The home smells of gardenias, which Xie Mu put on the table before leaving in the morning.
On the long sofa facing the door, there were two disheveled people lying on top of each other.
The young man looked at the man on top with a pale face.
He took off his glasses, his face was a little red, his hands were falling on the clothes of the person below him, and his eyes moved down. After seeing the fair skin exposed by the beautiful woman, Xie Mu subconsciously turned his eyes away and stopped looking.
Tan Tao's eyes that were muddy due to lust came to his senses when he saw the person outside the door clearly. He pushed the woman away in a panic, his eyes flustered, and he stammered an explanation, "Baby, it's not what you think, it's not what you want like the…”
"Brother Tan, what are you talking about? Is this your new little lover?"
Compared with the two men at the scene, the woman was not so panicked. She sat up slowly and straightened her clothes, opened and closed her mouth with beautiful red lips calmly, and said something that made Tan Tao want to strangle her to death .
"I think this little brother is also quite handsome. He is the type you like. Do you want to play together?"
Xie Mu's already pale face turned even paler. Like a parrot learning his tongue, he opened his mouth stiffly, "The type you like?"
"Go away!!"
Tan Tao pushed away the woman who still wanted to cling to him, struggled to stand up, and stretched out his hand to the young man outside the door, "Xiao Mu, listen to me first..."
He came to the door, wanting to touch his lover as usual, Xie Mu turned sideways, avoiding his hand.
The man's outstretched hand froze in place.
"Fake… "
The young man's eyes were red, he stared at the person in front of him, and tried his best not to let the tears flow down, "It's all fake..."
"Xiaomu, listen to me, I'm really not..."
Tan Tao's hands were still frozen in the air, his Adam's apple was rolling up and down, and he argued hoarsely, "I was working, but she came to me suddenly, threw me on the sofa, and then you opened the door and came in, I really didn't... "
"you have not… "
The tip of the nose smelled of gardenia, Xie Mu took a step back, "You are lying to me, I know you are lying to me..."
"You don't like me at all, what you like is the person from before..."
"What do you want to be together for the rest of your life, you have to wait... until you are old, rocking the rocking chair slowly... it's all a lie..." He tried very hard not to cry, but the sobbing couldn't be stopped at all.
"Since I woke up, you told me that we were lovers, and you lied to me. In fact... you only like this face!"
"No, Xiaomu, it's not like that, I really like you, really..."
"Those, those words, are all true!"
"real?"
The young man looked at him as if he was looking at a stranger, "What do you like, is talking about wanting to be with me for the rest of your life while touching other women while I'm not around!"
The stranger's gaze from his lover made Tan Tao panic. He panicked, saw the knife beside him out of the corner of his eye, picked it up quickly, and scratched it on his arm as if scraping something dirty.
"Xiaomu, I'll clean up the place where I touched her, don't, don't be angry with me..."
The blood flowed out almost instantly, Xie Mu's expression was stunned, his eyes showed panic and distress almost immediately, he subconsciously wanted to step forward to stop the bleeding, but his footsteps seemed to be stuck to the ground and he couldn't move.
"I, I clean it up, look..."
The man's arms were covered with blood, but a smile appeared on his face, "Xiao Mu, look, it's clean..."
The woman behind looked at the blood dripping on the ground, her eyes widened in horror, she quickly got off the sofa, picked up her bag and ran out.
Crazy, all crazy.
The young man had already stayed where he was, with only the bright red in his eyes.
Tan Tao was in pain, but as if he didn't feel it, he tried his best to smile at his lover, "Baby, I'm clean..."
He took a step forward, regardless of the young man's struggle, he insisted on hugging him in his arms, the blood stained Xie Mu's clothes, and the man's hoarse voice was next to his ear: "Trust me, okay?"
Xie Mu raised his eyes in a daze, and his bloodshot eyes met his gaze.
There was love in it, and the panic of losing.
But are these all for him
What he said this morning and the scene he saw just now had completely destroyed what he firmly believed in.
The young man pushed away the man little by little, his eyes, which were always full of admiration, concealed his uneasiness under the tears,
"The doctor said that I can restore my memory. Do you think I should restore it?"
He wants to know the answer, wants to know what his own existence is in the eyes of Tan Tao, who he regards as life.
Tan Tao didn't need to answer anymore, the momentary ecstasy in his eyes had completely shattered the hopes of the nineteen-year-old boy.
