Campus evening breeze.
After a day of study, the pace of the students became lazy and slow.
Bai Lu saw Xu Hui downstairs in the dormitory when she was sending Jiang Ru back to school.
He was dressed in black, sitting by the grass altar, looking clean and thin.
Maybe his body was still a little uncomfortable, Xu Hui was not energetic, his hands were folded, and his head was lowered.
The wind blew his long black hair lightly.
He didn't notice her until Bai Lu sat beside him.
He turned his head sideways, and his face looked extremely pale at night.
It was only then that Bai Lu remembered that they hadn't really looked at each other like this for a long time—without alcohol, estrangement, or disturbance.
It rained last night and the air smells of damp and young grass.
His back was bent, his appearance was gentle, like a lost child, who came here in a daze, and didn't know what happened.
Bai Lu looked at him and said, "Did you sneak out?"
Xu Hui nodded.
"Don't like the hospital?"
He nodded again.
Bai Lu understood, and in the blink of an eye, a campus couple fed ice cream to each other, walked past them arm in arm, talking and laughing.
"You're not recovering now, so you can't walk around." After a pause, Bai Lu continued, "Stomach disease needs rest."
"...I can't sleep." Xu Hui finally spoke, his voice was low and slow, without strength.
"Your schedule is too chaotic."
Xu Hui lowered his eyes slightly, as if acquiescing.
Bai Lu said, "Why did you come here?"
Xu Hui looked at her, and there was no complicated "meaningful" or "knowledge" in his eyes—in fact, his eyes were so clean that there was nothing.
Bai Lu's heart trembled when she saw this clarity.
That's right, she thought to herself, people who have gone through life and death will really become different.
Bai Lu: "I'll take you back, it's too late, you have to go to bed early."
Xu Hui lowered his head again, silently expressing his "non-cooperative" attitude.
Bai Lu: "What's wrong?"
Xu Hui said softly, "I don't want to go back to the hospital."
"Okay." Bai Lu understood, "Then go back to the shop."
Xu Hui looked at her and asked uncertainly, "Is it okay?"
Bai Lu stood up: "Let's go."
Xu Hui successfully pulled a "comrade-in-arms" and stood up slowly while supporting the edge of the stone altar. Although she was more than twenty centimeters taller, Bai Lu was accommodating Xu Hui's speed, because he was still very weak and walked very slowly.
Perhaps Sun Yuhe felt that it was bad luck, Xu Hui's room was thoroughly cleaned, everything was replaced with new ones, and the heavy curtains were pulled down.
There are no curtains, and outside the huge glass windows, the night of the University City is dotted with stars and brightly lit.
Bai Lu wanted Xu Hui to rest early, but Xu Hui insisted on taking a bath.
Bai Lu: "You are in such poor health now, what should you do if you have a cold?"
Xu Hui was like a doll who kept copying the last movement, shaking his head and shaking his head again, and pulled down the hanging towel casually.
"I haven't showered for three days." He said disgustedly, "It's so disgusting..."
He loves to be clean, and he can act as if he doesn't know when he's drunk, but once he wakes up, he can't bear the smell of alcohol and sweat left on his body.
"Then be careful."
Xu Hui nodded, took two changes of clothes and went into the bathroom.
While Xu Hui was taking a bath, Bai Lu wandered around the room and accidentally saw the picture frame by the window sill. The frame had been dropped and was broken in the middle, but she still easily recognized from the fine cracks that it was the honeysuckle that she had painted.
When Xu Hui came out of the shower, he happened to see her holding a picture frame.
He walked over and sat beside her.
"That night... I drank too much."
Bai Lu looked at him, Xu Hui didn't meet her eyes, and took the picture frame from her hand.
He was wearing water vapor, with a light fragrance of shower gel on his body, and his thin collarbone and fair skin were exposed in a black round-neck T-shirt.
Eyes half downcast, the profile of his face is soft and calm.
"What do you think about when you drink too much, do you have any memory?" Bai Lu asked.
Xu Hui paused, and said in a low voice, "Yes...but not very good."
"Then don't think about it, go to bed early, it's getting late." Bai Lu pointed to the bed, "Here, lie down."
Xu Hui put down the frame and lay down on the bed obediently.
Just didn't close your eyes.
"Can you sleep with your eyes open?" Bai Lu said.
Xu Hui said lightly, "No."
Before Bai Lu could say anything else, he said again, "You can't even close your eyes."
"..."
Bai Lu: "What should I do if I can't sleep normally?"
Xu Hui hesitated for a moment before saying, "Drink..."
Bai Lu suddenly said, "It's a good idea."
Xu Hui remained silent about Bai Lu's cynicism.
Bai Lu stood up, and he quickly said, "Where are you going?"
"Turn off the lights."
Only the moonlight spilled in from the window.
She sat by the bed, and Xu Hui said, "You can leave after I fall asleep."
Bai Lu stared at him for a moment, and finally agreed, "Go to sleep."
In the following time, they basically didn't talk anymore, they just glanced at each other occasionally - they hardly talked about each other's lives, but they seemed to know each other's affairs very well.
Time passed slowly, and the light outside the window was also less.
