Before Xicheng could ask again, Xia Nuan had already taken the initiative to speak.
"When I got to know him, he was more than three months old. At that time, I was holding the surgical drape for a painless abortion on the B-ultrasound bed and heard the sound of his heartbeat for the first time..." Side view, fingers gently pinching my son Xia Nuan's little hand, Xia Nuan's voice was low, but every word was emotional, "I ran out of Supermarket B in a panic, sat in the corridor of the hospital for a long time, and finally decided to give birth to him... Thinking about it now, maybe I was a little too impulsive at the time. , will cause you such trouble!"
"No!" Xicheng immediately denied, "I... I like him very much, and it was me who caused you trouble."
Looking sideways, looking at her son's cute sleeping face, Xia Nuan shook her head gently.
"What he gave me was an unforgettable experience in my life."
She was pregnant in ten months and took care of the child for a whole year.
She has been tired, cried, and even regretted, but... most of the time, she is happy. It is an indescribable happiness. There is a little life that relies on you unreservedly. That feeling is only felt by a mother. can only be felt.
Of course, she didn't want to say these words to Xicheng.
"He is still young and won't have many memories. If you get married in the future, you can ask him to call your wife mom..." When she said this, Xia Nuan's voice already had some uncontrollable emotions. She took a few deep breaths and said, She then continued, "Of course, I hope your future wife can accept him. This child is very smart and sensitive... I..."
Halfway through, she was choked with sobs and couldn't speak anymore, so she just took a deep breath.
Of course Xia Nuan also understood that these could only be her extravagant hopes.
How could he really treat a child who is not his own as if he were his own child
Now, she suddenly felt a little regretful, regretting that she should not have selfishly given birth to this child in the first place. If he could not live a happy life, then she would be the one to blame.
Xicheng raised his eyes and saw the way she pursed her lips vigorously and controlled her tears. He subconsciously stood up from the chair, took a step toward her, and then stopped.
He originally wanted to comfort her, but how should he comfort her
"I'm sorry!" After hesitating for a long time, he could only say these three words, "I'm really... I'm very sorry. This child... will always be your child. If you want, you can come back to see him at any time, and you will always be his. Mom, I won’t let anyone take your place.”
If it weren't for her difficulties, she would not have sent the child back if she loved the child so much. As a father, he has the responsibility to take care of the child. He will take good care of the child and always let the child remember his real mother.
Xia Nuan raised her face in shock, eyes wet with tears staring at his in disbelief.
"But… "
"You are his mother, always will be." Xicheng took a breath, "And... no matter what you need, you can tell me and I will do my best!"
That night was the thing he felt most guilty about her for.
Now, with the addition of this child, his guilt and self-blame need not be mentioned much, but there is no way to comfort or express these in words.
"I know that no matter what I do, I can't get rid of you. I just... hope I can do something for you. I..."
The man in front of her had a look of embarrassment and self-blame on his face. Xia Nuan saw it and felt a slight pain in her chest.