After nine o'clock, people come and go in the campus living area.
There is no air-conditioning in the dormitory, many students are downstairs in the air, gathering together in small groups, boys chatting about games, girls chatting about lovers.
Pleasant and pleasant.
The campus is the best protection layer.
Like an eggshell, although it is thin, it is still a barrier for the boys and girls who are not yet fully mature, helping them block the erosion of the social tide.
This kind of protection can only be experienced by people who have left the campus.
Huang Xinying held Xu Hui's arm, looking like a girl acting like a baby, but she was actually supporting her.
His body hadn't recovered yet, but he insisted on coming out.
It's also good to come out.
Huang Xinying likes to touch him.
Huang Xinying is a busy person in the student union and knows a lot of people. On the campus at night, every time you walk for a while, you will meet acquaintances and say hello.
It's just that she never introduced the person next to her, as if it was a matter of course that he was by her side.
Friends smiled at her.
The evening wind made her happy.
"Let me take you to our art troupe to have a look. There should be rehearsals now, and the official performance will be the night after tomorrow."
Xu Hui didn't know if he heard her words clearly, so he stopped slowly and looked at the surrounding buildings.
His face was pale, his body was weak, and his expression was slightly dazed.
He left the campus after graduating from high school. He was not familiar with the university at all, and everything here made him feel alienated and unfamiliar.
Everyone was about his age, but everyone looked different from him.
"Will you go?" Huang Xinying was still asking, "But it's okay not to watch, so there will be surprises during the official performance." She blinked at Xu Hui, "How to decide, it's up to you."
"Where does Bai Lu live..."
Huang Xinying didn't hear clearly, "What?"
Xu Hui looked down at her in a blink of an eye, "Bai Lu, that Bai Lu in your class, where is she?"
She heard it clearly this time, but she didn't understand. "Lulu? Why are you looking for her?"
Xu Hui touched his body, but he did not bring his mobile phone.
"Do you want to ask her about the promotion?"
Xu Hui frowned slightly, "Which building does she live in?"
Huang Xinying still didn't understand, but she still pointed to him, "Here, that building, Lulu and the others live on the fifth floor, and I'm on the sixth floor."
Xu Hui looked over quietly.
"Lulu and the others are very concerned about the affairs of your store. You have to cooperate well with them when they are defending at the end of the term, so that they can get good grades."
Xu Hui took a step forward, Huang Xinying held him tightly, and said: "Lulu is very powerful. Although she usually looks very sluggish, she is sure of everything, and it is very reassuring to be with her."
Xu Hui unconsciously said, "Is that so..."
"Yes." Huang Xinying looked at her with a smile, and said, "Her boyfriend is a high-achieving student from Jiaotong University, and he is also the vice chairman of the Shanghai Federation of Students. I heard that we met in high school. Isn't it amazing?"
The footsteps stopped.
The wind is still blowing.
After a long time, he said again:
"Is it… "
An unremarkable girl passed by them and just overheard their words.
Confused, she pushed open the bedroom door, and Sister Pi looked over, "You're back, how is the club going?"
The youngest replied: "It's okay..." He glanced at it, "Where's the room chief?"
"She went to Hangzhou Electric to check out the site, and she will do promotional activities for Ah Hui's store in a few days, but she hasn't come back yet."
"Oh… "
Sister Pi glanced at her, "What are you doing, I'm fascinated."
The youngest shook his head, sat down in his own seat, and turned back to Sister Pi after a while, "Hey, is the room chief with that student from Jiaotong University?"
"Which one from Jiaotong University... the vice chairman of the Student Union?" Sister Pi was still watching the drama.
"Yes, are they together?"
"Not yet, that's what it means. But the man seems to say that we can't talk officially until he graduates from college. I heard from the head of the office that he is very busy and has no time."
The third child was videoing with Liu, and when he heard it, he also came over, "You mean the Mediterranean Sea?"
Sister Pi laughed loudly, "That's right, Vice President of Mediterranean Sea."
The third child curled his lips, "He can really trouble people. Freshman let the director take the TOEFL test, sophomore asked her to take the IELTS test, and now that she is a junior, I heard that he wants to stay in school again."
