Late at night, the sound of insects outside the house was loud and noisy. It is the stage of another world, the night is its curtain, and the rising moon is the invisible hand that opens the curtain.
It was a small and vast world, and there were vicissitudes and vicissitudes that humans could not understand.
Liu Yan hugged the lazy snake in her arms, thinking that he was once a member of that world and had a different and prosperous life. But now he was in his arms.
"Don't blame me." Liu Yan said silently.
-do not blame me.
Knowing that he is already a real snake and should have the life of a snake, but he will never let go, and stubbornly lock him by his side day and night, maybe just like this, to lock him up for the rest of his life.
I always think that even if he is a snake, if he treats him better, even better, even if he is unreasonable, he will understand something, and maybe he will stay for this all his life. But Xu Mingshi's words echoed in his mind all the time, lingering like a ghost.
"He will always leave." Xu Mingshi said.
He will always leave because he is a snake. No matter how deep a human's affection is, in his eyes it is just a feeder, and no matter how much that person loves him, in his eyes, he is at most just a breeder. It is the owner, not the intimate companion lover. So he will go to the female snake when he needs it, and he will leave forever for it. Maybe not this year, and not next year, but one day, he will meet a female snake he likes, and then accompany her, chasing in the bushes and grass leaves, shuttling between branches, and sharing a delicious meal together, Keep lots and lots of little snakes.
This day has not yet come, but it will come eventually.
Liu Yan silently said over and over again: "Don't blame me."
The confinement and bondage against the will is not beautiful, it is full of cruelty and violence, oppression and deprivation, even if there are many reasons, no matter how light the action is, it is gentle and cruel.
He had experienced this kind of experience himself, in his last life, when his name was Ji Jiu.
But Liu Yan understood that there would be a day in the future when he would stop at nothing to cut off his retreat, so that he could only stay by his side.
That means, what he likes, he will destroy; what makes him linger, he will kill.
With the memory of the third life, Liu Yan knew that he had killed someone before, and he was decisive, ruthless, and his hands were stained with blood. He has never been a kind person. Regarding this point, no matter whether he is in the first life or the second life, he has such a positive self-evaluation. He has killed people, for example, Shen Zhen who he killed when he was Shen Qingxuan; he has killed people, for example, when he was Ji Jiu, he stepped on the bloody path from the prince's companion to the general; Sansheng Sanshi, the memory is full of bones . He has a sinister spirit that oozes from his bones, and when necessary, such ferocity will be revealed, like a blood-licking sword, which can only be sheathed when it sees blood.
But he met Yimo. A cold but not ruthless snake demon, his appearance is like a piece of peerless jade formed by the magma deep in the earth's crust after tens of thousands of years of evolution, when he meets it, it is so gentle and embedded in his heart , to remove a lot of his hostility and viciousness.
So he calmed down and learned to be a truly quiet and kind person.
He never thought that one day he would use this cold side on Yimo.
That was his Emer. Thousands of years of practice, cleansing the lead, has a very long age, but returns to the basics, like a child like Yi Mo.
When he himself would look at the world with a pair of back-to-basics eyes, he wanted to go and hug the child and hold his hand. Then keep going straight ahead.
As long as you think about it like this, the bottom of your heart becomes soft, as if your heart has melted into a puddle of water, and any pain and hatred are melted into smoke in such softness.
It's such a soft mood.
The reality wants him to do cruel things, to smash and destroy such beauty, to drive this snake that has never harmed anyone to a desperate situation, to a point where there is nowhere to go. So that he can continue to hold his hand, even if it is already a scarred hand.
"Don't blame me."
He could only repeat it silently in his heart over and over again.
He knows that when we meet on the road to Huangquan in the future, Yimo will definitely not blame him. Not only will Yimo not blame him, but maybe he will blame himself for becoming a snake and add to his distress, and then he will hug him and say some comforting words .
Thinking of this, the tearing feeling in his heart became deeper and stronger, almost swallowing him up.
