I have been suffering from severe insomnia for the past two days, and I can't use drugs. It is also a sequela left by the madness. My body is highly resistant to drugs. Sleeping pills have no effect on me. Drinking a little wine can help me sleep better.
In the few days when Wen Yang is not around, I will come to Fangzhu, lean on the bar, chat with Fangzhu, listen to the soothing music in the shop, relieve the pressure, and prevent myself from thinking wildly.
"Why are you depressed recently, and your relationship is not going well?" Fang Ji asked as he handed me a glass of beer.
I let out a bad breath and said with a smile: "It's nothing, your business here is really getting better and better."
Fang Zhu looked at me speechlessly, "You always use this trick to change the subject, no matter how stupid you are, you won't be fooled." He shook his head while talking, "Forget it, if you don't want to say it, don't say it, anyway, why are there quarrels between couples? It's all normal, as long as you don't always say something hurtful, don't wear away this hard-won feeling."
I looked at him, smiled and said, "I understand, thank you."
Listening to the music, Fang Zhu and I chatted casually.
"Please, have a Bloody Mary." Someone suddenly sat down beside me.
"Wait a minute." Fang Ji didn't care about talking to me and was busy, so he could only make drinks for customers himself.
The man turned his head to look at me, smiled at me and said, "Alone?" He was a very friendly-looking young man, well dressed, but the flamboyance between his eyebrows and eyes gave off an uncomfortable feeling.
I shook my hand shaking the wine glass and nodded politely to him.
"A regular customer? It's my first time here today." The man didn't mind my indifference and continued to strike up a conversation.
"He has a partner, you should give up." Before I could say anything, Fang Ji handed a glass of wine to the man.
"That's it." The man smiled at me, "It's nothing else, I just want to get to know each other."
I nodded to him: "We're leaving now, let's talk about it when we have a chance."
As soon as the words fell, there was a noise not far away, as if someone was making trouble.
"I'll go and have a look." Fang Ji quickly put down his work and rushed over.
I looked over with a slight frown. Dayu, who usually watched the field, had asked for leave. I wondered if Fang Zhu could handle it by himself.
"Don't worry, there are often such things in bars. If he can't even handle this well, the bar will not be open long ago."
I frowned slightly, this person likes to talk to himself.
He smiled and clinked glasses with me: "Trust me."
I tugged at the corners of my lips, feeling a little baffled by his pretentious and casual behavior. I took a sip of the wine and kept paying attention to the situation there. It seemed that it was really an ordinary fight. Fang Ji came back not long after. up.
"It's okay, it's just that the two of you got drunk and started arguing." Fang Zhu looked at the bottom of my empty glass, "Have another drink?"
I shook my head: "No, I'll go back right away."
The man finally got the hang of it, and without further pestering me, I took my coat and left the bar.
After going out the door, I took a deep breath, raised my face, and glanced at the dark sky. Everything is quiet and smooth, and everything will pass.
I carried my coat and walked straight forward. Before I got to the side of the road and took a taxi, I suddenly felt dizzy. Am I drunk
I obviously didn't drink much, and I haven't been drunk like this before. I held on to the street lamp and rubbed my dizzy head.
In the end, I felt dizzy more and more. Even with support, my body was still slowly weakening, my ears were buzzing, and my consciousness gradually became blurred.
The last memory is frozen in a face that suddenly appeared.
That's Wen He—
When consciousness slowly recovered, I first smelled a strong smell of alcohol, my stomach was churning violently, and my head seemed to be punched hard.
The whole person is in a state of confusion.
I don't know how long it took for this situation to slowly improve, and my senses gradually recovered. After a while, I heard the faint voice of someone talking.
"Are you sure that Wen Yang will definitely come?"
"Why don't you come? I've seen something wrong with these two second chairs. They're so tired of being together all day long. How can two normal men do this?" The man laughed, "Don't worry, if he doesn't care , why did you deal with this kind of stuff in the first place?"
I could vaguely distinguish the speaker Liang Mi, what did Wen He and Liang Mi want Wen Yang to do
"Hehe, it's good if you can come, I must kill him f---ing."
