I didn't change into the clothes that Fang had prepared for me. I thought about going back to the hotel to wash up, but was stopped by Qin Xi and Feng Xiaoman halfway. I thought that after yesterday, Qin Xi had given up.
I went around their car, but was blocked by two big men, and here again, their bodyguards use this.
I turned around slowly, looked at the two expressionlessly, and waited for them to speak.
Feng Xiaoman looked at me, sighed, and said in a soft voice: "Shishan, you must go to the United States now. Lance said that if you don't go back, your condition will deteriorate and there is no possibility of cure."
I sneered: "If that's the case, then that's my own business and has nothing to do with you."
Qin Xi was furious: "We are not harming you, but helping you. What's your attitude?"
I raised my eyes and looked at them indifferently, and said: "You were helping me before, but now I have become a lunatic."
"What do you mean, that you think we are meddling in our own business and shouldn't help you? What kind of kindness is it like a donkey's liver and lungs!" Qin Xi was furious, and turned to Feng Xiaoman, "I told you not to worry about it, but you didn't Listen, do you hear that this is a human language? Let's go, let him die if he wants to die, I'm not so free." After speaking, he pulled Feng Xiaoman to leave.
Feng Xiaoman's complexion was not very good, he pulled Qin Xi forcefully, and said to me: "We were negligent before, even if you have resentment and blame us, you can't make fun of your body, you will have a long time when you are young. There is a way to go, and you can't destroy yourself just because of a moment of anger."
"I didn't blame you guys." I narrowed my eyes slightly, "The reason why I became what I am now is because I put my fate in the hands of others and tried to avoid disasters through others, but I won't be like this in the future , I will plan everything in the future by myself, and I will achieve my goals regardless of the cost, and none of you can stop me."
Feng Xiaoman looked at me puzzled, "Why can't you let go of your hatred and always think about those unpleasant things, don't be so extreme?"
"What do you know?" I looked at them with cold eyes, "What do you know, how do you know what I have endured? You think it's just as simple as drugging? I have lived my whole life in the tragedy he brought me among!"
"I didn't have a father since I was a child, but it's okay. I have a mother and grandparents, but my mother died of depression because of his deceit first, and my grandparents couldn't bear the pain of losing their daughters, so they left one after another. Now I have no relatives. Because of him, I have no relatives. Even so, I hated him no matter how much I hated him, and I didn't think about what to do with him. You want to use me to help him rob the Qin family's property! If you can't force it, you will drug me, turn me into a lunatic, and ruin my life!"
I approached Feng Xiaoman and looked straight at her: "You tell me why he did this? What qualifications does he have to do this? My life has been ruined by him, so just put down the hatred in an understatement."
"You tell me to let go, how can I let go? How can I not hate! I want to be with him forever in this life, I am not afraid of anything, if he doesn't die, I will never have a future!" I looked at them, my whole body They all fell into a state of madness, and there was an uncontrollable deep hatred in their chests. I must... must kill Qin Fu, and no one can stop me.
I stared at them bitterly: "No matter what you do, don't expect me to be grateful to you. If it weren't for your Qin family to bully others and raise such scum, I would not be what I am now. I have nothing but love for you Qin family. Hate, if I can, I wish I could destroy the Qin family, let you have a taste of this, and see if you can let it go!"
The raging hatred burned all my nerves, and the scenes of my childhood appeared in my eyes, the hysterical roar of my mother when she was angry, the humiliation and unwilling cries, the sorrow, sighs and tears of grandparents when they faced their daughters, the pain of being eaten by loneliness Throughout my childhood, after all my relatives left, the ray of sunshine that came suddenly was swallowed up by the darkness before it bloomed. Since then, my world has always been immersed in darkness, and I will never see the light again.
I seem to see Feng Xiaoman's gradually terrified eyes. Why are you afraid of me? I am a stupid coward. What is there to be afraid of
"What are you doing?" An angry shout sounded in my ear.
I feel that my world is blurred, and many things are not real. I suddenly feel very tired. Maybe I should take a break and leave everything to that lunatic.
I don't know how long I slept for this sleep, and when I woke up, I was already lying in the Qin mansion, with bursts of dull pain in my shoulders and back.
Qin Xi stood in front of me with a cold face, his eyes were bruised a lot, and a band-aid was stuck on the corner of his mouth, he said: "You can't find Qin Fu by yourself, he is no longer in Qin's house, so no matter what you do, you can't find Qin Fu." It's futile."
I looked at him coldly, clenched my hand under the quilt tightly, and the remaining rationality told me to calm down, otherwise I might not be able to get out of here for the rest of my life.
Feng Xiaoman looked at me and stretched out his hand to tug Qin Xi.
Qin Xi sighed helplessly, and said: "I will take you to see Qin Fu, but after that you have to go back to the United States for treatment, if you agree, I will take you there now, if you have the ability to kill him, I will not Stop it, but if you don't agree, we promise to ignore you in the future, but you don't want to see Qin Fu again."
