slightly aggrieved mood, instead, Cheng Su Nian felt a bit of resignation, and the rest was longing.
What Cheng Sunian was about to say couldn't help but get stuck, he didn't speak, Feng Can said to himself: "I like you very much, and I have been trying to pester you, but I never thought about what kind of person I am in your heart. Image? Now that I think about it, I probably know it. From your point of view, I am indeed... not trustworthy, not worth relying on, and not very likable. So I want to get rid of my bad habits and become better. Look for you."
"..."
"I think so, right?"
After Feng Can handed in the answer sheet, his expression became tense again. His youthful and serious appearance made Cheng Suinian feel that he was deliberately bullying him by relying on his richer experience in dealing with people.
This brat has this kind of ability, obviously Cheng Su Nian was bullied by him very badly, now that the incident is over, Feng Can has become the weak side again, quickly occupying the moral high ground.
Cheng Sunian also resigned to his fate a little bit, and felt an unspeakable feeling in his heart.
Of course he wanted Feng Can to change, otherwise he wouldn't have said those words, but thinking about it the other way around, does he want Feng Can to become a mature man who is stable, reliable, sensible, and has a high EQ
Then why doesn't he just go find someone who likes this type, it's easy, and it's not difficult for anyone. Or simply look in the mirror and fall in love with yourself.
But having said that, it's impossible for him to let Feng Can ride on his head and have fun casually, he doesn't want to.
So my little boyfriend can only take good care of himself.
Cheng Sunian really felt the double experience of being a boyfriend and a father, and his heart fluctuated a bit, but his face was still watertight, with the same serious expression just now, not even his tone of voice changed.
"So that's why you haven't come to me all this time? You want to 'get better' before you come back." Cheng Sunian said, "What if it doesn't get better in the short term? Are you going to make me wait for a few years?"
He glanced at Feng Can.
Feng Can didn't seem to understand whether this sentence was a good word or a bad word for him, and his expression was slightly dumbfounded. Cheng Sunian thought to himself, it is true that being in love lowers one's IQ, why is this kid getting more and more stupid
He sighed: "Okay, don't think about it, I didn't say anything."
Feng Can was really a fool, and he was anxious when he heard this: "Am I thinking wrong? Then what do you mean, what do you want me to do, can you just say no? You have to play around with me, I can't guess you What do you think—”
"I want you to shut up."
Cheng Sunian suddenly pressed him sideways, pushed him against the back of the chair, and kissed him impatiently.
Feng Can's mouth was gagged, and he shut up as expected. After kissing for about ten seconds, Cheng Su Nian sat up straight, relaxed his shoulders and leaned back, and closed his eyes again.
Feng Can: "..."
Difficult, falling in love is difficult, falling in love with someone like Cheng Su Nian is even more difficult.
In this way, Cheng Su Nian fell asleep during the second half of the journey, and when he was about to arrive at the base, Feng Can woke him up in advance, in case he would get out of the car as soon as he woke up, and it was cold outside and he would catch a cold easily.
Then a group of people went up to the fifth floor, replaying today's game while eating.
Feng Can was the first to be criticized by the coach during the replay, but everyone in SP knows that being criticized by Brother Taiping shows that the mistakes made are relatively small and the problem is not serious. If he made a big mistake and the problem was serious, Cheng Sunian would definitely "entertain" him in person.
Feng Can corrected his attitude, answered every sentence, and promised the coach that he would never make the low-level mistake of flashing into the wall again. When he spoke, he glanced at Cheng Sunian.
Cheng Sunian's expression was serious, and his work status was not personal, even though they just kissed in the car.
Feng Can hopelessly thought, this man is so calm and rational that he has no heart, he grew up according to his taste, otherwise why would he like Cheng Su Nian more and more
It may also be that his tastes have changed with Cheng Suinian, and he likes whatever Cheng Suinian becomes.
Anyway, whether you like it or love it, there is no reason at all, and it is difficult to understand.
That night, after work was over, everyone went back to their nests, and the training room was empty again.
Feng Can and Cheng Sunian were the last to return to the sixth floor.
For the past half month, although they still slept in the same bed, they were mentally separated.
Could the separation be over today
Feng Can sat on the bed and waited for Cheng Sunian to come out of the shower. While waiting, he played the game console for a while, and flipped through the notebook beside the bed—it was Cheng Sunian's notebook, and he seemed to write a diary occasionally.
This book is very old, it looks like it has been kept for several years.
Feng Can stretched out his hand to touch it, imagining in his mind the appearance of Cheng Su sitting on the bed a few years ago, writing and scribbling. How many days and nights was that
Just as he was thinking, there was a door opening behind him.
"What are you doing?" Cheng Suinian came out after washing, sat down by the bed, wiped his hair and said, "That's not a diary, it's nothing to look at."
"...Who said I want to read your diary." Feng Can felt very wronged, "I'm not that kind of person, okay?"
Cheng Sunian laughed.
Seeing that he seemed to be in a good mood, Feng Can took the initiative to grab the towel and wipe his hair for him.
"Captain, are we reconciled?"
"What do you think?"
"Don't make me feel it anymore, I can't feel it." Feng Can paused for a few seconds, his tone a little hesitant, "Actually, I thought about it again later in the car when you were sleeping."
"Well, what did you come up with?"
Feng Can's movements of brushing his hair slowed down, and he whispered, "I want to propose to you."
"... what?" Cheng Sunian suspected that he had misheard.
Feng Can repeated: "I said, I want to propose to you. Don't you think I'm only suitable for dating, not for marriage? I seriously thought about what it means to be 'suitable for marriage'. According to the current blind date standards, there is probably I am satisfied with a car, a house, a stable income, being able to support a family, being healthy and good-looking, having no family genetic medical history, decent character, no moral defects, and no bad habits or love history. Blind date is more suitable for you, because they may not love you, but I love you."
"..."
Cheng Sunian choked.
Feng Can said: "Hey, I've been really tormenting during this time, I feel like I can't keep up with you, why are you so good, even if I try my best, I can't get it, I even suspect that I'm not good enough for you. But I think about it the other way around, although I'm not good, but no one is better than me, I'm not worthy of you, aren't others even more worthy of you?"
Cheng Sunian: "..."
"I was joking." Feng Can put down the towel, lay on his shoulder from behind, his voice softened, and murmured, "But the last sentence is not a joke, I am serious, Captain, but I am not asking if you would like to Willing to marry me—even if you are willing, now is not the right time. I just want to tell you that I am already thinking about it, and I will think about it in the future. Do you think I have become better?"
"… Um."
"Then do you love me?" Feng Can urged him, muttering, "Hurry up and say you love me, I said it just now, you never said it."
Cheng Sunian did nothing, he operated for half a month, and the rhythm was controlled by the enemy AD again.
But SP's command will not give up easily, he turned to Feng Can and said, "Love is okay, but I have one condition—"
Before the word "piece" was uttered, Feng Can learned to answer quickly: "I promise!"
Cheng Sunian: "..." (end of this chapter)