Tang Zhou turned his face slightly, and his eyes were dark and dark, as uncertain as light and shadow.
Yan Dan slowly clenched his fingers under his sleeves, feeling his body trembling slightly, whether it was anger or fear. She always thought that Ying Yuan was ruthless towards her, but no one could blame her. The relationship turned out to be what you want and what you want, but which one is it now? Capricious, is that fun
After a long time, she heard Tang Zhou whisper, "Yan Dan, I miss you very much."
"I know that you exchanged half of my heart for my eyes. For a while, I did mistake it for Zhixi. When I saw you by the side of Yaochi, I knew it was you."
Yan Dan smiled: "So that's the case." She thought for a while, and then said, "It's okay, I was willing at that time, you don't need to care."
Tang Zhou was stunned for a moment, his expression gradually gloomy, and he whispered: "Yan Dan, I think I fell in love with you. A long, long time ago, when I didn't even know it myself."
"What you like is that in the past, when your eyes were out of sight, you could talk to you all the time, and finally healed the dullness of your eyes. It's not me. It never was, and it never will be." She thought about it. I thought, "At that time, I was the only one who would accompany you, but when you get better, it will be different. Even now, you just regret that I jumped in Samsara in front of you."
Tang Zhou chuckled softly: "So you think that I have lived to the point where I don't even understand my own feelings? When you smile, there will be a dimple on your right cheek and the corner of your eye will be curved, as if you are smiling from the bottom of your heart. The same. You and Zhixi, I will not mistake them."
Diya Palace is still deserted and empty, with few people visiting.
Yan Dan walked past the corner of the corridor, and when she saw the black shadow in front of her, she took a few steps back and asked in a trembling voice, "What, what's going on?"
Tang Zhou stopped and said in a flat tone, "Huh? That's the ghost king, haven't you seen it before?"
Yan Dan stomped his feet: "I know it's the ghost king, I'm asking you why it's here?"
Probably because her voice was too loud, the ghost king who was kneeling silently on the ground wiping bluestone bricks raised his head and looked at her dully, his eyes empty. Yan Dan shivered again, and hurried past it: he must have done it on purpose, he always acted as if nothing had happened, so that she couldn't get angry.
Walking into the library, Tang Zhou pushed open the window beside him, and saw a pool of clear water facing the outside. It was not yet the season when the lotus flowers were in full bloom. Yan Dan supported the pane, leaned out and looked out, smiling slightly: "I remember that there was no lotus pond here."
"The kangaroo here has been planted for a long time, and it has never bloomed before. I wonder if it will bloom this year?"
Yan Dan sighed, hesitated and said, "I don't think so. Ying Yuan, let's talk about it, so what if we pretend that nothing happened? Once it has happened, it is impossible to erase it again... It is not for practicing calligraphy, if the writing is not good, tear the paper and rewrite it."
She stretched out her hand to close the carved window to hide the outside scenery, walked to the desk, and picked up the very delicately carved agarwood incense burner: "At that time, I really admired you, Lord Ying Yuan, even if I went to Huangquan in the underworld, I still can't forget... I originally thought that I would die in Yewang River, because I can't forget my past, I can't be reincarnated, I can only turn into those ghost corpses below. I have never forgotten these, and I'm afraid I won't in the future. Forget. But, so what?"
Yan Dan lifted the lid of the agarwood incense burner and said softly: "Put the whole piece of agarwood in it, it will burn with a little spark, and it will not stop until it burns into fine crumbs, then replace it with a new one and continue burning. But when the agarwood is like crumbs, no matter how you ignite it with a fire stick, it won't burn. Just like this agarwood, I have already burned it into fine crumbs, and there will not even be a little fire. The aftermath."
The agarwood incense burner tilted down slightly, and the crumb-like ashes of agarwood scattered on the ground, turning into nothingness.
Yan Dan smiled and looked at him: "Even the last remaining warmth will be cold one day, and there will be nothing left, just like when you and I didn't know each other..."
Tang Zhou left.
Yan Dan slowly slid and sat by the wall, feeling that she was exhausted. I finally said what I wanted to say. In fact, the coming and going is nothing but nostalgia, but it was already the nostalgia of the past. From now on, she is truly relieved.
The sunlight from the outside of the panes slanted in and reflected on the wall, forming a mottled and indistinct patch of light and shadow.
After only half a cup of tea, light footsteps approached and stopped. This person must have been following them all the time before he could pinch Tang Zhou just after he left. Yan Dan raised his head and suddenly saw a very familiar face, the same face that he could see even when he looked into the bronze mirror in the morning.
Zhixi tilted her head slightly, lowered her eyes and glanced at her: "I'm here to find a book." She walked to the edge of the desk, put the things in her hands down, turned around and walked towards the rows of bookshelves.
Yan Dan stood up and saw what she put on the desk was a book with a yellowed cover, and there seemed to be something pressed under the book. She took off the book and saw a small round mirror underneath, and couldn't help but startled: She remembered that Zhixi didn't like looking in mirrors, so why would she carry this with her
Yan Dan picked up the round mirror, and saw that the mirror surface suddenly changed, and it reflected the scene of the mortal world: a woman in coarse cloth was busy with housework, and the boy next to her kept making trouble for her, and she was getting older. The peasant woman scolded her with her arms on her hips. The woman happened to turn her head, as if looking at Yan Dan face to face, her face full of sorrow and misery.
"what do you think?"
Yan Dan was stunned for a moment, then immediately put down the mirror and looked back, only to see Zhixi standing not far away holding a heavy book, with a mocking smile on his face: "Zhang Deng is so abject now, what do you think?"
