The clear candle exploded with a light "crack" sound.
Qing Chen sat on the couch with his knees hugged, staring blankly at the bronze mirror not far away, whenever he saw such a face, his heart was still blurred, he didn't know who it was or where he was.
The appearance of the snow-skinned flowers reflected the candlelight, and the faint blush on the cage had an inexplicable and coquettish beauty. She quietly thought about where else to go, what roads to take, not every tomorrow can be easy. decision, but everything must have a choice.
When one thinks of Ye Tianzhan, one feels in a daze that fate has given her such a cruel fact, and maybe it will give her almost perfect compensation in another place.
When she was tossed and confused between love and hate, Ye Tianzhan's heart appeared in front of her as openly as the clear sky, warm but not concealed at all.
Seeing it in my eyes, I think I can deceive myself that I don't feel it, but in fact I just think that ignoring it means that it doesn't exist.
Feng Yan's words today seemed to split the curtain and push everything to the front of the stage. His eyes, words, and smile unavoidably surged from the place where he was most depressed, and instantly overlapped with the beauty in his memory. Inseparable.
With such a perfect opportunity, she knew that as long as she stretched out her hand, he would hold her tightly without hesitation. He had been waiting for her.
Looking back in the memory after being numb for a long time, there was a pain that caught up like a tide, almost drowning. She wondered if she had the courage to reach out again to touch the beauty, the same beauty, and whether the pain and ugliness behind it were the same
Is it the right decision to go back to my own place
Nobody knows.
Tired of thinking, he leaned against the pillow and slowly fell asleep, as if Ye Tianzhan was standing in front of him, with such a calm and breezy smile, blue and boundless.
When he woke up, the warmth of the brocade quilt made him relax physically and mentally. Qing Chen got up and opened the mahogany window with a slit, and the rainy breeze flowed in quietly.
There were sporadic rainstorms outside, which had a hint of autumn coolness, and there seemed to be something extra in my heart for no reason, faint and heavy.
At the flower corridor, Concubine Jin and her maid Feier were walking towards this side. Qing Chen looked at the looming figure of this beautiful woman, imagining Ye Tianzhan's smile, flying with each other and raising his eyebrows. Concubine Jin should be with him The woman next to me.
Suddenly, emotion welled up in my heart. A person's heart has to be shared by others, and a person's love has to be divided into several parts to deal with. If I were myself, I would never accept it. Putting everything aside, how could she share the happiness of other women, let alone this man treats her like a sister. Thinking of this, my heart suddenly became much more relaxed, and I smiled like a self-deprecating, tossing and turning in vain, but I just couldn't figure it out.
Under the backdrop of the magnolia-colored lady Luo Chang, Concubine Jin's gestures were noble and gentle. Seeing her, she smiled and said, "Qing Chen, I have a happy event to tell you."
Qing Chen was slightly taken aback, and asked, "What happy event?"
Concubine Jin took a phoenix-carved jade box from Fei'er, and told her: "You go down first."
Qing Chen took a cup of water and added osmanthus tea made in the sun in his spare time. Together with the water vapor, the aroma of osmanthus permeated the whole room, just like the graceful and dignified smile of Concubine Jin.
Concubine Jin put the box in front of her and said, "Open it and have a look."
Qing Chen took it according to his words and said with a smile: "What good thing can you give me?" While opening the jade box, the white satin was lined with strings of crystal clear blue crystals.
Aquamarine! Her eyes were slightly startled. This is what she was looking for. If she collected all the crystal beads, she might have a chance to activate the Nine Turns Exquisite Formation. Such a clear and flawless aquamarine is the best among crystals.
Looking up at Concubine Jin, Concubine Jin's soft and beautiful eyes were dim, and for a moment there was a very faint darkness like an illusion. Qing Chen's heart was full of thoughts, and he gently closed the jade box, saying: "What a beautiful bead .”
Concubine Jin caressed the jade box with white jade-like fingers and opened it. The crystal blue gemstones flowed with a light luster. She said slowly: "This string of ice blue crystals is the treasure of the Yin family. The imperial concubine asked Your Highness to say yes. Pass it to Concubine Zhan." Having said this, he raised his eyes and fixed Qing Chen.
Qing Chen met her eyes, then smiled and said, "I haven't seen you wearing it before."
Concubine Jin let go, the lid of the box slipped off slightly and closed. She said in such a very light tone: "I am just the side concubine of His Royal Highness the Seventh Prince."
Qing Chen was a little surprised. No one had mentioned it to her. She always thought that Concubine Jin was Ye Tianzhan's main wife, so she frowned and said, "But in my opinion, you are his only wife, what kind of main concubine and side concubine."
Concubine Jin's meticulous eyes turned to Qing Chen's face, and the clear expression in Qing Chen's eyes made her feel as if something heavy was pressing on her heart, heavy, yet calm and close. She sighed deeply, and had to say something.
"Qing Chen, I won't say anything unnecessary," she smiled brightly, "In fact, you and I both know what His Highness is thinking. Today is the one who asked me to ask you, would you like to enter this house?"
Going straight in with a single shot, without any cover, although Qing Chen had vaguely expected such a day to appear, it was still extremely embarrassing to hear this at first. Speechless for a moment, her slender fingers tapped lightly on the table, making a small sound, which slammed into Jin Fei's heart.
The time was too long, Concubine Jin waited anxiously, and couldn't help but said again: "Qing Chen?" It happened that Qing Chen also raised his head at this time and said: "Sister."
After a short look at each other and a smile, Concubine Jin looked away and said, "Say it."
