I once thought about the circumstances under which I would openly and unreservedly expose my body to others. By then, I had given up hope and thought about finding the other half of my life, which would only happen with the necessary medical treatment.
According to the average life expectancy of human beings in the world, my life has passed one-third, which is an age when most people think that they should have recognized the reality, down-to-earth, and not extravagantly seeking love. So, even if I know that if there is a "true love" in theory, I should put my guard down on him and not be afraid to show him the real me, but I still feel that this possibility is very small, and it is infinitely close to a miracle.
I never imagined that such a thing that even I thought would never happen unless a miracle happened... just happened.
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We stayed in bed for a long time, just hugged each other, calmly breathing, and enjoyed the tender moment after the indulgence.
If it weren't for the hunger protest from my stomach, this state might have lasted much longer.
After ordering takeout with my mobile phone, Shang Muxiao carried me to the bathroom.
"On the wedding day, Yin Nuo and I talked about the bet." I still don't understand one thing, "Why don't you explain?"
Although he explained that the bet still exists and cannot disappear, there is still a big difference between "abandoning it halfway through" and "continuing until I find it out".
The former, although I still feel disrespected, at least not like the latter, who mistakenly thought that I was hot from beginning to end, and the other party had no sincerity at all.
"I said it, because I'm too angry." Shang Muxiao pouted, "I wanted to explain, but when I saw you came back with that perverted veterinarian, I couldn't take it anymore."
It turned out to be so...
"I just met him by chance on the plane, and he dropped me off and asked me to borrow a record..." Then he bumped into him.
"He just has bad intentions." Shang Muxiao snorted coldly.
"How did I know he did this." Fortunately, after the police warned him, he was so frightened that he never contacted me again, and even Yu Xixi was rejected by him. For this reason, Yu Xixi also complained to me specifically about whether He Weizhou had a problem, and inexplicably pulled black people.
With the help of Shang Muxiao, I took a shower and ate the takeout he ordered. He wanted to keep me here, but I refused.
"Why?" He frowned.
"Because my exoskeleton is about to run out of electricity." I'm a little thankful that I don't feel anything in my lower body, otherwise I would be sore and unable to walk.
I leaned on crutches and got up to leave, when Shang Muxiao grabbed the hem of my clothes.
"I can take it back and charge it for you, and bring it back tomorrow morning."
I thought about it: "No."
The charging device of the exoskeleton device is not small, it is fixed on the wall, and it is difficult to carry, which makes me like "Cinderella", I have to go home after full time, otherwise the magic will fail and I will be beaten back to my original shape.
He frowned even more: "You don't want to stay with me?"
I glanced at his lower body and sighed. It's not that I don't want to, it's that my body can't handle it.
"Let me have a good rest, I have class tomorrow."
He didn't look very happy, the corners of his mouth drooping down.
"Good." I touched his cheek and reassured him, "I will be with you on the weekend."
He looked at me for a while, held my hand, kissed the back of my hand, and then didn't let go.
"Then I'll take you back." He stood up and shook my hand gently.
I followed him and walked to the door hand in hand with him.
Before going out, he remembered something, let go of me and ran back, picking up the dozing egg yolk on the carpet.
"I haven't walked it today." Shang Muxiao held the egg yolk in one hand and came back and continued to hold my hand.
It's not that no one was encountered in the elevator, but Shang Muxiao never let go of my hand.
I originally wanted to walk the dog with him, but he insisted on taking me home first because he was afraid that I would suddenly fall out of power like last time.
Straight to the door, I suddenly felt a little reluctant, so I asked him if he wanted to come in and sit for a while.
He shook his head, unable to speak, for fear that he would not want to leave once he sat down. But after that, I stood in the door, he stood outside the door, and no one moved.
"Teacher, give me a goodbyekiss." He pointed to his cheek.
I leaned over, hooked Shang Muxiao's neck, and gently kissed him on the lips.
"Good night," I said. "See you tomorrow."
In the eyes of an extreme pessimist like Schopenhauer, happiness and joy are like a mirage that can only be seen from a distance. Once you get close, everything will dissipate.
I once had a similar idea, but my happiness and happiness are stars in the sky. Although they are not illusory, they are just as unreachable for me, too difficult and too difficult to possess.
And now, a star came to me by itself, so dazzling, so warm, so fascinated. I just discovered that my pessimism can only be called "Schrödinger's pessimism". Maybe there has never been any pessimism that lasts forever in this world, but it's all... the star that hasn't met one's own.