Sister Pi exclaimed, "It's not sure what's going on, I think the head of the office is just for fun, she doesn't even miss graduate students, why go abroad?"
The youngest only took the time to interject, "I just met Huang Xinying and Xu Hui downstairs."
When Sister Pi heard it, she pulled off the earphones, and immediately beat her chest and stamped her feet.
"Oh, she really succeeded! Flowers grow in the green pond! That Xu Hui has no eyes!"
"No." The youngest interrupted her and told what she had just heard.
"What do you mean?" Sister Pi and the third child looked at each other in confusion, "What does it have to do with the head of the room?"
The youngest shrugged, "I don't know, I just find it strange."
The third child: "Just bragging about it, showing off that you know a lot, gossiping about others behind their backs every day."
The three of them chatted, but no one took it to heart.
Elective course on Friday afternoon, non-linear editing.
Bai Lu reserved a seat in advance—according to years of experience, counting six rows from the front of the teacher's computer is the teacher's absolute blind spot.
The course is mainly about film editing and design. Because it is not a professional course, dormitory 517 is not very interested in this course.
A senior who once graduated said, "If you study well in the later stage, you will grow old if you want to eat." Unless you are really a genius who can shoot and direct, otherwise this line of work is really hard work all the way to the end.
Outside the window, the sky is a bit cloudy.
"I don't know what happened this week." The youngest leaned on his chin, looked out of the window, and whispered, "The sky has been cloudy, when is it going to rain, it's suffocating."
Bai Lu also watched.
The past few days are indeed sweltering, especially in the large classrooms without air conditioning, and I am sweating while panting.
She hasn't seen Xu Hui since the day of the sports meeting.
She called him once, but he didn't answer.
After talking with the student of Hangdian yesterday, she thought she would have a reason to talk to him, but when she went to his shop, she happened to meet Sun Yuhe upstairs, and he stopped her.
Sun Yuhe pointedly hinted at her that Xu Hui and Huang Xinying seemed to have developed.
"You want to see him so much, you can see him at school tomorrow." He said such a sentence.
When Bai Lu asked him what kind of development he was, Sun Yuhe only laughed mockingly.
Perhaps it was because of the weather that Bai Lu felt a little restless and powerless.
"What are you sighing for?"
Bai Lu turned her head and saw Sister Pi looking at her. After an episode of a Korean drama, she has a five-minute break.
"nothing… "
Sister Pi: "It feels like you have something on your mind recently."
Bai Lu looked at Sister Pi, "Can you see it?"
Sister Pi laughed, "Of course I can."
Bai Lu thought for a while and asked, "By the way, do you know what happened to Huang Xinying recently?"
As soon as she heard Huang Xinying, Sister Pi's eyes stood up, "Don't tell me, there really are." She quietly approached Bai Lu, "She seems to have got Ah Hui."
Bai Lu paused, "What?"
Sister Pi told Bai Lu what she saw that night, "Aren't you weird? Why did she and Ah Hui mention you?"
Bai Lu was silent, with the corners of her mouth slightly curved, she said to herself, "...that's it."
"Oh, by the way." Through Sister Pi, the youngest came over quietly and said, "They also arranged a musical, and they borrowed the curtain from our group yesterday."
"musical?"
"Well, the repertoire is quite high-end, "Les Miserables."
"Damn it!" Sister Pi snarled, "As far as their art troupe is concerned, it's hard to say whether they can pick out three with complete five notes, and "Les Miserables"?"
"Anyway, it's just rehearsal. If it's not good, it's not bad. Let's perform tonight."
It turned out that the progress Sun Yuhe was talking about was these.
Bai Lu was lying on the table, while Sister Pi was still discussing the art troupe with the youngest.
She turned her face away and looked out the window.
The sky is gray and the clouds are very low.
Huang Xinying is not stupid, she has ideas about Xu Hui.
Every woman has her own way and means, if there is a way, she can help him, that's fine too.
Bai Lu turned her head and lowered her forehead to the table.
It was good that she could help him.
