That was the first time I knew there was a concept of "self", and it was all chaotic before.
Nodded silently, thinking for a long time before seeming to understand what he said, and then asked gently.
"Then who am I?"
Fen Tian actually laughed, and after smiling silently, he answered me three words softly.
"Shen Qijiu."
I didn't understand, the name is a bit strange to me, so I didn't answer the call for a long time.
Fen Tian suddenly took my hand, and after rubbing it, he said: "Your name is Shen Qijiu, Qijiu."
Seven wines.
After repeating it a few times in silence, I seemed to have remembered my name, and then I was in a daze.
But this is also progress. Fen Tian said he was very happy, and asked his maid to add a large table of dishes to me that evening.
I have now learned to eat with chopsticks by myself, but the effect is worse, just like those few-year-olds who eat chopsticks for the first time, eating like a world war, full of faces.
Every time such a situation occurred, Fen Tian would always find someone expressionless and clean up quietly.
I always feel a little familiar with this kind of expressionless face, but I can't remember what kind of face it is.
The brain is very stupid. Basically, after thinking two or three sentences on their own, their attention is transferred to other places.
Today I saw a bird in the yard.
The blue bird has a very long tail and flies very fast. I don't know why... I really like it.
Fen Tian noticed that my eyes had been following the bird, and after I looked at it for a while, he suddenly spoke.
"like?"
I looked at him and nodded blankly.
As soon as Fen Tian stretched out his hand, the black and red light in his hand gradually spread, and with a swish of an eye, he stuck the bird that was greedy for grass seeds, put it in the palm of his hand, and handed it in front of me.
So familiar... I reached out to grab it, but accidentally let it fly away!
Fen Tian shook his head, and didn't help me get it back, so I could only swallow the bitter fruit for my recklessness.
Poor that bird, I could have fun with it, it's quite familiar, as if I have seen it somewhere.
Every time I face Fen Tian, I feel this way too. I am very familiar with it, but I can't remember it.
Here is a kid with a red bellyband jumping around in front of me every day, and talking to a woman here.
I can now identify which one is serving people. Those serving people are all dressed in black and can't speak, and this woman in light green silk and satin looks much more humane.
"Aunt Huanqing, when will Auntie play with me?"
"It may take a few more days." Huan Qing replied with a smile: "Her current soul is slowly recovering, and it needs an evolution process."
"What is the evolution process?"
"It's a worm that turns into a butterfly, it's a rebirth and a new life, and everything must be learned again."
"Oh..." The child ran away silently.
On the second day, just after I woke up, I heard the chirping birds all over the room. When I went out, the doors and windows in the room were tightly closed, and the whole room jumped up and down like yesterday. Blue birds, occasionally a few red ones fly by.
I don't know why, I always feel like I've seen this scene somewhere.
I looked at Fen Tian with puzzled expressions in my eyes.
Fen Tian caught one of the birds, pointed at it, and said two words: "Liuguang."
"Liuguang?"
He grabbed the other red one in a blink of an eye and blinked, as if thinking about it for a while before remembering the name of the bird: "Dudu."
"Dudu?" I repeated stupidly, the same as before, just familiar.
"Liuguang and Dudu, a pair of bird spirits."
"A pair of bird spirits."
"Yeah." After releasing the bird in his hand, Fen Tian took out two rings from his arms, counted my fingers, picked out the thumb, put it on, and put the other one on his index finger in a blink of an eye. The rings are exactly the same.
"Winding."
"Entangling?"
"This ring is called entanglement, and some people call it Tongxin."
"Tongxin."
"Through each other's hearts."
I calmed down, looked at the ring, and vaguely thought of someone coming. He held me and said to me as he moved his hands up and down, this is the ring given to me, to reward me for the smoky smoke of his palace.
Looking at the ring in my hand, and then at the person in front of me, I am sure that the ring is not the same ring, and the person is not the same person.
"If you want to choose, how would you choose?"
What do I choose? … After almost exhausting all brain cells, I analyzed this sentence and asked, "What to choose?"
"Be yourself, you can stay with me. Be her and go back to him."
"Who are you looking for?"
"Your husband."
I became more and more confused. I didn't know how to answer the next words, so I stopped talking, just staring at the ring in my hand in a daze.
The whole body of the green ring, a little big, dangling around on the hand, if you are not careful, you will probably throw it out.
Fen Tian stopped talking, turned and left.
The days went on like this, and after about half a month, I almost recovered and was no different from ordinary people.
"Han Moyu..."
Occasionally I think of this name, especially when I see the kid jumping up and down.
Three or four-year-old children are when they are naughty, but sometimes when I look at him, I feel more and more... Those black and clear eyes are like I've seen them nowhere.
