When I woke up in the morning, it was already high in the sun, I rubbed my heavy head, and as usual, lay on the bed for a while.
Drunk last night? The first time I got drunk, I didn't feel too bad. What's rare is that I didn't seem to be disturbed by nightmares this night. Instead, I had a good dream, and my body and mind felt a long-lost sense of satisfaction.
The role of alcohol
When I was about to get out of bed, the hand that lifted the quilt suddenly stopped, and I looked up, here is...
Familiar goose-yellow silk curtains with dark grids, and a few pots of sun-loving green plants on the window sills. They are as vibrant as ever, and have not shown any abnormalities because of the departure of the previous owner. I have lived in this place for so long. Confirmed something.
I still remember that Lin Rui asked me where I lived last night, did I report here because I was insane? So the gentle scene remains in the memory, and the long-lost sense of belonging of being hugged tightly is not a dream.
I rubbed my brain with a headache, I can't blame people for saying that drinking was a mistake, now that I am facing Wen Yang, I am not asking for a dead end.
I picked up the clothes on the bedside, dressed in a hurry and got out of bed.
Passing by the living room, I saw a tall and straight figure who was busy in the kitchen. I controlled myself to take another look*. I took my coat and went straight to the door. I didn’t know whether to blame Lin Rui or myself more. If something happened Mistake, let Wen Yang see me go crazy, this is absolutely unbearable for me.
But things didn't go well, the door was locked twice, Wen Yang lived alone, what was he afraid of? In the past, there was only one lock, but when I finally opened the door, a hand came around from behind.
"Where are you going?"
The deep and magnetic voice exploded above my head, grabbing all my emotions in an instant, and my heart couldn't help but miss a beat.
I took a few deep breaths secretly, and then slowly turned around. Wen Yang didn't let go of his hand. I leaned against the door, as if I was trapped in a small space by him, and my breathing stopped suddenly. Some ambiguous.
I tilted my head, without looking at anyone, and said directly: "I caused you trouble last night, I have to go home."
"Here... is your home, let's eat first."
"Wen Yang!" My voice raised significantly, I looked up at him, Wen Yang had retracted his hand, standing tall, a look of bewilderment seemed to flash in his eyes, but his Qingjun face was still indifferent.
He stepped back and said, "Sorry, you can't go."
I took a deep breath and said, "Wen Yang, you can't do this."
Wen Yang also looked at me, and said calmly: "Then tell me what I should do? What should I do so that you are willing to stay?"
"I..." I was at a loss for words, I couldn't stay.
Wen Yang was also silent for a long time, before he slowly said: "Hearing that kind of recording, I can't convince myself to believe you, I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I don't believe you, you can blame me however you want, but— "He sighed softly, and suddenly raised his hand to pull my shoulder, "But I don't understand why you did those things without telling me. You would rather discuss it with Guan Lei than tell me, Shishan, because of what made you You choose to do this?"
Wen Yang is still so powerful, he didn't blindly apologize because of the misunderstanding that blurred the focus, and he was able to point to the crux of the problem, but I can't explain these things.
I turned sideways and broke away from his hand: "If you finish talking, I have something to do, so I'll leave first!" I turned around and opened the door again. I'm half a lunatic now, so I have nothing to say now.
But before I touched the door, Wen Yang couldn't help but pull me closer, "Are you blaming me?" We were very close, and at such a distance, I could clearly see the deep and thick emotions in his eyes. Looking straight at me, with a firm and controlled air, I can't help but dodge my eyes in any way.
My hands and feet were all stiff, I looked at Wen Yang for a while, and almost turned my head away: "Let go."
Wen Yang's expression darkened, he let go of me, and smiled self-deprecatingly: "I should be angry, I always thought that I protected you very well, but I didn't know that you did this for me. In your eyes, I am Isn't it terrible?"
I shook my head sincerely and said, "No." You feel guilty now because you don't remember the consequences of the trust you gave me in your last life. You don't know, but I can't pretend that those things never happened.
Speaking of which, Wen Yang was obviously out of breath at that time, obviously had evidence, and obviously had a chance to turn things around, but he didn't think about calling the police, and in the end he resigned to fate and let me go. He never really hurt me, maybe he misunderstood me and didn't trust me, and I can feel resentful because of it, but I can't deny his tenderness.
Wen Yang's expression was gloomy, and he was silent for a while: "I know, you sold the house left to you by your relatives for me, and invested all your wealth in stocks, just to help me tide over the difficulties; I know, you worked so hard for my body, You have practiced cooking hard, and you, who have always been noble, do not hesitate to pester a girl against your heart; I know that you were obviously angry because I didn't let you enter the company, but you worked hard for my company, and Wen He went alone Zhou Xuan; I also know that you are doing all this silently, but you never thought of letting me know, but I have never been able to give you enough trust."
