Lu Qingfan came to see me as expected. The phone calls he made yesterday were cut off one by one by the flustered Meng Siqi. It was not easy for him to support himself until the funeral without changing his expression.
What I did was indeed too much, so I don't blame him for coming to the teacher to inquire about the crime.
I was still in poor spirits, so I saw Lu Qingfan wearing a blanket.
He had a bad complexion, and when he entered the door without saying a word, he first threw a stack of newspapers on the table, and the first one was Lu Qingfan. He was wearing a black suit, standing alone in a corner of the mourning hall, with a solemn and solemn expression. The big black characters on the side are very eye-catching - "Only the adopted son attended the father's funeral, and it is suspected that the two sons of Pei's family have a disagreement" - the media has always been stalking and refusing to let go of any opportunity to spread rumors.
Other news must be similar, I didn't spend energy looking through it.
"Yesterday I passed out and was sent to the hospital halfway." I explained, "I'm sorry I didn't inform you in time."
"I'm not the one you should apologize to," Lu Qingfan said coldly. "Pei Jiyu, you went too far this time. You actually left your father to find another man. In the end, you didn't even attend the funeral. If your father knows, he won't forgive you." .”
There was a bang in my head, like something exploded. The unease that was so easily suppressed last night became chaotic again, and I was a little at a loss, "I'm sorry, I didn't know that my father would... I thought nothing would happen if I just went out for a while, I didn't expect..."
Lu Qingfan stood aside, folded his arms around his chest, and looked at me with a sneer, "Didn't expect that? Pei Jiyu, it's not that you didn't think about it, it's that you don't think about others at all, you can only think about yourself!"
I opened my mouth to argue, no, it's not like that, I really didn't expect my father to go so suddenly, I thought he would wait for me.
But I couldn't say a word, only a hoarse hiss came out of my throat.
Lu Qingfan is right, I am too selfish, I only think of myself.
I knew in my heart that he would leave one day, but I always thought that he would continue to procrastinate, procrastinate, and stay in the world forever. He would not really have the heart to leave me alone.
It was me who lied to myself.
On that day, I shouldn't have run out, I should have been by his side.
Father will not forgive me.
Tears rolled down my eyes suddenly, I couldn't help curling up, clutching my head with both hands, and kept murmuring, "I'm sorry, Dad, I'm sorry, please forgive me."
Lu Qingfan finally realized that I was wrong, he put down his arm, walked over to straighten my body, "Jiyu, what's wrong with you?" He looked at me nervously.
Tears were all over my face, and I couldn't control my emotions, "Lu Qingfan, I have done too many things wrong, God has already started to punish me, I shouldn't continue to live."
"What are you talking about!" Lu Qingfan was startled by me, "Jiyu, don't scare me on purpose."
"I will go to my father and mother soon, and when the three of us are together, my father will definitely forgive me." I was suddenly relieved.
Lu Qingfan was startled, the blood on his face faded immediately, he knelt down beside me, and turned my face to him. He looked at me with both eyes motionless, and kept calling my name, "Jiyu! Jiyu!"
There seemed to be infinite joy in my heart, and I smiled at him, "In this way, I can finally be free." Tears kept streaming down.
I can no longer control my emotions.
Lu Qingfan put his forehead close to me, and he said, "You have a fever, Jiyu, stop thinking about it."
He picked me up by the waist, walked into the bedroom and put me on the bed, and gently covered me with the quilt.
"Jiyu, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said those words." He wrapped my hand in his palm and lowered his head against it, "Jiyu, forgive me, don't scare me like this."
I stared blankly at the ceiling, and there were colorful colors passing by in front of my eyes, as if traveling through the past on a high-speed train, all the scenes in my memory turned into fine color chips, rushing towards me.
The year my mother died, my father became indifferent and gloomy, and ignored me. At that time, I was just a primary school student, and I lost my dearest relative overnight, but I had nowhere to complain about the pain. Couldn't sleep at night, curled up alone on the bed crying with swollen eyes.
Lu Qingfan knocked on my door in the middle of the night, and he stood at the door, looking at me quietly. Suddenly he stretched out his hand and placed it gently on top of my head.
I hung my head, tears could not help but flutter down. I said to Lu Qingfan, "I want my mother to come back."
He was silent for a while, and said softly to me, "Mom won't come back, but I will be by your side."
During that time, he would definitely stay by my bedside until I fell asleep before leaving.
That was the only time he took the initiative to show warmth to me, and I will remember it for a long, long time. In the long dark night, he held my hand and said, "I will not leave, I will always stay by your side. Close your eyes It doesn't matter, you can stay in the dream forever, I will always be here."
At that time, I thought everything he said was true.
So sleep peacefully in your dreams.
Lu Qingfan wrung out a wet towel to wipe my face, and fed me a cup of hot water.
After drinking a cup of hot water, I gradually regained my clarity, and my excitement subsided. Thinking of the confusion and gaffe in front of Lu Qingfan a moment ago, I only felt extremely embarrassed and uneasy.
Lu Qingfan stood by the bed and asked me, "Is it better, do you remember what you said?"
I was a little embarrassed, sat up slowly, and said to him, "Sorry, I was not sober just now, talking nonsense, don't worry about it."
"You said you were going to see Father and Mother," he said.
I lowered my head, "I'm sorry."
Even I was deeply shocked that I would say such a thing.
"It's my fault. I shouldn't have said those words to irritate you." Lu Qingfan put one hand on his forehead, as if feeling guilty.
I didn't know what to say, and the atmosphere between the two was awkward for a moment. After a while, he said, "I want to inform you when I come today that my father's will will be announced at the Pei family's mansion in three days, and you need to be present."
"I see," I echoed, "I'll be back then."
It was silent again.
Today, the relationship between Lu Qingfan and I has gradually become impossible to talk about.