-Start…
When you first started, where were you and what were you doing
he thought dazedly.
As before, he turned off all the light sources in the room, leaving only the screen emitting a faint cold glow. The words that were pieced together into the lines seemed to be wetted with ink on the paper, blurring one by one in the light, gradually turning into a gray, and nothing could be seen.
He raised his hand on the table slightly, and let go of the button under the palm of his hand.
And, as if to make sure that he couldn't help reaching for the button, he even moved his hand slightly away, and then slowly clenched it into a fist.
The light in front of him drowned him like water, sinking and floating. Consciousness is carried on a small boat, drifting back to the starting point of his memory - the starting point that he has always chosen to be deeply enclosed in the bottom layer of memory; now, he actively digs it open.
It started with the rental house.
There was rust on the door, and an old upside-down "Fu" was pasted on the door. He and the woman were sitting inside the door.
He was sitting on the ground playing, and the woman was sitting on a wooden chair in front of him, with a dull expression and two dry marks on her cheeks. The handset of the phone that I just hung up was not put in place, and it was tilted to one side, and I could still hear the long "beep-beep-" sound after the disconnection.
There are always a few days a month like this, every time the woman doesn't say who's calling, but he knows.
Is it Dad, he asked.
The woman's eyes moved slightly, she looked down at him, and the corner of her mouth that had been drooping was lifted up. The smile was awkward and bleak.
It was Dad, she answered. The answer brightened his eyes.
-When does he come back.
- he's not coming back...
-Why.
-because…
Suddenly, the woman's voice came out close to her ear when they met again today: "Shen Yan, he doesn't want you at all."
The countdown on the screen jumped from "120" to "119" at this moment.
The one-second jump gave him a deep shock, and his fingers subconsciously pressed his throat - the throat seemed to be firmly restrained by the woman's hands, not only the sound, but also the breathing stopped.
118.
117.
It went blank for three seconds in a row.
His hands trembled slightly, his mouth opened wide, and he heard his struggling gasp from the microphone in the earphones. Fortunately, it is very light, and you can't hear it carefully. There was a moment when he wanted to grab the button, but in the end he held it back, his fist still firmly pressing against the table.
He took a long breath and closed his eyes.
The moment the sound appears is like the surface of the water is broken, and the process of hearing the sound is sinking.
Qi Jin also felt himself sinking.
Shen Yan's voice was like a icy iron hook, which hooked his hearing at once, and sank deeply together with the person.
"… what do you want to know?"
Half is breath, half is real sound.
The former is empty, the latter is real, but slightly hoarse, forming a very unique sound quality. Just as the silt at the bottom of a quagmire was hit by a stone, the sediment deposited slowly rose up on the bottom of the water, turbulent and turbid.
And the water temperature is terribly low—
Then, the person in the earphone suddenly smiled softly. With just that one sound, there is actually a feeling of emptiness like a walking corpse.
"The late emperor... never mentioned me once, because he didn't want the world to know of my existence," he said, speaking slowly. It's as if a person is walking in the water, each step forward is heavy, "My mother and I have been wandering outside for more than ten years, and even the capital... has never taken a step.
"what-"
Qi Jin took a breath at this moment, as if he would really drown if he didn't react like this.
He shuddered violently, and a deep chill surged up on both arms, and he couldn't help but cover it with his hands. Before Shen Yan finished reading the first line, he felt that he was sinking in a piece of dark and deep water.
Can't sink to the bottom.
Because there is no bottom.
Even the "Bai Ke" game didn't give him this feeling.
The only time he had a similar feeling was when he looked into Shen Yan's eyes after returning from the hospital, trying to read the other person's thoughts from those eyes. At that time, the sense of alienation in Shen Yan's expression was the same as it is now, like a pitch-black sea, making people lose the courage to jump.
And the phrase "what do you want to know" sounded like... an answer to the self who was asking the question at the time.
But in fact, this sentence does come from the lines of "Shunyang Hou".
The object of the speech was an old minister who had been following the late emperor since the time of the late emperor, so he knew the secrets of the year. He knew the life experience of the "Marquis of Shunyang", so he found the other party in private, risked his life to persuade the other party to restore his royal status, and rebelled in the name of the emperor's younger brother, in order to kill the monarch.
This dialogue is "Shunyang Hou" reviewing his childhood experience.
But…
"But it's not right." The tone was wrong, and the feeling was even more wrong - it was deviated from the beginning, and it was completely deviated.
