Yang Xuan smiled, and said in a cold voice: "It really seems unreasonable for you to blame me for this matter. I have explained all this matter to you today, and it is considered to be completely over. In the future, you can mess around on your own , don’t implicate others.”
I sat there for a long time and couldn't calm down. It seemed that there was a huge wave in my heart, and my thoughts became chaotic. How could it be like this.
I closed my eyes in pain, my throat was a little sore, my heart was beating fast, and my palms were sweating non-stop. I stood up, and I thought I needed to calm down and think about it.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going out to get some air." I tightened my grip on the doorknob, exhaled, looked at Yang Xuan seriously, and said dryly, "I'm sorry, Yang Xuan, it's all my fault, I'm sorry for what happened to me just now." My attitude is to apologize to you, and to apologize for the trouble we caused you, if there is anything that needs my help or explanation in the future, please feel free to ask, I will definitely do my best to do it."
Yang Xuan seemed startled by my sudden apology, she turned her head slightly embarrassed: "No, it's better for you two to toss each other, Wen Yang's stomach will be really dangerous if it goes on like this, and you, too Do a checkup when you are free, you are thinner than before you go abroad, Wen Yang said that you would be out of breath after running for a few steps, I really don’t know what you are bothering about.”
When I returned to the ward, Wen Yang who had finished the gastroscopy was still in a coma. As he fell asleep, he lost the coldness of the day. Because of his illness, his thick black eyebrows were slightly frowned. This young and handsome face, now More like a vulnerable child.
I stretched out my hand to wipe away Wen Yang's slightly frowning forehead. He was the person I always wanted to protect, but in the end I seemed to be a catastrophe that he would never be able to overcome. Every time he fell into a quagmire of pain, I disturbed him intentionally or unintentionally. calm life.
After rebirth, I treated Wen Yang as if I were holding a lost and recovered rare treasure. I kept it in my hands for fear that the pearl would be dusted and handed over to others, and I was also afraid that others would not cherish him enough and wronged him, so once I let go, I would not dare Think, dare not look.
Now I still don't know how to face him, separated by the sins of the previous life, how can I still be with him in this dilapidated body
I looked at Wen Yang without blinking, and unconsciously traced his handsome face with my fingers, thick eyelashes, a properly high nose, slightly dry but still beautiful lips.
Obviously, no matter how hard I tried in the last life, you never fell in love with me. Is it because you feel more guilty and moved in this life
Wen Yang, I'm not worth it. What I did was just for redemption. It's not as great and moving as you think. You don't know what a despicable person I am. How can you like me
At this moment, Wen Yang suddenly opened his eyes, I was a little caught off guard, and quickly withdrew my hand in embarrassment, what kind of nympho am I.
I sat upright and asked slightly embarrassed, "How are you feeling?"
Wen Yang stared at me for a long time, with incomprehensible emotions flickering in his deep black eyes, I turned my head slightly, I couldn't keep looking at him for such a long time.
Then I heard him say in a calm almost indifferent voice: "You go, I will call my assistant and ask him to arrange." He closed his eyes a little tiredly and said, "Don't worry, the court The subpoena is false."
I turned my head to look at him in disbelief, fake
That's right, there are too many flaws in this matter. Whether it is the charges for the prosecution or the logic of this matter, I was too shocked by the news at the time. Although I realized something was wrong, I didn't carefully investigate it. to scrutinize.
What I didn't expect at all was that Wen Yang would do this kind of thing. In the past, Wen Yang didn't bother to do such tricks, so when he said that he was married, I didn't doubt it at all.
But now...
"The recording that broke out at that time was also processed to only have Wen He's voice. It has nothing to do with you. I will be optimistic about Wen He. You don't have to worry about any hidden dangers. Don't be so stupid in the future."
Wen Yang said lightly: "You can go."
"Ah?" I thought he would continue to force me to stay, but that's right, a person as arrogant as him would not demean himself to force others to stay.
But I can't leave now, I can't leave Wen Yang alone in the hospital like this, at least until someone comes to take care of him.
Wen Yang was resting his eyes with his eyes closed, my eyes fell on his slightly dry lips, I took a deep breath, and then stood up.
But as soon as I got up, someone grabbed my wrist. I paused, and turned my head to meet a pair of eyes full of anger and forbearance: "You... I just like you, not a heinous villain. Is it worth you hating me so much?"
"No—no." I lowered my eyes, held back the smile on my lips, and explained, "I want to pour you some water, but I won't leave."
Wen Yang was slightly taken aback, he let go of my hand, and slowly sat up from the bed.
I poured a glass of warm water for Wen Yang, he looked at me, took it and drank it, the atmosphere eased a little, Wen Yang leaned on the pillow, closed his eyes slightly, wondering what he was thinking.
Thinking of what I learned about his physical condition from Yang Xuan just now, I couldn't help but say, "Usually drink less alcohol, follow the recipe I wrote to you earlier—"
"You move here to live with me!" Wen Yang interrupted me suddenly, he opened his eyes and looked at me straight, "Since you don't trust me, why don't you move here and supervise me?"
