After talking too much, I felt that I couldn't catch my breath, coughed violently, and there was no pain anywhere in my body.
Jiang Ning cried even harder, she choked up and said, "Is he that good, Shi Shan, can you forget him?"
I panted and shook my head, a burning pain in my throat.
"Then let me ask him to come and see you, okay? He came to me a few days ago and asked about your whereabouts. I didn't know you were here at that time." Jiang Ning said again.
I took a slow breath, closed my eyes, and said with a smile: "No, that's it, that's it..."
I feel very tired and want to sleep again. I am too tired. I am too tired when I wake up. I might as well go to sleep...
But some people just didn't let people stop, and there was a voice in broken Chinese, which was annoying to hear: "Shi, I thought that I might not be able to cure you, but I didn't expect that you would admit defeat without any resistance. Three months! You only persisted for three months and you gave up. You are the most cowardly person I have ever seen in the world. You are called a coward in the Chinese language."
I think this guy is really interesting, it doesn't matter if I'm cowardly or not, he really hates it.
But I didn't expect Jiang Ning to join in the fun, and burst into tears: "Wow—didn't you say you wanted to be Wen Yang's best man and godfather to his child? You said that you can just watch him happy, it's all a lie Human, woohoo - you can't accept such a result at all, so you choose to escape, how can you do this, woohoo - why do you only see him, is there no one who treats you well except him, you can only Did you see him? You can't be like this, you can't be so selfish, woo-woo-" Jiang Ning's sobbing voice lingered in his ears, and the unstoppable crying made people flustered.
My heart was vainly sour, and I opened my eyes tiredly. I really can't see a girl crying. Seeing her fair face covered with tears, she smiled and said, "Don't cry, I just want to sleep for a while, it's not a serious illness." , crying like this, girls just like to cry."
I was really tired, I couldn't help but took a breath, and then I continued, "Jiang Ning, thank you, thank you for coming to see me, I know, I know, you wait for me to wake up, wait for me to wake up and then talk to me." you say."
If a person is still in class in the classroom for one second, how would he feel if he found himself lying on the bed half dead for several years in the next second
Will it be schizophrenic? I have been unable to distinguish between reality and fiction for a long time. As a mentally ill person, I feel that I can be forgiven, but there is an annoying voice always telling me, "Things that are too beautiful are often illusions."
Lance gave me a notebook and asked me to write a diary. I took the notebook with me and wrote down almost every task I finished, because I didn't know where I would "run" to in the next second.
I obviously record my daily life every day, but I still find that the dates in the diary cannot be connected in series, and the days are always intermittent.
When I eat lunch, I think about when did I have breakfast? Then I turned out the little book and saw that it was not there.
When basking in the sun, I would suddenly find Jiang Ning sitting next to me. From the initial shock and anxiety to the later surprise, I think I have adapted to this kind of life.
They did not go to Wen Yang as promised, but they brought Jiang Ning to me, and I am very grateful.
Jiang Ning often came to see me, and we often chatted about things in school. Familiar faces made me firmer and pulled me out of those illusory pasts.
Sometimes we would leave the nursing home and go for a walk outside. After winter, the Bronx Park became lively, and the New York Botanical Garden was full of flowers and full of vitality. I had the illusion that I couldn't tell what night it was.
No matter how good the environment in the nursing home is, you will get bored if you stay for a long time. Only when Jiang Ning comes can I have the chance to go out and relax. I recently fell in love with the monkeys in the Bronx Zoo, and I look forward to seeing Jiang Ning every day, but I found that the time between her looking at me was getting longer and longer, which made me feel inexplicably disturbed and lost.
"Jiang Ning..."
"Ok?"
I glanced at Jiang Ning, and asked a little hesitantly, "You... when will you come over next time?"
Jiang Ning fiddled with the photos in the SLR, and replied: "Saturday, what's the matter, do you want me to bring you any books? Write me a book list, and I will bring you all next time."
I figured it out, today is also Saturday, and it will take another week, which is long enough. However, Jiang Ning also has his own affairs to be busy, so he can't always look at it like before...
I was stunned for a moment, I took out the small book from my pocket, flipped through it for a while, I was a little bit dumbfounded, it turned out to be such a thing, I was really mentally ill, and my IQ returned.
"What's wrong with you?" Seeing my strange behavior, Jiang Ning asked worriedly.
I smiled, put the book back in my pocket, and said, "No, I haven't finished the book yet, so I have the photos repaired and copied for me." So it wasn't that Jiang Ning reduced the time to visit me. She always came over on weekends, because I The time of waking up is gradually getting longer, and the interval will feel longer and longer.
I looked at Jiang Ning who lowered his head to look at the photo again, and felt warm in my heart.
