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"Wen Yang, listen to me, I just want to help you, I am not with them, trust me..." I grabbed Wen Yang who was about to turn around, and tried to explain.
Wen Yang closed his eyes and said coldly: "I said I don't want to see you again."
I couldn't bear such a cold reception, so I asked puzzledly: "I... What did I do wrong? Why did you target me like this? I said that Wen He and I were not together, and I didn't harm you. "
"In my eyes, you are no different. You meddle in other people's families, harm others by all means for the sake of so-called fame and selfish desires, and take things that don't belong to you."
I looked at him angrily: "No, my mother didn't. She was cheated. She didn't destroy other people's families. She never took anything from the Qin family."
Wen Yang sneered, and looked straight at me: "Then what are you doing now?" He approached me and asked sharply, "Why are you standing here negotiating terms with me? Where did you get your capital? Whose face is it, and where did you get the confidence to negotiate with me?"
I was forced to take two steps back by the gentle and intimidating aura, trying to explain: "I am..."
"Don't argue in front of me, no matter how you explain, the guilt in your eyes can't fool me." He took a deep breath, looked at me word by word and said, "You make me feel sick just like Zhu Minqiu and others. "
Shi Shan, you make me feel sick...
Waking up from a nightmare in the middle of the night, I wiped the cold sweat off my brow, feeling terrified and restless all over my body.
The night was dark, so I went to the living room and poured myself a glass of water, and stood on the balcony looking at the dark night.
Ever since I saw Qin Fu last time, I have been disturbed by nightmares from time to time.
He didn't want to get involved with the Qin family, not only to follow his mother's will, but also because of Wen Yang's relationship.
Wen Yang's mother was pissed to death by the third child who entered the house. Even Wen Yang himself was kicked out of the house before graduation. How could Wen Yang have a good impression of such a person.
So in this life, I would rather give up revenge, and I don't want to have anything to do with the Qin family.
Wen Yang only knows that my family is special. My parents died early, and my grandparents who loved me passed away. I am the only one in this world, so he takes care of me with special sympathy, but he doesn't know the identity of my illegitimate child...
I am not ashamed of my mother, she may not be strong enough, and because of years of depression and irascibility, she has not given me much maternal love. But she let me see her principles. From the beginning to the end, she was a good woman with self-respect and self-love. It's just that I was blinded by my own misfortune in the last life, and I even hated her for a long time.
I have no relatives and am an unaccepted homosexual. This kind of pain makes me breathless. There are so many people in the world, why do I have to bear all this? Obviously I work harder than others, but I can’t get everything I want. never be recognized.
Some people say that the world is a mirror, what you see inside is what you see, that's why I was so miserable at that time, when my only sunshine was far away from me, I started to go crazy.
The light in the living room suddenly turned on, and his thoughts were interrupted. When he turned around, he found Wen Yang standing in the hallway wearing a nightgown.
"Why didn't you sleep?"
"Woke up, a little thirsty." I glanced at the clock in the living room, it was already past two o'clock in the morning, "Haven't you finished your work yet?"
Wen Yang poured himself a glass of water, raised his hand and rubbed his brain and replied, "There are still some details to be changed."
I frowned subconsciously, very disapproving of his tiring way of working, but Wen Yang has always done things like this, and I didn't want to forcefully change him, I could only assist from the side to relieve his pressure.
Wen Yang came over with a cup in his hand, looked at me and said, "You look bad, are you feeling uncomfortable?"
Facing Wen Yang's concerned eyes, I thought of the dream just now, and intense fear and sadness arose in my heart. I thought I could never bear Wen Yang looking at me like that again in this life.
I saw Wen Yang's brows furrowed in displeasure, and even a trace of anger appeared on his usually gentle face: "It's this expression again, what's wrong with you?"
I was relieved, I didn't know what my expression was like, or it was not so friendly like the last time I had a falling out with Wen Yang, no wonder Wen Yang's sensitivity.
"... sorry." I explained awkwardly, "I just remembered something bad."
"related to me?"
"No!" I turned my head, trying to hide my emotions.
"What's the matter? The doctor may be right. You are too worried. Is there anything you can't tell me?"
I lowered my head and held the cup, my heart was full of confusion and anxiety. There were too many things that I couldn’t say. I didn’t know where to start. After a while, I slowly said: “Wen Yang, why do people always talk about single parents? A child born in a family with mental problems and insanity? When he made a mistake in school, the teacher would say it was no accident, because he came from a single-parent family. "
"All their actions will be labeled, and this label will follow you for a long time. Even when you grow up and talk about marriage, if the parents of the person you love know that you are from a single-parent family, they will be very repulsive, so that they will come forward to obstruct you. , because children who grow up in an unfortunate environment are unhealthy, they are not sunny enough, and may bring this misfortune to their children... "
I raised my head and looked at Wen Yang: "Tell me, why do people think this way? Is there any basis for such thinking?"
