When Liu Yanbo woke up, it was already the dead of night and early morning.
When he opened his eyes, his eyes were dull as if he had just recovered from a serious illness, but he no longer had the decadence and sadness of when he just came back, and then he saw her, and Yin Hanruo who was supporting his head with his hands by the bed but was already crumbling.
He looks at her—
Looking at her unpainted face covered with exhaustion, seeing her brows that could not be unfurled even in sleep, he suddenly felt very relieved.
Liu Yan fluctuated, trying to get up cautiously, but it still alarmed Yin Hanruo. At this time, her nerves seemed to be extremely sharp, and she had already opened her eyes when the quilt was lifted, although she was still sleepy when she woke up. Dimly tired, but in an instant there was joy and excitement in relief, she looked at him and asked softly: "You woke up, how do you feel now?"
Liu Yanbo sat up, leaned his back against the head of the bed and said, "I feel pretty good, but I'm a little thirsty."
"Don't move, I'll pour it down."
Yin Hanruo went to get a glass of boiled water, and carefully put some sugar in it. Liu Yanbo suffered from hypoglycemia, which she had known for a long time.
The water was very hot and not suitable for drinking. In order to speed up the heat dissipation, Yin Hanruo used two cups to exchange the cup of sugar water back and forth, and blew it with his mouth from time to time, just like all virtuous wives in this world, she was considerate.
Liu Yanbo watched quietly, smiling like sunshine.
Having someone to take care of and accompany you when you are sick is probably one of the most beautiful aspects of marriage, right
When the water temperature was moderate, Liu Yanbo stretched out his bandaged hands like rice dumplings to pick it up, but Yin Hanruo resolutely refused: "I told you not to move. The doctor said, what you need most now is Rest more."
After drinking a whole cup of sugar water under Yin Hanruo's service, Liu Yanchang breathed a long sigh of relief, then licked Jiu Hanfeng Ganlu's lips, and said with a light smile, "This is the best time I have had a rest."
He is telling the truth.
But Yin Hanruo didn't buy it, and after putting the cup on the bedside table, he said unceremoniously: "You were not resting before, it was a coma."
Liu Yanbo smiled sheepishly, and asked by the way: "Then how long have I been in a coma?"
Yin Hanruo glanced at his watch and replied truthfully: "Ten hours."
Hearing this, Liu Yanbo twisted his upper body left and right, and said while exercising his muscles and bones: "It's been so long, no wonder I feel that all the bones in my body are limp now, it's really uncomfortable."
After getting along for so long, Yin Hanruo still has a certain understanding of Liu Yanbo, and the thief said forcefully: "Don't find such a lame reason, just lie down for me and sleep well."
"I can't sleep." Liu Yanbo could only truthfully say: "Besides, you look like you need a good night's sleep more than me."
"You sleep on the bed, I sleep on the floor."
After finishing speaking, Yin Hanruo got up and made a bed for herself. She really needs to sleep well now. In the past two days, she has endured no more easily than Liu Yanbo.
Liu Yanbo no longer insists on giving up the bed, and now he is no longer as stubborn as before, and will no longer forcefully give what he thinks is good to others.
ten hours—
Whether it is a coma or a rest, this is already a long period of time, enough for a physically and mentally exhausted person to recover.
Liu Yanbo lay obediently on the bed again, but he was in such a high spirit that he couldn't fall asleep at all. He really wanted to talk to Yin Hanruo, but he didn't know where to start, because he knew very well in his heart, All she wanted to hear now was probably what he didn't want to mention.
"Liu Yanbo, how long has it been since you went back?" Yin Hanruo asked calmly as he spread the quilt.
go back
Where are you going
At this moment, Liu Yanbo of course understood what Yin Hanruo was asking, he was silent for a while, and whispered: "For fourteen years, from the moment I chose to escape, I never dared to go back."
"The last time you went to see a psychiatrist, you said that you would be mentally prepared to receive treatment after the Ching Ming Festival this year. Have you decided to go back before that?" Yin Hanruo asked again.
Liu Yanbo gave a soft "um", that was indeed his intention.
Yin Hanruo made the floor, but did not lie down in a hurry, but got up and walked to the bed again, sat on the edge of the bed and said: "Then I will go back with you."
As soon as she said these words, Liu Yanbo's face changed suddenly, most of them were frightened, and he said resolutely: "No!"
Why
Yin Hanruo didn't ask, because she probably already guessed the reason—
He was afraid that his own emotions would lose control and hurt those around him.
Yin Hanruo's heart was not shaken by this, but his attitude was even more undeniable: "Liu Yanbo, you are not a good son, but I want to be a good daughter-in-law."
What kind of daughter-in-law is good
In the eyes of your parents, you don't need how filial you are to them, as long as you can accompany their sons to live the rest of their lives with support, this should be the best.
The so-called husband and wife—
Shouldn't we be in the same boat through thick and thin
This is the reason, but Liu Yanbo still shook his head, looking at Yin Hanruo who had firm eyes and a serious expression at this time, he was terrified in his heart, because he had no confidence in himself at all in this matter—
What happened on that New Year's Eve is the only psychological weakness of Liu Yanbo, who cannot control himself.
Of course Yin Hanruo also understands this. In fact, after learning about this incident from Bai Bin, in her opinion, Liu Yanbo has done a good enough job. If anyone, after experiencing such an accident, would may not be able to do better than him—
Understandable and understandable, she still hopes that he can do better, and needs him to do better.
"Liu Yanbo, are you so unconfident in yourself?" Yin Hanruo took Liu Yanbo's bandaged hand and said tenderly but firmly: "Even if you have no confidence in yourself, you should Have faith in me, have faith in us, because we are husband and wife."
"As I said, you are no longer alone." Yin Hanruo continued: "So, if you want to adapt to your current life and get out of the haze of your past, you have to learn to get used to not being alone anymore." Let people bear your joys, anger, sorrows and joys."
"I don't care about you in the past, but now, no matter what you are going to face, I hope you can remember something, at least—"
"You still have me."
Yin Hanruo spoke very affectionately. She had never said such affectionate words to a man before. Even the hard-hearted Liu Yanbo couldn't help softening after hearing this. He looked at her and said bitterly: "I'm just afraid..."
"You are afraid that your emotions will get out of control, you are afraid that you will hurt me if you get out of control, and you are afraid that I will be helpless when you are out of control, right?" Yin Hanruo said first: "Then do you know what I am afraid of?"
Liu Yanbo shook his head.
There were some changes in Yin Hanruo's expression. There was distress, self-blame, and a touch of grief that could not be resolved. She said softly: "I'm afraid that every time you come back in a daze, I don't know why. I am afraid that I will learn about your joys, sorrows, sorrows and joys from other people. Compared with powerlessness, I am a thousand times more afraid, because powerlessness will make me do better, but not knowing will only make me feel better. Made me even more powerless."
"Liu Yanbo, I'm not as useless as you imagined, and I'm no longer the little girl who dreamed of being a princess in a fairy tale. You don't need to create a world with only sunshine and beauty for me. It's not what I want now, do you understand?"
Liu Yanbo nodded, he really understood.
Yin Hanruo held his hand a little tighter, and pleaded sincerely: "So, on the day you decide to go back, please take me with you, okay?"
okay
Liu Yanbo really wanted to say "not good", but facing Yin Hanruo who was so sincere at this moment, he couldn't say this word no matter what.
After struggling in his heart for a long time, finally, Liu Yanbo said with difficulty: "Okay."
He agreed very helplessly, anyone could hear it.
But what Liu Yanbo didn't know was—
Sometimes, helplessness is also a kind of courage. (to be continued)