Qi Jin remembered the tombstone.
Grandpa Shen Yan's tombstone.
That day, when Shen Yan went with him to visit the tomb of the old man, he remembered that he had glanced at the inscription. The inscription was engraved with the names of all the family members... but "Shen Yan" was missing.
He also remembered the album.
There were absolutely no photos of Shen Yan when she was a child in the album.
There is only an old man in the extant photos except for Shen Yan when he was a teenager; and that Shen Yan has never had a smile on his face from beginning to end.
—When I was a child… the living environment was not very good.
—I want to overcome something.
- Is it okay even if those are not what you want to hear
It dawned on me.
"what… "
Qi Jin suddenly moved his lips slightly, and when he regained his senses, something fell from his eyes and hit the back of his hand covering his mouth with a "smack".
The man's low murmured calls hit his ears again. There was always a bitterness in his voice, and an almost humble unease.
Qi Jin, don't go.
Qi Jin, what can I do to make you need me more
Qi Jin, this game... I want you to listen to the complete process—
"Because this is..." All you. His voice was suddenly sour, and he couldn't even finish the sentence.
The last piece of the puzzle was also the most embarrassing piece that could not be fixed for a long time - that person chose to put it in front of him after all.
Qi Jin was at a loss for words.
He finally knew why.
He finally knew the reason why the other party couldn't let go of the knot even in the most intimate moments of the two.
The past that was buried between the words and not spoken clearly was carved into my heart with a knife. The glass wall between him and Shen Yan collapsed, and he could stretch out his hand to grasp each other, but first he had to experience the pain of being cut by a glass break.
It turned out that from the very beginning, the only "audience" for this match was herself - Shen Yan was confessing to herself in this way.
"Woo..." Qi Jin couldn't catch her breath, so she choked hurriedly, her shoulders trembled slightly, and she tightened her hand, trying her best to suppress the choking sound so that the person wouldn't hear it. After realizing that there was another meaning in the lines of "Marquis of Shunyang", the desolation that Shen Yan had just expressed pierced in like an awl, forcibly breaking the gate of his feelings, and couldn't hold back the tears. The more fierce.
This feeling is like watching a movie in a university media class before.
The story in the film is dark and heavy, and it is only dull and astringent in the center of the viewing process, but it is not so sad. But when he later learned that the content was not fiction, but a documentary, the pain of being hit hard on the chest could not be described in words.
now.
Two people and two stories, one false and one real, are combined into one through the lines, and the weight... He can't bear it.
Tears are nothing more than a cathartic form of overload.
"Enough..." Shen Yan, enough. "I already understand, don't read any more..."
Qi Jin begged softly hoarsely, hoping that the performance would end.
But the show continued.
"Brother," a cold and hard voice suddenly came from the earphones, which was different from the "Shunyang Hou" who was calm and self-contained, like a double-edged sword that could sting others, but also sting himself at the same time." You misread me."
"Hmm—" Qi Jin opened his eyes subconsciously.
Since he played the role of "Changdi", he is very sensitive to the personal pronouns in the lines.
What's more, this dialogue is one of the few in the original book. It is the first time that the "Marquis of Shunyang" shows his true intentions in front of his brother - the last forced palace, the former emperor is at the end of his life, and his brother who is supported by the betrayal party appears. In front of him, he lost all rationality, and humiliated him and his biological mother, who came from humble backgrounds.
"Marquis of Shunyang" kept frowning and listening to him silently.
"Changdi" was already on the verge of dying, and after scolding for a while, he was out of breath and had to stop. At this time, he was extremely angry, and he turned from scolding his younger brother to scolding himself, hating that he had been deceived for so long and so deeply by this evil species that was abandoned by the late emperor. The arrogant and arrogant nature of the emperor made him feel that he had given his trust in vain, and he had suffered a great shame.
[… I actually thought that you were loyal to me, and would never disobey me, let alone betray me—]
[Brother, you misread me. 】
This is the first time in the original work that the "Marquis of Shunyang" interrupted the emperor's words in person.
The verbal insult just now evoked old and bitter memories that had been deeply buried in my heart. Ten years of military experience and the national government have buried the pain of that little boy for so long that when he grew up, he hardly remembered those gray emotions he had ever had.
But now.
After many years, when these emotions were dug out by his biological brother, he was shocked to realize that the gray had been corrupted into black, and the black had reached a level close to darkness.
At this moment, the lips beside the microphone twitched slightly, and he laughed twice, but without the slightest smile it should be bright.
"Actually you don't know anything about me—"
In terms of tone, these two lines are very consistent with the first act after his reversal.
Just as cold.
the same hate.
But coherence is sometimes not a good thing.
Perhaps realizing this, a sentence suddenly appeared on the public screen that had been calling for support: "...Actually, I can't agree with Daddy Cat.
The speaker is a senior original party. As a fan of the "Zhu Tian Ling" series, she can recite the lines of the two characters in this scene like a fluent, and she is also very familiar with the mentality changes from the beginning to the end of the whole book.
