Not to see him
see who
Luo Fei
Xiao He didn't react at that moment, he frowned slightly, because he was physically and mentally exhausted, so he was a little restless.
He didn't make a sound, but this demeanor was enough to make Yun Qing's body stiffen.
For seven full days.
Seven days after returning from Luo Fei.
Xiao He went to look for him every day during the day, and never stopped.
When he came back at night, his expression was cold, he was absent-minded about eating and practicing, even in the bathroom, he was in a trance state.
Yun Qing hugged him at night and wanted to kiss him, Xiao He would whisper: "I'm tired, can you rest?"
Yun Qing stopped, all the enthusiasm faded away, and only the coldness surged in his heart.
And Xiao He fell asleep tiredly not long after.
After staying together and embracing each other for six full years, he thought that there was no gap between him and him.
But only came back alone, just a few days.
They have already built an iceberg thousands of meters away from each other, which is so cold that people can't get over it.
Yun Qing didn't want to ask, he had his own dignity and principles.
It's just... I can't be reconciled.
At the thought of losing Xiao He, he felt a sense of darkness in front of his eyes, as if everything he saw was covered in gray, without any vitality.
Happiness that has not been tasted cannot be desired.
But once you get it, who can let it go easily
So Yun Qing waited for him all afternoon, and when it was almost midnight, he waited for him to come back.
He spoke.
Straightforwardly, don't go looking for him.
And Xiao He... frowned, a trace of irritability flashed in his eyes.
Yun Qingning stood in the hall, dressed in foggy white clothes, as if frozen by the cold wind, standing still like ice and snow.
Xiao He raised his head and looked into his frost-covered eyes, his heart tightened, but then he felt a sense of loss and powerlessness, and he whispered: "In a few days... I won't go."
"Why does it take a few days?" Yun Qing asked him in a flat voice.
Xiao He couldn't explain it anymore, he just whispered: "I have something to do with him these days, wait for the busyness to pass..."
Before he finished speaking, Yun Qing held his wrist and looked down at him: "What's the matter that I can't help you but he can?"
His voice was low and questioning, which made Xiao He even more irritable.
He has been avoiding Yun Qing every day these days, and he is really hiding.
He was afraid to come back, afraid to see him, and even more afraid to be with him at night.
Xiao He understands himself very well, too much, he loves Yun Qing so much that he can be desperate.
Xiao He used to be proud of this relationship, but now, he is full of fear.
If Yun Qing really wiped out his family.
If they really bear such a deep blood feud.
Then he still loves him so much that he can't help himself, how ridiculous is that
Xiao He was afraid of this moment, but in fact, he was even more afraid... that he would lose his humanity.
He was afraid that if he looked at Yun Qing every day, he would slowly soften his heart, slowly relax, and gradually start not wanting to pursue it.
At that time... he can get Yun Qing, have his love, and have a seemingly happy life.
But at that time, is he still a person
To accept a murderer who kills a loved one, to fall in love with a man who ruined his family and everything about him.
He is mortal.
When he died, how should he face such a life
Xiao He couldn't get over that hurdle, but he was very afraid that he would step over it recklessly.
When it really passed, he felt that he was not himself.
No, I am not a person anymore.
Love should make people more like individuals.
rather than destroying humanity.
Xiao He took a deep breath and said to Yun Qing: "Master, I also have my own private affairs, can you wait for me? In a few days..."
Before he finished speaking, Yun Qing looked at him and asked in a cold voice: "In a few days, you will understand your mind, and you can sleep and fly with him?"
Xiao He turned pale, frowned and looked up at him.
He was inconceivable, but because of the flickering eyes, Yun Qing's eyes fell into the flustered and guilty conscience that had been poked into his heart.
Yun Qing's heart shivered, and her fingers curled up slightly.
Xiao He finally came back to his senses, realized that Yun Qing had misunderstood, he said anxiously: "Luo Fei and I are just ordinary friends, not what you think."
Although he was looking for the truth, he didn't want Yun Qing to have such a misunderstanding.
Yun Qing didn't move, just chuckled, and said coolly, "Ordinary friend? What would happen to him, an ordinary friend who called him by his name?"