"It's so fucking boring..." Sun Yuhe complained, taking out a bottle of iced drink from the refrigerator.
The sweltering weather for several consecutive days made everyone irritable.
"Where's Ah Hui?"
"Brother Hui isn't up yet."
"What time is it? Didn't you say you're going to watch a musical with Huang Xinying..." Sun Yuhe frowned, "I'm going out later, you go and call him."
The waiter nodded.
At half past six, Huang Xinying received a hangover from Xu Hui.
"Why is this..." Huang Xinying was slightly dissatisfied.
In the sweltering weather, she ran up and down, and it took a lot of effort to get the two best positions from the head of the group.
She tried her best to dress up all afternoon, but he looked like this without energy.
Looking at Xu Hui, "Is it okay?"
Xu Hui didn't speak.
"I have all the tickets, so I have to go." Huang Xinying dragged him to the theater.
On the way, Huang Xinying regained her good mood, took Xu Hui's arm, and told him how she got tickets for the show from her competitors.
"When I was doing this and that for the troupe, she didn't do anything. Now that the show starts to ask for tickets, how can she be ashamed?"
Her small mouth has not stopped, but unfortunately the people around her have not responded.
Huang Xinying got used to Xu Hui's silence and continued chirping.
"Thanks to the good relationship between the leader and me, her money-grabbing plan did not succeed, and I don't know what she thinks, she gets something for nothing." Huang Xinying snorted twice, showing off her little victory and pride to Xu Hui.
"Is she worthy of her? She is not worthy at all!"
In the chaos, his eyes flickered.
unworthy...
Sharp claws drilled out from under the brain.
As long as you are still a human being, you deserve to go to hell yourself.
You don't deserve a good life.
You do not deserve…
The originally chaotic breathing became heavier.
Shaking her head vigorously, Huang Xinying pulled him inside, "We don't need to wait outside, I'll take you to the backcourt."
There is still some time before the performance, the backstage is very lively, the actors are resting, some are chatting, some are opening their voices.
Huang Xinying saw an acquaintance and said to Xu Hui: "Wait for me here, I'll go say hello to someone."
Xu Hui lowered his head and leaned against the wall.
In a room behind, someone was playing a soundtrack, seemingly emotionally brewing.
Through a door, people in the room hum along with the tape.
Through the buzzing in his ears, subtle music penetrated into his ears bit by bit.
After standing for a while, he walked slowly and left the small theater.
The summer insects chirp, the grass and trees are fragrant, and the campus at night is tender like water.
A few classmates who came out of the library beside him, carrying schoolbags, walked past him talking and laughing.
He stood there for a while, then shuffled back.
high
hearty prayer
there
In the music just now, Com Wilkinson's vicissitudes of compassion are still echoing in my ears.
heisyoung
lyaboy
you can take
you cangive
himbe
himlive
His steps are weak, because his body has been hollowed out.
When passing by her dormitory building, he looked up.
ifidie
die
himlive
Enough is enough, enough is enough.
After returning to the store and entering the room, Xu Hui gently closed the door.
Bai Lu sat at the desk without turning on the computer, with a book open and a pen scribbling.
Sister Pi's drama was playing, the youngest had a happy video chat with Liu, and the youngest went to the club to rehearse as usual.
Only her mood was out of tune.
She couldn't stop thinking.
Has the musical started yet
They should have arrived.
Bai Lu felt anxious.
His back was sticky and sweaty.
She regretted it a little, she should have followed, even if she just took a sneak peek at the back, to see how he was doing now.
She hasn't seen him for a long time.
After ten o'clock, the youngest came back from the club.
As soon as he entered the room, he smiled shrewdly and said to everyone: "Guess what happened today?"
The third child said coolly, "You don't need to be the background anymore?"
The youngest hissed, "If you say it again, I won't tell you."
Sister Pi smiled and said, "What's the matter?"
The youngest closed the door and revealed the mystery, "Huang Xinying has been let go."
Bai Lu turned her head and stood up slowly.
Sister Pi's eyes lit up, "What?"
