Zhuo Xiuning nodded and went to sleep down.
Zeng Zeping took the cup away and glanced at Xiuning before closing the door and leaving the room.
He came in again at noon, but saw Xiuning sleeping soundly, and seeing Xiuning's plain and defenseless sleeping face, he had no reason to move, because in his impression, Xiuning would only work when he was sick or drinking. He had taken care of him many times, but never bothered him once. He always thought that Xiuning was like this, that he could take care of everything by himself, but it was only now that he realized that Xiuning was just holding on.
If it weren't for Hua Min and him, Xiuning wouldn't have to hide it at all.
Three years ago, he was surprised to learn that Xiuning had no choice but to tell his feelings, because he never thought about it. It turned out to be his own fault, and he never thought that he would like it from so early to now. He never knew that a person's feelings could be hidden so deeply and so deeply, if not because of Hua Min's accident. , Because Hua Min couldn't help but say it before he died, he may only stay in the dark for the rest of his life and never know.
It's just the current situation, how should he deal with it
Zeng Zeping couldn't help but smile bitterly, his feelings for Xiuning were like friends and relatives, but how should he repay this deep love? He didn't know at all whether he could have "love" for Xiuning, at least at this moment, he didn't feel it.
Although he also knows that this situation is actually very bad for Xiuning, and it may only cause more serious damage to him, but he will never know what will happen without being together. He doesn't want to deceive Xiuning, but he still wants to Give it a try, no one can force a person to love someone else, but you can try to love someone, right
chapter eight
It was already afternoon after Zhuo Xiuning woke up. He hadn't slept that long for a long time. When he woke up and looked at the time, he couldn't help but be stunned, then opened the door and walked out of the room.
Zeng Zeping was busy in front of his laptop, and when he saw Zhuo Xiuning coming out, he asked, "Are you awake? Are you hungry?"
"Fortunately... I'm not very hungry." Zhuo Xiuning said.
"But it's almost time, I'm going to cook." Zeng Zeping closed the computer and stood up, ready to go into the kitchen.
Zhuo Xiuning didn't speak and went into the bathroom.
Zeng Zeping looked at the closed door and smiled wryly again.
Now Xiuning can hardly laugh, maybe it has been like this since a long time ago, but he has been hiding too well for people to notice.
While arranging the dishes, he was thinking wildly, but when he heard footsteps behind him, Zeng Zeping did not look back.
"Do you want me to help?" Zhuo Xiuning's low voice came.
Zeng Zeping originally planned to refuse, but he turned his head and said to Zhuo Xiuning with a smile, "Help me sort out these celery."
Zhuo Xiuning came to him without saying a word. He was dressed casually, only a white shirt. At this time, his sleeves were rolled up and rolled up to his elbows. Zeng Zeping watched him quietly pick up the celery beside him and start sorting. The profile of the face is very silent, perhaps because of the thinness, the entire lower jaw looks very obvious.
Zeng Zeping lowered his eyes and suddenly said to Zhuo Xiuning, "Pei is divorced."
Zhuo Xiuning seemed startled, then asked, "When?"
"In the first half of last year."
"What about Sister Cen?"
"It's still the same."
Zhuo Xiuning gave a "hmm" and said nothing more.
Zeng Zeping lowered his eyes and thought for a while, then said, "Your parents..." His voice was hesitant, "Your father asked me to find you... Your mother she..."
Zhuo Xiuning said nothing, just continued the work in his hand.
"Your mother is sick."
Zhuo Xiuning stopped, but still didn't say anything.
"They told me that you send money back every month, but they never called. They... want to know if you are doing well..." Zeng Zeping said slowly.
"... How about you?" Zhuo Xiuning suddenly asked.
"What?" Zeng Zeping was taken aback.
Zhuo Xiuning turned to look at him, "Have you been doing well these three years?"
Zeng Zeping
Looking at Zhuo Xiuning's eyes, there was no warmth in those eyes, but they were serious, he couldn't help but be a little confused, and after a long time he answered, "I..." He lowered his eyes after saying a word, "You should know, How can I be better if I die?" He raised the corners of his mouth as he spoke, but his smile was bitter.
Zhuo Xiuning stared at Zeng Zeping's profile, and couldn't help being silent.
He already knew how important Zhuo Huamin was to Zeping, and what he wanted most was that Zeping could live a good life, but no matter what he did now, he could not save the life of the person who passed away.
After that, the two were speechless again, and no one broke the silence until the meal was ready and finished.
When cleaning up, Zeng Zeping didn't let Xiuning do anything, only let him stay in the living room.
After he had all packed up, Xiuning was not in the living room, but smoking in the balcony.
Zeng Zeping looked at his slightly thin back, and felt a sense of loss. Xiuning asked him just now, reminding him of Hua Min again.
He could not say that he had forgotten his feelings for Hua Min, but it was very different from three years ago. He didn't know if it was because he suddenly knew that Xiuning had hidden his feelings for him for so long, or if Hua Min had never He hadn't told him the secrets in his heart, but in his heart at this moment, the living Xiuning was much more important than the dead Huamin, and he couldn't let Xiuning repeat the mistakes of Huamin.
Zhuo Xiuning heard the footsteps but did not look back. After a long time, Zeping walked to his side and stopped without making a sound.
Zhuo Xiu was quiet for a while, and suddenly he whispered, "You want me to go back... Then I will go back with you..."
Zeng Zeping was stunned for a moment and couldn't help but smile.
Zhuo Xiuning continued, "I didn't ask you to do anything to me, and I don't like to force you to try to have feelings for me that you shouldn't have. If I decide to go back with you, won't you continue like this? After he finished speaking, he turned to look at Zeng Zeping.
Zeng Zeping also looked at Zhuo Xiuning, but his expression at this time was a little helpless.
"Do you like me, to the point that you can only give in all the way?" Zeng Zeping whispered, with an anger that he didn't understand.
"Zeping, I just don't want to embarrass you." Zhuo Xiuning frowned in confusion, he didn't back down, he had no intention of entanglement.
"I don't feel embarrassed." Zeng Zeping said.
Zhuo Xiuning frowned again, he suddenly sighed and threw the cigarette butt into the trash can beside him, turned around and said, "Forget it, do whatever you want."
Zeng Zeping grabbed him.
Zhuo Xiuning looked back at him.
"Don't you love me?" Zeng Zeping looked into his eyes deeply, "Even if I don't want to kiss a man, you can kiss me if you have one."
Zhuo Xiuning was stunned.
"Don't you even want to give me a chance?" Zeng Zeping's voice became hoarse and slow, with a bitter smile.
He had no other way, because Zhuo Xiuning would never take the initiative, even if the result was to hurt Xiuning, he would still say that.
Zhuo Xiuning looked at him for a long time, Zeping's eyes were always gentle, and every time those eyes looked at him, they seemed to be confused by that kind of gentleness, like falling into a dark vortex.
Falling in love with Zeping really started bit by bit, he never knew that he would fall in love with Xi_ng, but he paid attention to Zeping's every move for no reason.
Since middle school, he has fallen in love with Zeping's serious profile when he is concentrating on writing on the blackboard, his straight-handed but somewhat aggressive chalk writing, his one-on-one running with him on the basketball court, and the way he does things There will always be a careful, but also like his sense of justice and gentle heart.
He likes Zeping, and it can't just be explained that he is in love with Xi_ng.
Want to kiss
His gaze was nostalgic between Zeng Zeping's eyes and lips.