Yan Dan suddenly felt that she had become a little unfamiliar, so she shook her head: "I don't think so, she is indeed no better than me now."
Zhixi sneered: "No, if she was born into a poor family, it would not be enough. There are thousands of people born in poverty. There are thousands of people in this world. One less of her is not much, and one of her is not much." She Went to the table, put down the heavy book, and said softly, "I went to see her after she was banished to the mortal world."
Yan Dan vaguely guessed: "Could it be that you..."
"Well, I opened up all her memories of her previous life. When she saw me, she almost went crazy and became dumb."
"Zhixi, what if you did this for me, what if someone else found out?"
"I didn't do this for you." Zhixi raised her chin, looking indifferent, "No one would know."
Yan Dan finally understood that when she was watching the fireworks in Nandu, she had indeed seen Fairy Palm Lamp. Whether it was Yan Dan or Zhixi, she would be afraid whenever she saw it.
Zhixi put the round mirror into his sleeve, holding the book and looking at the other side: "You won't come back here again, will you?"
"It should be like this, but you can come to see me in the mortal world."
Zhixi bit her lip and said after a long while, "I won't come to see you, what's so beautiful about it, and it's not the first day I met you."
Yan Dan lowered his head and couldn't help laughing: "Yeah, we were born from the same root, even if we don't meet..."
Still the closest person.
In this world, no one can be closer to each other than each other. They are bound by the same blood, which is stronger than the binding of words.
Yan Dan watched her back disappear, only to realize that there was still a book with a yellow cover on the desk, but she didn't take it with her. She picked it up and turned over two pages. This book was all about the trivial matters of their family, and she didn't know where Zhixi found it, but when she saw a sentence, her heart skipped a beat: "The heart of the four leaves Hanli. , can rejuvenate all things and cure all diseases..."
Rejuvenation of all things
She touched her heart, where it was beating slowly.
An hour has passed from the mortal world to the heavenly court, and now I immediately rushed back to the Zhuanglan Mountain Realm, it should not have been too long.
Yan Dan grasped the fixed water bead in the palm of his hand. According to Ao Xuan, if this bead accidentally fell on the ground, the mortal world would also produce three months of flood water. As long as the fixed water bead was placed on the bottom of the dry lake, a spring of living water would naturally be formed.
She walked through the nine-curved corridor, and saw Antarctica Immortal Weng standing on the edge of the fish pond with her arms and hands behind her. When she saw her coming over, she said with a smile, "Yan Dan, it's been so long since you've grown taller."
Yan Dan pouted slightly and walked to the edge of the fish pond: "Xianweng, do you still want your beard?"
Nanji Xianweng quickly took a step back and scolded with a smile: "You brat... Why, did you go to see your master? He was pissed off by you at that time."
Yan Dan looked into the fish pond, and saw the big tiger-bearded fish jumping up and down fiercely: "Master is really angry?"
"That's natural, your master still wanted to teach a high immortal to show off, but you lost his prestige, can you not be angry?" Nanji Xianweng stroked his beard, "Originally, you only need to stay in the end of the earth for a few more days. , will definitely rise to the Immortal Rank."
"How is this possible? My cultivation base is so low, and I don't have more comprehension than others on weekdays. I still know this."
"It wasn't possible in the first place, but it's different when you have a different eye. You've added a thousand years of cultivation in vain, do you think it's enough?"
Yan Dan groaned in his heart, and stuttered involuntarily: "Yi, Yiyan?!"
"Yeah, but a lot of things happened that year. Your master came over to me and asked me to entrust the strange eye to Donghua Qingjun, but somehow the strange eye was lost, causing Xianweng I to be arrested. He was fined for three years of immortality. Later, even the baby nine fins that had been raised for so long disappeared, it was really unlucky to even drink water!"
"Isn't the nine fins in good condition...?" Yan Dan pointed at the tiger-bearded big fish that was jumping and jumping actively.
"This one? This one is just a strange catfish. It's not even as good as nine fins and a single scale. If I hadn't looked at that nine fins and didn't seem to like the female fish in the pond, I thought he was a broken sleeve and let this male go. Going down, the result..." Antarctica Xianweng counted it over and over, and couldn't help but lift his foot on the back of the tiger's beard and stomped it down, "It turned out to be good, give me three and four here, Eat and drink for free, you can't even change into a human form, you'll get upset just looking at it!"
Yan Dan was trembling: "Nine Fins... Is it actually that weak-looking little fish with red eyes?"
Nanji Xianweng glanced at her: "Yeah, their family has already perished. If it was in the past, they would fly higher than the dragon." : "Go away, or you won't have any food today!" Huxu stepped aside aggrievedly.
Yan Dan looked at the fish pond, thinking about Yu Mo, thinking of his resolute gesture of throwing his strange eyes into the Zhangtai River, thinking of him sighing and saying, "You don't want me to throw it away, what do you want me to do?" With a smile, he said to himself, "Those who watch the show clearly know that it's not their own story, but after watching it for a long time, this story has gradually become their own." He watched his own story and finally entered the show.
She thought that these twenty years were enough for her to understand Yu Mo.
Now she just realized that what she has understood in the past 20 years is only the superficial fur.
She always thought that when she was with Yu Mo, she always talked a lot, but he was lukewarm, and she always clinged to him and stalked him to travel all over the country, but he was really unhappy in his heart. Very happy. She had never really tried to understand a person.
Have you ever loved someone like this.
Have you ever waited for someone with such forbearance
It's not that there is no one in this world who doesn't love her, it's just that she doesn't know it. It turned out that there was one person who understood her so well, but she missed it from beginning to end.
From start to finish, she missed it.