- A little cold.
Shen Yan subconsciously held it more firmly and firmly.
Qi Jin's hand trembled heavily, obviously frightened by this action.
Shen Yan felt that his knuckles were all tense, and he pulled back hard. If he hadn't buckled by himself, he might have hit the bottom of the table at once. So he frowned slightly, not only did not let go, but resolutely kept the hand in his own.
Qi Jin has experienced being "let go" several times in his life.
So, he won't be next.
"Mom," Shen Yan said for the second time, intending to finish what he just couldn't continue, "Actually, he and I—"
[Actually, he and I are not friends, but lovers. 】
These words were suddenly like gray fonts cast by an old-fashioned projector, and they were thrown into Qi Jin's blank mind, causing his heart to seize for a while.
This line was said many years ago.
When I came out in front of my family for the first time, I said to my parents, sister and brother.
The man who had made him brave to say those words later fled. It was his own blindness, he accepted his fate, the injury was serious, but not the most fatal.
The most fatal injury at that time was the slap of his father, the howl of his mother, the act of lowering his eyes in confusion, and the disgusted expression on his younger brother's face after hearing this sentence. - He will never forget it in his life. When I was hospitalized in a car accident, I could never forget the taste of the hard rice that I swallowed with my tears.
Shen Yan's family environment was not ideal at first, and now it's not easy to talk to her mother normally and get back a little "home" feeling.
My own homeless person... can't implicate him anymore.
"Actually, I met him at work."
Qi Jin suddenly grabbed a blank sentence and finished it in his own way. Even though he clearly felt the opponent's hand tighten slightly, he continued without changing his face.
Even still laughing.
"I have an interview topic, and he happens to be my main interviewee. At first, it was just a working partnership. Later, I got to know each other slowly in private. I found that it was a good fit and became a real friend."
The first time the woman heard Qi Jin talk about the details of their first acquaintance, she nodded suddenly.
"Is it an animal-related interview?"
"Well, it's about rescuing the abused animals. He happens to be one of the rescuers. He is very good in both medical skills and medical ethics." Qi Jin smiled sincerely, these are not lies, "I will take that issue another day. The program is recorded, and it will be engraved into a DVD for you."
"From work to private contacts, you really are destined..." The woman expressed her feelings again.
"Ha ha."
Qi Jin smiled and looked down at the bowl of soup in front of him. Tang Shui's own smile was a bit pale, but he tried his best to ignore it, and pretended to the point that the other party would also ignore it: "Because you have a good son who is a worthwhile... friend."
But Shen Yan couldn't ignore this smile.
He listened to the whole thing silently, frowning deeper and deeper, with a solemn expression, staring at Qi Jin without moving.
Even if Qi Jin didn't look back, he knew that he wouldn't let go, because he struggled till now, and he couldn't even break free with a finger, and even the palm bones started to ache slightly because of his too much strength. Qi Jin felt a little better, and her heart was astringent and sweet.
The right knee slowly slanted over where the woman couldn't see, touched Shen Yan's left knee, then stuck to it, leaning quietly in a guilt and pleading posture.
At least, this action can make up for his own wayward behavior.
"Ah, I forgot to speak so much," the woman suddenly found that the three pairs of chopsticks on the table were still untouched, and quickly mobilized them to start a meal, "Eat, you're welcome."
"Uh..." Qi Jin was taken aback when she heard the words.
His right hand is still being held by Shen Yan, and his left hand cannot be used. If he has been slow to move his chopsticks, the woman will not notice it now, and it will be strange if it drags on for a long time.
At this moment, he really realized what "thorn in the back" is, and the needle-like pain spread from his hand to his back, making it impossible for him to straighten his chest and sit upright. Guilty - it must be this kind of performance, he smiled helplessly.
"Why don't you guys eat?" The two of them didn't move, and the woman really looked blank.
"Shen Yan..." Qi Jin had to bite the bullet and remind her.
But Shen Yan still held on tightly and didn't let go, which made him a little anxious, but he couldn't bear to grit his teeth and throw it away, so he had to sit on the stool with a pale face.
At this moment, Qi Jin's cell phone rang suddenly.
Maybe it was because it was too sudden, Shen Yan seemed to be stunned too, her hand was not so strong anymore, Qi Jin hurriedly took advantage of the situation and pulled out her hand.
While silently confessing to Shen Yan, he hurriedly took out his mobile phone and answered this timely and rainy call: "Hello?"
