Pei Yi decided to graduate early and prepared to go to Guangzhou. Before this, no news was revealed.
"If Nie Dan hadn't let it slip tonight, when would you have told me? Or did you never even think of telling me?"
"No!" After Jiang Se said this, Pei Yi hastily denied it: "I'll tell you after your birthday."
In fact, he just didn't know how to tell her, and he was reluctant to tell her, for fear that she would be upset, so he kept putting it off.
"Sese, don't be angry with me."
He squatted on the ground, his face resting on her knees, his voice trembling:
"I know I didn't tell you in advance. It was my fault."
But she had never experienced separation, and neither had he.
He was thinking about what kind of language to use to express this matter, but he had been thinking about it for many days, and his frustration grew day by day, but he still couldn't come up with a suitable solution.
"I just thought that if I tell you one day later, you will worry one day less."
This decision was what the Pei family had told him years ago. Although he only wanted to be with Jiang Se and have a sweet relationship with her before, and never thought about the future, when the elders asked him about his future plans, the only thing he thought about the most was the estate in France, the white curtains she wore, and the wine they brewed themselves, which they might drink when they got married in the future.
This is what he thought about the most.
But Mr. Pei sat in his chair, shook his head and said that this was not enough.
If he only looks at the present, these thoughts are enough, but if he wants to look at the long term, these are not enough.
When the wind and rain came, he couldn't even hold up an umbrella. Now the umbrella over his head is still held by the Pei family.
When Mr. Pei asked him these questions, he hadn't thought so much about it.
He was still young, not even twenty years old. His biggest worry used to be how to get Feng Nan to pay attention to him, but later on his biggest worry was how to like Jiang Se.
His appreciation should not just be expressed in words, but should be expressed through actions. His life has been too smooth, with the only setback being his pursuit of Feng Nan.
When he was pursuing Feng Nan, Feng Nan always ignored him. Mr. Pei thought this was a good thing because it made him realize that there are some things in the world that cannot be fulfilled just because he asks for them.
"I'm reminded of your junior year."
His eyes were a little sore, and his voice was a little choked when he said this. He buried his face in her legs and endured for a long time before continuing:
"My grandpa asked me if I liked you."
Jiang Se lowered her head to look at him. His tall body was squatting with his face turned sideways. Under the dim light, his eyes were gleaming with tears. His hands were holding her waist tightly with great force, and his arms were tightening his sleeves. For the first time, she realized that he was really different from before.
When he was a child, he always asked Feng Zhongliang to send her to the Pei family, and he would raise Feng Nan for the Feng family. His childish words made everyone laugh so hard that they fell over, and everyone joked that he was deciding on a wife in advance.
At that time, he was lawless, like a bully, and very proud. He was the leader among a group of children.
Every time she went to Pei's house and followed Feng Zhongliang back, Pei Yi did not cry or make a fuss, but locked the door in a domineering manner, not allowing the two of them to leave.
His childish behavior always made the Pei family laugh and cry.
"Why are you so weird, Sese?"
He pursed his lips, afraid that she would hear the tremor in his words, afraid that he would always be a memory in her heart:
"When I was little, I was always so bold. I said I liked you and didn't want you to go home. I said it right away."
He pointed at Feng Zhongliang and threatened him to keep Feng Nan and not take him home. At that time, he could say whatever he wanted. "The older I get, the less I dare to speak. Grandpa said that this is called ignorance is fearless."
Instead, I become anxious and worried.
He began to keep his thoughts to himself and didn't say certain things easily. When facing her, he didn't even dare to say the word "like".
When his grandfather asked him if he liked her, he still remembered how he felt at that time. He was so excited that his face turned red, his heart seemed to jump out of his chest, and his blood was boiling and rushing straight to his head.
At that time, he was five years younger than Feng Nan and had just entered high school. He was as green as a sour fruit and tried carefully to conceal his inner feelings.
When Mr. Pei asked him a question, he shook his head and said "no" stubbornly. But secretly, he took a large stack of confession letters written to Feng Nan by others and read each one carefully. Then, when the night fell, he was so angry that he trembled, but he carefully wrote each rejection letter for her.
He has been doing this childish thing for more than two years!
Even in the end she didn't know about it.
His grades plummeted and he envied everyone who confessed their love to Feng Nan openly.
The age gap widened the distance between them. When she was in high school, she had already experienced those green days, but he was still young at that time, and he was just following in her footsteps.
When she was in college, he was not the only one of her age. In Feng Nan's eyes, he was just a younger brother.
He and she missed each other for five years, as if their entire lives were to be split into two parallel lines.
"Grandpa said that what makes people compatible is not their family background or status. That is just an embellishment of a person. What we are born with is just a higher starting point than others, giving us more advantages than others."
But having these is not just to stop people from moving forward, but to encourage them to make further progress.
Just as modern people stand on the shoulders of the ancients, just as the birth of China after the victory of the revolution is all for the purpose of moving forward, rather than standing still and being satisfied with the present.
Pei Yi always thought that the issue between him and Jiang Se was an age issue, but Old Master Pei said it was not.
Feng Nan has an advantage of five years over him. The Feng family is not as good as the Pei family, but she has excellent knowledge, cultivation and vision, and is more magnanimous and elegant. When he was concentrating on how to catch up with Feng Nan and how to try to get her, she was already looking far ahead instead of looking back. So when a person is moving forward without stopping, she will not turn around and see the shadow of the person behind her.
Mr. Pei’s words seemed to wake him up from his dream.
He vaguely understood where the problem came from. He thought of Jiang Se's rebirth. She was not stumped by the difficulties of rebirth. After rebirth, she was still concentrating on doing her own thing, even though it was extremely difficult. But what about him
He is still repeating what happened yesterday. (To be continued)