Wen Yang looked at me, remained silent for a few seconds, and said: "I don't know about others, but I see that it is not like this. Children from single-parent families are often precocious, and they know how to bear and accept the burden from the family when they are very young, so They are more responsible; perhaps because of family reasons, they are more sensitive and understand pain more, but because of this, they will not easily hurt others; They are more active and hardworking; because of the lack of family affection, they long for warmth, so they know how to cherish it."
He put the cup in his hand on the coffee table, pulled me over, and continued: "On the contrary, even if some people grow up in a so-called normal family and enjoy a so-called better education, they develop a petulant, willful, Selfish characters, some are even vicious, cruel, lawless, and recklessly take pleasure in hurting others, I have seen more of these than you."
Wen Yang looked at me tenderly, put his palm on my head, and rubbed it lightly, "But you have to know that all the discrimination in this world exists because of showing one's superiority, because he has And you didn't, but that's nothing, your goodness can be seen by many people."
I looked at him, but Zongzong from the previous life flashed through my mind. If he knew that I was an illegitimate child and that I was gay, what would he do? Will you discriminate against me and look at me with such disgusting eyes
I lowered my eyes and said in a lonely way: "If one day you know that I have many shortcomings, so many that they are not worth mentioning in front of those so-called advantages, you may not think so."
There was a soft sigh from above, and the next second I felt myself fall into a hard chest, and my body was embraced by Wen Yang.
Immediately, my hands and feet became stiff, and my heart beat violently, as if it was going to explode.
"Did someone tell you something, what's going on in the future, don't think about it by yourself, at least you can tell me." Wen Yang's voice was soft, but with a bit of comforting power, "Shi Shan , there is nothing wrong with you, don't care about other people's opinions, so that no one can hurt you."
Clinging to each other, the warm breath seemed to pass through the chest to the heart, and a sense of warmth rose from the whole body, and all the cold emotions seemed to disappear. This hug is so warm that people can't help but be greedy.
I suppressed the charming emotions in my heart, buried my face on his shoulder, and said in a muffled voice: "In the future, if you find that I am not as good as you imagined, will you still treat me as a friend?"
I felt Wen Yang's chest tremble slightly, and he said with a sneer, "How did you learn to act like a baby? There are no constant things in this world. Those beautiful things need our hard work to keep them, so what I have to do Better, San'er won't despise me."
Wen Yang slowly pushed me away, and said with a smile: "So worrying about gains and losses, it's true that you are in love, but when you know it's impossible, you have to know how to let go, understand? There are many more beautiful scenery in this world, waiting for you The more you watch, the more you know what you want.”
"...Probably." I looked at the ground, inexplicably a little lost, more beautiful scenery? But my heart has already been occupied by the best, what do those more beautiful scenery have to do with me.
I lowered my head and smiled: "I won't dislike you no matter what you become, but if you dislike me, I'll find a place to hide, so I won't upset you." expression.
"What are you thinking about?" Wen Yang looked at me amusedly, "Co-author, what I just said was in vain, it doesn't matter what others think, the important thing is not to underestimate yourself at any time."
I nodded, and said solemnly: "Understood, isn't it just thick-skinned? Anyway, I'm the best, most handsome, and most talented in the world."
Wen Yang took a deep breath, and then looked at me with a smile, "Sure enough, explaining flower language is not suitable for me. It's better to choose something I'm good at."
Seeing Wen Yang's expression, my heart trembled twice. I had a premonition that something was going to go wrong, so I hurriedly said: "It's getting late, I have to go to bed, and you should go to bed early too." After speaking, I turned around and walked to the bedroom.
In the end, Wen Yang grabbed her and pushed her down on the sofa: "You are still depressed, I'm afraid you won't be able to sleep well, let's try physical therapy again, just smile and you'll feel better."
"Ha..." I was shocked, and while I was running away, I said sincerely and fearfully: "I was wrong, I won't argue with you again, I was wrong... really wrong, ah—I'm ticklish."
Wen Yang leaned over and looked at me with a smile: "Great! You have the courage to admit your mistakes and never repent. I just like a stubborn person like you." He put his hand into my clothes as he spoke.
I couldn't laugh, I was about to cry: "Don't, I'm ticklish... What on earth are you going to do?"
"Call me brother."
I said without hesitation: "Brother, eldest brother, second brother, brother Wen, brother Yang, brother Wen Yang... the most handsome brother in the world, I know I was wrong, please forgive me."