One sentence made Xiao He's eyes widen, astonished.
What... what do you mean
Fan Shen whispered: "Since I can remember, I have been able to hear the secret voices of others. Whether I want to hear it or not, I can hear them all. Even in the dead of night, even if everyone is asleep, I can still hear the voices in their dreams. Sounds, absurd, weird, embarrassing, unintelligible, everything... can be heard. I plug my ears, I play music, I wish I could be deaf, but it doesn't work, it doesn't work, what I can't stop..."
Xiao He had never seen such a painful expression on Fan Shen's face, but at this moment he felt the same.
All of a sudden, everything became clear, completely understood.
It turned out to be like this, although it is unbelievable, but... Xiao He miraculously did not have any doubts.
Because he can hear other people's voices, Fan Shen has received much more information than ordinary people since he was a child, which will allow him to grow rapidly, but it will also make him bear many times more pressure than ordinary people.
Hearing the voices of others sounds like an ability that many people desire, and this ability is indeed so powerful that it makes people feel scared.
But I have to say that with such power, it is easy to succeed, after all, no one can guard against him.
But... the side effects of this ability are so strong that it is unacceptable.
People's hearts are cut sideways, and ideas are numerous.
No matter how kind a person is, there will be a moment when he is occupied by negative emotions. Even a really good person will have his own dark side.
They don't know how to show their dark side, so others can't experience it, but Fan Shen can.
He sensed goodwill, sensed malice, sensed the despicableness and shamelessness in the amiable elder's heart, sensed the cruelty and bloodlust in the seemingly gentle and harmless heart...
Under all kinds of contrasts, it will make people question human nature.
No wonder.
Fan Shen has loving parents, a complete family, and has never suffered any hardships since he was a child, but his personality is split, even to the point where he doesn't want to wake up.
Such a day full of darkness, pain and despair, Xiao He would probably go crazy just by experiencing it for a day, but Fan Shen persisted like this for decades.
I lasted until I was really tired, and finally fell asleep and couldn't wake up.
Xiao He is trying to wake him up, but when he wakes up, he will continue to live like that, cruel, innocent, and endless.
Finally understood, Xiao He finally understood.
Why did Fan Shen say: After waking up, he will lose him.
In the spiritual world, Xiao He and Fan Shen got along well because Fan Shen didn't know what Xiao He was thinking, and he couldn't hear Xiao He's inner voice.
Although this would cause uneasiness, misunderstanding, and apprehension, I have tasted the happiness that ordinary people should have.
It is precisely because of this that Fan Shen can easily fall in love with Xiao He, a Xiao He who loves him with all his heart.
If you wake up, if you return to reality.
Then there is no doubt that Fan Shen can also hear Xiao He's heartfelt voice.
There is no doubt that Xiao He loves Fan Shen deeply.
But... people's hearts, people's hearts.
Even Xiao He couldn't stop his thoughts, thoughts, and thoughts.
He loves him, but he will think of other things unintentionally, when he is not distracted, or in the gap of a thousandth of a second.
Some private matters that should not be known by lovers and belong to oneself alone.
However, if he was with Fan Shen, there would be no privacy.
Whole-body trust cannot exist when one party can easily listen to the other.
They are deeply in love now, but when they return to reality, with the accumulation of time, with the flow of thoughts, and with such an unfair environment to get along with.
No matter how deep the deep love is, no matter how indelible the emotion is, it will be tortured to the last degree.
At that time, it will not be the separation of life and death, but the even more terrifying death of love and heart.
Xiao He was stunned, feeling a little scared in his heart.
He couldn't imagine... such a day, such an ending.
Fan Shen couldn't hear Xiao He's inner voice, but from his expression, he knew it, he understood.
Bitterness spread in his heart, Fan Shen embraced him, and whispered in his ear: "You understand, right? If we will reach that step in the end, then I would rather stop abruptly at this moment."
Xiao He didn't say a word, but he felt Fan Shen's mood.
If they are destined to be strangers, or even disgust each other, then he is willing to keep the most sincere relationship and let their love bloom in the most brilliant time forever.
Why did this happen? Xiao He couldn't describe the despair surging in his heart.
Although in reality, the relationship between husband and wife will gradually fade with the passing of life, but Xiao He understands that he and Fan Shen will not, if there is no such ability to "hear the voice of the heart", he and Fan Shen can go all the way to the end, No matter the hardships, no matter the suffering, we will always be with you until your hair turns gray.
But... they can't.
Even Xiao He couldn't trust himself.
He was a human being, and a human being cannot escape the dark side for a second or two.
Such a dark side can be easily adjusted alone.
But if someone spies on...
can not imagine.
Xiao He's body trembled. He thought that if he found the crux of the problem, he would be able to cure it completely.
But he forgot that Fan Shen was a hundred times smarter than him, and if there really was a solution, Fan Shen would not be willing to give up.
Is there really no other way
Xiao He hugged him tightly, and suddenly spoke in a low voice: "I'll be with you, okay?"
Fan Shen's body froze suddenly.
However, Xiao He kept talking: "Fan Shen, since this is the case, we won't wake up, okay? I will stay in your world for a long time, forever, and be together every day."
Xiao He said softly, and slowly, as if he had seen hope, a bright light burst out in his eyes: "It's ok, Fan Shen, this is ok, we can be together, and we won't be separated."
As he said this, a wry smile appeared on the corner of Fan Shen's mouth: "Xiao He, I think about it all the time, trap you here, imprison you here, and describe a world that belongs to us, forever and ever. live in it."
"This is very good, I am willing!" Xiao He said anxiously.
"But... Xiao He." Fan Shen looked at him, his blue eyes were full of affection, "You will die, your life that should have been decades, will die early because of this deep sleep..."
Xiao He was stunned, and suddenly realized the crux of the problem: "If you don't wake up, you will die, right?"
"Yes, if you indulge in the spiritual world for a long time, the vital signs of your body will gradually disappear. Without you, I might have died a long time ago. You saved me, but... I really don't want to wake up."
"I'm sorry, Xiao He, I love you, love you very much, so I can't wake up even more. If I wake up, I will lose you forever, so I would rather sleep like this."
Epilogue: You are my only salvation