"At that time, you can do whatever you want. It's cheaper to kill it directly. My friend will bring us some good things later. Let him try it first."
"Haha, I can finally vent my anger."
…
They seemed to be eating, and the two of them chatted a little bit.
I can feel the consciousness in my body recovering bit by bit.
I don't know how long it took, but I heard Liang Mi say, "My friend is here, I'll go out first, you wait for me here."
"What about him, is it okay to let it go like this?" Wen He's voice seemed to be frightened.
"Don't worry, the dose is enough for him to sleep until tomorrow morning. We're done, and he won't wake up. Just treat him as dead. If you're happy to beat him up, just don't kill him." Then, he said impatiently, "Okay, I'm going out, you old man, don't be so inked." Not long after Liang Mi finished speaking, I heard the sound of the door panel opening and closing.
I slowed down for a while, moved my fingers, and slowly opened my eyes.
Wen He had already walked inside, looking for something.
I stood up, shook my body, then walked step by step to the table where they put tools, picked up the short knife on it, and walked slowly towards Wen He.
I watched Wen He pull out a rope from the bag, these people are going to kill Wen Yang again, they just said they want to inject Wen Yang with drugs.
I should have known earlier that these people's hearts are dark, and they have no bottom line for human beings.
If you kill him, you must kill him. There is an uncontrollable killing intent in his chest.
I have to solve them for Wen Yang, and I can no longer be indecisive, otherwise Wen Yang will become the ghost I am now.
They can't be allowed to harm Wen Yang again.
The people and scenery in front of me gradually became distorted, Wen He's screams sounded in my ears, I smiled, and my heart was full of joy, the retribution would come sooner or later, and no one could escape.
They deserved to die just like Qin Fu, it would be fine if they killed him, Wen Yang would be safe after killing him, and would not spend all his time thinking about killing Wen Yang again.
... In a daze, I seemed to hear someone calling my name.
who? A very familiar voice.
Who is talking, this voice is really nice, warm and pleasant, like a spring breeze blowing, it has a kind of soothing power.
My vision gradually became clear, and Wen Yang's face appeared in front of me.
"Shi Shan, what's wrong with you?" Wen Yang tightly grasped my wrist, looking at me in disbelief.
I stared blankly at Wen Yang, my whole body trembling uncontrollably, the knife in my hand fell to the ground, I opened my mouth, and it took me a long time to make a sound: "Wen Yang, I'm sorry, I don't want to, it's all them— "
I grabbed Wen Yang tremblingly, and looked at Wen He who had been screaming in pain on the ground: "It's not me, they gave me drugs, I don't know, I didn't mean to treat you that way, I'm sorry, Wen Yang, please forgive me —”
Wen Yang raised his hand and held my shoulder tightly: "Shishan, calm down."
I was a little incoherent, and the warm liquid slid down my cheeks: "Wen Yang, I'm sorry—I'm sorry, I didn't mean to—" My body gradually weakened, and the scene in front of me became more and more blurred.
"Shishan?"
I couldn't open my eyes anymore, Wen Yang's voice suddenly became distant, "Wen Yang, forgive me, I was wrong—I really know I was wrong—" My mind was blurred, I finally couldn't hold on, and fell into darkness .
I had a somewhat bizarre dream with no real scene, first some familiar images, and then some people, my mother, grandparents, Wen Yang, Jiang Ning are all people I can remember, one by one Appearing and then slowly disappearing, it felt like a farewell ceremony.
Am I going to die
Although I am very tired, I don't want to die. I haven't gotten Wen Yang to forgive me yet. I don't want to leave with regrets in this life.
Can you give me another chance, this time I will definitely do well.
When I woke up again, I looked at the empty ward and was dazed for a moment. There was no Wen Yang or Yang Xuan here. I was alone, and everyone was gone.
I was in a trance for a while, and I couldn't tell what the situation was, and then a kind of fear rose in my heart.
I got up slowly, pulled out the infusion, and went out to find someone.
I stood in the long corridor, looked around, and staggered to open every room, but no, there was no Wen Yang anywhere.
Finally, I met Li Zheng.
Li Zheng sent me home, and I asked him where Wen Yang was, but he still replied to me as before, telling me that Wen Yang had important things to do.
