After returning home in a hurry, it suddenly occurred to Meng Siqi that it was time for work.
Why rush back in such a hurry, and he's not here. Laughing to myself, I pushed the door open with my hand.
There was someone in the living room. Hearing the sound of the door opening, he suddenly turned around with a haggard look on his face.
"Meng Siqi!"
I was a little surprised, before he came and asked any more questions, he got up from the sofa and strode towards me, hugging me in his arms.
Can't say a word.
I was in a daze, and it took me a long time to reach out and wrap my arms around his back.
I smiled softly, "Meng Siqi, you cling to me like a big dog."
He didn't speak, and he didn't let go, he just hugged me tightly, and I felt some moisture on the side of my neck.
"It's useless for you to cry, I don't have any sugar now."
I finally don't know what to say.
I tried to rest my head on his shoulder. There was a faint smell of soap on his body, which was inexplicably reassuring.
For a moment, it seemed that all the past disappeared, only his body temperature was left close to me.
I forget everyone and just pray silently in my heart, no matter where the gods are, please allow me to stay in this world for a moment, I want to fall in love with this person.
This is my only wish.
I was tense for many days, and I was relieved for a while, and I was overwhelmed by exhaustion, so I fell asleep leaning on Meng Siqi like that.
When I woke up, I was already lying on my own bed, the sky was already dark, and there was only one wall lamp lit in the room, emitting bright and soft light.
Meng Siqi stood by my bed and watched me silently when he saw me wake up.
"You slept for six hours." His voice was hoarse, and a layer of blue stubble appeared on his chin.
"Looking at you like this, it seems like you haven't closed your eyes for a few days." I laughed at him.
"I'm afraid you will come back as soon as I fall asleep." He said softly, "I didn't watch, and you ran away from my eyes again."
It turns out that he has been waiting for me at home like this for the past few days.
"You're not coming back," he said. "Just disappear like that. I'll never see you again."
"How could it be?" I couldn't laugh or cry, "I said I would receive treatment, how could I leave without saying goodbye."
"I thought you were just lying to me. I thought you were annoying me, so I ran away by myself. You don't know how much I regret it. I blame myself for pushing you too hard." My hand was squeezed by him Clenching it tightly, the palm burning against me said, "You said that you have no love in your life."
Hearing the uneasiness in his words, I couldn't help but sigh, I was too unbelievable before, and even made him worry about me.
"I was just too disappointed at the time, to say something angry."
People don't live in disappointment forever.
"I met someone I used to know and made a break with him, so it took me so long," I said to him, "I'm sorry to make you worry."
Meng Siqi didn't ask me who I met, he smiled at me, "It is my greatest comfort that you can come back."
"I'm not leaving again," I said.
Father finally agreed to move into the hospital.
I said to him, "Mom won't be happy if you do this, don't let her worry about you."
The only person father cares about in this world is his mother, even though she is long gone, he still cares about her. Only she can soften his heart.
Father was admitted to the hospital where Meng Siqi was.
The attending doctor looked at my father's case, shook his head at Lu Qingfan and me, and left.
My father has often been in a coma recently, and I already knew he couldn't last long.
There was a serene smile on his sleeping face, as if he didn't feel any pain. I think he was dreaming about his youth.
When he was young he had a mother.
Lu Qingfan accompanied me out of the ward.
Since we broke up badly a few days ago, when we met again, we rarely spoke. As soon as he saw me, he tensed his face, looking like a black-faced doorman. He took a photo and pasted it on the door, and he kept his family and town from then on.
I said to him, "You go back to the company first."
"where you go?"
"I have an appointment with someone." I made an appointment with him to have a physical examination today and agree on a treatment plan.
He frowned, seeming very displeased with me.
"Jiyu, don't be self-willed."
I can't even argue with him.
Just at this moment, Meng Siqi came over and stopped when he saw Lu Qingfan and me. I breathed a sigh of relief and didn't have to continue to entangle with Lu Qingfan.
At work, Meng Siqi is always expressionless and unsmiling, which is almost the same as his usual self.
He held a medical record by his side, and nodded slightly to Lu Qingfan.
Fortunately, they both know each other, so I don't need to introduce each other.
"Jiyu has always been spoiled and pampered. Doctor Laomeng has taken care of him for me these days. Thank you very much." Lu Qingfan spoke first, with a cold look on his face. He was clearly saying thanks, but there seemed to be ice between the words.
Meng Siqi didn't give in much more than him, "This is my duty, Mr. Lu, you are polite."
Two people stood in the corridor of the hospital, silent swords, lights and swords, lightning and thunder. One is wearing a white robe and the other is wearing a black suit, as if black and white are impermanent.
I stood between the two of them and coughed, and said to Lu Qingfan, "Dr. Meng and I have something to discuss, you can go first."
After all, he dragged Meng Siqi away from here in a hurry.
I didn't breathe a sigh of relief until Meng Siqi's office.
"Just now I almost thought you would do it."
It's like watching an old-fashioned martial arts novel, two masters confront each other, staring at each other for a long time, sweating on the forehead and smoking on the top of the head, finally one party can't take it anymore, vomits blood from the mouth, and admits defeat.
The opponent can be killed with only the spirit and will.
"It was he who was hostile to me." Meng Siqi said while looking at the medical records.
"He misunderstood the relationship between you and me. He was afraid that I would be unkind to others. He thought you were a rich and careless dandy who played with my feelings." I said, "He thinks too much."
Meng Siqi finally smiled and said, "It's not that he misunderstood. I do pursue you enthusiastically, but I'm absolutely devoted to you, and I will never give up on you."
I blushed and changed the subject, "I've been having trouble falling asleep lately, waking up a lot, and aspirin doesn't help anymore."
Meng Siqi's smile froze, and he looked at me with anxiety in his eyes.
I knew it was not good.
"What's wrong?" I asked him cautiously.
He smiled forcefully, "It's okay, I'll add new medicine to you, it's okay."
"Um."
The atmosphere was awkward for a moment, and I saw Meng Siqi's hands trembling invisible.
It's still too late, it's too late for me to wake up, it's still too late.
"Many people in my ancestors died of incurable diseases. My grandfather thought it was because of the rich and unkind. He devoted himself to charity until his death, but he couldn't escape it." I said suddenly.
"Don't be superstitious. This phenomenon is just because certain malignant tumors tend to cluster in families. A total of ten grandparents of Napoleon's family died of gastric cancer." He said immediately.
I giggled, "I suddenly felt comforted." Then I added, "At least my father is not in pain."
I feel very lucky. I know how uncomfortable the pain will be, as if a hand has penetrated into the body and messed up all the internal organs.
"Your father was lucky that most terminal patients have cancer pain."
"He has been missing his mother, maybe this is a relief for him." I sighed.
"Did your mother die of illness?" Meng Siqi asked.
I shook my head, "It was an accident. A fire broke out in the shopping mall. Everyone was running in a hurry, but my mother couldn't escape." I paused, "I was only twelve years old at the time. I woke up late at night and saw an old photo of my father facing my mother. His face was wet. That day he quarreled with his mother and left her alone. He never expected to say goodbye this time, and he always regretted letting go of his mother's hand that day."
After speaking, Meng Siqi and I were silent.
After half a day, Meng Siqi grabbed my hand on the table, "I won't let go of your hand."
Never let go of that person's hand easily.
Because at some point, that person will disappear forever, and you will never find him again.