Everything Guan Lei said broke through my cognition, and I even doubted whether he was talking about the Wen Yang I knew...or maybe I never really got to know him.
I remembered the words Wen Yang once said to me—
"I will beat the disabled, scold myself, um, and bully women." The man said it lightly, but I don't know what kind of mood he was thinking at that time.
He said to me: "Just like you have your own secrets, we all have a lot of places that we don't want prying eyes-but I still hope that one day you will share your secrets with me, and in exchange, I will tell you too my business."
I still remember my harsh words at the beginning of our reunion, and he slammed the door out in anger, but it didn't take long for him to go back and come back to me with food.
I remember that because of Qin Fu's affairs, he threw me into the wilderness in a rage, but he turned around and apologized to me.
I remember that when he thought that I had betrayed him, he was already so angry that he endured the anger to the point of self-harming his hand, and in the end he just left.
All his staying away was just to appease his anger.
I never knew about this, because Wen Yang never used violence against me. In the past two lifetimes, he would rather harm himself than touch me, even though I pushed him into a desperate situation several times in the last lifetime.
In my impression, he has always been a gentle and noble son, with a scholarly family, tall and handsome, gentle and polite, so perfect that people can't find a trace of fault, and perfect that makes people yearn for.
I always felt that my life experience was miserable, but I never knew that Wen Yang, who seemed to be from a superior family, had suffered more than me. I thought I understood him, but I didn’t really understand his heart. I even complained that he didn’t get along with anything. I said, but I am not the same, those are unspeakable secrets, and it takes a lot of courage to confess.
Guan Lei said again: "These days, Wen Yang seems to be a little out of control. He first beat Liang Mi, then suddenly punched a disabled person from the Qin family at the banquet, and then beat you and Wen He. He didn't It’s going to be like this, it’s like it’s completely out of control.”
"Wen Yang hit Liang Mi?" I was startled, "When did it happen, didn't I hear you say it?"
"It was that time when I was eating at your place, Wen Yang went downstairs and beat him up. How dare I tell you that I just punched Wen Yang in the first place, and you gave me a punch? I scolded all the time, it’s because we have a good relationship, if I tell you that these two people started fighting, you probably don’t even have to ask the reason, but go to our company to block people.” Guan Lei sighed, “You can’t do it for no reason. Hit someone, I didn't know the reason at the time, so I could only ask you obliquely, but you... What's wrong with you, you look so bad?"
"Brother Lei, I'm a little tired, I want to sleep for a while."
"Okay, okay—you rest, I won't disturb you."
Guan Lei left, I opened my eyes wide, and lay on the bed crying endlessly, silently and turbulently...
If I knew that after rebirth, I would only be with Wen Yang for a few months, I would definitely not have said those mean words when we first met and pushed him far away...
If I knew that the time we spent together was so short, I wouldn't be angry with Liang Mi because of that mess. I would definitely seize every moment of our time together, leaving only happy memories, so that the memories would not be so sad.
If I knew that the time we spend together is so small that I need to count my fingers, I would not do so many things without telling him, so that we would have no misunderstanding or quarrel. If I knew, how could I be willing to be angry with him , I will plan every minute and every second together, so as not to leave so many regrets for myself.
But God will not give me another chance to start again, we have no future, and no if...
It may be that my body is too weak, I do not know when, I fell asleep again drowsily.
When I woke up again, it was already getting dark, and I slept very peacefully this time, only had a burning dream at the end, although my head was still a little dizzy, but I felt much better mentally, I have slept peacefully for a month It has become a luxury.
I was the only one in the whole ward, and the infusion bottle had been replaced with a new one. My whole right hand was cold and numb, and I had to use all my strength to barely sit up. I was so embarrassed, not only because of the injury, but because my body was really weak.
I took a few breaths, ignoring the half bottle of infusion that hadn't been hung up, and pulled out the needle directly. A few drops of blood immediately ooze out from the back of my hand due to lack of strength. was pushed away.
I looked up and met the eyes of the person at the door, and the other person's face darkened immediately when they saw me.
"Where are you going?" Wen Yang walked up to me and grabbed my arm.
I didn't understand where Wen Yang's anger came from, but I was anxious and broke free and said, "Let go!"
"You're still sick. If you don't stay in bed, where else are you going? I just won't let you see me, and I'm going to leave without saying a word!" Wen Yang hugged my arm tightly, and I saw his eyes slowly The gathered anger has reached the critical point of anger.
"No!" My face turned red, "You told me to go to the toilet." My entire bladder was about to burst, and I was looking for the toilet everywhere in my dream, and it was blocked when I woke up.
Wen Yang was taken aback for a moment, let go of his hand, and immediately regained his usual calmness: "I'll help you there."
I don't try to be brave, and if I don't let the water go, the fame in this life will be gone.
After my physical needs were resolved, I held onto the sink, and walked out slowly with mixed feelings. Wen Yang helped me lie down, and leaned over to cover me with a quilt.