I am alone at home waiting for Wen Yang, one day, two days, one week, two weeks...
I sent Wen Yang a text message - Wen Yang, I'm back to my hometown, it's a good place to grow flowers... If you want to see flowers anytime, just come and find me, I will always be there.
I packed my luggage and boarded the car back home again.
—Wen Yang, don’t hide from me, I won’t let myself be your burden, but I won’t go too far away from you, if one day you want to forgive me, I’ll wait there With you, will not leave.
... ... ... ... ... ...
In Su Bai's ward, Wen Yang was lying on the bed. He closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and asked calmly, "Where did he go?"
"He went back to his hometown in the county seat and left you a text message before he left. He didn't go too far, so I didn't stop him, but there are people watching, so don't worry."
Wen Yang opened his eyes, his gloomy eyes were frighteningly dark, and he said, "Book me a plane ticket to America."
"But your body?"
"immediately."
... ... ... .
Jiang Ning's photography exhibition is very big, and it seems to have attracted many celebrities. Wen Yang heard Shi Shan talk about this photography exhibition, but he didn't quite understand it. It's just a photo, a product of a machine. What art can there be
Wen Yang walked among the crowd to search for Jiang Ning's figure, and finally, he saw Jiang Ning standing in front of a picture with his slightly rounded stomach supported.
As he walked over, his eyes were immediately attracted by the photo on the wall. In the photo were two teenagers in academic uniforms.
In the photo, the boy sitting on the ground is holding his stomach, tears are coming out of laughter, the other hand is leaning on his legs, all eyes are on the boy sitting on the grass, also smiling, that smile contains too much There are relief, satisfaction, and softness - so that he can't accurately summarize them, but he seems to feel the unreserved feelings, wishing to send the best to that person.
It was a photo of him and Shi Shan on the eve of graduation. Wen Yang felt as if a hemp rope was grinding against his heart, and there was a dull pain in his chest. He never knew that Shi Shan looked at him like this when he couldn't see him.
"Why is it just you, Shishan?" Jiang Ning found him now, and said with a smile, "I didn't get through when I called him yesterday. I was afraid that you wouldn't come."
Wen Yang turned his face slowly, and replied flatly: "He didn't come."
"Why?" Jiang Ning frowned delicately, "Did you quarrel?"
Wen Yang didn't speak.
Jiang Ning's face gradually turned pale, and she stepped forward excitedly and grabbed Wen Yang's arm: "Did you really quarrel, or did you break up with him?"
Wen Yang looked at her indifferently and said, "This has nothing to do with you."
"Did you really break up with him?" Jiang Ning shook his body, as if he had been hit hard, "Didn't you promise me that no matter what happened, you would never quarrel with him or abandon him?" ?"
Wen Yang's expression was alienated, and his dark eyes were unmoved: "He is the one who wants to leave."
"No...impossible...?" Jiang Ning grabbed his arm firmly, "You bastard, do you know that you will kill him, how can you do this, how can you, I will hand him over to you, Is that how you treat him?"
Wen Yang broke away from her and looked straight at her: "What are you talking about, why did I kill him?"
"How could you do this?" Jiang Ning was already in tears, "Do you know him, Shi Shan, he—"
Wen Yang stared at her firmly: "What's wrong with Shi Shan?"
Jiang Ning looked at him and murmured: "How can you do this, you will kill him, do you know that Shishan was drugged by his animal father, he can't be stimulated."
Wen Yang froze in place, and after realizing it, he raised his hand and grabbed Jiang Ning's shoulder tightly and asked, "What did you say?"
Jiang Ning lowered his head, choked up and said: "His animal, which has never raised him for a day, got a kind of mental potion that would make people irritable, added it to milk and sent him to the unit every day. He always thought that You bought him the milk."
"You blame him for not contacting you for three years after he came to the United States, but do you know that he lived a miserable life during those three years? He spent most of the three years in a nursing home. When he was the thinnest, he was ninety It’s not even a catty.” Jiang Ning covered his face with tears streaming through his fingers: “Do you know that every time he gets sick, he will call you to save him in pain, but in the end he tries hard to stop himself, he would rather hurt himself than Willing to bother you, he is so afraid that you will see his crazy appearance, afraid that you will see his thoughts on you and make you disgusted."
