Shen Jue said: "If you die, you may not be able to meet again in the next life. I will explain it here in this life, are you willing?"
"There's nothing to be reconciled to, this is what I should do." Xu Mingshi replied.
It is because I don't know that I may not be able to meet him in the next life, so it is important to do well in this life.
He has experienced so much in his life, he has experienced no matter how lively it is, and he has appreciated no matter how prosperous it is, but in the end, what stays in his mind is the snowy winter. In the octagonal pavilion, there is a lavender fire, watching the white snow fluttering, drinking and chatting in the pavilion where the cold wind cannot invade. Shen Qingxuan's witty words are endless, even if it is a simple matter, when it comes out of his mouth, there is a lot of meaning. At that time, he was young and youthful, and his temperament was not stable. He was often teased and laughed, and accidentally spilled the wine in his hand everywhere; Shen Jue called him "Uncle Xu" at that time, it was because of the innocence between his eyebrows and eyes. The children, surrounded by the adults in the pavilion, ran and saw Uncle Xu laughing madly, he had no image, couldn't help but also giggled; The wine cup is filled with hot wine.
It was the most unusual winter day, the plum blossoms in the yard were in bloom, Shen Qingxuan invited him to enjoy the flowers.
Not too warm. It's just that the snowflakes are fluttering, the plum blossoms are fragrant, the fire is hot, the peanuts are being roasted beside the fire "crackling", the wine cup is filled and then emptied and then filled again.
However, it is full of flowers and flourishing.
At that time, they didn't know that the road ahead was so bumpy and rough, and they didn't know that there would be so many separations. None of them have the ability to predict, the future is unknown, and they are drunk together.
At that time, they thought they would be friends for life, but until today, they didn't know that this fate was so long. Friendship has not diminished with the passage of time, but it has been polished more and more deeply by time.
Death is terrible, even if he is already a withered old man, he still has fear of the coming eternal darkness.
But love and righteousness resolutely constitute the motivation to go to death.
When you still have the strength to reach out, give a friend a hand, not to gain fame and praise, but just to protect things even if you lose your life, things that can be worthy of a heart and stand in the world.
That is help, support, care, and friendship.
It is precisely because of such things and people who pursue these things that the world can be beautiful and continue to be beautiful.
He has made up his mind, but Shen Jue thinks over and over again, the vision is always beautiful, but the process has been cruel and twists and turns. Shen Jue is unwilling to exchange Xu Mingshi's life for Yi Mo to come back.
"It's about my father, and I should consult my father about this matter," Shen Jue said, "Father can't make up his mind, so it's up to dad to decide."
Xu Mingshi said, "Can't you agree?"
"No." Shen Jue replied firmly.
"Shen Jue," Xu Mingshi looked at him and asked thoughtfully, "In these years, is there one matter in your family that you made up your mind about?"
Shen Jue was taken aback when he heard the words, thought for a while, and finally shook his head. This time I shook my head with a lot of shame.
The children of ordinary families have become the pillars of the family early on, making suggestions, setting directions, and making suggestions for the family. And he never had a time like this.
When Shen Qingxuan passed away, he was still young, and he followed Yi Mo all the time. Yi Mo has a weak heart and rarely gets involved in disputes between right and wrong. If he gets involved, it is because he insists on intervening, so there is no need for others to say more. He just needs to follow behind. Gradually, I grew up like this, but I never stopped following the footsteps of chasing, and I never seriously thought that there would be a day when I would stop. He is where they are. Even if he stopped for a short time because of the emperor, he did not break contact with Yimo during the short separation. Such a stay was not because he could separate, but because he knew in his heart that he would go back soon. This is a habit that has lasted for hundreds of years and has become a habit.
But Xu Mingshi asked: "What will you do after they pass away?"
"I'll go find them." Shen Jue instinctively wanted to answer like this, but the words swirled around his lips before swallowing, because he remembered that there was another person who had promised to look for him, to look for him. He couldn't go to his father and daddy until he found that person.