His lover only likes the 22-year-old him.
Does it mean that every time you talk about love like this, you also look at another person through him like this
And the most ironic thing is that he will never, ever be that future self.
The young man closed his eyes, hot tears rolled down his cheeks, a bitter smile appeared on his lips, and he said shyly, "I believe in you."
Believe that you love that person so much.
The man was unbelievable and pleasantly surprised by the answer. He hugged the person in his arms tightly, and could hardly believe that he was forgiven so easily.
"Xiaomu..."
Xie Mu raised his head, and for the first time took the initiative to kiss his lips, it was just a light kiss, a tear flowed from the corner of his eyes, silently, no one noticed.
He said softly, "Don't call me that, I don't like it."
He is not the 22-year-old Xie Mu whom Tan Tao likes, but a thief who seems to have stolen everything from his master.
Tan Tao hugged him and called, "Baby."
The young man snuggled into the man's arms obediently. This embrace was very warm, but it was freezing cold all over his body.
***
"It's really not that I don't care. He saw us take off our clothes, and Tan Tao almost wanted to do it with me, but he forgave him..."
The woman's voice was full of helplessness. She really didn't believe that there were such stupid and easy-to-deceive people in this world.
That's Tan Tao. Who in the circle doesn't know that he has countless lovers, and he never refuses anyone who comes, and he believes him after being said a few good words.
Looking at it like that, he is not at the age of school, so how can he be so easy to deceive.
Of course she didn't know that Xie Mu, who seemed to be an adult, had just turned nineteen, and after shirking responsibility to his employer, he retreated with his bag.
Inside the car, the man's face was gloomy.
He pressed a few times on the phone with a cold face, and a few seconds later, the call was dialed.
"Have you found a way to restore his memory?"
"We have been researching these days and found a strange phenomenon."
"The patient not only lost the memory of the past three years, but also has a vague memory of the sixteen-year-old. He even has only a general idea of what happened before, which is likely to be a misdiagnosis."
"The patient is not amnesia, but suffered too much damage before the car accident. In order to protect himself, the second personality was activated."
The man's slender hands slowly tightened, his eyes sank dangerously, and the magnetic voice repeated in a low voice, "Second personality?"
He tapped the steering wheel with his fingers, "In other words, this personality is different from the previous Xie Mu?"
"Then what if the two personalities fall in love with different people?"
"In common sense, different personality preferences are also different, which is not common in the history of medicine."
Bo Qin's lips curled up slowly.
It turned out to be like this.
No wonder, Xie Mu, who used to like him so much, only resisted him, and his heart was hung on Tan Tao.
"According to the current information, the main personality has not alternated with other personalities. It may be that he himself does not want to wake up, and the chance of awakening is not high. If the second personality does not have any violent or illegal tendencies, according to Huaguo's regulations, it is completely ok. leave it alone."
leave it alone
how can that be possible
Twenty-two-year-old Xie Mu, rational and mature, hates Tan Tao who bullied him, and is willing to die for him.
Nineteen-year-old Xie Mu is naive, immature, and loves Tan Tao with all his heart, but he is only unfamiliar and far away from him.
Which one to choose, isn't it obvious at a glance
"Professor Zhao, try to arrange treatment as much as possible. I hope that the nineteen-year-old personality can be completely obliterated."
No, wait a minute.
He had another, better idea.
The handsome man turned sideways slightly, raised his eyes to look at the tall building next to him, his lips gradually widened.
What if Tan Tao was allowed to do this
***
This night, Xie Mu and Tan Tao slept on the same bed.
They didn't do anything, Tan Tao just hugged the young man in his arms, enjoying his cuteness, and patted the back of the man in his arms.
"baby… "
With sleepy eyes, he asked, "When are you going to restore your memory?"
The young man's slender fingers that had fallen limply on the side of the bed moved. He lay on the man's chest, listening to the dull heartbeat inside.
"Bang! Bang!"
It sounds good, he thought.
"When do you want me to recover?"
Tan Tao didn't hesitate at all: "Of course, the sooner the better."
The young man quietly listened to the sound of his heartbeat, his eyes were full of sadness, he closed his eyes to hide the tears that were about to pour out, and replied softly:
"I'll listen to you."
The person he likes, likes another him.
Then, give it back to him.