Wen Yang felt that the blood in his whole body was burning, he said dryly: "Why didn't any of you tell me?"
Jiang Ning sobbed and said: "It's not that I haven't thought about it. I asked the doctor, otherwise I would go to you behind his back, but Lance said that Shishan's obsession with you is too deep. It's best for him to come out on his own. Even if you I also like him, but if one day you leave him, what awaits him is destruction."
Wen Yang's body shook, and the healing wound seemed to be splitting along his back, and Jiang Ning's crying came to his ears one after another.
"When I first picked him up from the nursing home, he would behave like a normal person in front of people, but once he was alone, he would look for things in the house in a panic, or just stay in the same position all day long. not moving at all."
"Didn't you always ask him that's how the scar on his wrist came from?" Jiang Ning cried bitterly, "It doesn't matter that you tricked him into a fake marriage, but he almost died in the United States because of this incident. I still remember him at that time Desperate eyes, he really didn't want to live at that time, you don't know how he survived."
Jiang Ning stepped forward and grabbed Wen Yang and wept bitterly: "Wen Yang, I beg you, you go to him, you go to him quickly, I apologize to you, I was wrong before, I always stopped you, yes Relying on my kindness to Shishan, I put him in a dilemma, I will admit my mistake to you now, as long as you go to him, I can do anything, I beg you, please—”
"He regards you as everything, how will he live without you?" Jiang Ning cried uncontrollably, and finally knelt down slowly, "He can't be stimulated, his illness will relapse, and he will be with you when he gets sick. It's like being crazy, it can hurt people, it can hurt yourself, he almost died back then, I beg you, Wen Yang—"
Wen Yang felt that something hit his heart, and as Jiang Ning's words hit his chest again and again, the pain became more and more painful, and then gradually spread to his whole body, he had never felt such pain before.
Their movement attracted many people to stop. A pregnant woman who cried bitterly hugged an oriental man tightly, and someone stepped forward to ask.
"Cherry, what's the matter?" A tall foreign youth rushed over the crowd in a hurry, he helped Jiang Ning to hug her in his arms, and said angrily at Wen Yang, "What did you do to her?"
After a while, Wen Yang was kicked out of the film festival, he stood outside in a daze, the wind was blowing, the sun was dazzling, and the sky was blue, but his world had undergone earth-shaking changes.
Shi Shan was drugged, so his temper became irritable, so is it the same in his last life——
Why did Shi Shan, who is so obedient and obedient, become so crazy that he couldn't even recognize him.
All the things he couldn't figure out had answers.
Forget about other people, but as Shi Shan's closest person, why didn't he notice it at all, obviously Shi Shan's changes were obvious at that time.
...After the rebirth, Shishan resists everything by himself. After suffering such a great grievance, he doesn't blame anyone, and he doesn't take revenge on anyone. He wants to bear everything foolishly by himself.
He is indifferent to the world, and his stupidity makes people feel distressed. After eating those poor money, Shi Shan is still being deceived and schemed by others. He uses what he thinks to be a clever means to protect him, but he leaves people with clues everywhere.
He did everything without any selfishness, only wanting to atone for his sins.
But he has no sins to atone for. From the very beginning, he knew that Shi Shan was lonely and helpless, and when he met someone who was kind to him, he clung to him and refused to let go.
Didn't he already know these things? He was the one who seduced Shishan, he wished so much for someone who was full of himself, obviously it was not his fault.
There is a hammer hitting Wen Yangxin's head. In his last life, he deliberately used such a tragic way to revenge him. What about Shishan in the future? What will happen to him
What was the ending of Shishan in the previous life
So what about now, Shishan who was neglected by him
"Wen Yang, I miss you, when are you coming back?"
"Wen Yang, come back quickly, I have a lot to say to you."
Thinking of those words Shi Shan said, it is overwhelming sadness
Suddenly regaining his senses, Wen Yang broke out in a cold sweat. He first moved a bit, and then began to run extremely fast.
Shishan, you must wait for me—