There was an inexplicable movement in her heart, and Shen Jue stood there in a daze, not knowing what to do for the first time. What if you can't find it? Giving up is not his principle of doing things, and promises come first. A promise is like an oath, you should swear it with your life and practice it with blood! So he can only keep looking until he finds it, and after finishing this matter, he can go to his reincarnated father and dad. They must not recognize themselves.
What good is being a demon. Shen Jue thought, this is not the first time he had this thought, but it was the first time he had such a clear thought.
Seeing his expression, Xu Mingshi couldn't help sighing in his heart, he was actually just a child.
No wonder Shen Qingxuan refused to die with Yi Mo, no wonder Shen Qingxuan would rather live by guarding a snake. For his children, he sees very clearly, so he is always worried.
Yi Mo has taken care of him so well these years that even Yi Mo has forgotten that the young bird with mature wings should have left the nest and looked for new support and bonds, but he has always brought him by his side.
So in Shen Jue's world, there are only three people, Yi Mo, Shen Qingxuan, and the emperor.
If they were not there, that person would not recognize him, and what would happen to Shen Jue in the future is unknown.
Xu Mingshi hesitated and said: "You make a decision. You are their child, no matter what decision you make, you are qualified to make it."
Shen Jue hesitated, but after a long time, she still didn't nod.
At such a stalemate, Liu Yan came back.
Seeing them from outside the door, Liu Yan was obviously delighted. Liu Yan put down the small bamboo basket on his back and showed them the almost full mushrooms in it, "I picked so many, I will cook a pot of fresh soup to drink at night."
Now that he has come back, Xu Mingshi no longer presses Shen Jue, but just shakes his head secretly.
Seeing that their expressions were wrong, Liu Yan asked, "What happened?"
"Something." Xu Mingshi walked around Shen Jue, "Let's talk."
Cakes and tea were set on the stone table, and Shen Jue took the bamboo basket to the kitchen to wash the mushrooms, leaving room for them.
Liu Yan sat down first, her eyes were clear and sharp, as if she knew something. Xu Mingshi, on the other hand, didn't know where to start, and fell silent under his gaze, thinking about his words.
Since he didn't think it through, Liu Yan opened his mouth and asked right away: "About Yi Mo?"
Xu Mingshi was startled, then nodded.
"If you don't tell me, I can guess one or two." Liu Yanding looked at him and said, "You don't need to do anything, it's fine as it is now."
"Is it good?" Xu Mingshi then said, "Actually, I also know what you think. But have you thought about it, you can keep him this year, what about next year? What about the year after? If he really likes a female snake , what do you do if you want to go with it?"
"No." Liu Yan said quickly.
"Why are you so sure?" Xu Mingshi smiled, and after a moment of silence, he said seriously: "He is a snake now, even if he has a heart of affection and knows that you treat him well, he may not want to pursue a life that is more suitable for him. He I will leave you, sooner or later."
After saying that, Xu Mingshi repeated it firmly, saying: "You also understand in your heart."
"The mountain is not just me, I am the mountain." Liu Yan still had that calm demeanor: "Where does he go, I will go with him. If he wants to stay with others, I will accompany him. If it is really unbearable , I just kill the thing that makes him miss, so what if he comes back to me?"
Liu Yan raised his eyelids, and said slowly: "I will tie him up after all, whether he is willing or not. It was like this three hundred years ago, and it will still be like this three hundred years later."
Xu Mingshi said: "There is a better way right now, isn't there?"
"What price do you have to pay?" Liu Yan asked without showing any surprise. As if everything is already known. He has always lived soberly and self-sufficiently, grasping any tiny movement, pondering the tiny traces, in order to deduce the whole picture and make the most appropriate choice. It may not be the best, but it is the most suitable.
He asked, "What price do you want to pay? Xu Mingshi."