Xiao He was startled for a moment, but soon he realized that the blood all over his body seemed to be drained, he froze, his complexion was as white as frost and snow.
"You... you know..."
"Yes, I know, six years ago you..."
"Enough!" Xiao He was very afraid that he would tell about that night, and he was so nervous that he felt like the sky was dark.
It turned out that he knew everything, he knew that he and Luo Fei...
That's right, I must have known it, that's why Yun Qing would target Luo Fei like this, that's why he would send Luo Fei to such a dangerous place, that's why he would torture him, life would be worse than death...
Suddenly figured everything out, Xiao He only felt blackness in front of his eyes.
"Master... don't talk about it." His voice was very low, to the point of weakness, "I just had a misunderstanding with him, and after all these years, there is no need to question who I like. , Master...give me some time, I will be able to..."
"In this case...then tell me." Yun Qing's thin lips were tightly pursed, "What are you guys doing?"
Xiao He lowered his head and remained silent.
Yun Qing forced him to look up, his starry eyes were filled with cold light: "Xiao He, I love you, I love you deeply, but it doesn't mean you can play with me like this!"
Xiao He lowered his eyes and didn't look at him, but his lips trembled uncontrollably, as if a great sadness was brewing, so pitiful that it made one's heart ache.
But Yun Qing didn't soften his heart because of this, his voice was very strong: "Tell me, what's going on!"
Xiao He opened his mouth, but no matter what, he couldn't make a sound.
Yun Qing's eyes were dark, as if a calm sea was brewing with raging waves.
"If you don't tell me, I have a way to know, but by then..."
Xiao He suddenly lost all his strength. He closed his eyes, moved his lips slightly, and said the unspeakable words: "I am looking for the memory, the sealed memory before the age of seven."
One sentence exploded like thunder.
Yun Qing visibly froze for a moment, but soon he lowered his brows and said in a rare serious tone: "Stop immediately, you don't need those memories!"
Xiao He suddenly opened his eyes: "Why!"
Yun Qing squinted at him.
Xiao He looked back at him, he was obviously nervous to death, but his face was unexpectedly indifferent and cold, as if he was looking at an extermination enemy.
"Because I'm the only survivor of the Zongyang Xiao family?"
Yun Qing's pupils shrank sharply.
Xiao He said everything, but he had no scruples.
"Master, you saved me. Since you won't let me retrieve my memory, tell me who killed my family? Who is it? You must know, right!"
Yun Qing stood there silently.
Xiao He looked at him, and at that moment, he seemed to hear the sound of disaster in his heart, the building collapsed, the landslides cracked, and the tsunami rolled.
"It's you... right?" Xiao He's voice trembled uncontrollably: "Tell me, tell me, please... tell me..."
He was already full of crying pleading, but Yun Qing's voice was unexpectedly calm and indifferent.
"Do you wish it was me?"
Xiao He stared at him blankly.
Yun Qing raised his hand, wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes, and looked at him with extremely gentle eyes: "Xiao He, do you love me? Is it because of this incident that you are anxious these days? You are not empathizing with me. Luo Fei, you don't want to give up on me and choose him, do you?"
Xiao He didn't know how to react, he just looked at him, at such a gentle Yun Qing, at such a good Yun Qing, suddenly felt a strong sense of uneasiness in his heart, he grabbed Yun Qing's clothes , anxiously said: "Master, let me restore my memory, so I don't need to go to Luo Fei, I want to see for myself, I want to know the truth, I..."
"No." Yun Qing cut off all his thoughts with just one sentence, "You don't need those memories."
Xiao He seemed to be floating in the ocean, for a while there was a life-saving straw, and for a while he sank into the water again, breathing and suffocation intertwined, enough to make one go crazy.
"Why? Why! You really killed them, you killed them!"
"Yes." Yun Qing's voice was soft, his eyes seemed to have absorbed all the light, but he laughed, a smile that was unparalleled in the world, and a smile that captivated people's hearts, "I did it, and now you all know gone."
"But..." He stroked Xiao He's fair neck, and whispered in a voice almost whispering, "Don't even think about leaving me."