What could be more painful than breaking the cherished love in the palm of your hand? He pressed his lips tightly, stirring the pain in his heart over and over again, until the heart was crushed and turned into pureed meat.
There was no one to complain about these pains, so he could only curl himself up in the dark quilt, hugging an unconscious and lazy snake, and remained silent for a long time.
Can only be silent.
In the silence that seemed to be aphasia, he persisted for another day, ushering in the twilight of a new day in the darkness.
The early birds outside the house were already busy, and the sound of Shen Jue sweeping the floor could be heard from the yard, and the bamboo broom brushed the ground with "thrill-thrust-" one sound after another.
Liu Yan lay quietly on the bed, knowing that he had to persevere, and he had no right to give up halfway.
He must persevere.
——If one day we can still be together, I want to stand shoulder to shoulder with you and bathe in the morning light together on this most ordinary morning. Then I can use my witty words to make flowers, like telling a story, a legend, and tell you all the experiences I have experienced.
Then you'll hold me like I hold you, and smile at each other.
So those pains and struggles were turned into honey by smiles.
He has nothing but the will to persevere to the end.
It was this kind of will, so after a sleepless night, when facing Shen Jue who brought hot water, he still had a smile on his face.
Shen Jue arranged the things to be used for washing, stood aside and said: "Father, move quickly, I left some fresh soup to cook the noodles, and there is only the last bit left. Xu Mingshi snatched it away after a while. gone."
After finishing dressing, Liu Yan chuckled lightly, "If you have the time to save soup for me, why not go to the woods and pick another basket of mushrooms."
"I'll pick it later," Shen Jue raised his eyebrows, "I just don't want to spoil that old man, my belly is getting bigger and bigger recently."
"Just say childish things, he has a good appetite and you should be happy."
"Yeah, I'm very happy." Shen Jue said helplessly, "I don't know how happy I would be when he burst his stomach and died of overeating!"
"Is it true that he eats so much?" Liu Yan was dipping in tea to wash his eyes, then put his hands down and said, "Then let him eat less, the stomach itself is weak when he gets older, the right way is to eat less and eat more."
"I told you, did he listen?" Shen Jue snorted: "Go and talk."
"Okay, I'll talk about it later." Liu Yan responded.
"Then I'll go." Shen Jue was thinking about the things in the kitchen, and when he walked to the door, he said, "I'll put it away after washing, and I'll pour the water later."
"Do you think I'm seventy or eighty?" Liu Yan was annoyed and funny, "You can't even lift the washbasin?"
"I'm willing." Shen Jue replied without turning his head, and threw out three words, his tone of voice was no different from Yi Mo's.
He is indeed willing, filial, sincere and enthusiastic. But I don't know how much Liu Yan was worried, it was because he was too happy.
Loving family is human nature. I love home so much that I don't care about anything but home, what will happen in the future
Liu Yan thought, he was the one who entrusted Shen Jue to Yi Mo back then, but he did not expect this situation today. Can't help but think of the appearance of this old demon snake in the last life when he was about to cook confinement porridge for the emperor, but it was the first time in more than a hundred years that the child was with others, and he was so depressed that he was so depressed. Who caused Jue to love her family so much
Teenagers love home, as it should be. Shen Jue has already grown up, and one day, his life will no longer be centered on them.
But Liu Yan didn't know where Shen Jue's center would be, and what would hold his children back after they passed away, allowing him to walk the rest of the way with a support.
Liu Yan didn't even know if she could see her child find a new support in her lifetime. After all, the snake's age is too short, and he only wants to live that long.
Shen Jue didn't know his worries at all. After snatching Xu Mingshi's bowls and chopsticks in the kitchen, Shen Jue couldn't help being annoyed, and said, "Do you want to die that much?!"
Xu Mingshi looked innocent: "The food you cook is delicious. Besides, I'm a guest, so what if I eat more of your food? I've never seen such a stingy host." Glossy, but also pretending to be innocent with a dirty old face, this appearance has nothing to do with the dignified appearance when he was young, and it is even distorted.