"Xiao Qi, it's me."
"director."
Qi Jin breathed a sigh of relief after hearing the voice of the channel director—if it was a work call, she would have an excuse to go out to answer it. He glanced at Shen Yan lightly, Shen Yan kept silent, finally turned his eyes away and stopped staring at himself, then slowly stood up from his seat, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, I'll go out for a while, you guys first eat."
After leaving the ward, Qi Jin let out a long sigh of relief, found a remote corner and stopped, and gratefully said to the channel director, "Thank you, Director, this call is too timely."
The director is indeed the director, and his gossip physique has not changed at all: "What's wrong? What was the occasion when I was having dinner with girlfriend A and was caught by girlfriend B?"
Qi Jin silently supported her head.
… Director, you…
... not to mention that your divergent thinking is too exaggerated, why am I actually a playboy in your eyes...
"What A ah B ah, I'm having dinner with my elders, but I don't know how to answer some questions."
"Oh, the question asked by the elder... I understand, I understand." The director guessed that he directly thought of the issue of blind date, with a proper and cunning laughter, "I'm not getting married after running for three years, have you been reprimanded by the family?"
Speaking of this, I paused and recited a sentence to myself: "But it's better if you don't get married..."
Qi Jin was a little surprised when he heard the director say this: "Why?"
When he won an award on a news channel before, the director highly valued him. In line with the ideological policy of not letting the fat and water flow to the outside world, he enthusiastically introduced to him the daughter of a relative of a certain, the granddaughter of a leader of a certain, and a classmate of a certain classmate. The niece... wait, etc., are all pushed by their own excuses. It's really uncomfortable to say such things that are not in line with the style now.
The Director paused for three seconds.
The director usually only pauses like this when he announces important news. Qi Jin reflexively straightened his waist slightly, and chose to stand with his back against the wall, so that the director would not say any big shocking news, so it was better to find a support point to be safe.
Sure enough, that very classic opening remark came.
"I have good news and bad news, which do you want to hear first?"
Qi Jin was already mentally prepared, so she just took a slow and deep breath, and resigned her fate: "... You should say something bad first."
"Okay," the director resumed his serious tone. No matter what, bad news should never be said with a smile, and he is very aware of Qi Jin's personal goals, the following words are really bad news that hits hard, "Then I'll say it straight - you apply for Being the second host of the 'Social Investigation' column was not approved. I heard that I was stopped by the personnel department, saying that you were too young, not qualified enough, and inexperienced."
Qi Jin held her breath to hear this, her heart sank, and finally fell to the bottom with a muffled bang, suffocating.
"Heh..." He laughed at himself, trying to be a little more dashing.
But no matter how much you laugh, you can't get up.
After all, it is your own ideal in life. It is false to say that you are not depressed and do not care... that is false.
"Is it the personnel department? I roughly know who stopped it." He tried his best to control the state of his voice so as not to sound too embarrassed.
There are not many villains in the unit, but there is always only one person who opposes him everywhere—Mr. Guisun. Although every time he satirizes himself, he ends in failure, and he has eaten many times, but he is the backbone of the personnel department. This promotion is not successful, there is definitely this person who has added fuel to it.
"It's good that you know. There's no way, if the above does not approve, it will not approve..." The director's words indirectly confirmed his guess.
"It doesn't matter, I will continue to hone and hone, and strive to improve my qualifications." Yes, there is no shortcut other than improving one's strength and strengthening one's network.
Unexpectedly, the director smiled slightly at this time, and deliberately sold out: "Don't be busy, don't be busy, I still have good news to say?"
Qi Jin originally wanted to throw out a disheartened sentence, "No matter how good the news is, I'm not in the mood to listen," but thinking about the director's good intentions to comfort him, he swallowed the words back and forcefully pulled the corners of his lips: " You say."
"Although the host has failed, the topic you are in charge of investigating pet hospitals in the market will still do a 60-minute special program in the 'social survey' as originally planned, which is a great honor. And , they intend to ask you to be a live commentary guest."
It was this...
If this is the case, in fact, I am full of confidence. I have heard rumors from my colleagues before, and I am not 100% or 90% sure, so the surprise is not big: "This is not thanks to the director and the 'social survey' column The person in charge, thank you both."