Lying like this, I saw blue stubble growing on his chin, which is really rare. Compared with the previous image of the sunny boy, he instantly felt much more mature, and I was so fascinated that I poked it with my hand.
Wen Yang paused, and grasped my hand into his palm.
I was startled, and realized what stupid thing I had done, so I quickly pulled my hand back.
Wen Yang was stunned for a moment, his dark eyes rolled with subtle emotions, he said: "I'm not... not gay, how can you listen to what Liang Mi says, I look like..."
"I know you're not. Brother Lei said you're with Yang Xuan." You don't look like a pervert either. I know it. Even though Wen Yang didn't do anything, I felt as if a cut had been made in my heart. There was a hissing pain in the mouth.
I turned my head away and said, "Sorry, I misunderstood you before, whether it was your * or not, I shouldn't have said that."
Wen Yang was quiet for a while, and said: "I don't blame you." Then we stopped talking, we were all silent, fell into silence for a while, and the air in the ward was a bit oppressive.
I don't know what Wen Yang was thinking, I felt inexplicably irritable, and finally couldn't hold back, and said first: "Didn't you say that a man should not fall in love until his career is successful? Why are you suddenly with Yang Xuan?" ?” After asking, I regretted it, I really slapped myself in the face, why didn’t Wen Yang succeed in his career, and fell into hysteria again.
Wen Yang was stunned for a moment, he raised his eyes to look at me, and said slowly, "Such a good girl, I'm afraid that if I miss it, I'll regret it later." He looked at me fixedly, and said, "Do you think Yang How is Xuan?"
If I used to be able to bear the pain to bless and even be willing to match up, now that I asked this question, I was a bit upset, I turned my head away, and said with anger: "It's very good, I'm so envious of Brother Lei, I keep saying that you are lucky , you cherish her, Yang Xuan is the most outstanding girl I have ever seen, you are both talented and beautiful, you are perfect, if you really miss it, you will never find another one." There is nothing to say, it can't be dismantled without being twisted.
Wen Yang was quiet for a few seconds, and asked, "Are you the best? What about Jiang Ning?"
I paused, a little discouraged, "It's different, they are different." I lowered my eyes and said softly, "Jiang Ning said that everyone is special, you are you, he is him, there is always someone to treat you It is special and cannot be compared like this.” There are tens of thousands of people in this world, there are as many people who are worse than you and people who are not as good as you, but our life will only be affected by a few specific people, and The rest have nothing to do with us.
The ward became quiet again. Some things have changed after all. We were never so cold in the past.
"Let's eat something."
Wen Yang propped up the pillow for me, let me sit comfortably on the bed, and turned around to get the huge thermos cup on the table.
He served the porridge and mixed the enamel, I took it and said, "I'll do it myself." Wen Yang didn't say anything, and handed me the bowl.
Sure enough, it was a bit difficult to swallow in my throat, and it fell on an idiot's hand, so there was really no reason for it.
"I won't let you be bullied in vain." Wen Yang's voice was full of bitterness, but there was a kind of solemnity in his words, like a promise. I have no doubts about the authenticity of these words. Just like when he was in college, he said he would protect me in the future, and he has protected me for four years.
What to do, I couldn't help it again, my heart was in a mess, this person always wanted me to rely on me, I turned my head subconsciously, Wen Yang was not wearing a coat, the black shirt looked a bit messy, the cuffs were rolled up to the elbows, and the wrist strap Wearing a platinum watch, the sitting posture is still slender and straight. But there was unconcealable fatigue between the brows, and the whole person looked a little decadent as before.
My heart stabbed slightly, as if I had been rubbed by a thick hemp rope, and said nonchalantly: "The beating was not in vain, and five million was extorted, but let me say it first, I don't want the money I borrowed from you earlier, But I will not pay you back the 5 million."
Wen Yang looked at me and said in a soft voice: "The money should always be paid back to you. As for the five million, it has nothing to do with me. You can do whatever you want."
I said solemnly: "Let's talk about it when you are rich. I have five million, and I am richer than you now."
I raised my eyes to look at him, only to see a smile finally appeared on Wen Yang's handsome face, as warm as the sunshine in spring, his eyes seemed to be drowning in tenderness like water, my breathing suddenly became sluggish.
Really worthless, I hurriedly lowered my head to calm down and eat with peace of mind.
After eating, Wen Yang helped me to lie down again. He took a hot towel and warmed my hand that was blue from the infusion. Wen Yang said, "Can the rich move back and share the rent with me?" .” He said it very casually, as if it came out very casually.
I was dizzy from being waited on, and subconsciously wanted to nod, but I soon recovered, and I was a little annoyed: "Do you always want me to move back, go back, go back and make light bulbs?"
Wen Yang paused, frowned and said, "Yang Xuan and I haven't reached that point yet."
Do you want me to move out after that step? I suddenly got angry, and I looked at him and said, "Wen Yang, I am not a pet that you just come and go when you call, call me back when you are in a good mood, and kick me when you are not in a good mood." Kick it off, I also have my life, you can't be so selfish."