"I'm old, and I don't have a few days to live." Xu Mingshi didn't answer directly, but tactfully gave an answer that wasn't deceitful, "He is my friend, confidant, and brother. I should do this for love and righteousness. .”
"Then," Liu Yan said, "after you die, will you reincarnate to find your little white rabbit?"
"Of course." Xu Mingshi carefully concealed the disappointment in his eyes, "I gave up cultivating to find her, and if I was lucky, I could be a husband and wife for the rest of my life... If I had been more careful back then, I would have sent her back to the inn before leaving. It will leave her dead."
"Let me think about it again." Liu Yan said, "You have to let me think about it."
Xu Mingshi sighed: "Then think again."
Liu Yan sat on the bamboo chair and said he wanted to think about it, so he sat there until dark, but no one bothered him. There was only one snake. When he woke up and Liu Yan was not there, he slept again, and when he woke up, Liu Yan still hadn't returned. When he slept again, he felt that the quilt was no longer warm, so he crawled out, swam across the threshold, and found the courtyard. Liu Yan sitting alone.
He climbed up along Liu Yan's ankle so naturally, as if the intimacy between a snake and a person is a matter of course.
Liu Yan stretched his hand, he wrapped him around and was hugged into his arms, he raised his head, licked the face of the person hugging him, and rubbed against him again, then found a habitual position, curled up again and continued to be lazy .
The sky was getting dark, Shen Jue came over with food and said, "Father, I haven't eaten all day."
Liu Yan nodded, looked at Xu Mingshi in the blue light through his side, and asked in a deep voice: "Xu Mingshi, what else are you hiding from me?"
Both of them were stunned in front of him.
"I thought about it carefully. With your temperament, you should tell me this matter happily." Liu Yan stood up holding the black snake, and walked slowly towards him: "You know, I know, you You are old, and you may not survive this year. In these few days, you can still do the last thing. You will be happy to tell me that Yimo still has a way to return to human form."
"But you didn't." Liu Yan said, "Why?"
"You didn't tell me anything, so you hesitated to tell me, even worried that I would disagree?"
"What is it that makes you fearless even to die, yet you keep it a secret and dare not say it?"
Liu Yan pressed her questions one after another, without revealing anything, and every sentence hit the point. Xu Mingshi was almost forced into a cold sweat.
Seeing this, Liu Yan didn't ask any more questions. He said, "Let's leave it at that."
He didn't ask any more, because many things didn't need to be clarified too thoroughly, it was enough for him to ensure that he wasn't confused. Maybe one day Yi Mo will really leave him and look for better support, but before that day comes, Liu Yan will not regret the decision at this moment. Life and death are insignificant matters. Xu Mingshi values love and righteousness. If he wants to die for Yi Mo, he will be sad, but he will not stop him. Everyone has the means and freedom to express their feelings. But he can't do it if he puts his friend in a situation worse than death.
His happiness can be based on death, but not on pain.
"Xu Mingshi," Liu Yan said, "it's not a bad thing to end your life. You live well, we will take care of you, and on that day, we will wash and change your clothes for you, so that you can look for your love in a clean and decent way." Little rabbit."
"She's waiting for you." Liu Yan said softly, with a soft voice and a gentle tone.
After a long time, Xu Mingshi said: "...what do you want me to say?"
What do you say? In life, what people want is nothing more than to have such a person in the world who understands yourself better than yourself.
How lucky he is to be your friend, your confidant, your brother.
He understands you and is considerate of you. Even if you are old and useless, he still takes pity on you who are so old.
Even if he himself is in prison, it does not prevent him from standing there unswervingly like a tall ancient tree, sheltering you from the wind and rain, and protecting you with all his strength.
This is Shen Qingxuan. It was the friend he made when he was young and frivolous, and benefited from it all his life.
There are so many people in the world who come and go, go and return, but there is only this one Shen Qingxuan.
Unique, Shen Qingxuan.