After she opened her mouth, many original parties who felt the same timidly reconciled.
Audience 1: …Actually, I can't agree with Daddy Cat. ＿(:з”∠)＿
Audience 2: ... Actually, I also... _(:з"∠)_
Audience 3: As the original party, I have always liked the role played by Daddy Cat, and think that "high restoration" is his biggest feature and attraction. But here, I also have to weakly say that I regret supporting him in the first act to change the character's mood. 〒▽〒
For some people who have not read the original book and just come to appreciate the CV performance, such an opinion seems very incomprehensible.
For the first time, there has been disagreement among the supporters of "Cat's Daddy".
Audience 4: Σ( °△ °|||)︴Students upstairs, why do you say that? ? I think the feelings are connected with the first act that has been changed, and the first act is very real and very infectious! !
Audience 5: Yes, yes, although it is not in line with the original, it deeply moved me... ┭┮﹏┭┮
Audience 6: However, this method of handling is already very controversial...
Audience 1: It's not because of the appeal, and it's not entirely because it doesn't conform to the original. The problem is that the first act has been reversed, but the second act has chosen to continue, and I feel that the characters have not changed... _(:з"∠)_
Audience 2: Row upstairs in tears! ! The mood of Lord Hou in the early stage and the later stage is very different. It follows the progress of the story. Once this transformation is gone, it will be impossible to express the gradual deterioration of the character's heart! !
Audience 3: Hey, "indifference" and "hatred" should have appeared at this time. The first scene of Cat Daddy was all changed. As a result, there is no way to compare before and after. A routine is a big dub. Taboo, taboo... Daddy Cat's performance today is really underwhelming [agree with what some people said above that the first act is very infectious, but it's good to listen to it alone, and if you listen to the two acts together, it doesn't reflect the direction of the characters' fate].
…
…
Qi Jin suddenly thought that when the scene of this scene is here, the "Marquis of Shunyang" will have an action below - the action of grabbing the collar of "Changdi" fiercely and pressing it against the wall.
A well-trained man like Shunyang Marquis would make such a move, proving that he was on the verge of losing control.
Then he heard a "bang".
It wasn't really something hitting the wall, but the sound of that person's hand clasping against the table. Although it was some distance from the microphone, it was loud enough and hard enough to make him tremble and forget how to breathe for a while.
The place where Shen Yan's fist landed was next to the button.
And he just clenched his fists tightly and didn't touch the buttons, not even a little bit.
"You who grew up in a deep palace since you were a child... Do you know what it's like to be alone and homeless?" His voice trembled slowly, and he asked a sentence.
Rather than asking, it is better to say "to ask", which is more in line with the tone, and the words are harsh and compelling.
Qi Jin stepped back involuntarily. This is a subconscious reaction, even if you know that the lines are not aimed at you, the strong sense of oppression in the lines is still coming towards you, you can't move at all, you can only sit in a daze - I believe whether it is "Changdi" or someone else , When hearing such a question, it is impossible for him to remain unshakable in his heart.
From the beginning of the second act to the present, everyone present seems to be walking on the edge of a knife.
The deeper the hatred in his tone, the deeper his foot sank into the blade, and he walked towards the tip of the blade step by step under the guidance of the voice. When Shen Yan's sense of coercion was suddenly raised, everyone seemed to slide heavily to the tip of the knife, and they would be fatally stabbed by the standing knife at some point—
However, Shen Yan stopped and began to breathe rapidly, as if she was struggling to suppress her emotions.
The statement therefore paused for two or three seconds.
Despite the previous disagreements, the audience was still firmly grasped by the tension of the performance, holding their breaths, daring not to let out a breath, for fear of missing something if they took a breath.
Qi Jin's heart was also pounding, and her fingers were trembling.
"Shen Yan... hurry up."
He stared at the number on the timer, which was fading one by one, and didn't bother to wipe the half-dry and half-wet tears on his face, and a layer of cold sweat oozes from his temples.
Few people may have noticed that because Shen Yan changed the emotional tone of the first act and slowed down to reflect the sadness, it took a little time for the lines that could have ended quickly. So, when he reached the second act, the time was already very tight, and if he paused like this...
"You won't have enough time—"
Qi Qin's heart was in a mess, and she couldn't help but blurt out.
Surprisingly, Shen Yan suddenly let out a slight gasping sound at this time, like a sigh or a sob.
The huge pressure just now started to soften at this moment, and it slowly collapsed like a pile of sand.
The illusion of the audience walking on the blade disappeared suddenly, and the soles of their feet fell, as if a heavy mental shackle had been removed, and everyone was not consciously relieved.
"You know... what it's like to never be able to meet a loved one?"
His voice itself was deep and thick. After the previous bitter cry, his guttural tone became rustling, and it was easier to bring out a bitter taste when speaking. What's more, he almost completed this sentence intermittently.
Although the sentence is exactly the same as the previous sentence.
Although they are also questioning each other.