Jiang Ning was wearing a black woolen coat, with her tiny body huddled inside, her shoulder-length hair slightly curled in, and holding a huge camera in her hand. This contrast made her look very cute, usually There is a pure temperament all over the body.
I think they allowed Jiang Ning to take me out, a large part of the reason is that I have never been ill in front of Jiang Ning, and I have always spoken in a soft voice, for fear of scaring her. Control yourself not to hurt this kind and weak girl.
Maybe they just wanted to try at first, whether this girl who exudes the breath of an angel can really help me get out of the haze of life.
"You write me an email, and I'll send you the picture when it's finished." Jiang Ning paused for a moment, then said hesitantly, "Shishan, can we look at other things next time? I can already publish a photo of a monkey. gone."
"Ah?" I said with some embarrassment, "It's not that there are lemurs in it. I haven't seen it yet, and I plan to take a look next time." My body is recovering, and the places I can go are limited each time. In such a big zoo, we only go to one or two places at a time, and we can't be too far apart.
"... Well, let's watch it next time. I'll ask the breeder where it usually moves, so we can see it next time. Don't worry."
She was obviously disappointed, but she wanted to turn around to comfort me. I laughed out loud, and rubbed her smooth hair: "You're kidding, I saw it earlier, let's go to see the fish next time."
Jiang Ning blushed, and although she was still as shy as ever, she would retort angrily: "Shishan, you have learned badly and lied to me."
I took the remaining snacks and walked back with Jiang Ning talking and laughing all the way. I happened to meet Wang Kai walking towards me.
"You are back, just right, Shi Shan, you are going to have some routine physical examinations today, if there is nothing else, come with me."
I immediately turned cold. The inspection could be done any day, but it happened to be at this time. The inspection could not be completed in an hour. By the time I got back, the Jiangning people had already left.
As soon as Jiang Ning heard that there was an examination to be done, he hurriedly took the things in my hand, pushed me and said, "Go, go, have an examination, don't lose your temper."
I was already very tired after going out today. After nearly an hour of examination, I lay down on the soft chair in Wang Kai's office and closed my eyes to rest.
"The weight is slowly recovering. Although some tests can't produce results now, I feel that your body has recovered very well recently, and everything is getting better."
I squinted my eyes and said "um". After this Wang Kai came, I couldn't pretend that I didn't understand. This group of people who do psychological research have a problem. They have to respond to everything, otherwise they will talk to you On and on.
Seeing my lack of interest, Wang Kai asked again, "Did you go out and have fun today?"
Thinking of how Jiang Ning was being bullied by monkeys today, I couldn't help but raise the corners of my mouth and let out another "hmm".
"Jiang Ning is beautiful and kind-hearted. I guess there must be a lot of people chasing her when you were in school."
I try to recall that Jiang Ning is introverted, she likes to lower her head when she walks, and she speaks in a low voice. She usually has a weak sense of presence in the class. She will only take pictures for everyone during group activities.
I thought for a while and said, "She doesn't like to talk usually, so there shouldn't be many boys chasing her."
"How could it be? Did you remember wrongly? A girl like her must be liked by many boys."
I frowned slightly, looked up at Wang Kai, he was playing with a crystal hourglass, then raised his head and smiled at me, he put the hourglass on the table, looked at me and said: "You must have remembered wrongly, try again Think about it, many boys like this kind of girl who looks weak and weak, but deep down she is tolerant and independent, she is caring and understanding, and she will unreservedly show what she thinks is the best to the person she likes."
I looked at the crystal hourglass on his table, and said with some uncertainty: "Maybe... I can't remember too well, Guo Yu called her a goddess, she is also very cute, there should be many people who like her. "
"Then do you remember the first time you saw her? On the first day of school, did you see her among the people reporting? What is she doing? How is it different from Jiang Ning now?"
I watched the fine sand in the hourglass drain away bit by bit, and shook my head: "I went to the school to report a week late, and I didn't meet Jiang Ning, and we didn't know each other very well at school."
Wang Kai turned the hourglass upside down, and said softly: "Then if you didn't delay the report, you met Jiang Ning at the school gate. Her parents divorced, and she came to report alone. She dragged the extra-large luggage by herself. She is a A little girl with a thin body, without the company of family and friends, has to do everything by herself, and no one helps her, what would you do if you see her?"
"I..." I hesitated.
"Don't worry, close your eyes and think about it, will you help her? She is a weak girl, and she was not accompanied by her family on the first day of her university report. Maybe she didn't want someone to help her with her luggage. She Just wanted someone to come and talk to her and go report with her so she wouldn't seem so alone."
A scene seemed to be outlined in front of me. There was a long queue of cars outside the campus. At the gate of the crowded campus, there was a slender and lonely figure standing there alone. His back looked a little bleak, and his petite body seemed to be blown away by the wind. Like, I suddenly felt that my heart seemed to be a little painful.
"I… "