Shen Jue couldn't help rubbing his forehead, and said: "If you have accumulated food and can't get up in bed, I won't serve you."
"Which one wants you to serve, anyway, I'm alone, I'm sick and waiting to die!" Xu Mingshi said arrogantly.
The older you get, the more unreasonable you become. Shen Jue made him very angry this time, thinking of smashing the pot and throwing the bowl, but he couldn't make such a move, so he could only stare at him, staring at him for a long time, the other's old face showed no sign of shame, Shen Jue Had to slam the door and leave.
The wooden door was slammed shut with a bang. Shen Jue was really angry this time, and simply left the yard. Liu Yan heard the noise, and then heard the door slamming, and knew that Shen Jue could only have made the move. While wondering why Xu Mingshi deliberately provoked him, she thought that the wooden door should be repaired. At this time, Xu Mingshi came over with his oily mouth.
What's wrong with him cheating, early in the morning is a good time to recuperate the stomach, he just wanted to drink the leftover pot of chicken soup from last night, it was greasy and thick, no wonder Shen Jue was angry.
When Shen Qingxuan raised Shen Jue, even though he was cared for by Yi Mo, he suffered a disaster when he was young, and his body was much weaker than ordinary people, so he often took care of it. Shen Jue also learned a lot about diet. Ever since she took care of them, she has been paying special attention to diet. She is always cautious and unwilling to make any mistakes. Shen Jue was not partial to Xu Mingshi, and took good care of him.
But Xu Mingshi didn't know what kind of evil he was, and he insisted on provoking him, so it's no wonder that Shen Jue slammed the door.
This is really kind to be treated as a donkey's liver and lungs.
Holding the wooden basin, Liu Yan was just about to ask Xu Mingshi why, but the old man's fingers flashed white, and he said to himself very gratified: "Finally, he was driven away."
The wooden basin fell on the ground, the hot water splashed out, and the loess was wet. Before Liu Yan closed his eyes and fell to the ground, he only had time to think: Is it Shen Jue who called uncle.
So know how to provoke him easily.
Xu Mingshi flattened Liu Yan briskly, put him on the bamboo chair in the courtyard, and covered him with a robe, and said cheerfully: "Brother, the sun is good in the morning, and it will be good for your health if you spend more time in the sun. "
It's a pity that Liu Yan couldn't hear it, so he could only unconsciously lie on the stone table and bask in the sun.
Xu Mingshi, who had succeeded in his little trick, turned into a flower with a smile on his old face, entered the bedroom of the master's house, lifted the quilt that Liu Yan could not fold in the future, and greeted the big snake curled up in the quilt to sleep.
Probably because he smiled too creepily, the black snake who sensed the danger stopped being lazy, looked up at him for a while, and immediately got out of bed to look for Liu Yan. But no matter how fast he was, he was still just a snake. Wherever he was the opponent of the old Taoist priest, a spell blocked his way. Xu Mingshi nimbly grabbed the black snake in his hand. This action made the black snake hesitate. After all, he has already gotten used to it for such a long time, so whether to bite or not is a difficult problem.
"Don't bite me, please eat."
Xu Mingshi squeezed his mouth open, and stuffed the medicine he had prepared into it at once. His hand was quick and sensitive, his movements were like the wind, not at all slow as the old man, so fast that ordinary people couldn't see clearly. The black snake is just the most common snake right now, and it immediately hit his path. The thing entered the esophagus and immediately melted, and he couldn't even vomit it out.
Before he had time to express any dissatisfaction with the force-feeding, he was the same as Liu Yan, knowing nothing.
When Shen Jue calmed down and rushed back, everything was a foregone conclusion.
Liu Yan was lying on the stone table, unconscious, the door behind him was wide open, and the golden light was shining inside, dazzling to the point of dazzling, he rushed towards the room immediately.
