I looked at her in disbelief: "What are you talking about?" The gentle scum is talking about Wen Yang? What a joke.
"What kind of expression do you have? I can't blame him. This person looks gentle and polite, but he can hurt people without using dirty words and scold me like a green tea whore. I was also cowardly at that time, and I was so angry that I cried. As a result, he didn't have any sense of pity and tenderness, and he smiled softly and told me to cry louder, saying that there is no one here who sympathizes with me, and no one can see if he pretends to be innocent."
I reacted for a while, and finally realized what was going on. When I saw the love letter, I was so sentimental for a moment that I passed out from crying. I still remember Wen Yang coaxing me and telling me to Help me, did he go to Jiang Ning and scold him like this
So when he said bullying women, he didn't necessarily mean Xu Jingqiu but Jiang Ning
"At that time, I was really confused. I had never seen this kind of man, who bullied women shamelessly. How dark this man's heart is."
Looking at Jiang Ning's angry expression, I don't know why, it seems that something is slowly melting in his heart, Wen Yang unexpectedly—
"I knew it would be like this." Jiang Ning had an unbearable expression on his face, "Look at you now, so I haven't told you all this time, just because I was afraid that you would be like this. Shishan, you don't have to be so happy, such people often hide it very Deep, wearing a fake skin, there may not be any bad ideas brewing in the heart, there is no bottom line, and anything can be done."
Jiang Ning took the blame for me in this matter, and my behavior was really not kind. I persuaded her a few words, and then said with a smile: "Okay, miss, sit down for a while, and I will clean up your room."
"Wait a moment."
"What?" I turned around.
"Give me the phone!"
I paused and frowned: "Don't go too far."
As soon as the voice fell, Jiang Ning stood up "Teng": "Why am I going too far? You still want to call him, so what's the use of what I just said?"
"Jiang Ning, I'm not your prisoner. You don't need to watch over me like this. I know what to do."
Jiang Ning froze for a moment, and looked at me in disbelief. She took a deep breath, looked at me and nodded and said, "Okay." After saying that, Jiang Ning turned around and left, reaching for her luggage at the door.
When I saw it, I went over and grabbed her: "Where are you going?"
Jiang Ning threw me away heavily, and said with his face turned away: "Don't you want me to care? I won't care about you anymore, and you don't care about where I go. It doesn't matter where I want to go."
My brain hurts suddenly, I really don't care if I have to change someone, but Jiang Ning is different, she is the person who has been with me during the most difficult time of my life, she exists like a relative, she has always been there Help me, I also want to do something for her, but there are really too few things I can do for her.
I grabbed her again, and persuaded me: "Okay, okay, I'll call you, you can do whatever you want, but ah... girl, you have to change your temper, I'm really afraid that one day gaby Will return it with me."
Jiang Ning's face remained tense, as if he couldn't help but glared at me when he heard the last sentence.
I pulled Jiang Ning's shoulders and tried to persuade again: "Okay, don't be angry, you...why are you crying, you can see that I know I was wrong." When I saw Jiang Ning's red eyes, I panicked and turned People were made to cry.
"You don't even know how scared I am." Jiang Ning buried her head in my arms, tightly gripped the clothes on my chest with her fingers, and said in a choked voice, "Shishan, you don't understand, you don't know that I have How scared, when you were sick, when you cried and called Wen Yang to save you, when you sat in a pool of blood and your eyes were full of despair, even if you behaved normally in front of others in those days, when you were alone in the room Sometimes, you either stay in the same position for a whole day, or you just wander around the house in a daze, not knowing what you are looking for, I am afraid that if you don’t pay attention, you will do something irreparable.”
I raised my hand and slowly put it on Jiang Ning's back, patted it twice, and said in a low voice: "It's all over, I will never put myself in such a situation again, but, Jiang Ning, that incident I can't blame anyone, whether there is gentleness or not, I am destined to bear those things, no one can blame me, I am just unlucky."
Jiang Ning raised his head and looked at me with tears in his eyes: "If you are unlucky, you will suffer such a crime. What's the reason? Shishan, you deserve better."
I looked at her and said with a slight smile, "Jiang Ning, do you know? I could have dealt with Qin Fu before he harmed me, but I gave up in the end. The salvation I thought was catalysis and destruction, the fate of man." Perhaps it has long been doomed that no matter how hard you struggle, your character has already determined your own life, and the gears of fate will still move forward according to the established track, at most it will take some detours, but the result is still the same.”
How can Wen Yang and I be together, even if we are barely together, it will exhaust both of us in the end, and we will end up harming others and ourselves.
The scene of the previous life is still vivid, Wen Yang seemed gentle, but his self-esteem and pride made it impossible for him to accept a drug-controlled self, so he finally chose to commit suicide.
