Feng Can has been playing professionally for two seasons, the first year in UG and the second year in SP, and he has lost many games in total in the two seasons, but he has only truly experienced what it feels like to lose a game today.
On the way back to the base, Cheng Su Nian remained silent.
Feng Can looked at him, hesitant to speak.
In this kind of time, there is actually nothing to say. In the face of the cruel reality, all words of comfort are false and powerless, and they can't comfort anyone at all.
Feng Can was stunned for a while, then stretched out his hand silently, pulled Cheng Sunian who was dozing on the seat into his arms, and hugged him forcefully.
The team's bus drove forward steadily, and the street scene passed by outside the window.
Feng Can looked at the person sleeping on his shoulder, and suddenly remembered that a long time ago, when he didn't come to SP, he saw a news on a certain portal.
That news was about the qualifiers for the World Championship last season. SP and Scorpion competed for the last ticket, and SP lost.
The headline of the post-match news was exaggerated, and it was called "SP fiasco! Nian God shed tears on the scene! ", at that time Feng Can had no interest in SP and Cheng Sunian, so he didn't click in to take a closer look.
Later he transferred to SP, and for a while he didn't get along well with Cheng Suinian, and he "hated" Cheng Suinian very much, so he searched a lot of news about Cheng Suinian with an inexplicable mentality.
Only then did he realize that there were a lot of post-match reports that used "Nian God's Tears on the Field" as a gimmick in the title. A search could find dozens of pages, but he clicked in one by one, wanting to see Cheng Suinian, a ruthless man. What is it like to be beaten and cry on the field, but unfortunately he was disappointed, there is not a single photo of him crying, and those titles are all fake clicks.
Cheng Su Nian never cried.
No matter how badly SP lost, he never cried.
But Feng Can felt that he was pretending to be sleeping, pretending to be calm, and not even daring to open his eyes, which was uglier than crying.
However, even so, he has already pretended to be very similar, looking indifferent and strong. People who don't know him must not be able to see his pain, but it is not enough.
Because he can't just "look like", he has to be really strong, he has to stand right in front of SP, let everyone in SP see that their flag is still standing, and SP hasn't fallen.
Feng Can didn't know how Cheng Sunian survived all these years alone. It turned out that losing the Champions League knockout round was so painful, but what about when the EPL lost the championship? What if you can't get tickets to the World Championship? What about when the World Championship stops at the top 16? What about in the finals
again and again.
Will he be in a better mood than he is now? not necessarily.
But competitive competitions are always like this. The dream of being a champion seems beautiful, but it is a cruel knife. Everyone who refuses to give up chasing is stabbed all over by it.
Feng Can hugged Cheng Sunian all the time, the car stopped, and everyone got out of the car, he let go, patted Cheng Sunian on the shoulder, and told him to get out of the car together.
There are wins and losses in the game. For other teams, today is an ordinary day that can no longer be ordinary, but it is the most depressing day for SP this season.
But depression can't last too long. Although the Champions League is out and the league has not yet finished, SP is still the first place in the EPL standings. After losing one of the domestic double crowns, at least they still have a chance to win another.
In the evening, in the training room, the coach said this to the players.
His original intention was to boost morale, but unfortunately the effect was very limited. Everyone understands the truth, but opportunities are just opportunities, and we can only look forward to it. The lost champion is the real deal.
Especially people will be more pessimistic when they are hit. SP is indeed in a better situation in EPL, but it is only two points more than WSND.
If they win WSND in the knockout round of the Champions Cup, they will feel that the two-point advantage is an advantage. Now that they lose, the road to the Champions Cup is over early, and the only two-point advantage in the league cannot heal the strong sense of crisis.
— What if you are caught up
In the next game, if they were careless, SP could not even maintain a two-point advantage. If they were caught up and overtaken by WSND, they would lose all the top four in China this year, and they could only hope for the World Championship.
But the world championship is more like a dream.
Obviously, I was still looking forward to it a few days ago. SP is the most hopeful to build the triple crown this year. In the blink of an eye, a game is turned upside down. The dream of the triple crown is shattered. The mistakes of last year.
The atmosphere in the training room was low, almost depressing.
Cheng Sunian's eyes swept over the faces of several teammates one by one.
Li Xiuming is two years younger than him, and he is considered a veteran. He has stayed in SP for many years and won domestic championships with him.
