extra fire
It is said that excessive joy and sorrow can make people stupid if they overstimulate their nerves. When Cheng Su Nian was held by Feng Can and walked up to the podium, he realized that this was true.
Obviously, he has thought about it many times. In the past, when he was happy and in pain, he fantasized about it almost every day, imagining what it would be like for him to go to the top of the world and hold the championship trophy with his own hands. But now, when he finally achieved his goal, His first thought turned out to be "I didn't expect to have today".
The national flag fluttering in front of the eyes, rows of cheering audiences under the stage, the passionate game music resounding on the scene, and the strong emotions accumulated for ten years——
All these intertwined like an explosion, burning into a big fire, igniting Cheng Su Nian from the inside out.
He suddenly felt that his wish in this life was fulfilled, and he would die without regret.
It was as if the fire had overdrawn his vitality, burned his whole body, and the stone that weighed heavily in his heart was gone. Cheng Sunian was in a trance, his steps fluttered, and his eyes turned white. When it was given to him, countless cameras in front of him were pointed at him to shoot fiercely, the flash was dazzling, and the water shone out of nowhere, and he realized that he was crying.
"world champion".
Nothing is more important than these four words.
Under the rendering of Cheng Sunian's extremely rare tears, this grand and brilliant victory for SP was endowed with a full legendary color. He shed tears, and held hands with Feng Can and raised his head amidst the colorful ribbons flying all over the sky. The picture was fixed on the night of August 3rd in Los Angeles—
"It was a great shot."
August 10th, Beijing time. At this time, the entire SP team had returned to China for a few days.
The weather has become hot recently, and it may also be because the atmosphere in the base is hotter than the weather. The air conditioner is on 24 hours a day, but everyone still can't stand it.
The most unbearable thing is Feng Can's narcissistic look.
"It's a good shot. I know I'm handsome, but I didn't expect to be so handsome." He sat in front of the computer, admiring the photos in his news for the umpteenth time, and muttered, "The main reason is that there is a sense of story, you can see Is it? Just this one, the one where I hold hands with the captain."
"..."
The teammates played their own games, and the coach sat aside drinking water, but no one paid any attention to him.
Feng Can panicked, and when he was ignored, he tried his best to find a sense of presence: "Captain, they ignore me!" He shouted at Cheng Su Nian, "Why are you ignoring me? What are you doing, what are you busy with?"
During the holidays, there is no training arrangement, everyone plays their own games, and when the time comes, they will go to shoot commercials—this is the first time for the SP team to accept commercials. In the past, Cheng Su was strictly controlled, and no team allowed any players who signed into SP. You are not allowed to accept commercial activities, and you must put all your attention on training.
Now that he has become the world champion, the value of the whole team has risen with the tide, and the advertising expenses are so considerable that no one can help being tempted.
However, Cheng Sunian didn't seem to be moved by money. He suddenly didn't like to take care of things. Moreover, it wasn't because he didn't want to take care of things subjectively. It was because his mental state was a bit wrong. He was immersed in a certain emotion and couldn't extricate himself. no more.
This is Feng Can's feeling.
Feng Can felt that since winning the final, Cheng Sunian had become like this.
Are you too happy? Dazed with joy? Or have the burdens of many years finally been unloaded, and the shoulders have become empty, but they are at a loss
"What are you looking at?" The back of the chair sank, Feng Can leaned over from behind, and put his arms around Cheng Sunian's neck, "Weibo? Is Weibo as good as me?"
"..."
Cheng Sunian didn't look up, but laughed when he heard this.
Feng Can took a closer look, he was editing a new Weibo, and seemed to want to post something, unfortunately, when Feng Can looked over, he had just deleted all the content in the input box.
Then he suddenly turned on the camera, aimed at the faces of the two of them, and snapped a picture.
Before Feng Can could express his opinion, Cheng Sunian posted this Weibo with only one group photo.
It's the phone's built-in camera, no filter and no beauty, Feng Can choked up for a few seconds at the angle of the straight man's death: "...that's a really good shot."
Can't blame him for closing his eyes and bragging, it would be nice if Cheng Su Nian was willing to post a selfie, what kind of bicycle do you want.
Sure enough, when I clicked on the comments, the fans were also blowing with their eyes closed, very contented. But among the rave reviews, there was a painting with a different style, which was very conspicuous. This person spoke cautiously and typed a bunch of words carefully, to the effect that he asked Cheng Su Nian, is the retirement rumor false? There will be no less than five SP starters next season, right
Feng Can glanced at Cheng Sunian.
