I walked all the way back from the flower garden, and it was already evening.
The room was a little dark, I turned on the lamp, sat down at the desk, and took out a thick black leather notebook from the drawer.
Recently, my memory has become a bit bad. I always forget some things in a daze, and I make mistakes when tending flowers and plants, so I picked up the old habit again and recorded my daily routine.
In fact, it’s not very easy to remember, it’s just some small things like topdressing and loosening the soil, just write and write casually.
After finishing writing, I turned another page, thought about it, and started to write:
Wen Yang, how are you doing recently? Have you not eaten on time? It's getting colder, so be sure to add clothes.
Today's sunshine is very good. Uncle Li said that in this kind of weather, the hyacinths can grow stronger and the color is better.
Uncle Li and I planted a large piece together. Uncle Li said that if the growth is good, it will bloom in March. I hope you can come here to see the flowers when they bloom. The ground is full of bright purple. It will look great.
However, it doesn't matter if you really don't have time, Jiang Ning and I have learned some photography techniques, I will take pictures of them and show them to you when you come.
In fact, if you can’t come this year, you can come next year, the year after next, the year after next—whenever you have time, although Lance said that my life is shortened by this madness, but if you pay attention to maintenance, you can still live to be fifty or sixty years old, then I have a lot of time to wait for you, so don't worry, I will always be here.
Although I have lied to you about many things, there are two promises I will always keep. One is never to blame you, and the other is never to leave.
If one day you are willing to forgive me, you must remember to come in March, because the flowers will bloom just right then.
I remember you said that nothing in this world is forever, and beautiful things need to be carefully managed to keep them. I think this is right. It’s like planting flowers. I didn’t know before that growing flowers requires so much attention. , temperature, humidity, sunlight, and fertile soil, they can only bloom beautiful flowers in a suitable environment, which is like the relationship between people, and I ruined our love with my own hands in the last life.
In my two lives, I have been stumbling along. Although I tried to change, the result was not satisfactory. I used to always feel that my fate was bad, but after thinking about it, if my fate was bad, I would not be reborn. There will be no such opportunity to do it all over again. Life is half-fate and half-man-made. Until now, it is completely caused by myself.
In fact, I regret many things. If I could have done better at the beginning, would it have been a different ending, but the truth is that if I were given a chance to do it all over again, I still might not be able to do it well.
Maybe you know me, you really did something bad in your previous life—or you did something bad in your previous life, and God sent me to punish you.
Sometimes I think about these things too much, and I feel a little discouraged. I just think about it. After two lifetimes, I can’t understand it, I can’t understand it, and I have to sum it up. It’s quite boring.
Now I often think of the time when we were in school, it was really good at that time, I was not crazy, you were still a sunny young man, what past and present life, you love me, don’t think about anything, just live happily every day one day…
I was halfway through writing when I suddenly heard Uncle Li's voice.
"Shi Shan, someone is looking for you." Uncle Li called me outside.
I put down my pen and walked out the door.
The sunset in the evening was beautiful, I looked at that person through the shadow of the tree, the sunset glow was so bright that it fell on him and cast a golden glow.
I blinked in confusion, against the light, the scene in front of me was unreal, like a large golden net laid, and finally the figure of that person slowly merged into my eye sockets.
My brain seemed to be confused for a moment, and I slowly showed a happy smile, but the smile froze immediately, and I immediately panicked, and a kind of fear rose in my heart.
I hurriedly turned around and ran towards the flower garden, what should I do, what should I do
Why is Wen Yang here now
what to do? The flowers haven't opened yet, and I'm so anxious that I'm about to cry.
"Shi Shan!"
I heard Wen Yang calling me from behind, I became more and more anxious, and ran quickly.
I was in a panic, the wind blew past my ears, before I could run far, my foot became unsteady and I fell to the ground, I hurriedly turned around to meet Wen Yang who was chasing me, and couldn't help but backed away , I begged to look at him: "Wen Yang, can you wait a little longer?"
Wen Yang looked at me deeply, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Shi Shan, what do you want me to wait for?"
Looking at the desolate and desolate land, I felt extremely sad and powerless, "Wen Yang, the flowers haven't bloomed yet." In the cold wind, tears rolled in my eyes, but I couldn't swallow them back. I curled my knees, "God It's too cold, and Uncle Li said that it won't bloom until March next year, and a large purple hyacinth will grow here at that time."
"They said that the flower language of purple hyacinth is—sorry, forgive me..." I buried my face in my knees, and finally wept uncontrollably, Wen Yang, can you forgive me.
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Under the dim yellowish golden sky... his skinny figure was outlined by the dark golden edge of the setting sun. He curled up his legs lonely and sobbed hard, and the sad cry came to his ears with the autumn wind. People are miserable.
The tall figure staggered forward, squatted down and hugged his thin body tightly in his arms. On the land blown by the autumn wind, he tried to dispel all the restlessness and loneliness of that person with warmth. He will never let go in this life, and they will never be separated from now on.
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