Qi Qin murmured, her spine was cold.
The tone prompt clearly reads [slightly wry smile, but his tone is calm and calm].
According to the description in the book, although the "Marquis of Shunyang" had a hard life when he was a child, he received the support of many kind-hearted people when he became an adult. He was born in a military general, and his temperament was different from that of ordinary princes, and he often gave people a sense of courage.
The breath that Shen Yan had just exuded also contained a kind of pressing force, but the nature was obviously completely different.
The boldness of "Shunyang Hou" is like the noon sunshine, bright and solemn.
As for Shen Yan's courage... it was the ashes burned by the sun, it was not warm at all, it was like a needle-piercing, gloomy cold when the river water soaked in the harsh winter.
- Shen Yan, why are you doing this
Audience 1: …Why is Daddy Cat like this… [Kneeling]
Audience 2: ... What a joke, let alone the tone of Daddy Cat's tone compared with other contestants, it's completely different from the official line description! ! Totally out of the way! ! 【Kneeling along silently】
Audience 3: ┭┮﹏┭┮ No... What's wrong with you, Daddy cat... How could you make such a low-level mistake?
Audience 4: ┭┮﹏┭┮ This kind of mistake is irreversible...
Audience 5: ┭┮﹏┭┮ Why is this! I didn't wait so long for such a performance!
Audience 6: Daddy cat is Jiang Lang... (lighting a candle)
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Qi Jin couldn't convince himself not to watch the worried remarks on the public screen, because his heart was also pulled tightly and hung in the air. And their evaluation brought his suffering to another level.
Jiang Lang is exhausted
Everyone knows that no one is perfect. Even though Shen Yan is very talented, it is impossible for him to be perfect in performance. However, he never thought that such a major mistake that completely derailed would appear on Shen Yan.
In the special environment of the game, some players will choose to win by surprise, and strive for high scores with novelty through performances that are different from others.
However, novelty is novel, and it must always be the same as it is.
Shen Yan has always been faithful to the original work, and it can even be said that this is already his "signature", so why would he deliberately match it in the wrong direction in order to create a difference from other players? How can the cart be turned upside down
so abnormal-
Qi Jin began to regret not following the advice of the fifth, so he pulled the man back at that time.
"And..." If you match it according to the emotional tone you set in the first sentence, how do you go on with the next lines
Qi Jin kept his eyes fixed, staring straight at the lines in the announcement.
【What do you want to know? The late emperor never mentioned me before, because he didn't want the world to know of my existence. My mother and I have been wandering outside for more than ten years, and we haven't even set foot in the capital. He may really be a man who abandoned his wife and children, but in my opinion, he is a benevolent king. 】
"You can't justify that last line, Shen Yan." Qi Jin said with difficulty.
The "Marquis of Shunyang" cherished the family and the world. Even after such a bitter childhood, he was still able to focus on the overall situation, put aside his own selfishness, and praised his father and emperor's wise governance in front of others. Moreover, the official line hints clearly pointed out that the emotion of the last sentence should be "sincere, with a feeling of admiration", because the kindness and grievances of the old days were not as important to him as the people's society.
Qi Jin had read the original work, and Shen Yan had also read it, even longer and more detailed.
The book really describes the state of mind of the "Marquis of Shunyang" in this way. If he remembers all these contents, it is even more impossible for Shen Yan not to remember.
At this time, there was another gentle laugh from the earphones.
It was different than the previous one, closer to the suppressed and bitter sneer before he lost control of his emotions. At this time, his voice had risen from the bottom of the memory, and the grief in his tone was washed clean at the moment the water broke, replaced by a piece of ice—the ice that the water condenses when it reaches the freezing point.
"Maybe... he really is a benevolent prince." At this point, his voice raised slightly mockingly, and his momentum suddenly sharpened at the end. "But in my opinion, he is a man who abandoned his wife and children."
what-
Qi Jin's head was stunned, and she felt her heart beating hard, and then it kept beating wildly.
It could be so.
It can be so!
The number of words in the lines has not changed at all, not even a single word, but the position of the first and second half of the sentence has been changed, so that the original emotions can be carried out to the end so smoothly and naturally.
Audience 1: …! ! ! !
Audience 2: …! ! ! ! He changed his words! No, it should be said that he changed the position of his lines! In this way, there is no need to add or subtract a word to be able to connect continuously! impressive!