"Auntie, what do you see me doing."
"Auntie thinks you look good."
"My dad also said that I look good, like a mother, with an apple face."
"Really... Who is your mother?"
"My mother is dead." As he said, he lowered his head, looking quite unhappy.
I also suddenly understood that something was wrong with the topic, so I changed the topic.
"what's your name?"
"My name is Hanling."
"Why is it called?"
When I heard this name, I felt a little irritable from the bottom of my heart. At the same time, I thought of a more annoying name.
Yan Ling.
Who is that? When I think of it, I hate the itch at the roots of my teeth. Why does a good kid rename him
"My father said that my mother died when I gave birth to me and no one named me. I just happened to see a book about the world. It was written on the corner of the wall with a number of plums, and Ling Han opened it alone. My dad thought I was as fearless as a plum, I It's called Hanling."
"It doesn't sound very good." Anyway, whether it is related to ancient poems or anything, as long as the name has Ling in the name, I don't think it sounds good.
"I don't think it's good either." He whispered to my ear: "My friends said that the name of Wind Monster is Feng, and my father has the blood of Yan Monster, so he is called Fentian... When I came to my place, it became cold. Ling... Ah!"
The little guy sighed, and I followed with a sigh.
"Ugh!"
He immediately cheered up: "But I'm up for it, children of the same age are still beasts! My dad said I am smart and will become human since I was young! Better than them!"
"Yes! It sounds amazing!"
"Of course!... But I still hate my name." As he said, the little guy lowered his head again and said nothing.
"Then you can change it." I looked at him in a downturn, and I couldn't bear to poke him: "Otherwise... your name is Fen Yin, you are tall!"
"Fenyin?"
"Same last name with your father."
"What is the last name?"
"Family name..." I scratched my head, and organized something in my head: "It is the first word that the child must have the same name as his father, which means that you are his son and a continuation of him."
"is it?"
"Yes."
"Do you really think it sounds good?"
"Ok."
"My dad will definitely be angry."
"Then you coax him."
"How to coax?"
"Have a kiss!"
The two of us sat on the steps carefully studying the issue of first names and surnames, but we didn't expect that a tall figure suddenly appeared behind us. In a blink of an eye, we sat between us, put our hands on my shoulders, and looked into my eyes.
"Are you sure you let his surname Fen?"
When I saw Fen Tian's smiling face, I thought I was wrong.
He seems to have never laughed like this... I was dumbfounded, and nodded dumbly.
"Can't it?"
"Okay." Fen Tian was still smiling, but he raised his eyes and looked into the distance: "Anyway, I don't like to change it casually in the future."
"Look! I said your father would agree!"
"Wow! I can have the same surname as my dad! Daddy, you won't regret it!"
"Ok."
"I'm going to tell the Rock Demon! Tell Manteng! I changed my name to Fenyin!"
"Go ahead."
With permission, the little guy ran away happily.
I also looked at Fen Tian happily: "Your son is really smart, he is only three years old and he is a kid, and he knows so much right and wrong."
"Perhaps like his mother... When you open your eyes, you are all making trouble."
"It's great..." I sighed, "You miss his mother so much."
"It's okay, don't think much."
"Uh..." I never expected to get such an answer, and I didn't even know how to say the next words.
But I think this is fine. If he suddenly becomes depressed, I really don't know how to comfort him!
"Show you something." He didn't know where to make a bag.
When I heard him say this, I thought he was going to turn off this unfortunate topic, so I immediately nodded happily, and stared at the bag he brought with him pretending to be interested.
But I didn't expect to die, he stretched out his hand and pulled out a snake from the bag!
The black and shiny snake, more than a meter long, immediately spit out its core when it saw me, as if it was a demonstration!
"Ahhh!!" The moment I saw the snake, I immediately stood up and took a few steps back in fright: "What are you doing!"
Fen Tian seemed to be puzzled and raised his eyebrows: "Are you afraid?"
I nodded timidly.
"It shouldn't be..." Fen Tian looked at the snake in his hand, put it on the ground, and the snake swam away by itself.
I just sat back reluctantly, thinking in my heart, he wouldn't be crazy, would he scare me with a snake, is it just teasing me? Does he think I am not afraid of such biting things? It's strange... who likes snakes? So terrible...
I thought this in my heart, and I don’t know if it was revealed in my eyes or something, Fen Tian actually smiled, and then, as if I could understand what I was thinking, I said comfortingly: "You If you come across a snake, don’t hide, the snake won’t bite you."
"why?"
He thought about it, and reached out his hand very seriously to touch my stomach.
"Because a big snake once left a mark on your body. The snake treats you as the same kind."