In Qing Chen's eyes, Qingli appeared due to a certain decision, and said in a low voice: "If you want me to say, he really deserved nothing in this matter."
Concubine Jin was so stunned that she couldn't help raising her head: "You..."
Qing Chen waved his hand to stop her, his eyes were as clear as water, and he looked in front of him lightly: "I don't want to blame him, no one has ever treated me as well as he did, I will always remember, but this matter is different. Once we recognize each other, we should have deep affection. I can only accommodate one person in my heart, and if he has a heart, he can only have me. There are groups of wives and concubines in three bedrooms and six courtyards. Even if everyone in the world is like this, I can't accept it. "Seeing that Concubine Jin's eyes were full of surprise, she smiled at her lightly, and said again: "Besides, he wants you to ask about this matter, how can he bear it? You are his wife, he should have I treat you with all my heart, but now I want you to ask others if they want to marry him. Does he not care about your heart? Which woman in the world is willing to share her husband with others, and she has to go through it? Sister, you are a handsome man. I can bear it, but I can't bear it."
Concubine Jin's eyes were slightly sore when she heard this, and she sighed: "I'm just the daughter of the Jin family concubine, and it's enough to marry him as a concubine, so how can I ask him to have me alone? If it's not you today, tomorrow will be too. There are others, the concubine in Prince Zhan's mansion, there will always be one."
Qing Chen said with a faint smile: "I'm a woman of unknown origin. I don't even know who I am, so how can I be a princess?"
Concubine Jin said: "If you recognize Xiang Feng as your father, you will be rightly named Concubine Zhan. Your Highness has spent a lot of time thinking about this. It was also because he personally asked about the lost daughter of the Feng family that day. Xiang Feng knew Immediately after that, let Miss Luanfei come to visit, and now it seems that there are nine out of ten mistakes."
"Really?" Qing Chen asked with phoenix eyes slightly: "If I am not the daughter of the Feng family, am I just one of his wives and concubines even if I follow him, and I will always look up to him, and I will never be able to stand side by side with him ?”
"Standing side by side..." Concubine Jin was almost shocked by such a thought. Even the daughters of official clans were noble, but they couldn't be compared with men. Who ever thought of getting along with men on an equal footing
Qing Chen didn't expect anyone to understand her thoughts, and there was a hint of pride in his smile, and he said: "Qing Chen is reckless, but these words are from the bottom of my heart, my sister should understand my heart."
Concubine Jin said: "Qingchen, you and I are sincere, and I will also tell you and me. It is true as you said, no woman does not want to monopolize her husband, but among the royal family, who is not under the emperor of heaven?" Having wives and concubines is the fate of our women. Sooner or later, this mansion will marry a concubine. Although your time here is short, from the first day you enter the mansion, he has been obedient to you Shun, our sisters hit it off even more. I actually think about him and myself, so I would rather you be the one who enters the mansion than another woman. You and him are also in love, why don't you want to agree to this marriage? "
Qing Chen hesitated for a moment, and said: "I treat him..." His words became confused when he spoke: "He looks very similar to one of my... Although sometimes we can talk to him more, but it’s not like that, it’s just... kind.” After finishing talking in a mess, she stared blankly at the drizzle falling outside the window, feeling like seeing Ye Tianzhan for the first time in her heart The feeling at that time, ups and downs, joy, anger, sorrow, everything, for a while, there was no words.
Concubine Jin seemed to realize something, stared at her for a long time, and suddenly sighed: "This ice blue crystal stays with you, you can make up your own mind. This matter is not forced, and I can't say anything more." After that, Quietly got up: "I'll go back first."
Qing Chen stood up and said hesitantly, "Sister, I'm sorry."
Concubine Jin said: "You have to say this to him yourself."
Qing Chen shook his head: "No, I'm telling you, maybe... I'm also selfish and willful, I..."
"Qing Chen." Concubine Jin said in a low voice, "You don't have to apologize to me. As long as he is happy, I am willing to do anything for him. I hope you can promise him that he treats you sincerely."
Qing Chen sent Concubine Jin away, staring at the radiant ice blue crystal silently, his fingertips sliding in the ice blue ring, circle after circle, like layers of thoughts, endless.
Love so much that you can't love, get together until you have to part, and become a dream after the prosperity...
This road has come to an end.
Her slender fingers finally slapped hard on the table, picked up the ice blue crystal and put it back into the jade box, and walked towards Yanbo to send Shuangzhai.
Ye Tianzhan was not in the mansion, she put the jade box on the desk, and went back to the room to fetch many books borrowed from here for many days, and put them back neatly. She was surprised that in such a short period of time, she had actually read so many books from here. She hadn't finished reading some things, so she stood there and flipped through a few more pages. Occasionally, I saw Ye Tianzhan's small notes on the eyebrows and footers, and remembered that I was laughing and talking about various things in this book with him in front of Xianyu Lake, and a soft smile appeared on my face.
Everything fell back into place, as if it had never been moved. She turned back to the room and tidied up the rooms where she had lived for many days. None of them belonged to her, except for the clothes she was wearing and a hosta from the bamboo house.
But in fact, these are hers? All she has is a singular soul, one that no one here will understand.
It reminded her of the feeling of waking up by the water that day, the feeling of being alone and lost. It seems to be the same now, living alone in a place that doesn't belong to me, and I don't know where to go in the huge space. She half-raised her lips and smiled, what else is the big deal, when the world was turned upside down in front of her eyes, the endurance in her heart had already become infinite.
The rain outside the window has not stopped, it is a good day to say goodbye.