Perhaps hearing Qi Jin's tendency to end the call in a hurry, the director hurriedly stopped the caller: "Wait, wait, I haven't finished speaking yet - the day I handed over the program outline and video clips to the person in charge of the 'social survey' , It happened that people from Beijing came to visit and exchange. A CCTV leader just saw this. When asked, he said that it was a draft that you started. He also studied the reports you planned before, and said that you have potential and admire you very much. "
Qi Jin was slightly shocked.
CCTV... Wouldn't that be... National TV
When he realized this, his heart suddenly pounded, and he didn't know what the director was going to say next.
"Xiao Qi," the director asked a question he had never thought about, "I ask you, are you interested in doing an internship at CCTV?"
"what… "
Qi Jin opened his mouth subconsciously, and the word "good" almost blurted out. But he stopped just in time.
The moment of surprise quickly dissipated, as if the fierce waves washed away and then quickly subsided, leaving an empty beach, erasing everything, just as there were no thoughts in his suddenly sober mind, only confusion and ignorance. Standing on the spot.
"Internship," he finally asked softly and softly, "what kind of internship is it?"
"Internship program editor. Combined with your experience as a reporter, you also need a certain planning ability and creativity, and you also need to communicate with the program host often. Moreover, the other party is a national TV station, and this experience is put on the resume, whether you are At that time, whether to come back to develop or stay in Beijing, it will definitely be beneficial for you to apply to be a host in the future!" The director was more excited than himself.
Great opportunity, great position, great organization—there's almost nothing to fault.
If it was my former self, I would probably agree.
but…
"How long is the internship period?" One month, three months, six months, one year
"I heard it's three years... Oops, it's not that long. It definitely takes time for you to gain experience or something! How can it be too short." The director replied as a matter of course.
three years
His mind was slightly stunned, and he said two words involuntarily: "No."
The director didn't expect this kind of reaction from him at all, and was stunned: "Xiao Qi, I thought you would jump for joy when you heard it, but you... Do you know that this kind of rare opportunity can't be asked for by others? Come on, you actually want to give up? I can't help but call you stupid."
Qi Jin's hand holding the phone began to tremble slightly.
It turns out that the director's sentence "it's better if you don't get married" means this...
Obviously, the director also knows that for those men who have already married, the choice will be difficult to take care of their wives and children. There is no reason to object to being single, but he is no longer.
"I'm sorry." Qi Jin apologized dryly. He didn't know what to say other than apologizing.
"What the hell is going on, why did you refuse?" The director's tone was a bit aggressive, he must have lost his temper, and he was angry that he was not motivated, "You are obviously a bachelor, and you want to go out to develop, except for the issue of finding a house, nothing else. Do you need to worry?"
Qi Jin changed his posture with difficulty, looked slowly towards the door of the ward, and said in a hoarse voice, "Director, I... Actually, I have a partner."
The director was stunned for a while, and his tone finally softened: "So your kid has a girlfriend? Local?"
"Ok… "
"what do you do?"
"Doctor." I don't want to be too specific.
"Doctor," the director seemed to be embarrassed. He didn't say a word for a while, and finally sighed and suggested, "How about you discuss it with your girlfriend and see if she can be transferred with you?"
"I… don't think he's going to leave."
Qi Jin's voice became lower and lower.
This is the root of the grandfather who raised Shen Yan, which is equivalent to the root of Shen Yan.
There is the old house full of memories, the alleys that recorded Shen Yan's growth, a stable job, and a group of good colleagues. Moreover, the two of them met and fell in love in this city, so naturally... they should be here too.
Shen Yan belongs here.
And he belongs to Shen Yan.
【Please stay and accompany me to the end. 】
Those words that were said with a choked sobs were cut to the heart, kept in the heart, and kept in the most precious drawer in memory, and they were reluctant to take them out, let alone hurt.
Qi Jin smiled quietly.
【I love you. 】
I love you too. so…
"Sorry, I can't accept this opportunity." It doesn't matter if you make a sacrifice.
The director sighed heavily in annoyance.
The words have come to this point, but he still doesn't give up and babbles: "Hey, Xiaoqi, you have to think about it clearly. It's not the director's sophistication to say something unpleasant, but I haven't seen any kind of people in our business. I've heard a lot of stories, but love in this era really can't be eaten. You can find someone else, but you won't be able to find this kind of opportunity in the future. You'll regret it."
Very sure tone.