The city is also gradually falling asleep.
Xu Hui's insomnia has become a habit, but Bai Lu's is not.
Originally, she had been exhausted in the past few days, but today she forced herself to go out to accompany Jiang Ru to visit the West Lake, and she was exhausted when she came back.
Sitting on the wide bed, next to the soft quilt, there is a faint fragrance in the room.
Bai Lu felt that her eyelids were getting heavier and heavier as if she was out of control.
While half asleep and half awake, someone sat up from her side and helped her body slowly flatten.
Bai Lu was still murmuring unconsciously, "Go to bed early..."
Xu Hui leaned to the side, covered her with a thin quilt, and then lay down on her side.
"Yeah." He answered her the same way, whispering: "You go to bed early..."
He took off her glasses and put them on the bedside table.
Bai Lu without glasses looks even smaller, with slender eyebrows, a small nose tip, and thin, tightly closed lips.
There is a mole under the left corner of the eye, which looks delicate and a little cold.
Xu Hui was so close that he could smell the faint fragrance between the ends of her hair.
He rubbed it with the tip of his nose.
"Bai Lu..." He couldn't fall asleep, so he called her name in her ear, afraid of waking her up, his voice couldn't be softer. In the end, Xu Hui couldn't tell whether there was a sound or not, or it was just a fantasy in his mind.
Darkness drowns everything.
It was early in the morning when Bai Lu woke up, and the moment she opened her eyes, she realized what had happened.
She raised her hand to rub her eyes, only to find that one hand was being held.
His fingers are long, and the meridians and blood vessels on the back of his hand are clearly visible.
Bai Lu turned her head, Xu Hui was very close to her, bending slightly facing her.
He may have just fallen asleep.
Bai Lu slowly withdrew her hand and left quietly.
Back in the dormitory, the three of them hadn't gotten up yet, and no one wanted to miss the rare sleep-in time on Saturday.
Bai Lu tried to keep the room as quiet as possible, and went out for a walk.
When I came back around noon, Sister Pi had already woken up, sat up and yawned.
Bai Lu closed the door, "Get up, do you want to sleep until the afternoon?"
The three of them got out of bed slowly, their faces were not washed or their teeth were brushed, and they sat down and chatted.
The youngest asked Bai Lu, "Director, where did you go last night? Why didn't you come back?"
"Yesterday I accompanied my high school classmate, she came from Sichuan to play."
"Ooh."
"Let's talk about the head of the office. I happen to be free. Do you think we should have a meeting?" Sister Pi said.
"What meeting content?"
Sister Pi: "Just Xu Hui, his store."
"What's wrong?"
Sister Pi picked up a piece of unfinished biscuit from the table yesterday, stuffed it into her mouth, turned her head and said, "The rumors are raging, did Xu Hui commit suicide a few days ago?"
Bai Lu paused, and the third child had already interjected, "It seems, tsk tsk... I used to think he was a bit gloomy and beautiful, but I never thought he was so beautiful."
The youngest said frightenedly, "Suicide... so scary."
"Where did you hear that?" Bai Lu asked.
The campus is too small, and even the university town is too small. Any extraordinary things that happen around here will become the talk of the students after dinner.
But three days of effort, it is too fast.
"Huang Xinying." The youngest still had a shredded cucumber in her mouth, "She said it when she came to visit our dormitory last night."
"She herself was scared to death." The third child said next to her, "I heard that Xu Hui was going to the musical with her, and committed suicide on the way back. Many people asked her about her situation."
The youngest nodded, "She was frightened to death, she didn't fall asleep all night, we were so shocked yesterday. She advised us not to associate with Xu Hui, saying that this person might have mental problems."
Sister Pi looked at Bai Lu solemnly: "Director, although this bitch usually farts all the time, this seems to make sense."
Bai Lu went to the water dispenser to pour water, "What's the point?"
"That's...just the reason." Sister Pi exaggeratedly explained to Bai Lu, "Suicide! No normal person would commit suicide!"
Bai Lu took a sip of water and said, "We've put a lot of effort into the module class, there's no need to change it just because of such a trivial matter."
"Small matter!?" Sister Pi was shocked by her understatement, "Suicide, big sister!"
Bai Lu put down the water glass, "Didn't he die?"
"..."
Bai Lu leaned on the table, "It's fine if we don't die, what should we do?"
The third child also took a biscuit from Sister Pi's table and ate it, "That's right, to be honest, it's troublesome to change stores, why don't you just make do with it?"
Sister Pi stared at the third child, and said dissatisfiedly for a while:
"Can you stop stealing my cookies? Got two last night and thought I didn't know? I'm counting them all!"
The third child glanced over and chewed louder and louder.
Xu Hui fell asleep in the early morning with a light sleep, and woke up within four hours.
When it was blurry, there was a vague figure squatting beside the bed, looking at him worriedly.
Xu Hui opened his eyes and found that it was Sun Yuhe.
They looked at each other for two seconds and turned over.
Sun Yuhe: "..."
Standing up, Sun Yuhe pointed at him and said, "What do you mean? You don't want to see me?"