The youngest said: "Just now I came out of the club and passed by the entrance of the theater to see her explaining to the group leader. Xu Hui seems to have left early."
The third child patted his thigh, "Yes!"
Bai Lu asked: "Gone? Didn't he go to the musical with Huang Xinying?"
"No, Huang Xinying was going to die of anger. I stood behind and listened for a while, but she was still complaining to the team leader that Xu Hui came here after drinking and didn't respect actors at all."
Bai Lu walked out directly, "Is Huang Xinying back?"
"She went out to dinner with the art troupe to celebrate."
Bai Lu paused for two seconds.
He said in a low voice: "This trash..."
Go out again.
Sister Pi shouted from behind: "It's past ten o'clock! The door will be closed soon, where are you going-?"
Bai Lu went out the door, walking faster and faster.
Running in such weather makes it difficult to breathe, the sweat drips from the forehead, and the hair sticks tightly to the cheek.
She has to check it out.
The shop was still very lively, Bai Lu called the waiter, and the shop assistant recognized her because of the previous publicity.
"Brother Sun is not here, he went out. Brother Hui just came back and is resting in the house."
Bai Lu nodded. After thinking for a while, he finally went upstairs and knocked on Xu Hui's door.
No one responded.
"Xu Hui, it's me."
"I've already rented Hangdian's publicity column, and I'll talk to you about the details."
"...you open the door."
"Xu Hui?"
She patted on the door for a long time, but no one opened it.
Clenching her fists, Bai Lu gritted her teeth, turned around and walked out.
Can go more and more slowly.
The corridor was so quiet that she panicked.
Turning around and running back to the door, Bai Lu knocked on the door vigorously.
After several failed attempts, she rushed back downstairs. Bai Lu grabbed a passing waiter and said in a trembling voice, "Key... Hurry up, key."
The waiter was taken aback by her expression, "What?"
Bai Lu suddenly shouted, "Give me the key!"
Sister Pi watched a new episode of Korean drama, stretched her waist contentedly, and went to the ground for activities.
"It's over, pass the gate control."
The youngest had already gone to bed, was reading a book on the bed, and after listening to what Sister Pi said, she poked her head, "Yeah, I don't know where she went..." As he spoke, he added, "Do you feel that every time you mention Xu Hui? Something is wrong with the head of the room."
Sister Pi shrugged, "Who knows what she's thinking."
Came to Bai Lu's table. The desk is very neat, the desk lamp is forgotten to turn off, the warm yellow light shines on an open book, the pages are scribbled and written by her.
"I just like drawing blindly on books..."
Sister Pi pulled away Bai Lu's stool, straddled it, propped her chin, looked at the scribbled words on the book, and read casually—
"As he staggered on,
breeze,
Please be gentle.
Help him blow away his complicated thoughts and stay by his side. "
Lying quietly on the bed, surrounded by empty wine bottles and eaten up Valium.
The waiter was stupefied with fright, but was awakened by Bai Lu's sound, and hurriedly wanted to call an ambulance.
"Too slow! Dongfang Hospital is very close, you go downstairs and stop the car!"
The youngest and Big Liu had a video chat happily, humming a ditty with a smile.
Sister Pi moved her neck leisurely:
"When he was exhausted,
Xiaguang,
Please be gentle.
Soothe a lonely soul and encourage him to try laughing again before giving up. "
Bai Lu kept comforting herself.
Just a few sleeping pills, not that big of a dose, absolutely nothing will happen.
Since it is already a sapling that cannot be straightened, it is also good to cut it down and grow again.
All rebuilds come at a price.
So it doesn't matter, let's not be afraid.
His head rested on her lap, his hair was soft and as fragile as it was two years ago.
The driver saw Bai Lu's appearance in the rearview mirror and was panicked by her.
"Miss, don't cry like that, it's only a minute away, and I'm already driving as fast as I can!"
The lights outside the window are crystal clear and flickering.
She hugged him tightly and wailed loudly, unable to hear anything clearly.
If the dust really settles,
so long night
Please be gentle.
Give him an inch of land so that he can sleep peacefully and sleep peacefully.