This surprised me a bit. After waking up, I thought about the worst. The other party might lock me up as a lunatic. I ended up like this in my last life. I don’t want Qin Xi not to be annoyed by my previous madness, but still able to maintain Say this calmly.
He seemed to be aware of my thoughts, and said with a sneer, "I won't be as knowledgeable as a lunatic."
I bowed my head and pondered for a while, and said, "Okay!" I don't care why he changed his mind, but as long as he can achieve his goal, I can't care too much.
"Do you want to take a rest, your face looks very bad." Feng Xiaoman worried.
Before I could refuse, Qin Xi said angrily: "Take a break? He can beat your man like this, what are you worried about?"
Feng Xiaoman glanced at Qin Xi, with distressed expression on her face, she lowered her head in frustration, but said nothing, Qin Xi always advocated leaving me alone, but she kept refusing to give up, which caused her lover to get hurt. It has added a lot of trouble, such a person is the Holy Mother, but if this person is your Holy Mother, how can you ridicule it
When we were about to leave the Qin residence, we met Qin Mu who had just come back from outside. Qin Xi stopped and stood at the stairs, waiting for Qin Mu to come up.
"Second brother." Qin Xi greeted politely.
Qin Mu hummed, and looked at us. His eyes seemed to sweep over me, and he stabbed someone as sharp as a knife. Just when I thought he could say something, he walked around with a group of people. leave.
I've always wondered, I don't know how Mr. Qin gave birth to his son. The age of the three brothers of the Qin family is arranged in a stepwise order, with a difference of about 10 years. The youngest Qin Xi is not a few years older than me, and the oldest Qin Fu is me. Father by blood, although Qin Mu is much older than Qin Xi, he looks very young and well-maintained. He is dressed in a high-end suit and looks straight. Behind him is Butler Xu and his assistant. The group walks towards the study, looking As if there is something important to attend to.
When I went downstairs, Qin Xi said to me: "Second brother meant to send you to the United States. Look at him now, he is a successful person in the eyes of many people. No one would have thought that he had such an experience. If he had If you give up, I'm afraid it will be a different scene today."
In the last life, the indifferent disgust in Qin Mu’s eyes when he saw me is still vivid in my memory. I can’t imagine that a cruel person could have such kindness. Now that I think about it, his disgust for me should come from Qin Fu. In this life, I Perhaps let him give birth to some sympathy for sympathy.
"Based on seniority, he is your second uncle, and I am your third uncle."
I:"… "
The car started slowly, thinking that I would see the culprit who caused me two lives in a while, I clenched my fists tightly, and my whole body was tense.
But when I got to the place, I felt as if someone had poured a bucket of cold water on me, and my whole body froze.
After I was reborn, I dreamed of this place countless times, but I never imagined that one day I would revisit the old place. The tall iron gates, the cold medical staff, and all kinds of lunatics. This is a nightmare that I want to forget and never forget. .
They didn't want to bring me to see Qin Fu at all, they wanted to imprison me here? I broke out in a cold sweat and trembled uncontrollably, so they were lying to me just now.
No, no, I'm trying to calm myself down, if they want to, they can throw it in while I'm fainting, there's no need to do it.
Maybe it was because my face was a little scary, Feng Xiaoman saw me like this, and asked, "What's wrong with you?"
"Damn—" Qin Xi, who was sitting next to me, changed his face slightly, "Aren't you going crazy again? Say it first, if you can't control yourself, I'll just knock you out!"
Feng Xiaoman hurriedly said, "Didn't Lance say that you have emergency medicine?"
I watched the car slowly approaching this madman's sanatorium, took a slow breath, shook my head and said, "I won't get sick in a short period of time." I was like this at the beginning of my last life, and I would be honest for a while after doing stupid things , or even trying to find a way to remedy it, and later on, there were fewer and fewer times when I was sober and rational. What I didn't know was that the rationality at that time was only the rationality I thought, and my temperament was slowly changing.
Feng Xiaoman looked at me and said suddenly: "Have you ever thought about what will happen to you if you don't receive treatment?"
I sneered and looked at the scenery outside the window: "Do you think I was controlled by drugs to become like this? You have only known me for a few days, why don't you know that this is my nature?"
"Everyone has an unknown dark side in their hearts, but we usually use reason to suppress such negative emotions. Even if we occasionally lose control, we will try to make up for it, instead of being completely swayed by this emotion and losing our minds. It's our normal behavior."
I looked up at her, and smiled coldly: "What about Qin Fu? You will also excuse him like this, because you are influenced by negative emotions, so you do those stupid things? There should be more people like you in the world, killing people You can not break the law!"
"That's two different things!" Feng Xiaoman quickly shook his head and said, "Qin Fu's nature is like this, even if he really repents in the future, he has committed an irreversible mistake, and naturally he has to pay the price, but you are different, before going astray , you can still look back, the Buddha said that one thought becomes a Buddha, one thought becomes a demon, what kind of path one chooses depends on a person's one thought, I have seen many children like you, and in the end they regret it!"