It's two o'clock in the morning.
Feng Yulan was wrapped in a thin overcoat and sat on a public bench on the sidewalk by the side of the road. Beside him was a street lamp that was flickering because of something wrong. The dim yellow light appeared and disappeared, occasionally illuminating him That pale face was occasionally engulfed in deep darkness.
Feng Yulan didn't wear shoes, he was too excited and crazy when he went out, and he just hoped to leave quickly, so he walked out of the house barefoot, wearing thin pajamas, and only had time to wrap up a windbreaker that was not enough to keep out the cold , although the night was not so cold, Alan still felt a chill spreading rapidly in his body.
Feng Yulan couldn't help rubbing his hands because of the cold illusion, but he couldn't bring him more warmth. He rubbed his face again. The bleak cold wind seemed to calm his restless brain much more, and Ah Lan He began to recall some past events, those things that had warmed him in his past.
Feng Yulan has a lover, a mature man.
He took out his phone from his pocket, unlocked the screen, and on the desktop was a photo of Ah Lan and that man. In the photo they stand close together, and in the photo, they can also stand close together like this forever.
Alan knew that man a long time ago, about when Alan was very young, around the time of primary school; Boys always form a group to trouble him. Once he was out of school, he got into a fight with the boys, but he was outnumbered and was beaten badly by the group...
At this time, that person appeared, drove the boys away intimidatingly and intimidatingly, and left a deep mark in Alan's very young heart ever since.
Ah Lan felt that it was at that time that she started to like him. He liked this man who was a little arrogant, a little ruffian, but very gentle when he smiled.
Because of this liking, Feng Yulan abandoned a lot of things, and disappointed many people. His parents and friends couldn't understand why he wanted to be with such a man.
How can there be results when men and men are together
But Ah Lan is still so stubborn, still so persistent, so he was kicked out of the house by his parents as soon as he graduated from high school. Compared with the warmth, A Lan once felt that they were so in love with each other, so they would never be separated.
But it seems that all love is no match for the tempering of time.
They have been living together for seven or eight years, and they had a good relationship at first, but as time passed, the passion was wiped out, and the rest is a dull and boring life, which is boring and boring. Feeling bored; Alan was aware of this emotional crisis, so he tried to regain his passion, he tried to be nicer to that person, but for some reason, they always started to quarrel over some inexplicable little things .
The two people's tempers are actually not very good; in the past, they were too emotional, and they both had some connivance. If there was some friction, it would pass away with a smile, but recently, as long as there is a quarrel, it can immediately escalate into a fight. However, Ah Lan is always somewhat weak in fights, so he can never win.
So he would always be grabbed by that person, punched twice in the stomach, and then the other person would throw him into the room, and kick the door out by himself.
Once you go out, you won't come back for three or four days.
In fact, it's nothing to be beaten. The man is very gentle and never hits hard, so it only hurts for a while, which is much better than the pain in his heart.
Alan was just worried that he would not come back.
Even if Ah Lan prepared a meal for two, washed all the clothes, and cleaned the house, that person never came back, not for a long, long time.
So Ah Lan is used to sitting alone. When sitting alone, his hands and feet are always cold.
He recalled the past more and more. He would turn on his mobile phone and look through the photos stored in the mobile phone, starting from the first one, which was a photo of A Lan and that person when he was a child. He used the excuse of the school to organize a spring outing , Ah Lan went out to the beach with this person privately. It was taken on the beach with a mobile phone. Even after changing several mobile phones, the photos have been preserved to this day.
The second one is A Lan's candid photo of the other person. The man was sleeping on a lounge chair. A Lan folded off a small yellow flower on the side of the road and put it on his head, and took a picture of this stupid and cute sleeping picture.
A Lan's eyes turned red when he saw this photo, and he stroked the phone screen with his fingers, as if he was touching the person on the screen.
The third photo is Alan taking a close-up photo of the smiling face of the other party. This man always smiles very gently. After a long time, Alan discovered that a man can only smile like this in front of him.
The fourth photo is a group photo of the man sitting on the sofa with Alan in his arms. They are very close together, with disheveled clothes; Alan remembers that after taking this photo, this person pressed him on the sofa to once.