I squeezed the cup in my hand and said, "Wen Yang, this reason is not valid, only you can be responsible for your own body."
Wen Yang smiled: "Yang Xuan said that you have feelings for me, but why can't I feel it at all? Yes, you can sacrifice everything for my kindness, but you can also ignore me for three years , I haven’t greeted you in three years, and you haven’t even looked for me once, Shishan, why do you hide from me like this, what on earth are you thinking, I really make you unbearable?”
I bowed my head under Wen Yang's aggressive questioning, and turned the water glass in my hand round and round, only to feel that many things were obscure, so I remained silent for a while, and said softly: "Wen Yang, do you feel that the nine-year-old just now How about a steak medium rare?"
Wen Yang was stunned for a moment, and asked in a hoarse voice, "What do you want to say?"
The night was dark, and the shadows of the trees were swaying by the window. I felt inexplicably sad: "This kind of taboo feeling is like that half-rare steak. Not only does it taste bad, but it will hurt your body if you eat it. We are different, we are not recognized by others, living in this society, we cannot exist as pure individuals, no one can always live with the strange eyes of others."
Wen Yang smiled, looked at me lightly, and said, "A few days ago, you and I talked a lot about the legality of same-sex marriage in the United States. You said that such things are commonplace. What is this now? Your excuse Always so contradictory, just trying to hide from me."
I was left speechless by Wen Yang's words, I had long forgotten what nonsense I was talking to him before, and his question after question at that time had already confused me.
Wen Yang sighed almost inaudibly, "I don't think people live for others to see. I can't understand the meaning of your medium-rare steak. In my opinion, this is a literary excuse. I only ask you Would you like to move back in with me?"
I shook my head and refused, "In two months, I will be returning to the United States."
Wen Yang stared at me intently, his eyes were full of disappointment and anger, but in the end he took a deep breath, restrained his emotions on the verge of explosion, and said softly: "Two months, if you still don't want to If you are with me, I will not force you to stay, so I guess I will give up."
"I..." I moved my lips, and for a moment I didn't know how to refuse. He was still sick, and I couldn't say too much to irritate him, so I could only say in a low voice, "No."
Wen Yang slowed down his voice: "Two months, only two months, you don't need to have any pressure, and I won't blame you if you choose to leave at that time."
I looked up at him, Wen Yang's eyes were dark and warm, shining like stars, without the oppression just now, his eyes were full of tenderness and seriousness that made people's heart beat, he looked at me gently, and said in a long voice: "We are like It's the same as before, caring for each other, being attached to each other, if you don't like being too close, I won't do anything to force you, and I won't put any pressure on you, as long as we are together."
I stood there in a daze, my heart pounding hard on my chest, my reason told me that I couldn't promise Wen Yang, once I was with Wen Yang, under his intentional guidance, my love would get feedback, and I would not be able to control my emotions, those The hidden love will erupt like a volcano. I enjoyed the gluttonous feast at that time, and there is no way for me to leave Wen Yang again.
"Would you like it?" The low, warm and bewitching voice sounded again.
"I… "
...
I felt that my brain had gone crazy at that time, and I lost my basic thinking ability under the temptation of Wen Yang's beauty. Maybe even if Wen Yang asked me to kill someone at that time, I would nod without hesitation.
Wen Yang, who got my affirmative answer at that time, closed his eyes and rested in satisfaction, leaving me there in a daze, at a loss for what to do.
It's been three years, and I still haven't made any progress.
I have been a little restless all day. On the one hand, I am worried, but on the other hand, I can't help but feel a sense of anticipation in my heart. The beautiful life in the past makes people fascinated, how can I not make people yearn for it
But, can this really work? Two months later, leaving Wen Yang alone, the important thing is, will I be willing to leave at that time
My illness is like a ticking time bomb, I don't know when it will hurt Wen Yang, I thought well before returning to China, don't bother me, what's the matter now? I usually think that I am a very principled person, but when it comes to Wen Yang, all principles are nonsense.
The hidden dangers of this matter are too great, and I have no confidence in myself in this regard.
After get off work, Wen Yang was already waiting there early.
I slowly got into the car, glanced at Wen Yang, and said breathlessly: "You shouldn't be discharged from the hospital so early, in fact, you can move any day, don't be so anxious."
Wen Yang's hand to start the engine paused, and he turned his head and looked at me with burning eyes, "Are you regretting it? If you regret it, you can get out of the car now."
I looked at Wen Yang with a little doubt, and stared at his frosty eyes for a while. Is what this man said true
My mind changed, and I reached out to push the car door. Sure enough, before I touched it, Wen Yang automatically locked the car door.
... I twitched the corner of my mouth and turned to look at Wen Yang.
Wen Yangjun's face was slightly angry, his eyes were dark and frightening: "So you regretted it a long time ago, heh - you always play tricks on me like this, every time you use the name of doing my best, so that I can't even justify my anger, Since you are always like this, there is no need for me to fulfill any agreement, so I can do whatever I feel comfortable with." Before he finished speaking, Wen Yang kicked the accelerator and drove the car out.