"I wanted to wait for you, but I drank a little sleepy. " Xiuning said.
Zeng Zeping just looked at him like that, without saying a word.
Zhuo Xiuning thought of it, and when he saw Zeping's dazed expression, he couldn't help but stop. He leaned on the sofa and asked, "What's the matter with you?"
Zeping stared into Xiuning's deep eyes, and suddenly approached him and kissed him.
Xiuning was slightly startled, but still responded.
His lips were intertwined, and he didn't want to let go. He lightly T-ian touched every warm place, and kept sucking and lingering, a bit bitter but sweet.
Xiuning let him go deeper, feeling the faint and complicated emotions in Zeping's kiss.
After a kiss, it was a long aftertaste.
"Why are you still reluctant to say anything..." Zeng Zeping's low voice rang at this moment, accompanied by a deep sigh.
Zhuo Xiuning was startled again, then smiled and said, "This is not an important matter..."
"Your business is not important, only mine is important, is it?" Zeng Zeping interrupted him and asked, his eyes seemed to be flickering with a faint fire, which blocked Xiuning's line of sight.
Xiuning didn't speak, he didn't know what to say, but he seemed to be used to it. Sometimes once something became a habit, it seemed difficult to change.
"I... I really don't like you like this..." Zeng Zeping sighed heavily, reaching behind and wrapping his arms around Xiuning's neck, and then his forehead pressed against his.
Xiu Ning's heart moved slightly, the corners of his mouth raised and he said, "You don't have to worry so much, birthdays come every year."
Zeng Zeping was speechless, he didn't know what to say.
He suddenly felt that Xiuning was very different from Huamin. Huamin always demanded of him, while Xiuning... was demanded by him.
Because he cares about Huamin, no matter what she asks, he will satisfy her, but what about Xiuning
Xiuning naturally came back with him because he cared about him, but he was not very used to this way of getting along.
"Today is your birthday, what do you want from me?" Zeng Zeping tried to ask him, "I will satisfy you with whatever you say."
Zhuo Xiuning looked at him, thought for a while and said, "I want to go somewhere."
Zhuo Xiuning likes the night scene, especially the city night scene. The place he wants to go is the top floor of the Century Building.
Zeng Zeping went upstairs in the elevator with him. The night wind was blowing slowly, and the strands of hair were blowing.
There was a step at the railing on the top floor, Xiu Ning walked over to the step and sat down on the spot.
Zeng Zeping stood beside him and looked down. The neon lights spread all the way, seemingly endless. This place didn't look as crowded as the city, but it felt empty and unusual, and the air was pure and refreshing.
This refreshing feeling is very similar to Xiuning.
"Do you come here often?" Zeng Zeping asked.
Zhuo Xiuning shook his head, "Not often, I just want to come here often."
"Why?" Zeng Zeping lowered his head and asked him.
Zhuo Xiuning looked at the cars coming and going on the road in the distance for a moment, then raised his head to look at Zeng Zeping and said with a smile, "It's easy for people to think wildly here." He then looked back at the scene in front of him and said, "I don't like thinking too much. many."
Zeng Zeping was silent, and after a long time he sat down and looked forward.
Xiuning said that he didn't like to think too much, because thinking about it was useless and only added to the pain.
"Thank you very much, Zeping." Xiu Ning suddenly said again.
Zeng Zeping was puzzled and turned to look at him.
Xiuning's smile was still so light, but very real.
"I like your things, you are willing to respond to my things, I have always been grateful to you, you make me feel worthy, even if I really don't get it, it is someone who is worthy of love, so thank you very much."
Zeng Zeping was speechless.
"That night made you very embarrassed, but you didn't want to hurt me, so you did it to the end. You are such a person, you have always been so gentle, I see your kindness to Huamin, but I am not after all. Huamin, so now besides thank you, I want to tell you…”
Zeng Zeping watched Zhuo Xiuning say these words calmly, his heart suddenly pounded, he could imagine what Xiuning would do next.
Say something, but he still didn't speak, because he didn't want to stop him.
"You don't have to force yourself to live with me, okay?" Xiuning said.
Zeng Zeping breathed a sigh of relief for a moment, and seemed to feel that something was missing, something was empty, but he didn't want to pursue it.
"Xuning..."
"Today is my birthday. I've always wanted to spend a birthday with you alone, so thank you very much for bringing me here." Zhuo Xiuning added.
Zeng Zeping was silent, he knew that most of his heart still regarded Zhuo Xiuning as a friend, because they were never like lovers, even if they kissed occasionally, he only kissed because he thought in his heart that he should kiss, but Now Xiuning told him so clearly that he wanted him to let go, but he suddenly felt that he couldn't let go.
Although before, he forced Xiuning back because he couldn't let go of his hand, but it was different from now.
Already tried it
Yeah
He clearly felt Xiuning's feelings, and every time he only cared about him and not himself, but he couldn't respond to him the way he responded to Hua Min.
Could it be... is that really the only way to go
Was he destined to still hurt Xiuning
"I'm fine." Zhuo Xiuning said in a low voice, as if seeing through what Zeng Zeping was thinking.
He is really fine, because he never expected, so what happened
"You're right..." Zeng Zeping suddenly whispered, "It's just that I'm not as good as you said, and listening to you say that you love me, it always makes me feel bad."
"Yeah, maybe if I don't love you, you will be more relaxed. I have always thought so, so I don't plan to tell you." Zhuo Xiuning stood up, he smiled and patted Zeng Zeping's shoulder, and said, "It's just that It's too late to say anything now, if you can let go of my business, then I'll be a little bit better, right?"
Zeng Zeping watched his smile, feeling extremely complicated in his heart.
"Let's go back." Zhuo Xiuning said.
That night until he returned to the apartment to take a shower and sleep, Zeng Zeping had not been able to sort out his emotions.
Zhuo Xiuning left.
He did not disappear this time, but moved back to his original apartment and left a note to Zeng Zeping.
He made it clear what he wanted to say, and some things could not be forced from the beginning. Although he still loved Zeping in his heart, he didn't like to be entangled, and he always felt that it would be easier to leave.
When Zeng Zeping came home from get off work, he was stunned as soon as he opened the door, because the smell of him was obviously missing in the air.
He didn't sit on anything but lay down on the sofa smoking a cigarette, and he didn't move for a long time.
Apart from not having a job for the time being, Zhuo Xiuning lives a fairly leisurely life. He went to see his parents. Although he only sat there for a while, his mother's attitude was completely different from that at the time. She seemed to have accepted Huamin's death. Xiu Ning's Xi_ng Xiang, Xiuning didn't say much, just went back to see them, so that they can rest assured.
Next he plans to go on a trip.
When Cen Yun came to him that day and found that he was packing his luggage, he couldn't help being surprised. She grabbed Xiuning and asked, "Are you leaving again?"
Zhuo Xiuning couldn't help but smiled, shook his head and said, "No, just go out to relax."
Cen Yun frowned and stared at him in disbelief.
"How about you and Pei?" Xiu Ning asked.
"Anyway, it's better than you and Zeping." Cen Yun took out a cigarette and said sullenly.
Zhuo Xiuning said, "Zeping and I are very good."
"That's not good, that guy Zeping, I think he can't let you go, and he's still holding on." Cen Yun glared at him.
"He just didn't want to understand." Zhuo Xiuning said.