I remember it was a beautiful morning.
The handsome young man is lying in my arms, his eyebrows and eyes are as fine as the transparent wings of insects, and his pale lips are dyed bright red because of the roughness last night. I bowed my head and kissed your fan-shaped eyelashes, everything is beautiful It makes people want to sigh for no reason.
At least that's how it started out—
You are different to me, and I knew it early on.
But what's different, I haven't thought about it before.
Thinking about it now, you are also an important friend, but my feelings towards Guan Lei and you are completely different.
From the first time I saw you, I wanted to keep you behind me and give you all my warmth and protection.
I hope your smile can be more, you are so beautiful when you smile, you are as drunk as the spring breeze described in the poem, it feels like your whole heart is melted away, as if you can get rid of all the irritability and anxiety.
And Guan Lei is my comrade-in-arms who fought side by side with me, a brother of flesh and blood, brave enough and pure enough, at least I won't try my best to want Guan Lei to smile at me.
But there are some things I can do with Guan Lei, but I can't do it with you, just like I can start a company with Guan Lei and don't want you to get involved.
There are so few things in this world that really belong to me. I hope you are the one who will never leave me.
I regard you as my escape route, because as long as you are here, even if I fail one day, I still have the courage to start again.
I know it's selfish. I just want you to stand behind me and accept my protection. I can give you the best.
Entrepreneurship is difficult, not only does it make people feel hard and tired, Guan Lei and I have to quarrel from time to time, not because of our small friendship, our relationship may be worn out by the hardships of entrepreneurship.
I don't want you to see my unbearable and failed side, I just want you to feel that I am omnipotent, that I can give you enough protection, that I can always be trusted and worshiped by you, and this will continue forever.
But when did all this start to change
But one holiday, you suddenly started to alienate me, stopped clinging to others, stopped relying on me, suddenly spoke bad words to me, and even talked about falling in love.
Everything was out of control, and I felt very frustrated, as if a piece of my chest had been dug out of thin air, which made people feel uneasy for no reason.
But even so, I didn't think about that taboo feeling. In my opinion, it is a kind of blasphemy against you. You are so clean and beautiful, and you deserve the best in this world.
But it turned out that the person I had been taking care of for so long was injured by a rotten cabbage, and I was so angry.
I looked indifferently at Jiang Ning, who was crying in pear blossoms and raining in front of me. Not only did I not feel any guilt for bullying a woman, but I also felt a kind of pleasure to vent my anger.
Obviously decided to go abroad, but she came to provoke you and tease your feelings. It was just a few innocuous words, so she cried like this.
But you, you feel depressed because of her, and you are full of affection and mispay.
That day when you cried, my heart was broken, and your fragility made people feel distressed, just like thin ice in the sun, it will shatter at any time.
How much I want to hold you in my arms and put it in my heart, never to be bullied, never to be hurt.
I hate this woman so much, since I am leaving, it is best never to come back.
But I also know that if you know that I bully the person you like like this, you will definitely turn against me. This kind of knowledge makes me very uncomfortable.
In the past, you would never be angry with others and me. In the past, you would think that everything I did was right. I have long been used to your dependence and trust in me.
Perhaps at a certain moment I suspected that this kind of feeling was wrong, but I subconsciously denied it.
It wasn't until I was drunk that I realized the seriousness of the matter.
I have lust for you.
The first time I had the idea of wanting to possess you, I was really drunk, but I was not completely unconscious. I knew in my heart that I was using alcohol to commit murder. Alcohol released the * that I had been holding back in my heart. That kiss was too sweet, People can't help being ecstatic.
You left, but the later spring dream was even more charming and out of control.
I'm not sure if I was drunk and impulsive, but I know that you like women, I can't pull you into the water, then my selfishness has really been fulfilled.
But I found that this kind of thing is fine when you don't know it, but once you know it, it becomes impossible to hide.
I can't help but want to get close to you, my eyes will even subconsciously stay on your naked skin, I can't stand you being with others.
Compared with these, your changes make me more flustered. I know you have a lot of things on your mind. I can't ask them. Once you get too tight, you will hide from me and hide in your own shell. I don't like it. This kind of feeling, but there is no way to do it, only to check it by yourself.
That day was my mother's memorial day. Wen He came to me early in the morning to find me unhappy. I was used to it and knew how to fight back. He couldn't get any advantage, so he could only humiliate himself.
Wen He finally cursed angrily that I would never have anyone who treats me sincerely in my life.
He said—do you think your friends are good things, as long as they are lured by a little interest, they will betray you.
When I was young, I raised a Samoyed, which was my playmate, but as Wen He said, it was lured away by a meaty bone.
At that time, I was caught by someone brought by Wen He, and I watched my favorite things being boned and skinned. I clearly told it not to go with bad guys, even now, every time I think of it, I will Trembling with anger.
You have been in contact with the Qin family, and you forgot my birthday, and all your atrocities and inconsistencies in the past seem to have been explained.