But the hatred was gone—not so much hatred as a sense of frustration that one wanted to hate but couldn't, or even… a sense of relief.
Qi Jin couldn't feel her heartbeat for a moment. The heartbeat disappeared, frozen in the choking that the man gently passed into his ears.
changed.
The lines in the second act suggest that it ends here, and the trend takes another turning point.
[You grew up in a deep palace since you were a child... Do you know what it's like to be alone and homeless? ] (questioning tone)
【Do you know what it's like to never be able to recognize your loved ones? ] (The questioning tone deepens, increasing the sharpness)
Afterwards-
[You are obviously my only relative in the world, but I hate you very much in my heart—]
The tone of the three lines is progressive, obviously moving in the direction of "increasing hatred".
But Shen Yan reversed it completely.
"I know... I hate you very much..." The voice trembled like a fist on the table. When the voice reached the limit of hoarseness, he let go of his hand and touched the button next to him, as if he had grasped a kind of redemption. He hurriedly buried it in the palm of his hand, and finally laughed bitterly, "However, you are my... the only relative in the world."
- "So, I still can't get revenge on you, leave you alone."
This is his turning point.
Seeing that the haze that was about to invite a storm slowly dissipated, and the clouds and the sun came out. The long-lost sunshine quietly sprinkled on the ground, just as his real ID implies, the end of winter and the arrival of spring.
The audience fell silent.
Hearing that she took a slow breath, Qi Jin blinked her eyes dazedly. Spring came too unexpectedly, and it seemed that something was melting in the eye sockets, the faster it melted, the more it almost overflowed.
At this moment, he heard the man on the other end of the earphone smiling softly, quietly and peacefully.
More unexpected than the turning point was what the man said next.
"Okay, that's all for now—"
so far
What does it mean so far
Gong Ping was finally shocked by this sentence to break the silence.
Audience 1: QAQ! ! !
Audience 2: QAQ...what's the end of it...
Audience 3: What did QAQ suddenly say when I was silently crying in front of the screen! Cat Daddy!
Audience 4: QAQ...My eyes hurt so much...I couldn't help it at the end...I burst into tears...
Audience 5: The turning point of QAQ Daddy Cat is too unexpected and wonderful! ! Totally unexpected! ! Don't stop! ! please! !
Audience 6: QAQ Don't, don't stop here! !
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…
"I know I'm running out of time," Shen Yan's voice returned to his most natural state, just listening to this, he could feel a warm sea caressing the beach, indescribably calm and gentle, "And I have From the beginning, I only planned to complete the first two acts.”
Only the lines from the first two acts are enough.
He lowered his eyes slightly, looking at the hand holding the button.
"I've planned to give up this role from the beginning - sorry, I abstain."
Everyone present was stunned for a while, and their expressions changed greatly after they recovered, and the scene was a little out of control.
Audience 1: 〒▽〒No! ! !
Audience 2: 〒▽〒 Abstain? ? ? Don't do this, cat dad! ! !
Audience 3: 〒▽〒 Heart splits in an instant, and the whole person is not well! ! !
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…
"I'm sorry." Shen Yan apologized softly. However, it did not change the meaning of the decision, "I know that I violated the line prompts and violated the original work-this is a taboo in dubbing, and I am not qualified to continue."
Speaking of which, he smiled faintly.
"I'm sorry, only this role... Please forgive my selfishness, please let me be selfish once. Only this time, I am completely dubbed for myself, only for myself, not only giving up the basic principles of dubbing, but also I gave up everyone's expectations of me... but I don't regret it."
The scene gradually settled down, and everyone was listening to him with mixed feelings.
Because of the early abandonment, there is still a little time left. Shen Yan lowered her head and gently stroked the buttons in her palm with her fingers. The buttons reflected a subtle light in front of the screen and flickered quietly.
"There is a person," he said suddenly, "the person who... let me take the first step and overcome the pressure to sign up for the competition, he is listening here today."
Qi Jin's lips parted slightly, unable to speak, choked to speak.
At this time, Shen Yan had already fixed the object of his speech on him: "Are you there? I know you are, because you have always been by my side."
"Um..." Qi Jin bit her lip and responded to the computer in a dull tone.
The tears that had already stopped were uncontrollable again, and hurriedly shed silently, dripping on the keyboard one after another.
Shen Yan whispered: "I want to tell you, without you, I would not have appeared here from the beginning, and I would not have the courage to complete these two scenes according to my own ideas. I think you should have guessed... I The reason for that. I don't know, and I don't dare to know what you think."
Stopped, the voice was lower and more astringent.
"Maybe, you'll be disappointed, or regret being with me... or something. But—"
Qi Jin held her breath lightly and remained motionless.
The countdown was almost over, and the last five seconds began to run out.
"But," Shen Yan's hoarse words came from the earphones, and every word contained emotion, "Please stay and accompany me to the end."
He lowered his head and raised his hand at the same time, his lips slowly pressed against the button, and a kiss was reverently placed.
"I love you."