In fact, many people have been asking this question recently, including media interviews and friends in the circle, everyone is very concerned about it.
Feng Can also wanted to ask—no one cared more about this matter than Feng Can, but he held back and didn't mention it.
If he doesn't mention it, Cheng Sunian himself will say it.
On the second day after the commercial was filmed, SP went to catch up with a commercial exhibition competition. After work, Cheng Sunian told Feng Can his thoughts during dinner at night.
They didn't say at the dinner table that Cheng Su Nian went to smoke outside the box and asked Feng Can to accompany him.
After entering the corridor, he didn't hesitate, and said straight to the point: "I've made up my mind, I won't play next season."
"..."
With this sentence, Feng Can's eyes instantly turned red, although he was already mentally prepared. Feng Can nodded, and said slowly: "Okay, it's time to rest, you are too tired."
"Yeah." Cheng Sunian said, "Actually, I should have retired a long time ago. I've been holding on until now, and I finally have nothing to worry about, but..."
He paused suddenly: "But there is still you."
"..."
"I'm a little worried. I've been thinking about it for the past few days. What will you do after I retire?" Cheng Sunian and Feng Can were separated by a cigarette. He took out a new one from his pocket and lit it for him.
Feng Can said: "It's okay, don't worry, I won't lose my temper with the new assistant."
"Well, I know you can." Cheng Sunian smiled at him.
Feng Can's eyes became hot, and he suddenly couldn't hold back and pushed him to the wall, and hugged him hard: "I can't! I don't want to fight anymore, let's go home together."
"... What stupid/crazy words are you talking about?"
"It's not all about you! You left me alone on the field, how do you want me to fight?"
"..."
Cheng Sunian sighed slightly: "So I didn't say anything to anyone, I'll let you know first, I'm here to say goodbye to my AD....Even if I'm not on the court, even without me, Feng Can, no matter who the support is, you are the whole world The best ADC, you have to keep playing and win more championships for yourself, for SP, and for me."
"What about you? What do you want to do in the future?" Feng Can hadn't cried for a long time, and now he was suddenly overwhelmed with grief.
Maybe it's not sadness, but an indescribable sadness.
He knew there was no need to be so sad, Cheng Su Nian would not leave SP, let alone him, but they would never have the chance to fight side by side again.
After they climbed the highest peak in the world together, the story of ADCCAN and the auxiliary AGE came to an abrupt end, and there will be no next one.
But excluding his personal emotions, he is very clear that retiring now is the most suitable choice for Cheng Sunian's career.
"Let's talk about the future. I want to rest for a while." Cheng Sunian kissed him, and the kiss fell on Feng Can's lower eyelid, helping him wipe away his tears. I don't want to do it, I just want to sleep in the dark for ten days and a half months, and relax."
"And then?" Feng Can asked persistently, as if he had to dig out something from Cheng Su Nian, so as to calm the deep sense of loss and anxiety in his heart.
Cheng Sunian noticed it: "What do you want to hear from me?"
Feng Can cried unsightly, looking at him with red eyes, those who didn't know thought it was the scene of their breakup.
The fire in Cheng Sunian's mind has been burning for so many days, and it is almost burning him to ashes. While being watched by Feng Can, flames sprang up from the ashes on the ground again, trembling, burning brighter and brighter, showing a clear outline of his "then"——
People live only for a goal, but Cheng Sunian, this life has come to this point, everything is perfect, even if there are regrets, it is in the past tense, for him, what else can be called a goal
——It was the second half of his life that he hadn't spent with Feng Can yet.
"Then… "
Cheng Sunian looked at Feng Can seriously, "I think I still don't want to part with the game, I haven't won enough, I will stay in SP to lead the newcomers, to go to the end with you and our team."
"Okay." Feng Can hugged him tightly, "SP will have more champions, we will be better next season. And—"
"What?" Cheng Sunian moved Feng Can's shoulder, only to hear Feng Can lower his voice and whisper "I love you" to him.
There is nothing more vulgar than the three words that have been repeated a thousand times. They are so vulgar that they are soaked in the fireworks of the world. It is not uncommon for many couples in the world to say love tens of thousands of times every day.
But it's still so moving.
Cheng Sunian closed his eyes: "I love you too." (End of this chapter)