And the fifth and sixth photos... Most of them were secretly taken by Ah Lan with his mobile phone. He loves this person so much. All the photos stored in his mobile phone are of him. It was changed several times, and all of them were this person.
If you love so much, if you are so affectionate, why did you come to where you are today
Ah Lan couldn't figure it out, it was as if the cold had froze his mind. Today he quarreled with the man again, started to fight again, he still couldn't beat that man, so after being punched by that man, A Lan suddenly felt a little funny, he remembered that men always leave after beating up, So this time, he decided to leave first.
He left the house in a hurry, he didn't take anything, and he didn't bother to take anything. He didn't think about where he was going, or whether he should go back, he just walked aimlessly on the street, and then sat on this bench.
Cars occasionally drive by at night on the road, and the street lights are so dim that they cannot illuminate the dark night.
After sitting blankly for a while, Ah Lan suddenly felt a little headache for some reason.
This headache is like an uninvited guest. It was mild at first, but it intensified immediately in the next second, so that the pain caused A Lan to lose consciousness for a short time. He seemed to be doing it during the short coma I had a long dream. In the dream, many scenes were flying, many people were talking, and many things were happening.
Afterwards, A Lan woke up in a cold sweat, and he realized that he had a nightmare.
It's just that he couldn't remember a single thing that happened in the nightmare.
The night was still so long, he was still sitting on that cold bench, with the desolate road in front of him, the flickering street lamps beside him, the whistling wind blowing in his ears, the cold made his limbs stiff, even the tears were cold .
Allan suddenly found himself crying.
It's bad.
He wiped his eyes with his sleeve in embarrassment, but what was worse was that no matter how he wiped, the tears would only increase, so in the end he gave up. He lowered his head and burst into tears, letting the front of his chest be covered by himself wet with tears.
Why is this so
Why has to be this way
What is wrong, what step is wrong
Why do you treat me like this
He started to cry, choked up in a low voice, and vented his pain in the deserted night, so that he didn't hear the hurried footsteps beside him. When he realized that there was a person standing beside him, he realized that he raised his head , saw the man standing beside him.
Duan Li panted slightly, looking down at Feng Yulan; Ah Lan's eyes were red and swollen from crying, his thin body shivered in the cold wind, his frail appearance made Duan Li's mouth ache slightly, persistently, raw.
So he went over, he picked up the person, and carried him into his arms.
Ah Lan didn't stop crying, the tears wet Duan Li's shoulders, it was the first time Duan Li found out that this stubborn person had so many tears, as if he wanted to put all the tears in his life in this one time Splurge clean.
"Don't cry, don't cry." Duan Li patted A Lan's head and hugged him tightly.
"It's all my fault, it's my fault, don't cry... Ah Lan."
Some love is sweet, but there are always more tears than laughter.
Some love is bitter, but separation is always harder than reconciliation.
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Later, Ah Lan broke up with Duan Li, and he moved out of Duan Li's house, because his work was relatively smooth these years, he saved a sum of money, found a location that he thought was good, and bought a small house , intending to live a carefree and unconstrained little day.
Although Occasionally Ah Lan felt that his small room was still a bit big, and he was the only one who was empty, but compared to the time when he was always crying, he suddenly felt much more relaxed now.
He started to work seriously, go out to play with the friends he made, and lead a regular and healthy life.
But sometimes, Ah Lan would always see Duan Li appearing downstairs in his house, looking up at the window of his floor.
A Lan would look at him from the side of her window, and then draw the curtains.
But in fact, he didn't leave the window, but sat by the window in a daze.
Sometimes it's better to separate for a while because when reconciled, the relationship is warmed up and people appreciate it more because of the fear of losing it again.
But if the separation time is too long, each other will forget each other, and this relationship will also be forgotten.
Man is always no match for this terrible time.
After thinking for a while, Ah Lan took out the mobile phone in her pocket, and dialed the number specially placed first in the phone book.
The phone was connected immediately, and there was a slight sound of breathing and wind mixed with it. A Lan was silent for a while, and said softly, "It's too cold outside, do you want to come upstairs?"
The person on the other side of the phone didn't have time to answer, A Lan only heard the sound of hurried footsteps and the sound of going up the stairs, and soon, the sound was very close at hand.