Audience 3: Woohoo, I hate the late emperor all of a sudden! ! Yes, so what if he is a benevolent prince, to Hou Ye, he is just a man who abandoned his wife and children! ! In fact, this performance is very convincing. Obviously being treated like this, there is no reason not to hate at all... QAQ
Audience 4: To be honest, I really thought he made a mistake when his first line came out, but after listening to the last sentence of this paragraph... I think he should have done it consciously, not wrong. [Thumb, really awesome]
Audience 5: It should be done consciously +1, he did not follow the script at all, even to the point of rebelling against the original, but I was... shamefully persuaded! ! ┭┮﹏┭┮
Audience 6: Me too... If I were the Marquis of Shunyang, I would definitely recall the past in the same tone of Daddy Cat now, because the late emperor was such a scumbag as a father! ! Although such a performance will definitely not be officially accepted... I'm so worried, so worried, can Daddy Cat really be promoted? ? (tears)
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…
Just as everyone waited with a heart holding their breath, that person's edge gradually converged.
After all, he is a man with general knowledge and good education. After realizing his gaffe, he has become accustomed to the nature of restraint and will not let his wounds continue to bleed - at least, not in front of others.
Even the next topic is just as tragic.
"My mother didn't mention anything when she was dying. She just said one thing over and over again... That is to keep this secret."
Saying this word by word, the voice was interrupted for a moment, and it seemed that if he continued rashly, he would not be able to suppress his emotions. Qi Jin could hear the man breathing heavily close to the microphone, and every drop could affect the sore spot. After a long while, he finally continued: "That's why I regarded myself as a mute... I have only lived until now."
dumb.
The word suddenly stabbed in Qi Jin's heart, as if after walking in the mud for a long time, he finally stepped on a piece of glass buried under the sand. Unpredictable, piercing straight into the flesh.
For a moment, there was an illusion in my heart that I couldn't tell the truth.
He felt that this was not the "Marquis of Shunyang", but Shen Yan himself.
Because the keyword dumb connects them together.
Once the two overlap, and then re-experience the character's resentment and hatred towards his father in this sentence, as well as the bitterness and mixed flavors that cannot be mentioned for so many years, it makes him feel particularly distressed.
But what bothered him the most was the last sentence of the scene.
[Even so, if I tell you that I don't feel sad, will you believe it? 】
The original line trend was that after recalling various past events, the "Marquis of Shunyang" confessed to the other party that he had no resentment towards the late emperor. He said what had been in his heart for a long time, and the tone at this time should be a slightly disappointed and slightly relieved feeling after letting go of the burden.
- "Even if you don't believe me, I really don't feel sorry for myself", this means.
But Shen Yan is different.
When Shen Yan said this line, there was a hint of depression in her voice, even if she didn't look at him, she knew that his fists were clenched, and he was shaking slightly because he was too hard.
"Even so... if I told you that I didn't feel sorry for myself, would you believe it?"
The accent is placed on the last four words.
Turning a calm and calm statement into a rhetorical question that makes people shake their heads involuntarily and cannot refute, or even a question - "I said I don't feel sad, would you believe it? Of course not, how could you believe it - "
Audience 1: ┭┮﹏┭┮I don't believe it, I don't believe it, I don't believe it! ! 【Horse-style roaring body】
Audience 2: ┭┮﹏┭┮ Lord Marquis is so cruel, hurry up and let the emperor brother heal you! ! 【what】
Audience 3: ┭┮﹏┭┮Although I really want to line up upstairs, but I've been abused to the point of covering my heart... I don't have the strength to cut my brother's heart [Hello]... My heart is full of heartache...
Audience 4: He completely overturned the original... _(:з"∠)_
Audience 5: Even if the original work is completely overturned, the feelings can be completed in one go, without any violations... I'm satisfied. ＿(:з”∠)＿
Audience 6: ... I... I like this Shunyang Marquis more... [Sorry, I'm embarrassed to say that I am an original party, obviously I should criticize him, I am an unqualified original party and a qualified cat dad fan... QAQ]
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…
Yes.
Shen Yan did not match the original work at all, but the feelings were still real.
In other words... this way of expression is more real.
Compared with the open-minded and selfless character of a written character like "Marquis of Shunyang", the man in front of him is not perfect or noble at all, but he is closer to an ordinary person who will be hurt and suffer, and it has more practical significance. on the persuasiveness.
Qi Jin suddenly paused at this time, as if he thought of something, and gently covered his mouth.