The golden light seemed to form a solid wall and bounced him back.
"Xu Mingshi!"
Shen Jue immediately understood the situation, and instinctively roared, but knew that it was too late.
"Fate arises and fate dies, the Dao is natural, so don't worry about it."
Suddenly a voice came from behind, and Shen Jue suddenly turned around, and there was an old fairy with a white beard standing outside the door at some point, with aloof demeanor and familiar features. Shen Jue knew him, he was the one who cast a spell to restore his father's memory, and he was the one who took his father away.
"What are you doing here?" Shen Jue asked.
"Come and collect his soul." The old fairy could see his loathing for him, but said with a smile: "He wants your father to be a man, and the price is that his soul will fly away. However, he has something to do, and this soul can't be dispersed. Naturally, I'm here to replace it." He regained his soul."
The old fairy blinked as he spoke, and suddenly he looked very happy, "That's what will happen to him in the future, what can I tell you?"
Shen Jue was stunned for a moment: "Reconcentrate his soul, then he can still be a human being in his next life?"
"Then it's none of your business," said the old fairy, "he's still there anyway, how could he be gone so easily, he smashed a jar of wine on me and haven't got it back yet."
After hearing this, Shen Jue didn't know what to think, and said after a long time, "I don't know if we can meet again."
The old fairy's eyes rested on his face, then slowly moved away, looked at the room shrouded in golden light, and said: "There is still some time before the spell is finished, and there is one more matter, which is related to you."
"Um?"
"Little Snake has entrusted you, if you have nowhere to go in the future, you can come to practice under my sect."
"Father said?"
"He and I have been friends for thousands of years. He has entrusted me with something. Naturally, I can't refuse. You can come to me anytime you think about it in the future. You know where to look for it."
"I won't go." Shen Jue flatly refused, and after waiting, he suddenly said: "I have an acquaintance here, a pine tree is a spirit, the tree has no heart, and practice is difficult, but he has cultivated human form for more than two hundred years , it can be seen that the bones are very good, would you like to take it away?"
The old fairy didn't answer for a while, Shen Jue thought he was unwilling, so he didn't say anything more when he saw this.
"Forget it, I also know about the pine tree spirit. I'll take him away after this matter is over." The old fairy said, "As for you, I'll take you back if I want to come back in the future."
He acted like this, which showed his magnanimity. Shen Jue's disgust towards him eased a lot. He smiled and said softly, "I don't practice. What's so good about being a demon? Is it interesting for you to be a fairy?"
The old fairy didn't expect him to ask such a question, he came back to his senses in surprise, immediately burst out laughing "haha", and said loudly, "I think it's very interesting."
"What's so interesting?" Shen Jue asked.
"At least it can help you unbreakable goblins, can't you?"
Shen Jue was speechless immediately.
While talking, the dazzling golden light gradually faded and dimmed. The old fairy waved his hands and stopped chatting. He took out a small black cloth from nowhere, and the small cloth became a pocket in his hand. He reached in and took out a small black cloth. The crimson gossip furnace of unknown material was thrown towards the sky. The yin and yang fish in the red furnace were spinning, and before the golden light completely dimmed, Shen Jue seemed to see some faint white shadows being sucked into the furnace.
"Okay." The old fairy put the things back into his pocket, and folded the pocket into a small black cloth the size of a palm. He looked up at the sky contentedly as if he was finally done with his work, "I should go."
"Thank you." Shen Jue said, bowed solemnly and saluted.
"Forget it," said the old fairy, "I'll see you in the future, I'll buy you a drink, just don't refuse then."
Although Shen Jue felt that his words were pointless, she also nodded.
The old fairy smiled, looked at the wooden house with the wide open door, and couldn't help but yelled at the silent room: "Little Snake, I have done everything I entrusted, and this is the end of your fate. How about the future, fix it yourself!"
There was no one in the room for a while, until the old fairy had gone away, Shen Juefang heard a long-lost voice, and replied lazily: "Got it."