I said to him, "Meng Siqi, I have decided to seek treatment."
He looked at me with wide eyes and said in surprise, "Really?"
I nodded, "Really."
I am weak and innocent by nature, eager to depend on others, want to get love from other places, and give up on myself when I am abandoned.
I feel sorry for myself these days, and I finally understand that love does not come from others. If that person doesn't love you, naturally he doesn't love you, it's useless for me to be sad.
There are still so many people in the world, waiting to meet me. There is always that one person who will connect with me.
I should learn to forget.
Before the full examination, I need to meet with my father.
Call Lu Qingfan, "Lu Qingfan, it's me."
"Where did you go again! Why did you leave without saying a word! Why did He Li appear in your apartment?" He questioned as soon as he opened his mouth, "Are you going to disappear in front of me for another four years this time!"
He already met He Li
I frowned, really ominous.
"Lu Qingfan, calm down, I'm not dead." I followed his tone and said coolly.
Lu Qingfan on the other end of the phone stopped abruptly.
He also knew that he had lost his composure, and after a series of questions, he finally calmed down.
"What did you call me for?" he asked.
I hesitated for a moment, and finally made up my mind to speak, "I want to see my father, and I hope you can arrange it."
"How to change your mind?" He regained his calm tone, "I thought you would never come back in this life."
"Although I am an unfilial son, he is my father after all." I said, "I still have a trace of humanity."
Lu Qingfan pondered.
"Father doesn't want to see me?" I knew in my heart that my father's stubbornness would not be softened by the imminent death.
He said, "Tomorrow you come to the company to find me, and I will arrange it."
"Thank you." I said.
When I went, Lu Qingfan happened to be signing a contract in the conference room.
The receptionist led me to the reception room to wait. She gently closed the door for me and left. I was the only one left in the big space.
The floor was covered with soft carpet, and I sat on the leather sofa and almost passed out.
After sitting for about half an hour, I almost thought that Lu Qingfan was trying to tease me on purpose, so I couldn't help but push the door to go out. I happened to meet a dozen people coming out of the elevator, and the leader was Lu Qingfan, who was shaking hands with another person.
I froze instantly.
How could it be such a coincidence, that person is He Li.
He Li seemed to have noticed it, and turned his head slightly. The moment his eyes met, I couldn't help taking a step back.
He looked at me with a lingering smile on his face.
Lu Qingfan turned his head following his gaze and saw me too.
"Are you there?" he said.
I forced a smile and nodded to him, "I'll go in and wait for you."
I hurried back to the reception room and took out the aspirin from my pocket. I forgot to take the medicine on time, which is why I am in such pain.
Lu Qingfan quickly took care of everything, and I left the company with him.
He remained silent on the way until he approached the Pei family's mansion when he suddenly asked, "What's your relationship with He Li?"
I shrugged, "He is my former benefactor."
Lu Qingfan clenched his jaw and did not respond. Although his expression remained unchanged, his knuckles holding the steering wheel were blue and white.
As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I also felt remorse in my heart. I had a grudge against He Li in my heart, so why bother to vent my anger on Lu Qingfan
He couldn't accept me at the beginning, but because he had something more to hope for. He hopes to get rid of Pei's subordinate status and climb to a higher place. Since I am his drag, I should leave the stage gracefully.
In the past ten years, I have repeatedly made things difficult for myself, just to make a bet with Lu Qingfan, and it is nothing more than torturing each other, why bother, why bother
"I've been with him for four years," I said, "but I've broken up with him."
"So you really were with him."
When he met He Li when he went to look for me in the apartment, he probably already guessed our relationship, but it is only now that he is sure.
"Where do you live now?" Lu Qingfan asked me.
"A friend's house."
"Friend? Where did you get your friend from?"
After four full years, he still thought that I was still the ignorant boy in his palm, and he should know everything about me.
"Lu Qingfan, I'm already an adult, don't interfere with my private life anymore."
How could I live another six years unconsciously under his eyes. At the beginning, he would rather suffer a bit to work as a waiter in a nightclub because he wanted to avoid his surveillance.
At that time, Pei Jiyu was willing to do anything just to take a chance. How young, ignorant and fearless.
If he was willing to bow his head and give in to him at that time, wouldn't he have met He Li
It's a pity that the past can never go back, so I can't regret it.
"Jiyu, haven't you suffered enough? Without your status as the young master of the Pei family, who would really value you?"
His words hit my sore spot, obviously he already knew the ending between Leo and me, everything was as he expected.
I looked at him angrily, but he looked straight at the road ahead, calm as usual.
I was suddenly slumped, my heart was full of desolation, as if I had been enlightened for a moment, I suddenly woke up from a long dream, and looking at everything in the dream, it was so pitiful, ridiculous, and lamentable.
Pei Jiyu has a sincere and sincere temperament, and would give up everything for love. But Lu Qingfan was born with low self-esteem, thinking that only if he has everything can he be worthy of true love.
We were originally people from two worlds, and he and I were backsliding from the very beginning.
"Even if I'm still the young master of the Pei family, you won't accept me." I said lightly.
Until we arrived at Pei's mansion, Lu Qingfan and I didn't have a word to talk to each other.
My father was walking on the grass in the backyard with a cane, and he didn't know that I had returned.
Most of the new servants in the family don't know me, they only respectfully call "Young Master" to Lu Qingfan, they probably think that I am a guest of Pei's family.
I looked at my father in the courtyard from the window. He seemed to be the same as four years ago, and he didn't even have a single gray hair on his temples.
A person's life often gradually disintegrates and decays from places other than the body, and then eventually there is no cure for the stone, and the grass and trees turn to ashes.
I still remember the gentle smile my father had in the sun when my mother was alive. Only one person could make him so calm and happy.
It's a pity that there is only one mother in the world.
"People in the Pei family have died of cancer for generations. My great-grandfather had three brothers, one died young, and the other two died of cancer, so in my generation, the Pei family is so thin," I looked out the window. The father's back, "I didn't expect my father to be like this."
It was probably the first time that Lu Qingfan heard about the medical history of the Pei family, so he remained silent for a while.
I couldn't help asking him, "If one day I die like this, will you be sad?"
He lowered his face, "Don't talk nonsense!"
I smiled and didn't continue this topic.
If I die, it doesn't matter to me whether he is hurt or not, it's all his business, Lu Qingfan, I shouldn't have asked in the first place.
"Father has made a will," he said.
Does that mean his time is numbered
"I still don't believe he's going to die," I said. "I thought I was going to die before him."
"You will always only live in your own world."
I smiled lightly, "Yes, you are right."
In this protracted confrontation, I was finally willing to admit defeat to him.
He looked at me, and there seemed to be a flash of surprise in his eyes, "Oh, Jiyu, how can you admit it?"
"Because Pei Jiyu had a big dream, and now he finally woke up." I said to him with a smile.