"Your condition is not very good..." He hesitated for a moment, but still asked, "Do you want me to stay with you?"
I immediately refused, "No, no need, you should be busy with a lot of things, don't worry about me. Please call Meng Siqi for me, he will take care of me."
Perhaps because there was not enough light in the room, for a moment, Lu Qingfan's face became very ugly.
"That's fine too." Lu Qingfan said.
He took out his mobile phone and asked me Meng Siqi's number.
I reported a series of numbers, then suddenly regretted it, paused, and said, "Forget it, he's at work, don't bother him now."
But with a fever, why did he make such a fuss to alarm Meng Siqi? There are hundreds of desperate people in this city waiting for his help.
"I can take care of myself." I pressed Lu Qingfan's hand that was about to press the dial button, "It's just a low-grade fever, it's not a big problem, I'll be fine after a night of sleep."
Lu Qingfan looked at me, "You were emotionally unstable just now, I don't worry about you being alone."
I smiled, "You always treat me like an ignorant child. I have been an adult for many years. You don't need to worry about me for the rest of your life. One day I will leave Pei's family and your protection, and go to a place without you. You should let me I have gradually learned to be independent in life and emotions.”
Lu Qingfan lowered his face, "What does 'to a place without me' mean? Where are you going?"
"I'm just saying that you and I have our own lives, and you can't take care of me for the rest of my life."
"Who said I can't take care of you for the rest of your life!" He suddenly raised his voice, his face showing anger, "As long as I am alive, I will take care of you."
I stared blankly at him.
He also noticed his gaffe, and calmed down immediately, "The Pei family has raised me for many years, and I will not let you continue to give up on yourself. You should return to the Pei family, civilian life is not suitable for you."
I was a little helpless, "Lu Qingfan, I'm not abandoning myself, I'm just standing on my own. My father has passed away. You have worked for the Pei family for so many years, and you can repay your kindness no matter how much you owe me. You don't have to worry about me anymore."
He has been entangled in the shackles of the Pei family for more than ten years, and now he finally has the opportunity to escape and pursue the life he wants. I don't want to be a burden on his shoulders and continue to bind his hands and feet.
I didn't realize until today that being adopted by the Pei family was not Lu Qingfan's luck. On the contrary, this was the worst nightmare of his life. It always weighed him down. As long as he was involved with the Pei family for a day, he would not be able to straighten his back and be a man. .
Lu Qingfan was too proud, maybe it was just an ordinary family who took him away, so he would be happier.
"Isn't it your wish to stop being a vassal of the Pei family and have your own life? It's time for me to retire from your life, and you don't need to feel inferior about the chains that the Pei family tied for you anymore ’” I said, “You’re free.”
I just want him to be truly happy.
Since he was brought to me by his mother many years ago, I have always expected this, hoping that he can smile from the bottom of his heart, and that he can be happy forever.
Until many years later, I still hope so.
Lu Qingfan stared at me for a while with a strange expression, and finally laughed, but his face was as pale as a serious illness. He said, "You only want to withdraw from my life now, don't you think it's too late? The chains of the Pei family have grown into my flesh and blood, even if I want to break free, it's impossible."
"Why?" I stared at him blankly, not understanding the meaning of his words.
Lu Qingfan shook his head, picked up the coat beside the bed, "I'm leaving first today, you should have a good rest."
He closed the bedroom door and left.
When Meng Siqi came back in the evening, my low-grade fever still persisted, and I lay weakly on the bed.
He came over and touched my forehead, "How long have you been like this, why didn't you tell me?"
I said to him, "It's just a low-grade fever, isn't it normal? If I really feel something is wrong, I will definitely notify you. If you don't care about it, it will cause chaos. If you are an ordinary patient, why would you make such a fuss? Didn't you also say , as a doctor, you should not invest too much in your personal feelings.”
"But you clearly know that you are not an ordinary patient, you are my sweetheart." Meng Siqi said some nasty words without changing his expression, "Even if you lose a single hair, my heart will hurt for a long time."
I exclaimed, "Meng Siqi, you are really not shy, the boss is not young and you still talk nonsense!"
He didn't feel embarrassed at all, "I'm telling the truth, there's nothing to be ashamed of." He stretched out his hand to help me sit up, put his forehead against my temperature, and asked me, "Do you take the medicine I prescribed for you?" Did you take it on time?"
"Yes, yes."
I answered quickly, I was afraid that if he was dissatisfied, he would turn into the black-faced doctor Meng mode again, serious and serious, and I couldn't stand it.
Meng Siqi sighed, "You have been extremely restless lately. What happened to your father has hit you too hard. I'm afraid that you will commit suicide again, and you won't be able to think about it for a while."
"I just feel that I owe a lot to my father and I'm sorry for him," I said. "I won't play with my life any more. Don't worry, I did my best to survive."
Meng Siqi looked at me quietly and said, "I have always suspected that you are like a phantom in the water, and you will disappear if I don't pay attention. I am not afraid of waiting. I have waited for more than ten years. I am most afraid that once you leave, you will disappear." Never coming back."
Sometimes the long wait is not the most terrible predicament, the most desperate thing is that there is no waiting.
"Meng Siqi, I should have met you sooner."
It's a pity that fate never makes sense.
He shook his head lightly, "No, I am very lucky to be able to meet you."
Regardless of the right time or the wrong time, as long as you have met the other person, it is the greatest gift from heaven. Because some people have waited for a lifetime, searched for a lifetime, and finally passed by that person.