I couldn't control myself, and my whole person was extremely angry.
Have you been tempted too? I seem to see you being humiliated in the end and standing in front of me covered with scars. Why don't you know the seriousness of the matter? How can there be a free lunch in this world
I didn't fully listen to what you said later because I left too hastily, but I knew that I lost control and did something wrong.
I thought you wouldn't forgive me, but when you told me with tears in your eyes that you were not wronged, my heart fell again.
You said that no matter what I do he will not blame me, you may not know, this is more beautiful than any love words in the world.
The moonlight is charming, you look at me trustingly like the eyes of a pool of water, I lost myself, those moist and shiny lips are simply inviting people to taste, I can't help but take off my disguise, thinking If you just confess like this, if you succeed, such a beautiful you will belong to me.
But once you wake up, all delusions will be beaten back to their original form. I can see your love for Jiang Ning, and the most you care about me is the care and tolerance of relatives.
I was thinking that I couldn't destroy you, but I couldn't help but want to get closer.
I know you don't like Liang Mi, I don't care if I like it or not, it's different from Guan Lei, it's not important to me.
But when Liang Mi said that you may have special feelings for me, the joy in my heart could not deceive myself. I found that the situation was out of control. Even if there was a slight possibility, I also saw hope.
But you feel sad because of thinking of Jiang Ning. I am more sure that I have no chance, so I might as well fulfill you and send everything you want to you.
You don't know how much effort I have made to say those words, I am not willing, how can I be willing
When I go to work, I will think about what you are doing and whether you have been bullied by your colleagues. When I go back to see you at night, I will think about where you have been and who you have gone out with. I see you look very closely, I know it's wrong, but I don't want you where I can't see you.
I even thought that it would be good if I let him come to my company, so that I can see you all the time.
When did I become so cautious and unprincipled.
Afterwards, all kinds of misunderstandings were like a nightmare.
When I heard the recording, I wish I could tie you up right away, so that you won't be so disobedient, and won't think about finding Jiang Ning again!
What on earth did that woman feed you to make you do this? Don't you know it's a crime
Tell me what you want. If you really want it, how can I be willing to make you sad all the time? Even if I fight to quit the company, I will get you the five million.
But now in this situation, I can no longer control myself. I know that I will hurt you in the end. Since I can’t bear it, I might as well let you go free. If only Jiang Ning can make you truly happy, I can try slowly. Forget about you, forget about all of this.
There's nothing wrong with this. When I have no regrets and can still control my feelings for you, I let you go. I thought this was the tenderness I gave you.
But all of this is a misunderstanding.
Everything is my opinion.
I always thought that I was very good to you, I thought I was always protecting you, protecting you from the wind and rain under the feathers, but I didn't know that it was me who was protected all the time, and when I didn't know, you silently I do so many things.
Regret and self-blame gnawed at all my nerves, and I was ready to lose you forever.
When I was hopeless, you were sent back.
When I hold you tightly in my arms again, I know that I can't let go.
You are defenseless in my arms, everything is like a silent temptation, I can't help but indulge, when I wake up, your clothes have been torn off by me, I half pressed you, and entered The target scene almost made me lose control again, I almost raped you.
I have done so many things to hurt you, should I push you away completely now
I told myself that I can't do this, I can't be so impatient, I have enough patience to let you fall in love with me slowly, as long as you are willing to stay by my side.
But all fantasies are shattered when you wake up, and my disguise is completely torn by you.
I know that I am not good enough, my strength is faked, my tenderness is fake, I am immature, I am stupid, I don't know how to keep you, I don't know how to get into your heart , I don’t know how to grab everything I want.
But the only thing I know is that I can't lose you.
But, why, why did you have to go to that woman
You asked me to say goodbye, you said you were going to America.
I can't accept all of this, why can't you belong to me, obviously I was the first to discover your goodness, I guarded you for so long, but in the end I made someone else happy.
I would rather you hate me than accept such an ending.
I explained the matter between me and Yang Xuan to you, but you resisted me in the end, but at this moment, I can no longer let go, no matter how despicable or selfish you are, you can only belong to me.
I hold you in my arms to comfort you, keep saying I love you, your eyes are watery, lying in my arms, calling my name affectionately, with a weeping expression, so obedient and docile, just like The sweetness in the imagination makes people tremble, and people can't help but grab more...
It was a good morning, and even though I knew it was going to be bloody when you woke up, I was ready for everything.
But you developed a low-grade fever, Xiao thought about it for so long, I was too out of control.
I hurried out to buy medicine.
But I don't know that this turnaround is three years—
I clearly told myself to watch closely, otherwise you will disappear, and if you are not caught, you will want to escape from me, and in the end you will be left alone with a lonely and lost self, surrounded by heart-wracking thoughts.
Obviously you were still there when you left, and obviously I came back soon—
Obviously—
It must have been a good start to the morning—