He suddenly smiled, but there was some sadness in his eyes: "I know what it feels like to sell what my relatives left for me. I never thought that someone would do this for me. Dare to think about what I have done, you should be angry with me, and I can't forgive myself for everything I have done."
I lowered my head, feeling a little sour for no reason. I thought for a while, then looked up at Wen Yang, and said slowly, "I'm not angry with you. It has nothing to do with trust or not, it's actually nothing, Wen Yang, I don't blame you." Wen Yang can't be blamed for this, even relatives may find it difficult to accept such a test, in the end it was all my fault It was caused by concealment. I thought I would confess to him after I bought the villa. I wanted a happy ending too much, but it turned out to be self-defeating. Now looking back at the things I did, it is not a "stupid" word. describe.
In the final analysis, our problem is not misunderstanding. As long as we are willing to speak and communicate, there is no unsolvable misunderstanding in this world. The problem lies in the intolerable feelings I have for him, which I can do at any time. Mad disease, we can't go back to the past.
Wen Yang seemed to be taken aback for a moment, looking at my eyes that were as warm and lustrous as ever, he said, "Shishan, do you really not blame me?"
I smiled at him and said, "I don't blame you. I said that I won't blame you for anything you do to me. This sentence is always valid for you." My life is for redemption, no matter what happens, I still remember my original vow, never to be controlled by those despicable evil thoughts, never to hurt you, to walk through all the thorns and ups and downs, to exhaust all my strength, just for your ultimate happiness, not to move you, just to My heart, which has been wandering for two lifetimes, has been redeemed.
Wen Yang was taken aback for a moment, and slowly stretched his brows: "Just forgive me like this, aren't you being too kind to me?" Wen Yang smiled, and as he said that, he actually hooked me into his arms with a long hand inside.
I was startled, took a step back suddenly, and said in a panic, "Wen Yang!" My heart beat a few beats, and it took me a while to restrain the thought of being gentle, and said seriously: "I think there is something wrong with you Wrong, it’s not that I treat you well, it’s that you treat me well, and I treat you well. I really have nothing to blame you for this matter, so I’m not angry about it, but it doesn’t mean that we can resume and continue Same as before."
"Why?" Wen Yang froze, and the smile on his face quickly disappeared.
I took a deep breath and said: "I heard what you and Liang Mi said at the dinner table that day. I was shocked at the time. Maybe your friend didn't see the whole picture, so he said that. Your so-called kindness is only financial help, which is within your ability and does not go beyond. But your kindness to me, I feel that it has surpassed ordinary friends. Not to mention the daily greetings, I am not allowed to go out Stay longer and always make some ambiguous actions, just like just now, this is not what a normal friend should have, so I wonder if you have other ideas about me, which makes me panic."
I saw the slowly cracking expression on Wen Yang's face, and continued to bite the bullet, "So we are still friends, but I can't stay here. If there is a need for me, I will still fulfill the responsibility of a friend, but I I don't want to have any ambiguous relationship with you and make others have bad associations. In fact, if it wasn't for Liang Mi, I wouldn't have realized this. Our relationship is indeed too close. No matter how good a friend is, there should be a distance. "
Wen Yang stood there in a daze, probably too shocked by my words, there are really few people who can be as thick-skinned as I am, who can call a thief to stop the thief, but the villain first complains and bites back, Wen Yang's three views estimate It's all going to crash.
It took Wen Yang a long time to regain his composure and say, "No—I..."
Of course I know you are not, I looked at Wen Yang who looked embarrassed, but I lost my scruples, and continued to speak boldly: "Although I don't discriminate against this, I feel uncomfortable in my heart, so I was really angry those few days , I also know that those who clean up will clean up themselves, but there is no need to cause trouble to yourself, we are still friends, but I can't stay any longer."
When I pushed open the door and left, Wen Yang still seemed unable to react.
I got out of the apartment and walked through the neighborhood. Thinking of Wen Yang's appearance just now, I couldn't help laughing out loud. This man is so stupid that he actually believed it. How could such a powerful person be so stupid.
The more I thought about it, the more amusing it became, and the louder I laughed, it attracted the attention of passers-by, as if I was no one, and finally my stomach hurt from laughing, I bent down from laughing, and I found tears in my eyes.
Why am I laughing, I'm a pathetic fool.