The first day of the first month.
The whistling cold wind stopped, and the white snow flying all over the sky also stopped. The blue sky even had a little bit of warm halo like sunshine, as if it was about to clear the sky after the snow...
Today is the first day of the new year, the day when Liu Yanbo left a message saying that he would come back.
Yin Hanruo walked out of the house again. Although she hadn't closed her eyes for more than a day and a night, her complexion didn't look bad, and she even looked a little rosy, because she had carefully tidied herself up before dawn. makeup.
she thinks-
When Liu Yanbo came back, give him a warm enough smile instead of a worrying haggard face.
The snow on the ground is very thick, and there are lights and festoons everywhere in the community, but few residents go out, only a few children playing in the snow, which adds some joy to this peaceful and peaceful New Year.
Yin Hanruo stopped walking until he walked outside the gate of the community, and then looked at the end of the road as far as his eyes could see, but—
Still no return of the beloved.
It was already afternoon, and Yin Hanruo couldn't even remember how many times he stood here and waited idly. He only remembered that every time before, he came here full of expectations, and then went back with disappointment and hope.
This time, is it still the same result
After standing outside the gate for about half an hour, Yin Hanruo breathed a sigh of relief, with unspeakable resentment and helplessness, but just when she was about to turn her gaze back and walk back again, a figure appeared in front of her within sight—
This figure is coming out from a distant corner. Although it is still unclear, it is eye-catching enough. The black dress is completely in contrast with the current snow-covered world...
After Yin Hanruo was taken aback for a moment, her gaze stayed on this figure and never left again. She hadn't seen it clearly enough, and her brain hadn't reacted yet, but her footsteps had already involuntarily walked towards him, and the further she walked, the more she walked. The faster you go, the more walking turns into running.
That's Liu Yanbo!
His vision has been blurred by the tears overflowing his eyes, and the closer he gets, the more he can't see clearly, but Yin Hanruo is sure that this figure who is also walking towards her is Liu Yanbo, her husband, because this figure came from From yesterday to today, it has been firmly occupied in her mind, stayed in her heart, and has never been forgotten for a moment.
Liu Yanbo is finally back!
His steps are not fast, but they are also very firm, as if he is trying his best with every step, but the more he does this, the more embarrassed he looks now.
In the New Year, when the auspicious snow promises a good harvest, Liu Yanbo who returned is more like a scarred lone wolf, so decadent that it makes people feel glaring, and so lonely that he seems to be out of tune with the whole world.
The two finally met on the road. Liu Yanbo stopped, raised his head and tried to squeeze out a gentle smile. In order to make his voice sound less exhausted, he began to say out of nothing: "I said big sister , it’s so cold outside, you should wear more clothes when you come out.”
Yin Hanruo was unmoved, because the outermost fur of the clothes she was wearing was more warm than all the clothes on Liu Yanbo's body. She just stared at him blankly, letting the tears that had already filled her eyes burst wantonly. out, no longer blurred vision.
Before Liu Yanbo came back, he obviously cleaned up his appearance on purpose. His body was spotless, but no matter how clean he cleaned up, his bitten lips and bruises on his forehead could not be covered up.
Yes.
He is really scarred now, and he has never dared to take out his hands in his pockets.
No one knows what he did in the past thirty years, but Yin Hanruo knows one thing——
Last night, Liu Yanbo suffered a huge physical and mental damage.
Facing Yin Hanruo who was already raining with pear blossoms, Liu Yanbo was flustered, he didn't even dare to look into her eyes anymore, he wanted to gently wipe away the tears on her face, but he didn't dare to take his hands off her face. Pulling it out of the pocket, I had to try my best to stabilize my voice and said: "Don't cry, it won't be pretty if you cry any more."
"Let's go, let's go back and talk if we have anything to say."
At this time, Liu Yanbo didn't have the courage to face Yin Hanruo now, because he had already realized that she should know something, something he didn't want her to know.
That was his past, a nightmare he would never get rid of all his life, he didn't want to mention it, and he was afraid she would ask about it.
"Liu Yanbo..." Yin Hanruo stretched out her hand to hold Liu Yanbo who wanted to go home, her tears-washed eyes were filled with endless grievances and heartache. "I'm your wife, can you stop pretending to be strong in front of me? Can you take off all your disguises in front of me?"
"Even if it's only for a moment, at least I can fulfill my responsibilities as your wife in this moment, okay?"
Yin Hanruo is begging, in her life so far, this is the first time she is begging someone so humblely, but she does not feel ashamed, because the person she is begging is Liu Yanbo, her husband, she just wants to Do your best to fulfill your responsibilities as a wife—
To comfort him when he is sad;
Give him a hug when he is alone and helpless.
The so-called husband and wife—
Isn't it about supporting each other and relying on each other
Liu Yanbo was struck by lightning, and Yin Hanruo's words made him tremble physically and mentally. All the camouflage he had created for himself was about to fall apart at this moment. He suddenly felt very tired, so tired that he wanted to fall to the ground, and then Cry aloud.
Is Liu Yanbo a strong person
He should be.
From some perspectives, Liu Yanbo is already a hard-hearted person, because he has gone through the vicissitudes of life alone, and he has also endured the ups and downs of life alone while talking and laughing...
But such strength was never what he wanted.
In fact, no one in this world is born strong. Everyone will cry a lot at the moment of birth, venting the difficulty of being a human being.
so-called strong-
It's just the compulsion that people get as they grow up, because no one really likes the helplessness of "the sun goes down, the heartbroken man is at the end of the world", and those who say "I can live well by myself" people who are just—
Pretending to be strong!
This is the nature that everyone is born with, even Liu Yanbo, who regards human life like the morning dew, is no exception. At best, he can only hide this fragility better.
But now, Yin Hanruo has pierced it hard, causing all his psychological defenses to collapse.
certainly-
Liu Yanbo didn't really cry because of this, he just froze in place, and dared to meet Yin Hanruo's eyes again.
He finally let go of his disguise, and all the exhaustion spewed out from the bottom of his heart at this moment, making his originally clear eyes seem to be covered with gray, and become empty and lifeless.
At this moment, he finally pulled out his hands that had been in his pockets all the time, and then slowly opened them, exhaustedly saying: "Honey, can you hug me?" (To be continued)