Liu Heng called Liu Yi, but couldn't get through. He called the company. The secretary on duty that day said that the president had something to do today and didn't come to the company.
After Liu Heng took the bean paste, he received a call from Lu Hengda and drove towards Liu Yi's house with the bean paste. Liu Heng vaguely felt that this incident had a great impact on Liu Yi.
The absolute bachelor finally changed his mind about having a child. All preparations were made, but in the end he was unable to have children due to sperm motility problems.
Liu Heng was driving in front, and Dou Sha was sitting in the back seat. He leaned over and asked carefully, "What's wrong, uncle?"
Liu Heng looked at Dou Sha in the rearview mirror, thought for a while and said, "My uncle originally wanted to give Dou Sha a younger brother and sister, but for some reasons, he couldn't."
Dusha felt the seriousness and helplessness in Liu Heng's tone, so he sat back and remained silent. After a long time, when Liu Heng's car approached Liu Yi's community, Dusha frowned and said, "Then uncle must be very sad."
Liu Heng said: "It's very sad."
Liu Heng pressed the code to enter. When he opened the door, he found that the crystal chandelier in the hall was on, a few men's coats were thrown on the sofa, the floor heating in the room was not turned on, and the air conditioner was not turned on.
Douzha huddled in her down jacket, revealing her two big eyes looking in, and trotted across the sofa into Liu Yi's room.
Liu Heng stood in the hall and glanced around, feeling the smell of loneliness, Liu Yi's smell, as if no one else could live in this home except Liu Yi.
Dou Sha patted Liu Yi's door, and then carefully opened the door.
The room was very dark, with the curtains drawn and no lights on. A very strong and pungent smell of tobacco spread in every corner of the room. Douzha paused at the door for two seconds. After adapting to the darkness, she finally saw the bed. A figure sits on its head.
Douzha shouted: "Uncle." He ran towards the bed.
Liu Heng just walked to the door and saw Liu Yi lying against the head of the bed, neither moving nor making a sound.
"Don't turn on the light!" Liu Yi's voice was a little hoarse and he just said this.
Liu Heng paused and took back his hand that was about to turn on the light. He knew that Liu Yi didn't need anyone's comfort at this time. No grown man likes to open his own wounds and open them for others.
Liu Heng did not go in, closed the door and left the bean paste.
Liu Yi was lying on the edge of the bed, with a pack of empty cigarette cases scattered on the bedside table. Ever since he learned the news, Liu Yi had been smoking alone in the room. He was very awake and knew how much he had smoked. He knew what time it was, and even knew that he had not drank or eaten.
Liu Yi and Liu Heng are very similar. They come from the same family, receive the same education system, and have a very similar working atmosphere as adults. They are used to taking control and like to arrange their lives within plans.
Just like this surrogacy, Liu Yi learned Liu Heng's lesson. Except for confidentiality, he was almost entirely responsible for everything else. All the preparations were done and the money was ready, but he waited for such a person who was not here. Messages within your control.
-He can't give birth! !
The doctor at the surrogacy agency explained a lot to Liu Yi on the phone, why she couldn't have a baby, what the key points were, what she needed to do if she really wanted to have a baby, what the odds were, and what kind of psychological preparation she needed to make. Liu Yi held the phone and stood listening for a long time. He didn't hear anything. There was only one sentence lingering in his mind... Can't give birth.
What does it mean to be unable to give birth? It means he won't have children! Even if you spend a lot of money to find a surrogate with the best conditions, you can't give birth! ! !
Liu Yi used to be an absolute bachelor and a lifelong virgin. Some of his views were related to his early experiences of studying abroad. With great difficulty, he changed his views and wanted to have a family of his own. However, his physical condition determined that he would never be able to have a family of his own. Have children of your own. His expectations were shattered, his hopes were shattered, he would not have children, and he might just spend his whole life alone.
It was like falling from a high altitude into a cliff. He had never felt like this before in his life. He was sad, sad and even desperate.
Douzha walked to the bed, tried her best to keep her eyes wide open in the darkness and groped towards Liu Yi. When she came to Liu Yi's eyes, she finally managed to see Liu Yi's outline clearly, and she called out obediently: "Uncle."
Liu Yi's throat was very dry, and his Adam's apple moved up and down before he said, "Is the bean paste after school?"
Dou Sha put her little hand on the edge of the bed, touched it upward, and touched Liu Yi's hand: "Uncle smokes a lot."
Liu Yi: "Well, uncle won't smoke so much next time."
Dou Sha didn't know what to say for a moment. Although he could feel that his uncle was sad and sad. He smoked a lot, but he didn't quite understand why his uncle couldn't have children. Da Chengzi and his father could give birth to Dou Sha. Why did the uncle Can't? The uncle loves him so much. When Liu Heng was a child abroad, Liu Yi would hug him and coax him. Why can't the uncle have children? !
unfair! !