Very manly, very realistic way of thinking—
Qi Jin lowered his eyes and bowed his head with a wry smile. I don't know if he will regret giving up his future for Shen Yan's sake, but now he wants to give up Shen Yan for his future... He will definitely regret it.
"I've decided," he said.
"You can think about it again." The director interrupted him sternly, obviously very disappointed with his subordinate, and before hanging up the phone, he said, "Three days, after three days, I will answer when I figure it out, and I will go and tell the person in charge of CCTV. ."
After taking up the line, Qi Jin stood in the corridor for a while as if he had lost his soul. The square windows at the end of the corridor let in a layer of cold sunlight, which was very rigidly carved into the concrete floor, casting a long, gray shadow under his feet. He looked a little bored and walked away two steps, only to realize that a shadow is a shadow, no matter how much he walked, he couldn't get out.
Qi Jin suddenly felt that she had no strength at all, so she slowly squatted down at the foot of the wall, dropped her phone on the ground, and rubbed her face with her hands, forcing herself to cheer up.
It doesn't matter, he is still less than thirty years old, and there will be opportunities in the future.
It's ok.
It's ok…
Just as he was chanting in his heart like this hypnotically, the mobile phone on the ground rang again, this time from the car dealership.
"Hello, is this Mr. Qi?"
"Yes."
"Hello sir, this is XX car dealership. The final quotation for the model you consulted last time has come out. The down payment and handling fee have been listed on the list, and a copy has been sent to your mailbox. Can you read it? How about replying to us as soon as possible in the future? Because such a preferential price is limited, once it is sold out, there will be no more." The seller spared no effort to sell him.
"Can you briefly talk about the cost items?"
"Okay, these fees include..."
The seller begins to read out the quantities on the quotation one by one. Originally, Qi Jin had been waiting for this estimate, but now she was not happy when she heard it.
With his current income as a reporter, it is really hard for him to keep a slightly better economical car.
I originally thought that the position of the host would definitely be won properly, and I was waiting for my income to increase, and it would be easier to repay the loan, but now it seems that I have to grit my teeth to support it. Shen Yan had just paid a large amount of surgery for his mother, and she would never ask him for any financial assistance, neither should nor would she want to.
Then what
Then when you go back to work, go back to the business life you used to travel around and only have a few days at home a month? According to the usual work rules of reporters, the time with Shen Yan is probably very limited, and I feel tired just thinking about it.
"Damn..."
The rare negative emotions rose up layer by layer, and for a while I felt very depressed, I couldn't help but bury my head and squat down under the wall.
"Qi Jin."
Suddenly, he heard Shen Yan's voice softly passing through the corridor, and raised his head in surprise.
Shen Yan had just walked out of the ward and found that he was alone in the corner in this posture, his expression changed slightly, and he strode towards him without saying a word.
Qi Jin didn't want him to know the content of the conversation between him and the director, let alone his current state of mind, so she quickly stood up and wanted to pat the dust and smile at him as if nothing had happened. As a result, before the smile could be formed, both knees suddenly softened and he almost fell to the ground.
"Qi Jin!" Shen Yan's voice trembled.
Qi Jin stretched out his hand conditioned reflexively. At that moment, Shen Yan grabbed his elbow tightly and pulled him up. He finally stood on his heels in time, but his legs were still numb and unable to exert himself, and half of his body was numb. Shen Shen fell on Shen Yan's chest and was almost completely embraced.
A false alarm.
Qi Jin took a few quick breaths, and it took a long time for him to regain his senses.
"I'm fine..." First of all, he assured the other party that he was not injured, and then tried his best to deal with the aftermath, "I just squatted on the ground for too long, and when I got up, I didn't notice that my feet were numb. It's okay, I'll be fine in a while. "
The explanation makes sense, although there is more than one reason.
The emotional element has been hastily omitted from him.
Just as she was about to stand up straight, Shen Yan suddenly pulled her hand away lightly and hugged him hard following the action of supporting him.
Qi Jin was stunned.
After a while, he blinked slowly, suppressing the grievances that had come from nowhere, lest they fall out in another form.
In fact, Shen Yan's motive for embracing her and the source of her grievance are not the same, but who cares
The action itself is the warmth.
Qi Jin only felt a warm pain in his heart, and without thinking about it, he subconsciously reacted as he usually should, and gently went around and hugged this person's back. Just as he was about to rest his head on that shoulder, he suddenly saw a woman standing at the door of the ward.