Such a powerful person was forced to such a fate by me. If Wen Yang knew what I had done, he would not forgive me. If I had a little conscience, I should not deceive him and enjoy all his love at the same time. , I was so dazed that I still wanted to think about things that didn't belong to me.
Jiang Ning's expression was a little puzzled, I smiled and said: "The perpetrators of what I suffered are no longer there, let's stop thinking about the past that is unbearable to look back on, I am fine now, and I will be fine in the future, don't you worry about that."
Perhaps except for Jiang Ning, no one would worry about these things, including myself.
...
Jiang Ning hung up Wen Yang's phone call in front of me, she glanced at me a little uneasy, I smiled at her, and left the living room.
I don't blame her, if I try to stop it, she won't have the chance to do so.
In fact, Jiang Ning made a decision for me who was indecisive. With gentle arrogance, as long as he confirmed that Jiang Ning and I were together, he would never have anything to do with me again. He would not do things that would damage other people's feelings.
The next day, Jiang Ning gave me the phone, but we were together most of the time, eating and lodging together, and going to and from get off work together. Except for sleeping and going to the bathroom, I never left Jiang Ning's sight.
Everyone in the company regards us as a couple. After all, in their view, we are all living together, and it doesn't make sense that we are not a couple.
Jiang Ning doesn't care about such rumors, or who he is happy to see.
It was already the third day, and I saw Wen Yang's car parked downstairs again, but it didn't stay until we got off work like before, and when we went out, the car was gone.
The so-called three things, maybe Wen Yang gave up completely this time.
I lowered my head and pressed my hands lightly on the chest that seemed to be missing a piece. It didn't hurt, but it was very uncomfortable.
Jiang Ning breathed a sigh of relief, and sighed: "Why do I feel like a queen mother who specializes in destroying other people's marriages, which makes people feel uneasy."
Hearing this, I lowered my head and smiled in relief, and looked up at Jiang Ning: "How can I praise myself so much, the Queen Mother is gentler than you, the United States is really a magical country, a good little white rabbit, born and raised To the tigress."
Jiang Ning looked up and glared at me angrily, and then sighed: "The United States is so amazing, why haven't you changed? You seem gentle and friendly, usually like a good old man, easy to talk, but actually cold-hearted You are very affectionate, you don’t care about people and things, you don’t ask too many questions, and you don’t want to look at them, even if it looks like you’re laughing, cursing and getting along happily, it’s actually hard to reach your heart.”
I froze for a moment, and said hesitantly, "Why do you say that? Is there something about me that makes you feel uncomfortable? Jiang Ning, you are very important to me, not an insignificant person."
Jiang Ning shook his head: "It's not about me, I just hope you can have your own circle and meet more friends. I don't want to see you always alone. No one needs friends, especially those without friends like us. Loved ones."
I felt relieved, rubbed his fluffy hair, and smiled at her: "Now you have me and Gaby, we are your relatives, we all hope you can be happy, don't always run around for me..."
"Don't blame me!" Jiang Ning suddenly interrupted me and hugged me tightly, "Shishan, do you know that once a person has something he wants to protect, he will become stronger, and you made me become Be strong, I couldn't even take care of myself before, but in the years in the United States, I tried my best to take you out of hell, even in the most difficult time, I never thought of giving up, no one is better than me I hope you will be happy, but I know that person will not be Wen Yang, so don't blame me."
Jiang Ning's actions surprised me at first, after all, this is outside, but after listening to Jiang Ning's words, I was surrounded by a kind of emotion called moving. I remember that when I was indulging in the illusory dream, it was Jiang Ning who cried over and over again Wake me up, if there is no Jiang Ning, I may not be able to stand here anymore.
I closed my eyes, hugged Jiang Ning, and sighed long: "How could I blame you, how could I not know that you are for me, you don't need to be panic, no matter what you do, I will not blame you You." I said this to Wen Yang back then, they are the most important people in my life, they are the people who have accompanied me during the most difficult days of my life.
In fact, thinking about it now, there is nothing wrong. Jiang Ning's relationship and career are fairly stable, Wen Yang's career is booming, and his relationship may not be smooth, but in the future there will definitely be a beautiful and gentle girl by his side.
What else am I not satisfied with.
Since you have already decided not to bother Wen Yang, don't give up halfway, what's so good about being a false holy father.
At night, I was alone at home, and it was Wen Yang's retreat, which made Jiang Ning feel relieved, and she finally had time to meet her friends in China.
A person can't help but think wildly, and watching bonobos swinging in the trees on TV makes people more and more disturbing.
Perhaps, as Jiang Ning said, I should know more friends.
I took my coat and went out, and went to the gay bar I had been going to before going abroad. I wanted to try my luck, but I didn't expect that it was still there after three years.