Dou Sha didn't have much understanding of the word "unfair" before. This was the first time. Dou Sha was absolutely unfair and angry. She felt sad for Liu Yi and sad for her uncle.
"Uncle, are you crying?" Douzha's voice was also low.
"No." Liu Yi reached out and touched the child's head.
"Dad said uncle can't have children, is it true?"
Liu Yi put his hand on Dou Sha's head and pressed it gently. It took a long time this time before Liu Yi nodded and said, "It's true!" He said this like a sigh, not knowing whether he was answering Dou Sha's question. , still comforting myself.
It's true, it's all true.
Dou Sha felt more and more uncomfortable. The child's emotions came suddenly, like an erupting volcano or noisy waves, all at once and with great force.
The room was dark, and Douzha held Liu Yi's big hand with her small hand, feeling the warmth in Liu Yi's palm. Liu Yi was wearing very little and very thin clothes. He was sitting on the cold bed in the room wearing only a shirt and suit pants, but his palms were still warm. Dou Sha was wearing a thick down jacket, and his little hands were indeed cold.
Liu Yi grabbed Dou Sha's little hand and squeezed it in his palm. Dou Sha asked in the darkness: "Why can't you give birth? Why not? Why can others but not my uncle?"
Douzha asked three whys in a row, each question in Liu Yi's mind, yes, why, he also wanted to know why? But what if you know
Dou Sha asked very aggrievedly, as if the pain in Liu Yi's heart spread to Dou Sha's heart along the palm of his hand.
Liu Yi held Dou Sha's little hand, and slowly their hands became warm. Liu Yi suddenly felt a bit real, as if his soul that had just been drained had just recovered. He sat up, pulled Dou Sha into his arms, and He coaxed her like she did when she was a kid, patted her on the back and said, "It's okay, uncle still has her."
Dou Sha pouted and buried her face in Liu Yi's arms. She grabbed the clothes on Liu Yi's chest with her other hand and said in a low voice: "Uncle will have children in the future! There will definitely be!!"
Liu Yi hugged Douzha and held the child tightly in his arms. Liu Yi's face was extremely blurry in the darkness, and his eyes like pool water flickered for a moment, and finally returned to silence, just like his heart.
After Liu Heng left with the bean paste, Liu Yi turned on the air conditioner at home and went to the bathroom to take a shower and change clothes to wash away the smell of tobacco.
Liu Yi changed his clothes and came out, wearing a sweater outside his shirt, but he was barefoot and without shoes.
He pushed open the door of a room and stood at the door for a long time.
The room was a baby's room that had just been decorated not long ago. The walls were pink and light blue, and the floor was covered with a thick layer of soft cushions. Two cribs were placed next to the floor-to-ceiling windows. There were many cabinets on the walls of the room. There are countless toys for ages 0 to 3, as well as diapers, bottles, pacifiers, children's clothes and shoes...
This room was decorated by Liu Yi himself, and it took Liu Yi a lot of effort. Sometimes Liu Yi would come back very late from overtime work, and he would stay in this baby room for a long time. He also spent most of his weekends in this baby room. … He often thought of Dou Sha at that time, and how pitiful and cute Dou Sha looked when Liu Heng was not around when he was very young. Every night when he closed his eyes and lay in bed, he would even think about whether the child he was born would be as beautiful as Dou Sha. …
He thought a lot and even asked professionals from the surrogacy agency. He thought Liu Heng could do a good job and so should he. He did a lot and thought a lot, but in the end, everything was empty...
Liu Yi took a deep breath, finally lowered his gaze and stopped looking into the room. He slowly closed the door, took out the key in his hand, and locked the door completely.
Liu Yi sat back in the study, checked his mailbox and logged into the company's internal system to read documents. He was a little short-sighted and would wear glasses when working.
At this moment, Liu Heng was wearing glasses and facing the computer. There was no light on in the study, and only the cold light of the computer screen shone on Liu Heng's face, reflecting his stern face.
It seems that he has always been such a serious and expressionless person, and his heart is firm and cold. He has never been weak and helpless, let alone sad.
Many years later, only Dou Sha remembered that when he was a child, his uncle was also sad about something. He locked himself in a dark room and licked his wounds alone.
He hugged himself and said, "It doesn't matter. Uncle has no children. From now on, Dou Sha will be uncle's child."
After Dou Sha grew up, he felt extremely lucky. He had the love of Da Chengzi and Liu Heng, the care of his grandparents, the love of his family and friends, and even Liu Yi who protected him all the way.