Xu Hui had low blood pressure when he got up, and his complexion was not very good-looking. Sun Yuhe sneered, "I rushed to see that woman, and it's just like this when I change my brother. Xu Hui, tell me honestly, are you a masochist?"
Xu Hui remained motionless, but Sun Yuhe leaned over and said secretly, "I can see it."
He asked gossipingly: "Hey, what's the matter for a night? I waited until she left before coming in."
Xu Hui wanted to push Sun Yuhe away, but the latter said, "But I would like to advise you, your body is really—"
Xu Hui turned his head and looked at him blankly. Sun Yuhe chose his words carefully, "I'm serious, your current situation is really not suitable for strenuous exercise... If something happens, do you think you will pay for it?" !Plus you have no experience-hey, hey hey!?"
In the middle of speaking sincerely, his neck was strangled.
Although Xu Hui was ill, his strength in his hands was not weak. His slender fingers were stuck on Sun Yuhe's neck, and he was barely able to exert his strength at the end.
"Oh, fuck me—sloppy!" Sun Yuhe grabbed Xu Hui's wrist, "Brother! Don't choke like you're dying!"
Xu Hui moved closer and said in a low voice, "If you don't want to do it, just say it."
Sun Yuhe smiled apologetically, "Wrong, wrong, really wrong!"
Letting go, Sun Yuhe covered his neck.
Coughing and thinking, it's not bad, it looks more energetic than a few days ago.
Bring over the cup.
"Take the medicine." Sun Yuhe said without hesitation, "If you don't want to go back to the hospital, just take the medicine on time."
Xu Hui sat up to take the medicine, while Sun Yuhe stared at him slightly excitedly, and deliberately blocked Xu Hui's face.
Xu Hui glanced at him from the cup, "What's the matter?"
"Hey!" Sun Yuhe laughed slyly, and with a sudden flick, he averted his gaze.
Xu Hui saw a new set of audio equipment stacked against the opposite wall.
"My buddy went to the city to pick it up yesterday, and I'll send it off to you!"
"The effect is amazing!" Sun Yuhe went down enthusiastically and turned on the stereo. "Listen to you!"
The room was quiet for a few seconds, and then, in this set of domineering all-black Bose theater-level speakers, Brahms' classic work slowly flowed out—
"Lullaby".
Xu Hui took a deep breath, lowered his head, and pressed his face with his hands.
"How is it? Is it not bad? I specifically asked Insomnia what to listen to, and they all recommended this."
To be honest, Sun Yuhe didn't understand these things at all, but he was very satisfied with the soothing degree of the music.
Xu Hui lifted the quilt, got up and got out of bed.
Passing by Sun Yuhe, Sun Yuhe was still waiting for his feedback.
Xu Hui watched him for a long time, finally swallowed his breath, went to the closet to choose some clothes to change, and returned to Sun Yuhe.
"You continue to appreciate, I'm not in the store today, just watch."
Pick up the phone, turn around and leave.
Sun Yuhe yelled from behind: "Where are you going, you! You haven't eaten your meal yet, eat something at noon before leaving!"
The room was still chatting enthusiastically, and the topic had gone back and forth between Xu Hui, Da Liu, and Dou Sprout.
The phone vibrated, and Bai Lu looked down.
He raised his eyes and asked, "Are you hungry?"
Everyone said in unison: "Hungry!"
When Sister Pi received the good signal, she had a flattering face: "The head of the office is going out to buy food, please help me bring some."
"So lazy." Bai Lu said, "Will someone treat me?"
When he heard the treat, his eyes lit up.
Sister Pi yelled, "I wonder which righteous man stepped forward!?"
Bai Lu walked towards the balcony and said casually:
"The one who didn't die by suicide."
At noon, the sun has already surrounded the dormitory building, and the balcony to the south is full of clothes and quilts.
Downstairs, where the Green Grass Altar was still located, Xu Hui was wearing a black shirt and slacks that had never changed for thousands of years, and was looking down with his mobile phone.
Suddenly, he seemed to feel something, and raised his head.
Bai Lu rested her elbows on the balcony.
Sister Pi and the others also squeezed over to watch the fun.
"Where is it? People?"
Xu Hui was a little at a loss when he saw three heads suddenly appearing on the balcony railing.
Four people stood on the edge of the balcony, looking down in a row of uneven heights, the posture was very similar to visiting the zoo when they were children.
Sister Pi rushed down and shouted: "Hey!"
Waking up the soul, Xu Hui laughed.
He didn't have the strength to shout, so he held his hand and bowed slightly.
Under the bright sun, he was dressed in white and dressed in black. His peaceful appearance was like a drop of ink accidentally left behind by God when he was drawing the scroll of the world.
"Damn it..." Sister Pi leaned back, clutching her forehead, and said weakly, "I can't do it, Su makes me unable to stand up..."
The third child stood behind her and said, "What are you doing!? It's just as good as his mother's!"
Sister Pi pulled Bai Lu: "Director, you are right."
Bai Lu looked at her, and Sister Pi held her wrist tightly, and said sincerely: "It's fine if you don't die, sincerely... you don't need anything, it's fine if you don't die!"