Zhao Zhou transferred to SP two years ago. This is his third season in SP. When he came, the golden age of SP had just ended. It was the year with the best record in history—runner-up in the world finals , Since then, it has been at a low point. Zhao Zhou has only caught up with the low point, and has never won a championship.
Gao Xinsi came a year earlier than Feng Can. Like Zhao Zhou, they had never experienced the glory of SP.
If it doesn't work this season, then I'm afraid there will be no chance in the future, because Cheng Su Nian's age will only get worse year by year, and he won't rebound again.
When Cheng Su Nian retires, no one can say for sure what will happen to SP, whether it will get better or worse.
Are they afraid
Cheng Sunian thought, not only his dreams are dreams, but also those of his teammates.
"Let's rest early today." Cheng Sunian greeted the coach, the current state is not suitable for other things, "Everyone have a good sleep, we will talk about things tomorrow."
Several people in the training room agreed, each with drooping heads, went upstairs one after another, went back to the room to wash and sleep.
Cheng Sunian took out a pack of cigarettes from under his computer desk, lit it, and got up after smoking.
During this period, Feng Can had been waiting for him, watched him finish his cigarette, didn't complain as usual, only held his hand when he stood up, and went back to the room with him.
Throughout the night, both of them were silent.
Cheng Sunian took a shower first, and when he was lying on the bed, thinking about things expressionlessly, Feng Can dried his hair and lay down beside him.
Cheng Sunian reached out to turn off the light.
Feng Can got into his quilt and hugged him tightly.
"We lost." Feng Can buried his head in the hollow of his shoulder, with his fine hair sticking to the side of his face, and said softly, "But we only lost the Champions Cup, and the EPL, so don't be sad."
"Yeah." Cheng Sunian nodded.
He didn't look at Feng Can, his eyes didn't know what he was looking at, and his expression couldn't be said to be numb with sadness, or a little relieved, he was very lacklustre, tired and indifferent.
Feng Can supported his body with one hand, and forcibly turned his face with the other hand so that he could look at himself.
Cheng Sunian didn't seem to care much about people, so he turned around again.
As if the two were competing, Feng Can continued to pull him back, pinned his head, and kissed him with his head down.
This kiss was very bitter, Cheng Su Nian stopped struggling, Feng Can saw himself through his pupils, hazy and distorted through a layer of fog.
In fact, he couldn't see anything clearly, but when they looked at each other, Feng Can had an illusion. He felt that Cheng Su Nian had put his whole body into his eyes.
The kiss was over until both of them were out of breath.
Feng Can hugged Cheng Su Nian, nothing is more powerful than a hug, he couldn't think of words to comfort him, and after a long time he said: "I'm very afraid of losing the game, because I know nothing can make you happy except winning, I I also know that I don’t need to say anything, you know everything, you can comfort yourself, you are just a little sad for a while, and you will return to normal tomorrow, but I... "
Feng Can lay on his shoulder, her voice choked up: "But I can't comfort myself. When you are sad, I can't comfort myself."
"..."
Feng Can's chest was pressed against him, and the slight vibration there was transmitted to Cheng Su Nian's heart through his body, Cheng Su Nian faintly felt that his heart seemed to resonate, otherwise Feng Can's tone of crying or not, how could it draw his tears.
Could it be tears, Feng Can noticed the wetness on his face, was slightly taken aback, and immediately hugged him even tighter.
There is probably nothing more tragic than this, Feng Can never thought that he would have a day of crying with Cheng Su Nian.
Although "crying bitterly" is a bit exaggerated, Cheng Sunian's tears are very rare, there are only a few drops, and they dry up after wiping. But this was the introduction, which triggered a torrent in Feng Can's body. He pressed on Cheng Sunian's body, and tears fell down from above, crying all over Cheng Sunian's face.
"Okay, okay, don't cry." Cheng Sunian comforted him in turn, "Are you here to make trouble for me? Are you fighting poison with poison? Okay, the poison is very poisonous, I don't feel bad now."
"..."
Feng Can's tears were still falling, but he bowed his head and kissed him without delay, and said: "Let's try harder, do you still have confidence?"
"Yes." Cheng Sunian put his hand on his heart, "As long as it is still beating, I have confidence." (End of this chapter)